Ten miles of spring breeze, not as good as you

Chapter 42 You Are My Fortress (1)
I heard: The happiest thing in the world is when someone plays tricks on you, and once you play tricks, it lasts your whole life!

And the "rogue" Xing Kelei is the happiness tailor-made for Mi Ka by God.

You are my city camp, and the spring breeze is not as good as you.

After leaving City A for a few months, Mi Ka missed Shen Jianing's surgery.Knowing that she is recovering, Mi Ka goes to see her.

Shen Jianing's brain tumor operation was very difficult, and her ECG signal was inexplicably abnormal during the process. Fortunately, Shao Yuhan made all preparations to rescue her in time, and finally pulled her back from the edge of life and death.

Standing at the door of the ward, Mi Ka saw a girl sitting in front of the window. The evening light shone on her body, as if she was covered with a layer of gold.Her clear and beautiful face looked peaceful and serene under the afterglow of the setting sun.Shao Yuhan stood sideways beside her, seeming to say something to her, but she remained silent.

Xing Kelei sighed imperceptibly: "I wake up like this all the time after the operation, and I don't communicate with anyone."

Mi Ka thought for a while, "Maybe she remembered everything."

Xing Kelei nodded, "Sister-in-law He Xi said the same thing."

Mi Ka was thoughtful, "Does she not want senior brother to know what she went through?"

Xing Kelei agrees with such speculation, but he said: "The so-called love is not so superficial and not worth relying on. She has already experienced this, what else can Shao Yuhan not forgive?"

Mi Ka tilted his head to look at him: "But who doesn't want to maintain a beauty in the eyes of their lovers."

"Life can't be all perfect. When the beauty has shortcomings, you should face it bravely." Xing Kelei touched her head like a father, "Don't people grow up through setbacks?"

The truth is true, but the facts also prove that in the face of the hardships and blows given by life, how many people have fallen and never got up again.Mi Ka is fortunate to have the love and care of her parents and family, and Xing Kelei to shield her from the wind and rain.

But what about Shen Jianing, what does she have?
As if growing up in an instant, Mi Ka looked straight into Xing Kelei's eyes, "Help her."

It is not sure whether Mi Ka's proposal can really help Shen Jianing, but Xing Kelei has no doubts that Shen Jianing, who is sober at this time, feels that there is no way out. Even if her body has been reborn, her heart full of holes is Step by step towards destruction.

It rained all night, and the sound of the pattering rain seemed to convey a melancholy mood.In the early morning, the rain finally stopped, the high sky showed a clear blue, and the sunlight streaming down was enough to warm any cold heart.

Xing Kelei took Shen Jianing to the cemetery in such weather.In front of Shen Zheng, Shen Jianing's calmness cracked a little bit, and a heavy tingling feeling emerged from her gaze, which was undisguised.

Even Xing Kelei felt that this method was too cruel, but he still chose to start: "At first I thought that Uncle Shen was taking you to the army to find me, but later I found out that you were going to the army hospital. The purpose of your going to the hospital, after a few years Before, I really want to know, even that person, I am also very interested. Because I don't understand, why you don't want to see me all of a sudden."

"The relationship of several years is not fake. Although we get together less and leave more, although you think I don't care, but in my heart, Xing Kelei, you, Shen Jianing, are my girlfriend. But you break up if you say break up, even the relationship between us I denied all my feelings and followed others. I was not convinced." Xing Kelei sat down on the ground and looked up at Shen Jianing in the wheelchair, "Now I have figured it out. What Jianan said was right. Mi Ka treats you with one-tenth of his heart, maybe it's not the situation today."

Shen Jianing blinked her eyes, as if agreeing, but also as if refusing to listen.

After a brief silence, Xing Kelei said sincerely, "I'm sorry Jia Ning, I didn't treat you well in that love affair."

The golden sunlight projected on Shen Jianing, staring into Xing Kelei's eyes, she still didn't speak.But Xing Kelei caught the flickering light in her eyes, that faint ray of light seemed to be her forgiveness.

Receiving such a response gave Xing Kelei some confidence, "Well, how about you, Jia Ning, should you also say sorry? I have heard a saying that means 'relatives are friends chosen for us by our parents and family, and we Our own friends are relatives we choose according to our personal wishes'. Does that mean: whether relatives or friends are part of our life? For this part, you have not treated well. Otherwise, you will not bear everything alone and let us Stand by and watch. Even if you are also at fault, this mistake will not cause Uncle Shen to die. And Shao Yuhan, you can think of sending him a fake invitation. In your eyes, is his love so vulnerable? If he is What else do you love about a man like that?"

No matter how prepared Shen Jianing was, when the pain was uncovered again, she still couldn't bear it.The hand holding the armrest of the wheelchair turned white due to excessive force, and Shen Jianing's eyes were foggy under the pressure of Xing Kelei's gaze.

"Your eyes are obviously more honest than yours." Xing Kelei didn't allow her to evade. He said sharply: "You broke up with me because of Shao Yuhan, and who did you force Shao Yuhan to leave? You don't want to say? Yes, who would?" Mind if there is one more secret in this world. But Jia Ning, you have to understand that when life is in progress, you have something to do, and you have unfulfilled responsibilities. Uncle Shen is gone, Aunt Shen is still here, she is old Well, to her, these five years are longer than the past 50 years. She lost her husband, how can you bear to let her lose another daughter after losing her again? The responsibility to your loved ones is not as long as you want to. "

It is truly a waking pain.If given a choice, Shen Jianing would rather be sick forever.That way she wouldn't have to face her father's death, her mother's plight, and Shao Yuhan's feelings.Every tie is suffering.

Xing Kelei turned the wheelchair and forced Shen Jianing to look at him, "Tell me Jianing, is there really no way out? Or can escape make you feel relaxed and happy? Do you know that your self-isolation is a kind of Torture? You don’t want him, why should he bear these pains with you, just because he loves you? If even love is a mistake, you will not hesitate to abandon all the so-called beautiful and true things that you try to maintain in front of him. ,What?!"

The last four words were bitten hard by Xing Kelei, as if she wanted to tear apart what she had tried so hard to cover up.Shen Jianing's psychological defense completely collapsed under Xing Kelei's fierce offensive. She almost screamed and cried, beating Xing Kelei's body like crazy, "I just want to live in my own world. Me? Why are you forcing me like this? Why?!"

The silence of the cemetery was broken, and her heart-piercing wailing echoed in the air.That kind of irreversible heart-pounding pain, that kind of heart-wrenching regret, there is no need to worry, Shao Yuhan in the distance pressed his hands tightly to his chest, but he couldn't restrain the overwhelming pain there.

The weather at the end of summer is already cool, and the cold wind rolls up the scattered leaves on the ground, flying the depression that does not belong to this season.Shen Jianing slid out of the wheelchair as if exhausted, sat on the cold ground, covered her face, and cried bitterly.

His throat seemed to be choked by something, and he couldn't even breathe smoothly.Finally, Mi Ka couldn't stand it any longer, she quickly turned her back and raised her head slightly.

Time passed by every minute and every second, passing away the sadness that had accumulated for several years.I don't know how long it took, until Mi Ka's feet became numb, and Shen Jianing's crying gradually stopped.

"In these years, I have always had the same dream. The blood was red in the dream, and there were sharp shouts and brakes. I kept running, but those pictures and sounds couldn't be shaken off anyway. I often read from the dream When I woke up, I found that it was very dark, and the strange faces in front of me made me feel scared." Shen Jianing narrated in a calm tone, and that kind of calm made people feel a kind of desolate sadness, "After the operation, I I never had this dream again. Every time I open my eyes and see Yuhan’s familiar smile, I have the illusion that everything has never changed.”

However, the beauty of her life, like a shooting star, disappeared five years ago after shining brilliantly.All Shen Jianing can keep is memories, "I regret it, I regret that I shouldn't go drinking alone on my birthday. He just had a temporary operation, and he is also a doctor. Why can't I understand him. But when I woke up and saw The man lying beside me, I know it's too late."

"I had hoped that Yuhan would forgive me, but that beast never let me go." Vision was blurred, and mist rose in Shen Jianing's eyes: "He took a picture of me and forced me to be with him."

So the man Shen Zheng bumped into on the street back then was not Shao Yuhan, and Shen Jianing's abnormal behavior when Xing Kelei went to break up the fight was due to the pressure he endured during that time.

"I thought about suing him, but I still wanted to be with Yuhan. I was lucky, thinking that if I resigned and left the Army Hospital, the nightmare might be over. At that time, I was even glad that Yuhan didn't announce our relationship with the public. The relationship between lovers." As if she couldn't continue, Shen Jianing turned her head to look at the distant mountains, and paused for a long time, "But when I was about to tell Yu Han that I wanted to change jobs, I was pregnant."

Tears flowed down uncontrollably, wet Shen Jianing's heart, she smiled sadly, "In Yuhan's eyes, I am a pure and innocent girl, but in fact... I can't pretend that nothing happened, and I don't have the courage Facing the consequences of a possible explosion, I had no choice but to pretend to be drunk and force him to break up."

What Shen Jianing did not expect was that even though she said she would use Shao Yuhan as a substitute, he still sent her an email when he went to the PLA Hospital for exchange and study, expressing directly and strongly: He is waiting for her, and his heart is always open for her.In order to make him give up, Shen Jianing had no choice but to send an invitation.When Shao Yuhan's emails finally stopped coming, she cried all night.

Not long after that, Shen Zheng found out that she was pregnant.Anger and heartache made his body tremble. Shen Zheng pointed to his daughter's face and asked in despair, "Who is it?"

Shen Jianing had already swallowed the abortion pill at that time, and the faint pain hit her, and she said in despair, "Don't worry about it."

Shen Zheng was very angry, but he still couldn't bear to ignore his daughter. Seeing that Shen Jianing was pale and weak, he wanted to send her to the Army Hospital.Of course Shen Jianing refused, but she was no match for Shen Zheng's strength, so she was carried into the car anyway.Just when Shen Jianan came back from school and saw her father and sister arguing, she followed her into the car to comfort Shen Jianing.

Arguing all the way, when they were about to arrive at the Army Hospital, a car rushed out from a fork in the road. Shen Zheng's attention was originally not concentrated, and he bumped into it abruptly before he could react in time.At the most critical moment, out of the father's instinct, he turned the steering wheel, which saved the two daughters from the fatal impact.In this way, the fate of the Shen family has undergone earth-shaking changes.

Lu Xun once said: The greatest sorrow in life is that there is nowhere to go after waking up from a dream.

A heavy mountain of accident just happened so suddenly.Perhaps it was the father-daughter connection. When she woke up from the coma, she didn't need anyone to speak at all. Shen Jianing already knew that she had lost her father forever.

To live has become a kind of pain, and to live soberly is to add pain to pain.

On that day, Shen Jianing's world completely collapsed.

In fact, he had guessed various versions in his heart, but when the truth was in front of him, Xing Kelei still felt unprepared.He took a deep breath, continuously, and then asked: "Who is it?" Facing Shen Jianing's silence, he almost asked in an affirmative tone: "A person from the Army Hospital?"

Of course it's not a wild guess.To make Shen Jianing so afraid must be someone she and Shao Yuhan knew together, otherwise why would she use resignation to escape?Suddenly a person popped into my mind, and Xing Kelei asked her, "Is it Pu Boyuan?"

Shen Jianing's expression changed suddenly.

"It's really him." Xing Kelei punched the ground: "Bastard!"

Things finally became coherent, and those unknown secrets explained all the unreasonable things.In fact, she understands that Shen Jianing doesn't want Shao Yuhan to know, but Xing Kelei has no way to hide it.He told Shao Yuhan afterwards, "Don't say anything, but don't do nothing."

Shao Yuhan sat in the office all night.The next day, he walked into Shen Jianing's ward in the morning light, and asked softly, "Did you sleep well last night? Are you hungry? I brought your favorite porridge and side dishes." The bottle was placed on the table, and Shen Jianing started to serve porridge and vegetables.As usual, he acted as if he didn't know anything.

The point of her gaze was Shao Yuhan's tall and straight figure, and Shen Jianing said softly, "Thank you."

This was the first sentence Shen Jianing said to him since their reunion.Shao Yuhan's figure suddenly stopped, and there was moisture in his eyes during the silence.Choked up in a thousand words, it took Shao Yuhan a long time to find his voice.He gently put his hand on Shen Jianing's, and responded with a rare clumsy voice: "No need."

In the next second, hot tears fell on the back of his hand, making his heart ache.

When hugging Shen Jianing into her arms, Shao Yuhan sensitively noticed that she seemed to want to say something, but in the end, she just reached out and hugged his waist.As if in love, tightly, with elements of dependence and nostalgia.

I thought this would be the final ending, but when Shao Yuhan was about to attack Pu Boyuan, Shen Jianing left quietly.In the silent ward, except for the letters left to Xing Kelei and Shao Yuhan, there was no trace of her.

base:

The throbbing of youth should be the most authentic appearance of love.Because I don't know how to cherish, the happiness that could have been complete was fragmented.Fortunately, you have met your destined lover, so I don't have to feel too much indebted.

I know you don't need my apology after five long years.Then I will say goodbye to you with thanks, thank you for taking care of our family.I have no ability to repay, I can only guarantee that in the days to come, I will not evade those responsibilities that I have not fulfilled.

Mi Ka is lucky to meet you at an age when you know how to love.

I wish you happiness.

嘉凝
Yu Han:

Leizi asked me: "If even love is a mistake, what is the so-called beauty that I have spared no effort to maintain in front of you?" It wasn't until that moment that I understood: your forgiveness is not a luxury.

It's a pity that fate has no turning back. I can't go back to five years ago and start everything over again.I thought I was abandoned by the world, but in fact, I chose to abandon you.He is right, whether it is relatives or friends, I have not treated them well.Fortunately, now I understand: the way to correct mistakes is not to escape, but to make up.

Although there are examples of reunion after broken mirrors, between you and me, after experiencing this change, the trajectories of life can no longer overlap.It is better to be happy with each other than to be happy.

Don't worry, trust me, after having a second life, you can stand up on your own.

If one day, you hear that there is an unknown doctor who is practicing medicine to save lives, it may be me.

Yuhan, thank you for loving me so much.But I want to forget you from now on and start again.

wishing all the best.

嘉凝
Just like that, Shen Jianing cut off all escape routes, and resolutely waved goodbye to them.She chose to leave in this way because she didn't want anyone to keep her and make things difficult for her.In fact, after waking up, who could see the ending of the story more clearly than her?The destination I had hoped for, in the end, can only become a passerby.And she decided to start again and continue her journey.

For Xing Kelei, Shen Jianing is fortunate to have met such a real him in such a beautiful time.

As for Shao Yuhan, whether she really wants to forget, or remember more deeply, the answer lies in her heart.

Such an ending is inevitably embarrassing.Even Mi Ka couldn't help asking: "Is that all? What should I do, brother?"

However, China is too big, and since Shen Jianing decided to disappear on purpose, where would Shao Yuhan go to find her?

Xing Kelei can only say: "At this point, whether we are together or not may not be the most important thing. As long as Jia Ning's heart is really stable and happy, Shao Yuhan has nothing else to ask for."

Shen Jianing's page has just been turned, and the story belonging to City A continues.

Since the end of the co-construction work for the people, Mi Ka, who returned to work, is no longer an intern doctor, but started to see patients in the outpatient clinic independently like He Yayan.

(End of this chapter)