aren't we in love

Chapter 4 What is left of her to Lu Yingqin?
When Cheng Duanwu first gave birth to Winter, he always had some expectations in his heart.

Winter was born in the twelfth lunar month of winter, and Cheng Duan spent fifteen hours in the hospital. She only had 900 yuan in total, which was only enough to pay for the operation fee of natural delivery, so even though the doctor kept telling her that it was dangerous in her ear, It was suggested that she have a caesarean section, but she refused to agree.

Maybe there is a saying that heaven pays off, she persisted desperately, and finally gave birth to Dongdong when she was almost exhausted.

The newborn winter is so cute and elf, waving his little fists vigorously in his swaddling baby, his eyes just opened are still very chaotic, he looks at the world curiously, his innocence makes people feel distressed.

Cheng Duanwu always secretly fantasizes when night falls, if Lu Yingqin sees him, will he be soft-hearted because of the child?After all, it is also his own flesh and blood.

Unfortunately, fantasy is fantasy after all.For more than six years, she had been looking forward to it day and night, but she still didn't look forward to him.He has such monstrous power, as long as he is willing, how can he not find her?
She never left the city, and she hoped humbly in her heart that he would come to her, but he never did.

For more than six years, Shengsheng boiled the deep-seated thoughts in her heart to ashes.

What did she have left for Lu Yingqin?She herself does not know.

love?No, she loves it so much that she loves it so much that she is afraid; hate it!She always said this to herself, but she found sadly that she couldn't hate it.

So she finally said to herself, forget it, only by forgetting him can it stop hurting so much.

Holding the check from him in his pocket, he just felt that the check was as cold as his own.

She dragged her exhausted body back to the supermarket. She was absent-minded all afternoon and ordered wrong items several times.

When they were about to get off work, someone from above gave each of them a meal coupon as an employee benefit. It was a cheap buffet in the city, and each meal coupon was worth 40 yuan.She stared fixedly at the meal coupon, and finally gritted her teeth and had an idea.

"Zhang Qiao, can you do me a favor?"

Zhang Qiao, who was about to get off work, responded to her while changing clothes: "What?"

Cheng Duanwu thought for a while, and then said to her: "Tomorrow is my brother's birthday, I want to secretly prepare a surprise for him, I am going to give him this meal coupon, and tomorrow you will help me hold him back, wait for me Get him back when you're ready."

Zhang Qiao laughed when she heard it: "Oh, I thought it was a big deal! I can't see that you are quite serious!" She readily agreed to Cheng Duanwu's request, and the simple Zhang Qiao didn't think about it , still giving her advice, but she just wanted to go home as soon as possible.

She and winter, and one last night.

Before returning home from get off work, she went to the aquatic area to buy gimai shrimp, spending all the last few dozen dollars she had.Cheng Duanwu gritted his teeth and bought live prawns at 30 yuan a catty only once a year during the Chinese New Year, so he had to think about it for a whole year after eating the first time during the Chinese New Year in winter before he could eat it for the second time.Most children are greedy, but she has never been picky eaters in winter, and she has never compared with other children.Since she was a child, she never even bought him a toy car, and he never complained.

Before she was five years old, she was always sick in winter, so Cheng Duanwu’s life was always beyond her means. Every time she spent money on medical treatment in winter, she always had the cheek to ask her colleagues to borrow money. Running around the hospital in the wilting winter.

Their life was so hard that Cheng Duanwu felt that she couldn't bear it countless times, but every night when she heard the sound of the child's even breathing after falling asleep, she felt that even death was worth it.

Winter ate a lot of shrimp that night, and my brother who knew nothing about it also ate some. They all believed Cheng Duanwu's so-called "bonus" lie.Only Cheng Duanwu didn't move at all.Sitting at the dinner table, her whole body was trembling slightly, but she still pretended to smile nonchalantly.A pair of eyes fell greedily on the child who was full of oil, and he couldn't bear to move away for a moment.

The moment she turned off the light at night, her tears flowed silently.

She hugged the sleeping child, feeling so distressed that her whole body seemed to go into convulsions.

In winter, this child is so distressing. He refuses to wash his hands at night after eating shrimp, saying that he is afraid that he will forget what it is like tomorrow.

That pitiful appearance made Cheng Duanwu more determined in his mind.

The next day, everything went according to her plan.

The ignorant brother took her meal coupons and went to the cafeteria alone, while Cheng Duanwu refused to go for vaccinations under the excuse of winter.

Lu Yingqin was quite trustworthy, and his men parked their cars a few streets away without causing any commotion.Cheng Duanwu has been holding Dongdong tightly all the time, even though his arms are so sore that he is reluctant to let go.

Winter's warm little hands hugged Cheng Duanwu's neck, and his warm breath brushed against her forehead. He asked timidly, "Mom, are you tired? Let me down, I'll go by myself."

Cheng Duanwu held back his tears and kissed Dong Dong's delicate face: "Mom is not tired."

"Mom, where are you taking me? Can I skip the injection? Didn't I just go the day before yesterday? I'm afraid of pain in winter."

Cheng Duanwu's nose felt sour.After a long time, she suppressed her crying and agreed: "Okay, I won't get an injection."

As soon as he heard that there was no need for an injection, Dong Dong's head, which was still depressed just now, immediately lifted up.A pair of dark eyes opened wide, beautiful like stars in the sky.

After walking several alleys in a row, Cheng Duanwu finally put the child down.She squatted in front of Dong Dong, and gently straightened his clothes.Taking a deep breath, he said solemnly to Dongdong, "Winter, do you want to see Dad?"

Dong Dong's eyes flickered for a moment, obviously full of anticipation, but after a while he said against his will: "I don't want to, as long as I have my mother and uncle."

Although she had never heard Dong ask "Dad" in the past six years, his expression just now betrayed him.After all, he is just a child, and his clumsy acting skills are not good enough.

"In winter, my father went to a far away place before. Mom was afraid that you missed him too much, so she didn't tell you. Now that my father is back, I have a father in winter. Do you know?"

Dong Dong opened a pair of watery eyes and asked in disbelief: "Really?"

"real."

"Where is Winter's father?"

"We'll go see him right away, but you have to promise your mother in winter, you must listen to your father's words, and make your father like you."

"..." Winter was silent for a while, he frowned, and looked up at Cheng Duanwu cautiously: "Mom, don't you want winter when you run out of money?"

The child's sensitivity made Cheng Duanwu's chest stagnate, and a sour hot current rushed from her heart to her eye sockets.

"No." Cheng Duanwu's eyes were red, and he was comforting Dongdong, and he was also comforting himself: "How can my mother not want such a well-behaved child in Winter?"

Maybe it was a bit of a feeling, Dongdong suddenly burst into tears, a pair of big eyes were red, and his white and tender hands tightly grabbed Cheng Duanwu's clothes, "Mom, I will eat very little food in the future. I don’t eat snacks anymore, I don’t go to school anymore, I don’t want to see my father, mother, I will be good in winter, mother, don’t you want winter, okay? I don’t want my father in winter, I only want my mother and uncle in winter!” The child teared Cheng Duanwu's heartbroken begging made Cheng Duanwu's heart hurt like a knife.

Cheng Duanwu watched the child cry, and she cried too. She hugged the child tightly and murmured almost unconsciously: "Mom won't want winter, mother won't..."

The child's strength is no match for her.No matter how hard Winter struggled, she still cruelly handed the crying child to Guan Yi who had been expressionless.Guan Yi, who took the child, turned around and was about to leave. Cheng Duanwu subconsciously grabbed the corner of Guan Yi's clothes. She trembled her lips and wanted to say something, but in the end she couldn't say anything, and finally let go tremblingly. He raised his hand and looked at the winter reluctantly.

Winter's eyes were red from crying, his voice was hoarse from crying, he struggled in Guan Yi's arms, and kept calling "Mom" mournfully, while Cheng Duanwu could only stand aside silently and shed tears.

The car carrying Winter started first.Cheng Duanwu stood on the side of the road, watching the car gradually leave her sight.She stood there for a long time, so long that a passer-by came to ask her if there was something "wonderful"...

Her heart was completely hollowed out, and she almost floated home all the way.My brother, who was supposed to be in the cafeteria, unexpectedly sat at home with a stern expression on his face.

Cheng Duanwu was exhausted all over, but he still calmed down his expression and twitched the corners of his mouth, "Brother, why are you back so early? Isn't the buffet delicious?"

The elder brother was still sitting there, motionless, looking at Cheng Duanwu with contempt and disdain.

"what happened?"

"What about winter?"

Cheng Duanwu remained silent and changed the subject, "I'm hungry, is there any food at home?"

The elder brother was furious and pushed down the chair in front of Cheng Duanwu, and the chair fell to the ground with a loud clanging sound.He shouted loudly: "I ask you, how about winter?"

Cheng Duanwu turned her face away, she bit her lower lip in pain, but still didn't speak.

My brother was so angry that he almost jumped up from his chair.He held up the check that Lu Yingqin gave her, and shouted loudly: "What is this? Cheng Duanwu! Tell me! What is this!"

Cheng Duanwu unconsciously stared at the piece of paper fluttering in her brother's hand, on which Lu Yingqin's powerful signature seemed to be attacking her like a monster with claws and claws. She was almost unconscious, only watching all this indifferently, Spit out two words: "cheque."

The elder brother's pupils shrank rapidly, and then enlarged rapidly again, staring at Cheng Duanwu almost in disbelief: "Are you crazy? Winter is your son! You raised him so big just for this 50 yuan ? Winter is only worth 50 in your eyes? The child you traded your life for! You traded him for 50? Cheng Duanwu? Are you crazy?"

"Hiss - hiss - hiss - hiss..." The sound of tearing paper more than ten times in a row sounded like a kind of relief, freeing Cheng Duanwu's heart that had been tightly clenched. Breathing in, he watched indifferently as his brother tore the check into pieces, and finally smashed the scraps of paper heavily on her face.

Those sharp and tiny scraps of paper came oncoming, like razor blades scratching her cheeks and forehead one by one, but she hardly felt the pain, and just watched those torn paper scraps slowly moving in the air. Spin around.

My brother's roar is still in my ears: "Cheng Duanwu, you care about the 50 yuan, but I don't. You go and get me back the winter right now! Do you hear me!" My brother was so angry that the corners of his mouth began to twitch, and his facial muscles were unnatural shaking.

Cheng Duanwu knew that this was a sign of his illness. At this moment, she didn't care about anything else, she got up suddenly, "Stop talking, don't get angry, and take a rest!"

The stubborn brother's eyes were wide open, and his speech gradually became unsteady, and the finger pointing at the tip of Cheng Duanwu's nose began to tremble: "Aren't you going? If you don't go, I will!" As he spoke, he got up from the chair He got up, staggered and walked out almost in step.

Finally, Cheng Duanwu couldn't bear it and grabbed him.

She had never spoken to her brother so loudly before, but she couldn't help it at this moment, "Where are you going?" She repeated: "Tell me, where can you go? Are you looking for Lu Yingqin?" She was cold He sneered: "Cheng Luoming, you know better than me what Lu Yingqin's status is today. What do you want to do? Do you want to humiliate yourself?"

"Do you know how many women out there want to give birth to Lu Yingqin? It's my luck that he likes my Cheng Duanwu's child!"

"Go get the child back, what can you give him? Tell me, what can I give the child? Even if I raise money to study for him, so what? The child follows me, and he can't even get sick. Lu Yingqin is rich , he can give my son the best. Do you understand?"

Tears filled her eyes unexpectedly, and she raised her head high to let those tears flow back. After a while, she said coldly, "Cheng Luoming, please, don't block my son's future."

"..."

(End of this chapter)