Wanqingsi

Chapter 112
Sending Yun Zheng away, I thought about it, and decided to go to An Yuanxi, I want to know what he thinks.I know this news is a blow to him, if he really can't accept... I bit my lip, it's no big deal, I just like him a little bit, can I just live without him?Walking straight into his office, An Yuanxi saw me coming in, stood up from the chair, and said uncomfortably: "I'm going to see the embroidery field."

"Stop!" I shouted in a low voice, An Yuanxi paused, and I walked up to him, "Are you going to keep avoiding me?" He froze, his eyelashes drooping in silence.I bit my lip: "Is my past so difficult for you to accept?"

"I..." he looked down at the ground and murmured, "I'm just too surprised..." He didn't speak harshly to me, which made me feel uneasy. This bookworm will definitely not be able to accept this fact for a while, he My experience is too simple, and my moral concepts are too outdated. My disgraceful past will inevitably become a stain on his emotions, which will make him very painful. If he needs time to sort out his thoughts, I am willing to give it to him, because I cherish and respect his feelings.When I came to this world, all the men I knew were calculating and calculating.Chu Shang said that he loves me, but his love is only selfish possession; Mr. Yu seems to care about me, but I am just a fresh toy in his eyes; Feng Ge said that if no one loves me, he will love me Me, but no matter how deep I get to know him, I can't touch his heart; Ming Yan keeps calling me his wife, but he is more like a child on a whim, I don't even understand why he likes me inexplicably; Ulay Giving me the golden knife is just showing off his own excellence...There is no one who silently guards me like An Yuanxi. His liking for me is pure liking. He pays his care bit by bit. There is no utilitarianism or calculation. What I want is such a simple love. I am not a wooden person, how can I remain indifferent to An Yuanxi like this?
"I didn't intend to hide it from you. I planned it out and wanted to find an opportunity to tell you..." I muttered, but the experience in the brothel was so terrible, I still couldn't say it.An Yuanxi, you only know that you despise women in brothels and ruin the social atmosphere, but how do you know the blood and tears behind them leaning against the door and laughing.If I said it outright, you might suffer even more.

An Yuanxi was silent for a while, then said softly: "I don't blame you..."

"Really?" I held his hand in surprise and joy, he shrank his hand suddenly as if he had been scalded by flint, and my hand stopped in the middle of the air in embarrassment.I stared blankly at my hands, raised my eyes, and looked at his handsome face. He turned his head away, his face pale.There was a sudden pain in my heart. He didn't blame me, but he still cared. Broken heart and lungs.

The body is a little cold.It's nothing, I just like him a little bit.I took two steps back, An Yuanxi raised his eyes to look at me, saw the pain in my eyes, An Yuanxi was startled, wanted to reach out to touch my shoulder, then suddenly withdrew his hand, frowning: "Ye'er..., You don't have to worry, I will let mother propose marriage..."

So you thought I was worried about this?I shook my head and smiled bitterly!Is it because I had an intimate relationship with you last night, are you responsible?Fool, I'm not a virgin, and it's not your turn to be responsible!My poor nerd, you feel so uncomfortable in your heart, there is really no need to try to take care of my mood like this!Moreover, I don't like you very much. There are injuries. It's not that you force yourself to comfort me unnaturally, but that you shrink your hands nervously.Don't lie to me, idiot, you are not as smart as I am, if you move your arms, I will know what you are going to do.

"Stop proposing marriage, idiot." Why does my heart hurt so much?I obviously don't like him that much!But it seemed as if someone was scratching in his heart, twisting his heart into a ball.I said dumbly, "You know I used to be a brothel girl, what happened last night is nothing to me at all."

An Yuanxi's face suddenly turned pale, heh, I'm sorry, nerd, I can't pay for your innocence, you just act like you were bitten by a dog.I can't stay here anymore, I'm going to be suffocated by the pain if I stay any longer, I turned around, opened the door and ran out, An Yuanxi called me nervously from behind, "Ye'er..."

Do not call me!Call me again and I will depend on you!Tears welled up, I ran out of the back hall, ran into the backyard, let me stay alone for a while, bumped into a black shadow head-on, before I could react, I only heard An Yuanxi's frightened scream: "Ye'er ..." My body was suddenly pushed out by a strong force, I fell into the yard, my elbows rubbed on the ground, I felt a sudden sharp pain, I lifted my body with difficulty, looked back, the scene in front of me made me tear up: " An Yuan Xi!"

He was lying on the ground with his eyes closed, with a loose container on his body. I rushed over, pushed away the wooden box on his body, and raised his head: "An Yuanxi, how are you?" The back of his head was warm and moist. I took a look and saw that my hand was already stained red with blood. I was so terrified that I lost my mind: "An Yuanxi, open your eyes for me, wake me up..."

The clerk of Xiuzhuang stood by in panic: "Miss Ye, I, I didn't mean it. I came out with the goods on my shoulders. You bumped into me suddenly, and the manager of security rushed to push you away. I couldn't hold on. hit him..."

"Shut up!" I burst into tears and yelled like crazy, "Go to the doctor, go to the doctor!"

He ran out quickly, and I hugged An Yuanxi tightly, tears falling on his bloodless face: "An Yuanxi, don't scare me, wake up, don't torture me, please You wake up..."

Sister Xiu and the staff in the store ran into the backyard, and they were shocked when they saw this: "Miss Ye, let's carry Manager An into the house first..."

"Why can't his blood stop? Why does the blood keep flowing?" I looked at the blood on my hand in panic, and quickly covered the back of An Yuanxi's head, "Will he die? Will he die?"

"Miss Ye, don't scare yourself, the doctor will be here soon, first carry Manager An into the house!" Sister Xiu knelt down and calmly grabbed my shoulder, "You can't mess up at this time!"

The clerk carried An Yuanxi into the soft couch in my office. I stared at the blood dripping all the way. My confused mind cleared up a little. I turned my head and said to Sister Xiu: "Go find some cotton cloths, first he's wounded. Cover it, and see if the doctor is here?"

Layer after layer of cotton cloth tightly covered An Yuanxi's wound, and my tears welled up again: "An Yuanxi, I won't let you die, I won't let you die, wake me up. You You idiot, why did you chase after me when I said such hurtful things? Wake up for me..."

"Miss Ye, the doctor is here!" Sister Xiu led an old man in.I hurriedly stood up and rushed over, speaking incoherently: "Doctor, he hurt his head, and he is bleeding. He was crushed by a cargo box, check to see if there is any bone injury..."

"Girl, don't panic, I'll take care of it." The doctor checked An Yuanxi's wound, first helped him stop bleeding and applied a bandage, and then helped him diagnose his pulse.I saw the doctor frowned, and said nervously: "Doctor, how is he?"

"The patient's pulse is strong and weak, and his breathing and heartbeat are very disordered. His trauma is not serious at all, but his blood pulse fluctuates greatly, which shows that his consciousness is very confused, which makes the blood flow, so that the blood flow does not stop." The doctor said. .

I asked anxiously, "What will happen then? Hasn't his bleeding stopped? When will he wake up?"

"The situation is not optimistic. Although the blood from his trauma was stopped with medicine, if the blood vessels continue to fluctuate like this, it is easy to bleed continuously..." The doctor sighed, "If he keeps awake, it depends on him whether he can survive. luck and luck?"

I was struck by lightning and froze for a moment.The doctor said: "I'll prescribe some medicine for him, and you send someone back with me to catch him and decoct him according to the prescription. I'll come to check on the trauma once a day. Also, the patient can't move now. We'll talk about it when he wakes up. If If you wake up, you'll be fine."

Sister Xiu sent the doctor away and walked into the office. Seeing that I was still standing there, she asked worriedly, "Miss Ye, what should I do now?"

I came back to my senses, and suddenly felt weak all over. I supported the table and sat down on the armchair. I said softly, "Sister Xiu, the embroidery village is temporarily closed. I don't want anyone to disturb Mr. An's recovery. Tell the workers, I will not deduct their wages during the closure period. Also, please ask someone to go back and inform Xiaohong, and ask her to prepare some clothes and bedding for me, and then inform Aunt An."

Sister Xiu closed the door and went out. I moved a stool and sat in front of the soft couch, held An Yuanxi's pale hand, looked at his lifeless face, and said softly, "An Yuanxi, are you awake? Chaos, what are you thinking? Are you mad at me? I’m sorry, I shouldn’t say those stupid things to anger you, can you wake up and scold me? As long as you wake up, no matter how much you scold me, I won’t Angry, okay..."

I looked at his bloodless face and talked for a long time, expecting a miracle to happen, but An Yuanxi seemed to be dead, and he didn't respond at all.The guy who picked up the medicine came back, and I arranged to go to the yard to decoct the medicine.Sister Xiu soon came with Mrs. An, An Sheng and Xiao Hong. Mrs. An entered the door and saw An Yuanxi's appearance, her face twitched, and she walked to the soft couch with tears in her eyes. I quickly stood up and helped her sit down. On the stool, her lips trembled, tears streamed down, and she murmured: "What crime did I do..."

I bit my lips tightly: "I'm sorry, Mrs. An, it's my fault..." She held An Yuanxi's hand tightly, stared at him blankly, and didn't say a word.Xiaohong moved in the quilt, and I hurriedly took a bed and covered An Yuanxi. I looked down and saw that Mrs. An was crying silently, and my heart felt sour, and I said to An Sheng: "Look at Mrs. and Young Master, I will go to the yard to see Decoction."

"Girl, let me go, you stay here." Xiaohong hurriedly said, pulling sister Xiu out.I walked to the couch and sat beside Mrs. An, staring at An Yuanxi in a daze.Suddenly, An Yuanxi shook his body and shook his head slightly.I widened my eyes, and Mrs. An called him softly: "Yuanxi? Yuanxi?"

He frowned in a coma, with an extremely painful expression. I reached out and touched his forehead, feeling the burning heat: "He has a fever! An Sheng, give him another quilt!" I stood up and gave him a quilt. Basin of water, wrung out a towel and coldly applied it to his forehead, but he was still trembling, talking nonsense intermittently: "Mother..., why are you..., you want to treat me like this..., why..."

I was startled, and saw tears streaming from the corners of Mrs. An's eyes.An Yuanxi's dream babbled intermittently: "Don't kill me...don't kill me..." Aunt An sobbed and said, "Yuanxi, what kind of evil are you in?" An Yuanxi's eyebrows frowned more and more Tight, fine cold sweat dripped from his face, I took off the towel on his forehead, squeezed cold water on it again, gently stroked his frowning brows, his brows gradually loosened, and murmured: "I'm sorry... ..., I shouldn't have treated you like this..."

My heart is sour, fool, do you still think about that in your dream?I don't blame you, I really don't blame you!An Yuanxi frowned, and suddenly his whole body twitched: "Don't..., don't hit me..., I'm obedient, I listen to you..." His body kept trembling, and the soft couch creaked. She was so scared that she grabbed his arm tightly: "An Yuanxi, what's wrong with you? What did you dream about? Don't scare me..."

Aunt An cried bitterly: "The last time he was injured in the head, he was also screaming for beatings and killing. He kept talking nonsense and had a fever for days and nights. Yuan Xi, if you continue to do this, how will mother live?" ah……"

Xiaohong came in with the medicine: "Girl, the medicine is ready." I quickly took it over, and Mrs. An took the medicine from me: "I'll feed him." She scooped up a spoonful of the medicine, blew it cool and sent it to An Yuanxi's lips, but as soon as the medicine was poured into his mouth, it immediately flowed out from the corner of his mouth. Mrs. An tried two or three times, but he still couldn't swallow the medicine. He was anxious and angry, and couldn't help crying again. Take the medicine bowl over: "Ma'am, let me try."

She nodded, handed the medicine bowl to my hand, and got up to let me.I took a spoonful and fed it to him, the same as before. After thinking about it, I brought the medicine bowl to my lips and took a sip.Xiaohong said in surprise: "Girl, aren't you most afraid of taking medicine..." I ignored her, the bitter medicine made me almost vomit, holding back the discomfort in my heart, I leaned down and pressed my lips against An Yuanxi on the lips.

His lips are so cold, I heard the gasp in the room, but I didn't have time to pay attention to it, I fed the medicine into An Yuanxi's mouth, he resisted and wanted to spit it out, I sealed his lips tightly, feeling the mouth The medicine juice had already slipped into his throat, and he let it go. Seeing that the medicine didn't overflow from the corner of his mouth, he was overjoyed, so he quickly took another sip and fed it to him in the same way.

After feeding a bowl of medicine, I raised my eyes and saw a whole room of people staring at me blankly, blushing: "I..."

Mrs. An took my hand, her eyes were full of pity: "Miss Ye, you are so far away from us, I don't know how to thank you..."

I quickly shook my head: "Ma'am, Yuan Xi was injured because of me, don't say that."

"It's really hard for you..." Aunt An sighed quietly.I put down the bowl and said softly: "Mother, don't worry, I will take good care of Yuanxi, I will ask Xiaohong to tidy up the VIP room, you can go back and rest first."

She nodded, Xiao Hong and An Sheng helped her out, I gently closed the door and sat back on the couch.After taking a bowl of medicine, he became much quieter, his body no longer twitched, and he stopped talking in his sleep.His brows were still furrowed, and his long eyelashes covered the lower part of his closed eyelids, casting a faint shadow.I wiped off the sweat on his face, stroked his straight nose bridge, pale cheeks with my hand, slightly absent-minded.An Yuanxi, my nerd, what should I do with you?I don't want to lie to myself anymore, I like you more than a little bit, I don't want to let you go, as long as you are willing to accept me, those things you care about, give me time and let me smooth it out for you, okay?
The day before, I was still thinking, if you can't accept my past, are you worthy of my liking?worth?Look, worth it?It turns out that my feelings are also valuable!I ask others to love me unselfishly, but I have already put a price on my feelings, waiting for others to exchange them in equal value.While I am criticizing others for calculating, why am I not calculating?An Yuanxi, I understand that if you want to get happiness, you have to pay. I can't, I only ask you to be alone.Please wake up, I will love you well, okay?
I held his hand and sat until dawn.Xiaohong delivered medicine again in the night, and I still fed him by mouth.In the middle of the night, his fever gradually subsided, but he still didn't wake up, and he didn't make a fuss like Mrs. An said before.Early in the morning, Mrs. Ann opened the door and came in. Seeing me sitting there in a daze, she said softly, "Miss Ye, I'll guard him. Go and rest for a while."

I shook my head: "I can't sleep." Mrs. An said softly: "But you haven't slept all night, aren't you tired? I don't know when Yuan Xi will wake up, so don't get tired first. Good boy, Go to sleep for a while."

I stood up when I heard the words, I can't let the people who care about me worry too much.First, I went to the yard to see if An Yuanxi's medicine was ready. When I stepped out the door, I saw it was raining outside, and the cold wind was blowing on my body. I shivered and felt cold all over my body.Xiaohong moved the medicine stove to the corridor and was pouring out the medicine.I walked over and took the medicine: "Thank you for your hard work, go and rest for a while."

"Girls work harder than me." Xiaohong looked up at me, "Look, your eyes are red." I smiled, brought the medicine into the office, and heard Mrs. An's voice of surprise and joy: "Yuanxi, you Wake up?" God!I was shocked all over, and ran over quickly, met An Yuanxi's eyes, stared at him blankly, and was extremely happy in my heart.

An Yuanxi looked past Aunt An and fixedly looked at me.There was a flash of pain in his eyes, mixed with complex emotions that I couldn't understand, I was stunned, his eyes were different from usual, with some alienation and sentimentality, which made me feel familiar and strange.Mrs. An turned her head and looked at me, then walked out with a smile: "You guys have a chat."

I came back to my senses, and sat down on the couch with a blushing face: "Drink the medicine."

He propped himself up, I took a pillow and put it behind him, picked up the medicine bowl, scooped up a spoonful of medicine and handed it to his lips. "I'll do it myself." He looked away, took the bowl in my hand, drank the medicine in one gulp, and put the bowl on the side of the couch.I removed the bowl and held his hand, his hand flinched, I squeezed it tightly to prevent him from flinching, his hand was stiff in mine, I looked up at him, bit my lip and said: " I'm afraid you won't wake up."

He looked at me quietly, without saying a word.I looked at his strange eyes, and I panicked: "What's wrong? Are you still dizzy? Or you can lie down and sleep for a while..." I kept talking, but he didn't say a word, just kept looking at him. Looking at me, I was a little guilty of being stared at by him, my face gradually burned up, and finally murmured: "I said that yesterday to annoy you, I, I didn't take that kind of thing lightly, I... ..."

"Miss Ye!" He finally spoke, but I was startled, Miss Ye?He took his hand out of my hand, looked at me fixedly, and his face sank: "It's impossible for me to be with you!"

I blinked: "What?" I couldn't understand.

"I won't be with you, it's impossible for me to be with you!" He turned his face and said coldly.

"Why?" Why did he wake up, like this?I stared at him blankly, and said in a daze: "You can't accept my past?" His body trembled slightly, and his voice was hoarse: "Yes!"

"You lied, that's not what you said yesterday!" I burst into tears, "Why are you telling lies..."

"I didn't tell a lie, I can't accept you." An Yuanxi lowered his eyelashes and said in a deep voice, "And I found that I don't like you very much."

"You nonsense, you look at me, you look into my eyes." I cupped his face and forced him to meet mine, "You look into my eyes, say it again, say you don't like me?"

He raised his eyelashes and looked into his eyes, my body suddenly fell into an ice cave.There is no emotion in it, only indifference, no pain, no struggle, nothing, just a boundless indifference.His heart felt like a bloody mouth was cut open, and I heard his emotionless voice say word by word: "I don't like you, I don't want you!"

My heart hurts so much, the blood is flowing out from my heart, I slowly let go of my hand, as if I never knew this man, why?Why did my world change when he woke up?I used to think that the warmth this man gave me was everything I had.I stood up and stepped back, only to feel a tearing pain spreading from the bottom of my heart to my whole body. I stared at him closely and smiled miserably: "Okay, An Yuanxi, hello!" The wall, there is no retreat, I came back to my senses, my dignity does not allow me to be so embarrassed, took a breath, I looked at him quietly, chuckled: "An Yuanxi, I hope you won't say anything for you today. If you pass, you will regret it!"

Open the door and rush out, I can't face him anymore, I will go crazy if I face him again.It seemed that Xiaohong and Mrs. An were calling, but I turned a deaf ear to it. Leaving him, leaving this man, how could he, how could he hurt me so far?The rain hit my face, and I couldn't tell whether it was tears or rain. I just felt that my vision was blurred, and the sharp pain in my heart almost tore me apart.I don't know how far I ran, where I ran, when my blurred vision seemed to see Yun Zheng's astonished face, I felt a sweetness in my throat, a mouthful of blood coughed out of my mouth, and my body suddenly went limp.

"Miss Ye..."

His exclamation came from my ears, and I slipped softly into his arms: "Yunzheng..., my heart hurts so badly, I'm dying from the pain..." Darkness came to me, I sniffed There was a faint scent of ambergris, and then all consciousness was lost.

——2006, September, 12
(End of this chapter)