Wanqingsi

Chapter 113 Flower Marriage
so quiet!So quiet!Like my mother's warm breath, there was a faint sound of dripping water in the darkness. I closed my eyes, feeling my body sinking layer by layer into the depths of the darkness.Go to sleep, my consciousness, my emotions, don't wake up, it's not easy to sleep so peacefully and comfortably all the time.It seems that someone is talking, it seems that someone is crying, but none of those voices can hit the dark inner wall.I smile, this is really a wonderful place, there is no calculation, no love and hate, no joy, anger and sorrow, only warmth, calm, soothing and safe.

A faint flute sound came from a distance, its breath was so close to this fog, it blended with it silently, passing through the thick fog peacefully, hovering in my ear, gradually Wrap me up, don't make noise, I want to sleep?I flicked it impatiently, it got into my ear stubbornly, pulled out my eardrum, making my ear itchy, I chuckled lightly: "How annoying..."

The voice wandered around my body mischievously, like a naughty little hand, which disturbed me so much that I couldn't be quiet. I sighed and opened my eyes angrily.There was a bright light in front of me, I blinked in confusion, and heard a gentle voice: "You're awake."

Turning around, he saw Yun Zheng sitting by the bed, holding a short jade flute in his hand.I smiled silently, and sighed faintly: "Yun Zheng, why are you doing this!" Why bother to wake me up?Can't you just let me sleep peacefully like this?I'm so tired!
"I've slept for seven days. If you don't wake up, your little red girl will kill someone." Yun Zheng put down the flute and helped me sit up with a hint of joy on his face.

Startled, I looked up and saw Xiao Hong sleeping at the end of the bed, I smiled: "Is this child frightened?"

"I'm exhausted too. I haven't had a good rest after guarding you for so many days." Yun Zheng said.I lifted the quilt and got out of bed, feeling a little weak, Yun Zheng quickly supported me, I smiled lightly: "I'm fine, help me carry Xiao Hong to the bed, let her sleep well for a while."

Taking off Xiaohong's shoes and covering her with the quilt, I looked at Yunzheng: "I want to go for a walk in the garden."

"I'll accompany you." Yun Zheng took my hand with gentle eyes.

"Your Lifang Bieyuan is really picturesque." Sitting in the small wooden pavilion where I met Yunzheng last time, holding the fragrant tea that Yunzheng made for me, I said with a faint smile: "By the way, How's the recovery going?"

"It's not so fast for her to do that matter. It's okay to live with me temporarily now. I've come to see you every day these days, and I'm very worried." Yun Zheng said with a smile.I was a little apologetic: "I'm really sorry."

"It's a good thing to have friends who worry about you." He smiled softly, "A woman like you is worth spending your life to make friends with."

I smiled self-deprecatingly.Is it?I'm bearish, what kind of love, what kind of friendship, just click and stop, it's too deep, I really can't bear it.When I returned to the wing room, I saw Xiaohong running out in a hurry. When she saw me, she threw herself into my arms and cried with a "wow": "Girl, so you are here, I was afraid that you would not be here..."

"Silly girl." I hugged her and coaxed softly, "How can I be willing to leave our Xiaohong behind."

"Young lady won't wake up, I'm terribly scared..." Xiao Hong whimpered in my arms, "The doctor said that the girl might never wake up, I..."

"Fool, aren't you awake?" I smiled and wiped the tears off her face, "Okay, don't cry, let Mr. Yun see the joke."

Xiao Hong sobbed and wiped her eyes, I dragged her into the room: "Go and pack up your things, we should go back after disturbing Mr. Yun for so many days."

"You can live here forever." Yun Zheng said gently, "You are not in good health yet, so you don't need to leave in such a hurry."

"But I'm afraid my family is worried..." I just opened my mouth, but was interrupted by Xiao Hong: "Grandfather Fu didn't know about the girl fainting, he only knew that the girl was a guest at Mr. Yun's place, so I didn't worry, the girl lives here , making it hard for that heartless nerd..."

I trembled. After waking up, I had been avoiding this name. When I heard Xiaohong mention it suddenly, I still felt a throbbing pain in my heart.I asked in a daze, "Is his injury healed?"

"Miss, let him die!" Xiaohong said angrily, "He coughed up blood in your anger, what do you do to him? He knows that the girl is unconscious, so he won't come to see you..."

"Xiao Hong, don't talk about him like that." I sighed quietly, "You won't understand what happened between me and him."

"I don't understand, I just know that the girl is going to be pissed off by him this time." Xiaohong's eyes turned red, "If there is anything wrong with the girl, I will pay for that idiot's life!"

"Fool..." I stroked her head and smiled lightly, "Go and wash your face, it's all spent."

Xiaohong wiped her face embarrassedly and went out.Yun Zheng smiled and said, "You maidservant is also devoted to you."

"I take her as my younger sister." I said calmly, Yunzheng heard my words and smiled, "You just woke up, so you have to rest, I'll come see you later."

"Okay." Seeing off Yunzheng, I sat on the soft couch in a daze, recalling those words of An Yuanxi that day, I still feel a faint pain in my heart, nerd, I don't believe what you said is true, I believe you have Sorry, but, your words are so absolute, do you want to force me to death?

Xiaohong came in a few times and didn't bother me, just sighed, and then saw that I was sitting blankly, and finally couldn't help it: "Girl, you've been sitting there all afternoon, do you want to go out for a walk?"

"Huh?" I looked at her blankly, seeing her worried face and smiling, "No need, what time is it?"

"Just arrived at Youshi." Xiaohong said.It turned out to be six o'clock.I looked out the window at the gradually darkening sky, and saw a dark red glow hanging from the sky.I just heard Xiaohong continue: "Miss doesn't want to go out, do you want to play the piano?"

"Eh?" I turned my head and saw Xiaohong took out something from the cabinet, which was my guitar in a case, and asked in surprise, "Why is this stuff here?"

"Before the girl was in a coma, the doctor said that he could try to talk to you, or make some familiar and favorite sounds in your ears, so I brought this instrument, but we don't know how to pull it out, and it's useless. Seeing the smile on my face, Xiao Hong handed over Qin with a smile.

I took it, tuned it, and plucked the strings.As soon as I touched it, all my emotions were out of control, my thoughts were spinning in the pain before the coma, I played a prelude, opened my lips and hummed softly, remembering the indifferent eyes of the bookworm, tears finally couldn't help sliding down.

I thought about our future and thought it wouldn't be too bad.

Never thought that the love I gave was just dust.

Back to the lonely stage, empty existence.

I listened to the monologue of the soul, longing and pale.

Once again imagining the future, no longer has the color of dreams.

I know no one can blame, no one is helpless.

These are crazy times, everything goes so fast.

Maybe I don't belong now, but I still have to wait.

I want to go back to the age of innocence, without torture and harm,
With true and innocent love, waiting for your return every day.

I want to go back to the age of innocence, without torture and harm.

With true and innocent love, waiting for your return every day.

An Yuanxi, we can't go back, can we?Those warm days that belong to us will never go back, will they?Tears dripped onto the strings, and were shattered by the strings.The hand that plucked the string was gently held down, and I raised my tearful eyes to see Yun Zheng's hazy face: "Don't play it anymore."

I put down the guitar meekly, looked at him and smiled.A trace of worry rarely appeared on his calm and clear face: "Is there any misunderstanding, why don't you explain it to him?"

"You don't understand, Yun Zheng, that's not the problem." I smiled sadly, "I know him, he is the kind of person who would rather suffer himself than make me sad, he must have his own reasons for doing so. "

"Since there is something hidden, why don't you just open it?" Yun Zheng smiled shallowly: "Is there anything in this world that cannot be solved?"

"You still don't understand, Yun Zheng." I sighed and shook my head, "He would rather do this than me, he must have made up his mind. If he chooses me, even if the road ahead is difficult, I will accompany him Let him walk together, but if he gives up on me, I will not force him, force him, as long as he knows what he wants.” To put it nicely, this is to respect his choice, but to put it badly, maybe it’s just me Love is not enough, after all, I am still a cold person.

Yun Zheng looked at me quietly with a thoughtful expression.

After recovering from her injury, An Yuanxi asked me to resign from the embroidery factory.He didn't look haggard after the injury, but his face was a bit more heroic. I looked at his handsome face, and my heart was pierced: "Have you made up your mind?" What I asked was, are you really determined to give up on me? ?
"Think it over." He looked at me quietly, and with just one glance, I knew he really thought it over.

"Okay." The rupture has been completely completed.He turned and left, walking calmly and resolutely, his clothes fluttered in the wind, carrying an extraordinary demeanor that I had never known before.I looked at his back and smiled softly, the scenes of acquaintance and acquaintance with him at that time kept flashing in my mind.

"I'll hit you with a little head, and you'll turn your head into a pig's head..."

"You kind of rice worm who has never earned a copper coin and is not involved in production, do you know what is meant by 'who knows that every piece of Chinese food is hard work'..."

"Well, An Yuanxi, I treat you kindly on weekdays, I never thought you would do such a thing, I, I'll just die..."

"An Yuanxi, give me the water sac you drank, do you know what it's called in my hometown..."

"Director An, I'm your boss, not your wife..."

"Director An, didn't you say that day that no one would dare to marry a woman like me? Actually, I know it myself..."

"Idiot! You've been tricked! You go away right away..."

"An Yuanxi, I owe you my life, and I will pay you back in my next life..."

"An Yuanxi, I want to get dressed, you are not allowed to peek..."

"Then tell them what my name is? It can't be Ah Hua..."

"An Yuanxi, if you have loved someone, will you soon forget her..."

"An Yuanxi, I watched the stars at night recently, and found that your red luan star is moving..."

"An Yuanxi, do you like me..."

……

His handsome back is scattered in my eyes, and my longing and expectation are also scattered.Bookworm, you don't know that when I'm with you, my whole being is alive, but unfortunately, what I think of as happiness is, after all, an unattainable dream.Farewell, my nerd.

I lived in Lifang Bieyuan until the end of the month, and my mood gradually became calmer than ever.Before leaving, Yunzheng suddenly asked me to marry him, everything was so natural, I was not even surprised, just smiled lightly: "Yunzheng, you deserve to marry a better girl, you know my history." It's not that I look down on myself, But Yun Zheng, in my eyes, is a person too pure to be obscene.

"What I value is you, not your body." Yun Zheng held my hand and smiled gently, "It's not your past either."

I looked into his warm eyes, not without being moved. Although I knew that this man had always been tolerant to me, I didn't know that he could tolerate me to this extent: "I can't bear such a heavy burden on the Yun family."

With a gentle smile on his lips, he said calmly: "I want you to be yourself, not the head of the Yun family, not Yun Zheng's wife, those are just false names. You can love the one you love and do what you want What I do, I only want you to be free and happy. I like your intelligence, strength, and bravery, and I also like your selfishness, coolness, and truthfulness. I will not limit you in the name of "love". Imprison you, I don't want you to change your essence, you are you."

Tears slipped from the corners of my eyes, Yun Zheng, Yun Zheng, what can I do, it's worth it for you?Yun Zheng held my hand quietly, and said softly, "Let me accompany you in the days to come, okay?"

I raised my tear-filled eyes and smiled like a flower: "Okay!"

Maybe the happiness I have been looking for has been found.Does anyone know what form happiness actually exists?Maybe An Yuanxi's protection, the care he gave me, is happiness; how can it be said that Yun Zheng's tolerance, his indulgence to me, is not a kind of happiness?
In this early summer, I married Yun Zheng and became his wife.On that day, the night was quiet, the moon was white, and the wind was free.

——2006, September, 12
Wanqingsi·Volume [-]·Cangdu Chapter·End

The second volume is finished.Well, I know that everyone has a lot of opinions on the second volume, alas, you can smash it if you want, but the content of this volume is essential.I will write the third volume after a break, and some structures need to be sorted out. Please don't squat in the past two days.Thank you again for your great support, encouragement and encouragement to me.hehe.Go to sleep.

List of Lyrics Quoted in the Second Volume of "Wanqingsi"
Serial number/chapter/song name/lyricist/singer

1/Chapter 72/"Exodus Song"/Xi Murong/Tsai Chin
2/Chapter 153/"The Age of Innocence"/Ding Wei/Ding Wei
List of cited materials in "Wanqingsi"
Serial number/book, article name/author & poster/source
1/ "Golden Man", "Dividing Porridge"/? / "Ten Philosophical Stories"

2/"Liu Haisu: Opening the Door of Human Body Sketching in China"/Shang Yiren/"Cultural Collection 6"

3/"What Kind of Sexual Morality We Need Today"/Pan Suiming/"Southern Weekend" 2002.12.5
4/"Traveling on the Dam"/Pippi/A friend's manuscript

5/"Ordos Mongolian Ethnic Customs"/? / "My Lovely Ordos" website

6/ Astronomy and calendar in "Huangdi Neijing"/Zhang Qicheng/Treatise Forum
7/ "The Origin of Chongqing Hot Pot" / Anonymous / Sochu.com

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