Wanqingsi

Chapter 5 Past Life
"You..., you little brat!" I shook him off, trembling with anger.When I thought that I was dazzled by a three-year-old just now, my face burned with embarrassment.

"Wife..." Xiao Douding yelled again and rushed forward.I stretched out my hand to hold him, shy and angry: "Don't call me wife."

"Why? You have already agreed to marry me." Xiao Douding was injured, her little mouth curled up and looked like she was about to cry again, and my head was as big as a bucket.

"You still say!" I yelled angrily, "If you didn't change your appearance to lie to me, how could I agree to you?"

"I didn't lie to you, that's what I'll look like when I grow up." Xiao Douding hugged my leg with a "wow", tears rolled in his eyes, "Honey, I didn't lie to you..."

A two or three-year-old Xiao Douding hugged a 30-year-old woman and called her wife. Anyone who saw it felt weird.When others saw this situation, they thought I was bullying the children.I sighed, squatted down, looked into Xiao Mingyan's eyes, and reasoned with him softly: "Mingyan, you also know that that's what you will look like when you grow up, but you haven't grown up yet. You are already 30 years old, how can you marry a child who is two or three years old?"

"I'm not two or three years old, I'm already three hundred years old." Mingyan interrupted me, with tears in her eyes, accusing me unconvinced, "Why do you judge people by their appearance? My IQ is dozens of times higher than that of humans of your age .”

"But you look like you are only two or three years old." A high IQ is enough, there is another thing in this world called emotional intelligence.I patiently continued to reason with him, "Ming Yan, the human world is much more complicated than the environment you live in, and the human heart is much more unpredictable than the ghosts and gods you have seen. Although you are three hundred years old, you still Innocence is like a child in human society, this is the difference between me and you. If you have the opportunity to experience in the world in the future, you will understand what I said today."

"I don't understand..." Xiao Douding interrupted me, sobbing, "I just like my wife and want to be with her forever, is that not okay?"

I sighed and hugged his small body tightly, feeling sore in my heart.To be honest, it’s not that I’m not unmoved. There is someone who likes you so purely, without any other impurities. Probably only the feelings of a child can do it, right?But, precisely because he is a child, there will be many variables on the road ahead, too many for me to bear, child, I dare not take risks, because my heart is riddled with holes and cannot stand the stimulation and toss .

"Mingyan, do you know how far forever is?" I asked him gently.

He was stunned, "How far is forever? I..., I don't know..."

"You don't know, and I don't know." I looked at him tenderly, and smiled slightly, "Forever may be far, far, long, long, or very close, very short, very short. If it is forever, long, long, As long as tens of thousands of years, can you guarantee that your love for me will not change for 100 years, 1000 years, 1 years? Don't rush to agree, child. This is a long, long time, Mountains and rivers can be turned into plains, seas can be turned into mulberry fields, and people’s hearts will change with changes in the external environment. This is natural and beyond reproach. You like me now, very much, because you like me now. Once we change, you are no longer the current you, and I am no longer the current me. This kind of love will be smoothed by time. Maybe 1000 or 1 years later, there will be no traces left. I don’t know that you used to like me very much, maybe you won’t even remember it yourself.”

My long talk made Xiao Douding dizzy, he stared at me blankly, wondering if he understood.However, since his IQ is as high as he said, he should be able to understand, I ignored him, and continued: "Eternal may be very short, so short that it almost never happened. My case is You took over it yourself. You should know very well about my experience before I was alive. In my previous life, I liked a man very much, and I thought I would love him forever, but this man was just trying to cheat me. I got money from money. I lied to him once because I liked him and still believed in him, but the second time I was cheated even worse. When I was with him, I thought this was the beginning of eternity, but no Knowing that for him, the first day he was near me was the end forever."

So I don't believe in love, love is full of lies and deceit, full of philistines and calculations.After that, there were countless blind dates. Men were picky about your appearance, your figure, your temperament of conversation, caring about your education, your work, your family background, no matter how poor you are, you need to have a wallet that can always count.Your thoughts, your talents, your character are superfluous to men, and love is just a fig leaf for men to extract anything that is beneficial to them.

Xiao Douding looked at me tenderly, held my hand silently, said nothing, I smiled, and continued: "Later, I finally walked with a man who claimed to have loved me silently for more than ten years, but when When we were about to get married, breast cancer was detected during a routine medical examination at the company. When the man heard that I was going to cut off a penis, he was so scared that he ran away before he even had time to say goodbye. Mingyan, it’s not me I don’t want to believe in love, but it really makes me have no confidence to believe in it. If I don’t believe in it, how can I have marriage.”

Xiao Douding looked at me seriously, and said seriously: "That's because they are not good men, they are not good enough for you. Wife, I am different from them."

"I believe." I gently held his soft little hand, "I believe you are different from them. But a good man may not be suitable for marriage. Do you still remember my father? He and my mother are also the reason" Marriage combined with love, but love alone is not enough in marriage. Because of my father's weirdness, laziness and ignorance of worldly affairs, my mother has struggled to support the family alone for 30 years. It is also entirely dependent on my mother to do things well. The family cannot do without her. So after my mother passed away, the pillar of the family collapsed. My father, a man with good hands and feet and no diseases, could not take care of himself because of his strange laziness. reason, continued a week after his mother died, he needs a nanny to take care of his life. How ridiculous, my father, he doesn't need love, he doesn't need marriage, all he needs is a nanny. But he can't afford it A nanny that costs money, so he needs a wife, a nanny that doesn’t cost money, so he needs marriage. But although his wife doesn’t cost money, he has to cheat with love, so he needs love. Everything Existence is needed and exists because of his own needs. How ridiculous, Mingyan, my father, he is not a bad person, but he will still cause harm to others. Mingyan, this is marriage, It is so mundane and vulnerable to selfish people. Marriage is such a terrible thing, how dare I want it?"

"Not everyone is like him." Xiao Douding stroked my face pityingly, his eyes were so gentle that water dripped out, "Honey, you are too extreme. I will not be like him."

"I know, I know." I followed him, didn't refute, just helpless, "Mingyan, I know, I'm extreme, not all men are like my father, and not all men approach me to deceive I'm just afraid, the more I'm afraid, the more sensitive I become, so I don't want love, and I don't want marriage, if I don't, it will definitely not hurt."

Ming Yan lowered his eyelids, and said quietly: "It's because they hurt you too deeply that you don't want to be reincarnated, you just want to die."

I laughed, remembering that I died and entered the underworld due to the spread of cancer cells after the operation.It was this stubbornness that caught Ming Yan's attention, thinking that I seemed to be a good toy, and that's why he entangled me to death.

"But you lied to me that you can resurrect your soul with a dead body. When I heard that I could time travel, I remembered the time travel articles I read on Jinjiang before. All of them were delicious and spicy, and there were a lot of handsome men and beautiful men. I thought I could really live a life. Michong’s happy life, I didn’t expect you to be so good, you arranged such a body for me.” I thought about being so easy to be deceived at the beginning, and I couldn’t help but vomit, “Others travel to enjoy happiness, but I travel to suffer, you bastard ah!"

"I just want you to know that those men are all bad, they are not as good as me, and they will not treat you better than me." Mingyan hugged me tightly and said sadly, "When you are reincarnated, please let me keep you Is the memory of the previous life just for the future, so that it will not be hurt again?"

I let out a long sigh, although I disagree with his methods, his intentions were not out of malice, "Yes, these are valuable experiences, why would I bother to learn from scratch again, to experience the ugliness of the world. I smiled and said gratefully, "I thank you, Ming Yan, for letting me suffer less."

"You don't have to thank me. I just kept your memory because I didn't want you to forget me." Xiao Douding's tears rolled down, "I did it for myself. I'm also very selfish, right? In fact, I It’s no different from them. You don’t want to marry me, but I keep pestering you and forcing you to marry me. I send you to revive your soul, and send you to the worst man. I just want you to understand that all men in this world are Not as good as me, I didn't expect you to be hurt at all, if it wasn't because I was too selfish, you wouldn't suffer, sorry, wife."

He still stubbornly called me wife, even when he was confessing, I was angry and funny, really a child.But I can't bear to criticize him anymore, which child is not like this?Once you hold on to your favorite toy, you will never let go.A question suddenly came to mind, and I asked him curiously: "Mingyan, am I dead again?"

"Death?" He opened his eyes wide, not understanding why I asked, "No, why is it so easy to die!"

"Then how did I meet you?" I asked strangely, "Aren't you little Pluto?"

He smiled "hehe": "I am in your dream, stupid wife."

Dream?Understood.I looked at him feigning displeasure, and said in a deep voice, "I have privacy, brat. You are not allowed to enter my dreams casually in the future."

"No." Ming Yan became anxious, her face flushed red, "Then I will never see you again."

"Then it won't work for you to come into my dream as soon as I fall asleep!" I was displeased.

"I won't come every time. I have to deal with a lot of business every day, so I can only come to see you when I am free. However, if you need me to see you, or ask me for help, I will leave immediately I’m here on business.” Ming Yan said with a smile, and took out a piece of black jade tied with a red string from her arms, hung it around my neck, and said like an oath, “Put it on, when you miss me, Say my name in your heart, and I'll know."

I picked up the black jade hanging in front of my chest, and saw that it was carved into the shape of a coiled dragon. The whole body of the dragon was black, and the peculiar thing was the mouth of the dragon that was opened. Carved into the flames sprayed from the dragon's mouth.

"It's so beautiful." I admired: "But, it looks very precious, what should I do if I lose it?"

"I won't throw it away. This jade has aura, and I only recognize its owner. I gave it to you, and you are its owner. You can't lose it even if you want to." Ming Yan's tone was subconsciously domineering.This is his confidence in his own abilities and the treasures of the fairy family, right?

"Thank you." I held this piece of jade, and my heart was full of gratitude. With it, it is like having a real amulet. No matter what kind of danger I face in the future, I know that there is still someone who can protect me. help.

Ming Yan shook her head and said apologetically: "I put you in such a bad body, making your situation dangerous, but you have returned to life, unless the life of life is exhausted, I can no longer control your life and death. Wife, I want you to know that no matter what happens to you, you are not alone."

I wanted to open my mouth to say thank you, but the tears flowed down first.Ming Yan wiped away my tears with his chubby little hands, opened his mouth, although his face was full of reluctance, he still spoke: "Honey, I have been out for too long, I have to go back, what else do you want me to help you?"

I thought about it and asked him, "My dear, how are you doing?"

I want to know how my only younger brother Ye Zi, the only family member in my heart, is doing well, and my abominable and hateful father, although he has caused me far more harm than family affection, he is still my blood relative.

Ming Yan waved his hand, and a phantom appeared in front of him.I saw Ye Zi and his lovely girlfriend Xiao Jing happily taking wedding photos in the photo studio.Ye Zi wants to have his own family, so fast, one day in the underworld, one year in the mortal world, he must have forgotten the sadness my death brought him.The camera changed to a scene of my home. My father was sitting in front of the computer surfing the Internet, and his remarried wife was busy in the kitchen. It was exactly the same as before.

"They are doing well, aren't they?" I smiled and hugged Mingyan's small body, "Thank you, Mingyan."

"Wife, I'm leaving." Mingyan opened her clear eyes, tears glistening, "Can you kiss me again?"

I smiled, lowered my head, and kissed his magic lamp eyes lightly.

It was a gentle refusal.He knows it, and so do I.He rushed forward, hugged me tightly, tears dripped on my neck, and choked up: "Honey, no matter what, you are my favorite person. Even if you don't want to marry me, in my heart, you Forever my wife."

His figure turned into a ball of light and faded away in my arms. I sat quietly, holding the black jade in front of my chest tightly, and laughed silently.

(End of this chapter)