aren't we in love

Chapter 6 She Lives Too Tired
The 24-year-old Cheng Duanwu is no longer the 17-year-old Cheng Duanwu. She has learned not to have illusions about Lu Yingqin.The heart that was once boiling has gradually cooled down as time goes by.The prosperous past she thought only brought her half-life depression in the end. Every time she had nightmares at midnight, she always asked herself with tears on her face: Do you still love him?Dare to love?
The only answer to her was the coldness of the room.

After more than a week of cold war with her brother, he finally forgave her.Life is sometimes so cruel that people can only compromise helplessly.

Whether it was Cheng Duanwu or Cheng Luoming, they had already been bent over by life. Life made them philistine and vulgar. They lost all their so-called dignity and backbone, and the only thing left was a lingering life.

After so many years, no matter how painful my brother was, he never shed tears in front of Cheng Duanwu, but when he was packing up his things and looking at Dongdong's photos, the seven-foot man burst into tears.

Cheng Duanwu felt sore in his heart.She tried her best not to let out any trace of grief and compassion, and let the tears welling up in her eyes recede slowly.It's not that she's not moved, that's her own son, the child she gave birth to almost half of her life, how could she bear it?But what can she do?She is too tired to live, she has no strength to struggle with fate.

Leave the city and start a new life.This is an agreement between her and her brother.

Seven years was enough for her to recognize all the realities.Lu Yingqin will not fall in love with her, will not compromise because of the child, will not give her any affection, all she can do is accept her fate.

I haven't seen Yu Dong for a while. His brows and eyes are full of complicated emotions. A pair of deep eyes on his thin cheeks looked at Cheng Duanwu tenderly. After hesitating for a long time, he opened his mouth: "Duanwu, should we go?" you."

Cheng Duanwu smiled softly, and the corners of his eyes and brows were full of sadness that was worse than despair, "Brother Yu Dong, if you don't go, where should I go?" She propped her chin on her hand, at the age of 24, she should be as bright as a flower However, Cheng Duanwu has become so decayed that it is a pity.

"Mr. Lu knows that I'm still in this city. It must be a thorn in his throat. He hates me, and you know it. I don't want to cause more trouble. Leaving is the best choice. Without me, he will treat my child better. ?" She blinked tiredly, her sparkling pupils were as still as a stagnant water at the moment, she lowered her head, her heart hurt like a tugging pain, and her voice gradually lowered, "Brother Yu Dong, Jiajia and Mr. Lu ...Are you going to get married? I hope you can talk to Jiajia and treat Dongdong better."

Yu Dong really wanted to tell Cheng Duanwu that he hadn't seen his sister for a long time since he left Lu Yingqin's sphere of influence, but he couldn't bear to say anything in the face of Cheng Duanwu's begging face. With a hoarse voice, he agreed: "Okay."

As if she had let go of something in her mind, Cheng Duanwu smiled softly. She took a sip of tea, and the hot air made her eyes red. She held the teacup in her thin hands, so weak that she was almost vulnerable. Yu Dong couldn't help it. Imagine how her thin shoulders have carried the burden of raising a family for so many years.

Yu Dong couldn't even imagine what kind of years it took for such an unruly and willful young lady to become like this.

Yu Dong looked at her silently, a trace of pity flashed in his eyes, and he said after a long while: "Duan Wu, if you need my help, just tell me."

Cheng Duanwu nodded, and said with emotion: "When I was the hardest and most tired, I even wanted to die in the past." She blinked and smiled and said to Yu Dong: "Don't look down on me, I really couldn't get through it at that time. I went down, I didn’t have a penny, and I got pneumonia in winter, and I’m about to die. I’m standing on the top floor of the tenth floor of the hospital with my arms in my arms, ready to jump off.” She was silent for a while, and sighed softly. Looking back, all the bitterness seemed to be The taste has changed, and it is no longer so difficult to swallow. "In the end, my brother found us. He frowned and cursed. He said to me, 'Duanwu, are you crazy? You are not afraid of death, you are afraid of living?! '"

She raised her eyes, and Yu Dong was shocked by the expression at that moment, as if Cheng Duanwu had really been reborn.

"Brother Yu Dong, I will live a good life, not for anyone, but for myself."

Cheng Duanwu is no longer the mean and arrogant girl she used to be. Now she is living a hard life but full of popularity.Yu Dong felt that she was more attractive than before.

He remembered that in the past there were gangsters who were overconfident and liked Cheng Duanwu, but they were all beaten up by Cheng Luoming. At that time, the Cheng family was so high and inviolable. "You deserve to like my girl? The toad wants to eat swan meat!"

At that time, Yu Dong stood behind Cheng Luoming silently clenched his fists, gritted his teeth and dared not say anything.

He also once "toad wants to eat swan meat", but he held back and said nothing.In those few years, he watched Cheng Duanwu's dazzling transformation step by step, his love affair step by step, and finally falling in love with Lu Yingqin step by step, step by step into the abyss of eternal doom.

He had never been so grateful for the downfall of the Cheng family as he was at this moment.If not, he would never have dared to get close to Cheng Duanwu.His love for Cheng Duanwu is so humble, even now, he still feels that he is not worthy of her.

Cheng Duanwu's expression gave Yu Dong infinite encouragement.Many years ago, he gave up the opportunity to express his feelings because of low self-esteem. After many years, he finally didn't want to let himself continue to regret for the rest of his life.His clenched fist gradually loosened, and finally attached to the back of Cheng Duanwu's hand.His voice became trembling with excitement, he heard the sound of his eardrum piercing,
"Dragon Friday, don't leave, from now on...come with me..."

"..."

Cheng Duanwu was a little excited all the way home. She walked lightly, almost feeling like she was stepping on clouds.

Yu Dong's confession was simple and plain.He really said to Cheng Duanwu: "From now on, come with me..."

Cheng Duanwu was beyond shocked.Today's Cheng Duanwu has become a reality, she no longer expects a wonderful love, she just wants to live a peaceful life, Yu Dong's sincere promise made her ashen heart jump for joy.

Ordinary Yu Dong has no ostentatious appearance, no extraordinary ability, even lost his wife and brought a daughter, but Cheng Duanwu is still grateful for God's mercy on her.

It's not that she has never thought about finding an ordinary man to marry and live the rest of her life in peace, but no one has been willing to marry her. Her burden is too heavy. Even if there are occasional men who are ready to make a move, they still fail in the face of the cruel reality. Come down.

She thought carefully about Yu Dong's last expression.

The golden sun shone like a veil on his body, his tough eyebrows outlined a pleasing arc, his clear eyes contained a gentle smile, and a trace of imperceptible tension.

A 30-year-old married man is like a stupid boy, and he is so nervous when facing a woman, Cheng Duanwu thinks it is funny when he thinks about it.

She was also shocked for a moment and didn't know what to say, so she asked him stupidly: "Do you know what you are talking about?"

Yu Dong was even more excited than her, and said incoherently: "I've held back this sentence for many years... As long as you don't dislike me, I'm willing to take care of you for the rest of your life, Dragon Boat Festival, I'm serious... I..." He His mouth is clumsy, and he can't say good things, but his promise is so heartwarming from Cheng Duanwu's ears.She took a long breath and looked at the sky anxiously. She never knew that one day she could have such a clear blue sky.

Cheng Duanwu's eyes were full of water, and she murmured timidly: "I'll think about it when I go back."

Lu Yingqin has been so busy for several days that he has no time to go home.After several days of socializing, he was so drunk that he was finally sent to Yu Jiajia by the driver.

He was so drunk that he didn't know how he came back and how he fell asleep. He only knew that he woke up with a splitting headache and numbness all over his body.He staggered up and opened the curtains, the morning sun shone directly on his face, and he felt that the sun was a bit glaring, and he pressed his headache-ridden temples to relieve the many sequelae of the hangover.

Hearing the noise in his room, Yu Jia Tingting walked in gracefully, seeing him, she consciously called a servant to pour sober soup.

She naturally handed the hangover soup to Lu Yingqin, and told him: "Don't try too hard, drink less alcohol in the future, your health is important."

Lu Yingqin frowned, woke up from a hangover and was not angry, he just responded in a low voice: "Got it."

"Shall I take a shower first? Do you want to sleep or go downstairs for breakfast?" Yu Jiajia was wearing pajamas, but she still couldn't hide her charming eyes like silk.Lu Yingqin embraced her with a teasing face: "You are so virtuous, I can't wait to marry you home."

Yu Jiajia frowned and scolded him: "You're not in shape, go take a bath." She conveniently packed up the coat that Lu Yingqin had taken off, went downstairs, and finally turned around and explained: "That child has been arguing a lot these past few days," she said. After deliberating over and over again, he said, "Go and have a look later."

It was the first time Lu Yingqin saw the child formally. He hadn't seen the child since he picked it up. He was too busy every day, and Yu Jiajia was taking care of it.The child is very similar to the photo, very thin but much taller than children of the same age.Seemingly exhausted from his tantrums, he slept curled up on the bed.Frowning while falling asleep, that forbearance look very much like the later Cheng Duanwu.Seeing the child, Lu Yingqin felt upset and irritable. He took the cigarette and wanted to smoke it, but on second thought, he crushed the cigarette and threw it into the wastebasket.

What a sensible child, as if he knew that Lu Yingqin hated his mother, there was nothing like her in his whole body, except for his fair skin.Cheng Duanwu is the most beautiful white woman he has seen in so many years, she seems to glow wherever she is placed, and she can't get tanned no matter what.When she smiled, she had bright eyes and white teeth, and the light pink blush on her slightly baby-fat cheeks made her look as delicious as an apple.In the past, she loved to hold his arm and call him affectionately: "Ying Qin."

And he was used to throwing her off abruptly.

He squinted his eyes, recalling Cheng Duanwu's every frown and smile, and was shocked to find that he remembered it so clearly.

He thought, maybe hatred is the strongest emotion in the world, so he couldn't really completely forget Cheng Duanwu for so many years.

I don't know if men have first night complex.After that, he also had a few women on various occasions, but he could never forget Cheng Duanwu. Whenever he suffered from insomnia, he would always think of Cheng Duanwu. The 17-year-old Cheng Duanwu drank in his wine. He bought something, hoping to save the remaining dignity of the Cheng family.She thought he was completely controlled by drugs, and seduced him jerky, who was drunk, until he pounced on him rudely.She kept crying that night, but she didn't make a sound, as if she was afraid of waking him up.Her forbearing expression made him even more irritable and wanted to ravage her even harder.

He has always been unable to forget Cheng Duanwu's expression after being cruelly humiliated by him in the early morning of the second day. She was as quiet as a wandering soul, naked and hugged the quilt tightly, her face was pale, she gritted her teeth and looked at him eagerly , that expression made Lu Yingqin feel impatient for no reason.Her last hope was also brutally torn apart by him.Lu Yingqin got up from the bed indifferently, put on his clothes, turned his head to Cheng Duanwu with extreme disdain and said, "Do you think that I will let Cheng go home like this? Do you think that everything will be solved after sleeping with me? Look at you, Cheng Duanwu." Dragon Boat Festival, there are many people who want to sleep with me, and it depends on whether I am interested." He restrained the last trace of ironic smile, snorted coldly, and said in an extremely indifferent tone: "Get out!"

Cheng Duanwu put on his clothes in silence, barely making any sound from beginning to end.It was so quiet that Lu Yingqin didn't even know when she left.

There were little bloodstains on the white bed sheet, Lu Yingqin naturally knew what it was.

He just felt upset and irritable, tearing the sheets to pieces like crazy, he didn't know what he was angry about.He hates being controlled, but the drug sex the day before was not uncontrollable for him, but he found out shamefully that he had such a shallow desire for Cheng Duanwu, he felt disgusted, he felt disgusted by all of this .

And the most disgusting thing was the one who forgot to hate and even had a desire for Cheng Duanwu, himself.

(End of this chapter)