Your promise, my sea

Chapter 11

Early in the morning, one after another armored vehicles and tanks drove out of the gate of the camp, with traces of track running over in different shades and staggered. After the last jeep drove out of the camp, the computer-controlled gate was quickly closed.Just before the post was changed, an off-road jeep stopped at the gate of the camp, and the sentry had to check the documents according to the regulations.The window of the jeep slid down, revealing Shen Mengchuan's expressionless face.The soldier took his ID and handed it back: "Report to the chief, those who are not from this unit need to be picked up by someone before they can enter."

Shen Mengchuan took a breath: "The chief has called, but the door is still not allowed to enter?"

The soldier was a little embarrassed: "This is the rule." After finishing speaking, he stared at Shen Mengchuan.

"What are you looking at me for? Show your fancy."

The soldiers had no choice but to stand back at the sentry post, still staring at Shen Mengchuan without looking sideways. There was no way, who asked the chief to stop right in front of him.

The two stalemate for a while, and a low laugh suddenly sounded from the back seat of the jeep: "Meng Chuan, why don't you just hang up the phone."

Shen Mengchuan plucked his hair and yelled at his soldiers, "Give me Liu Xiangdong's number."

The soldiers dialed several times, but no one answered.Shen Mengchuan was angry: "Then pick up Gu Huaiyue!"

The soldier dialed a few more times, and this time someone answered.Shen Mengchuan snorted and leaned back on his seat.

Another soft voice sounded from the back row: "Brother, didn't you serve in the army before? How come no one knows you?"

Shen Mengchuan didn't turn his head back: "Iron battalion soldiers, troops reorganized, people come and go, how many people do I know here?!"

After saying this, he was stunned for a moment. This truth can be understood by others, but it is difficult for him.He glanced down at the back seat, looked at the two ladies in the back seat——Jiang Yi and Shen Mengjiao, and stretched out his hands to stroke their hair again.

Jiang Yi is the wife of his uncle Shen Yiming, and Shen Mengjiao is his cousin.Although they are relatives, Shen Yiming used to work in City C, and later transferred back to City B to join the General Administration. He was far away from his brother who was a soldier in the S Military Region, and the two brothers were not very close.This time, Shen Mengchuan saw that the Chinese New Year was coming, so he went to visit his uncle's house and talk about the military exercises after the year. Who wanted this charming cousin to be entangled and insisted on coming to the suburbs of City B to meet an old friend? Immediately, his head was big, and his horoscope was against here!

Just when his patience was about to run out, a small soldier ran towards the jeep not far away, stood firm, gave a military salute, signed a letter, and brought the off-road jeep inside.

Shen Mengchuan has been familiar with this division since he joined the division. It has to be said that Division A has not changed much in the past few years. When he opened the division investigation camp, he stopped on purpose. One thing, I looked at Shen Mengjiao who was looking around constantly through the rearview mirror: "Jiaojiao, you haven't told me who you came here to see, which officer made you fall in love with, I'll match you up."

Shen Mengjiao blushed: "If you can handle this officer, I really have to thank you."

"Who is it?" He lit a cigarette leisurely and drove slowly on the main road of the division headquarters.

Shen Mengjiao and Jiang Yi exchanged glances, encouraged by the latter's eyes, and said the name: "Gu Huaiyue."

Who would have thought that as soon as he finished speaking, he heard a screeching sound of brakes!Shen Mengchuan was burned by the falling soot, shook his hands vigorously, and frowned, dare these two people travel so far to see a married person?
"What's wrong?" Shen Mengjiao asked.

"It's okay." He gritted his teeth and continued driving.

Yan Zhen was reading when he received the call. Gu Huaiyue sent the child to Commander Xi's house early in the morning. He said that Zhong Liying's niece brought two children to visit relatives, so he specially took Gu Jiaming to play with the two children.They are all children who grew up in the compound, and it is estimated that they will get to know each other soon.A military telephone was installed at home, and this was the first time it rang, and Yan Zhen hesitated to answer it.

"Hello, it's me, Shen Mengchuan." He was standing in front of the sentry at the gate of the family courtyard and calling Yan Zhen. The entire division knew that the family of Chief of Staff Gu had come to the army. After reporting, the soldiers answered the phone .

Yan Zhen was a little surprised: "Hello."

Shen Mengchuan took a deep breath: "I'm at the gate of your family courtyard, and I brought two people to see Gu Huaiyue, is it convenient?" He said, and he glanced at Jiang Yi and Shen Mengjiao who were waiting outside the sentry box.

"Huai Yue, he's not at home now." Yan Zhen said.Division Commander Liu Xiangdong's wife, Chu Yao, came to the army today, but Liu Xiangdong went to the training ground with the army early in the morning, and Gu Huaiyue answered the phone call, so he went to the station to pick up Chu Yao to the division headquarters.

"It's two distinguished guests!" He smiled, "Why don't you receive him for him?"

Yan Zhen thought for a moment: "Wait for me."

"Okay, I'm not in a hurry." The cigarette ash burned his fingers again, Shen Mengchuan frowned, and hung up the phone with a grunt.Walking out of the sentry box, he said to Jiang Yi and Shen Mengjiao: "Gu Huaiyue is not at the division headquarters right now, but his family members are, and they will come down immediately. If you really want to see him, you have to go home and wait."

Shen Mengjiao frowned: "Family?"

"Yes." He smiled, and when his eyes turned to the entrance of the building, his smile became stronger, "It's his wife."

After several days of heavy snowfall, it was rare for city B to see the sun today.Just walking to the entrance of the building, Yan Zhen still wrapped her coat subconsciously. The heating in the house is sufficient, but the temperature outside is a few degrees below zero, which still makes her a little deterred.At the moment, however, it wasn't just the weather that held her back.

Yan Zhen stretched out his hand to block the slanting sunlight, thinking for a moment that he was dazzled.

There were three people standing outside the sentry box, one was Shen Mengchuan, she was unmistakable in a military uniform.The other two people, one is Shen Mengjiao, and the other is - Jiang Yi?
In an instant, she froze there, motionless, and a cold air suddenly came over her body.She was equally surprised by Shen Mengjiao and Jiang Yi. Shen Mengjiao was almost staring at the person standing at the entrance of the building, Yan Zhen, it turned out to be Yan Zhen!

Jiang Yi looked at Shen Mengchuan in surprise: "I'm not mistaken, I never heard that Huai Yue got married."

Shen Mengchuan pressed down on the brim of his hat, making it impossible to see his expression: "I just heard about it too, let's go."

Seeing these three people approaching, Yan Zhen clenched the key in her hand, and the sharp saw edge hurt her palm, which brought her back to her senses.

"Hello." She looked at Shen Mengjiao and the three of them, and greeted them lightly.

Shen Mengjiao walked in front of her with a pale face: "Aren't you Jia Ming's former teacher? Why, how could it be—"

In response to Shen Mengjiao's unreasonable questioning, Yan Zhen just smiled and said in a normal tone: "Yes, I married Huai Yue later. After receiving the certificate, the wedding has not yet been held, so there is no right Too many people say that."

"So it's like this, no wonder, no wonder you and Jia Ming got so close at school." But she didn't notice it at all!Shen Mengjiao couldn't help biting her lower lip.

Looking at the chaotic Shen Mengjiao, Yan Zhen still behaved generously and smiled appropriately.

It's just undeniable that her hands are getting colder and colder - because, one person's expression has not changed from beginning to end.Thinking about it, she glared at Shen Mengchuan, then looked at Jiang Yi and Shen Mengjiao: "It's cold outside, let's sit at home."

"No need, we..."

Shen Mengjiao turned to leave, but Jiang Yi held her back.Jiang Yi frowned slightly, and forced a smile: "Alright, let's go upstairs and sit down. The last time I went to celebrate Mr. Gu's birthday, Li Wan said that Huaiyue spends the New Year in the army every year. I think this soldier is also busy. , Let’s take some time to walk around, let’s come and see him. He’s working hard in City B by himself.”

I have to say that Jiang Yi is a very good talker, and in just a few words, she reversed her original intention of coming here.But Yan Zhen just smiled slightly and didn't say anything.

Shen Mengchuan stood still at the entrance of the building: "I won't go up, you guys talk about your past, I will go to the army to hang around casually, and wait for you at the gate."

Jiang Yi nodded: "That's fine."

Yan Zhen glanced at Jiang Yi, then said to Shen Mengchuan: "You wait for me here first."

Shen Mengchuan's eyes flashed when he heard the words: "Okay."

Yan Zhen's back quickly disappeared in the corridor, and Shen Mengchuan was waiting downstairs, but he felt a bad feeling in his heart.Had he done something wrong, should he have told her the truth over the phone?But before he could come up with a result, Yan Zhen had already walked down the stairs, his face pale.

Yan Zhen looked at him: "I'll take you out, the guards here are strict, and outsiders need their family members to sign when they go out."

Shen Mengchuan was speechless, it turned out that this was the reason why he waited for a long time.He raised the brim of his hat and looked at her from top to bottom: "Don't worry, I can still go out with my military uniform."

Yan Zhen seemed to breathe a sigh of relief: "Well, you can walk slowly."

"Hey!" Shen Mengchuan hurriedly said, "I said, don't you have anything to say to me?"

Yan Zhen looked at him seriously, as if she was really thinking about what to say to him. After a long time, she said, "No."

Shen Mengchuan's reaction was to wipe his face, Yan Zhen looked at him, and finally smiled: "I think I should thank you. Thank you for making me realize a fact."

"What fact?" He paused with his hands, a little confused.

Yan Zhen shook his head: "It's nothing, let's go, goodbye."

This treatment!Shen Mengchuan gritted his teeth, and called to her when she turned around: "Yan Zhen, do you really not remember me? When I was young, in the army compound, in summer, you forgot?"

The answer to him was two faint words and her leaving back: "Forgot."

At the railway station in city B, Gu Huaiyue parked his car in the parking space, and stood at the exit of the station waiting for Chu Yao.

Dressed in a neat army green uniform, coupled with a tall and slender figure, even at this crowded exit, it is not easy to be overwhelmed.Chu Yao saw him as soon as she got out of the station, and walked towards him with her luggage. Seeing this, Gu Huaiyue hurriedly stepped forward to pick him up.

Chu Yao is a southerner. When she was young, she was a soldier of literature and art. She also met Liu Xiangdong in the army. After getting married, she went to Shandong with him without hesitation, and took care of Liu Xiangdong's family. She stayed in Shandong for more than ten years. The boldness of the north. "Is Old Liu busy today?"

Gu Huaiyue smiled, slowly slid the car to the main road, and accelerated towards the division headquarters: "Well, the work is piled up at the end of the year, and the training is also tight, and Lao Liu can't get away."

"I knew it." She pretended to be angry.

"However, Mr. Liu announced it to the public yesterday, saying that sister-in-law, you are coming today."

Chu Yao smiled: "Even if the army celebrates the New Year, the three of you, Lao Liu, Political Commissar Gao and you, will not go back to your hometown. Fortunately, Lao Liu and Political Commissar Gao are here, but you are alone. People bring their children to celebrate the New Year every year.”

Gu Huaiyue's lips curled up: "Sister-in-law who doesn't know how to do this, there is one more person this year."

"Huh?" Chu Yao was curious.

He smiled slightly: "My wife."

After reading these three words, his heart softened suddenly.

Liu Xiangdong and Chu Yao's house was separated from Gu Huaiyue's by a unit. Gu Huaiyue carried the luggage up for Chu Yao. He looked around the room and found that the water and electricity had been delivered, so he left in peace. .He looked down at his watch, it was only after two o'clock in the afternoon, and he wanted to go back to the division to have a look, but when he passed the entrance of his own building, he stopped unexpectedly.

Or, go home and have a look first?Jia Ming is not here, what will she do alone?Thinking about it, Gu Huaiyue turned and entered the corridor.

Yan Zhen picked up the freshly boiled water and refilled Shen Mengjiao and Jiang Yi's tea again.

In fact, they have been sitting opposite each other for half an hour, chatting about some irrelevant things.Shen Mengjiao's expression was full of frustration and loss that could not be concealed, Yan Zhen saw it in his eyes, and there was a slight ripple in his heart.Just a few months ago, the girl in front of her stole her job for love, thinking that if she got close to his child, she would be able to get close to his person.How she felt at that time was probably the same as Shen Mengjiao at the moment, or even worse than her.In just a few months, the roles have been reversed.Now she sat here as the victor, entertaining these two as his wife.But why, she didn't have the joy that a winner should have, not even the slightest excitement.She hardly knows what she's won, other than that status.

"Have you prepared all the things for the New Year?" Jiang Yi asked softly. She has a lot of experience and is better at controlling emotions than Shen Mengjiao.

"It's all over."

"That's good." Jiang Yi sighed, "It's not that Huaiyue doesn't have holidays. Why do you have to celebrate the New Year in City B? It's not good to keep two old people at home."

"Hehe is with Huaining." After a pause, remembering that Jiang Yi probably didn't know about Liang He, Yan Zhen added, "Liang He is Huaining's wife."

Jiang Yi was quiet for a moment, then smiled softly: "It's great, the sons in the family are all married, and the two elders of the Gu family can only enjoy themselves."

Yan Zhen smiled lightly, and the scene suddenly fell silent.At this time, the doorbell rang, Yan Zhen thought that the child had been sent home, opened the door and saw it was Gu Huaiyue, Yan Zhen couldn't help being stunned.

He took off his military cap, and before he entered the door, he saw Yan Zhen staring at him with wide open eyes without blinking, and he couldn't help asking: "What's wrong?"

"It's okay." Yan Zhen shook his head and said, "Auntie and Meng Jiao came to see us."

oh?Gu Huaiyue frowned slightly, and when he entered the door, he saw Jiang Yi and Shen Mengjiao sitting on the sofa.

He smiled and said, "We should be visiting the mansion."

Jiang Yi waved her hand: "You're busy, I know, so let's come over and take a look. It's getting late, so let's go first." She pushed Shen Mengjiao as she spoke.

Shen Mengjiao forced a smile: "If you have nothing to do during the Chinese New Year, go and sit at home, Brother Huaiyue."

Gu Huaiyue nodded: "Then I'll see you off."

"No need." Jiang Yi refused, "Meng Chuan is waiting outside. If it wasn't for my physical condition, I really want to sit with you juniors and have a good chat, but this body—"

"Are you feeling unwell?" Yan Zhen asked suddenly.

Jiang Yi smiled: "The root cause of the illness that happened due to an accident when I was young is nothing, but my memory is not very good and I am forgetful. Let's not talk about it, let's go first, don't send it away."

Even though he said that, Gu Huaiyue still sent him downstairs.Yan Zhen stood at the door without moving, until a chill came over her, and she shivered and returned to the house.After a while, hearing the sound of the doorknob turning, she turned her head slowly, looked at Gu Huaiyue and asked, "Sent away?"

Gu Huaiyue hummed, poured a cup of hot water, and stuffed it into her hand: "Drink some hot water."

Yan Zhen raised his head and took it.Gu Huaiyue looked down at her for a moment, and said, "Shen Mengjiao is the only daughter of the old man's comrade-in-arms Shen Yiming, and she was also the one the old lady tried to match for me."

Is he explaining to her?Thinking of this, Yan Zhen subconsciously clenched the water glass tightly and recovered after being scalded: "Oh, aren't you busy this afternoon?"

"I just picked up my sister-in-law, let's go home and have a look." Gu Huaiyue sat down on the sofa next to Yan Zhen, looked around, and saw that the house without the little boy was much deserted. After thinking about it, he said: "It won't pass this afternoon."

Yan Zhen turned his head and looked at him: "Mr. Liu's family is also here?"

"Ah."

"It's great, celebrating the New Year together is quite lively." Yan Zhen leaned on the sofa, took a sip of water, and felt that his body was gradually getting warmer.The sunshine in winter is like lily flowers blooming on the branches. It looks brilliant, but as soon as you step out, you can feel the bone-piercing cold instantly.

"Give me your hand."

"Ok?"

"I'll warm you up." Gu Huaiyue said, grabbing her hand.His hand is like the sun, the palm is very warm, covering her hand in an instant, "Sister-in-law said to treat guests tonight, and it happens that Jia Ming is not here, how about we invite them over?"

"My sister-in-law just came here, let her rest for a day."

Her voice was very low, she seemed to be in a bad mood, Gu Huaiyue subconsciously squeezed her hand: "What's wrong?"

Yan Zhen shook her head, she looked up at Gu Huaiyue, her bright black eyes turned slightly, as if she had something to say.She did have something to say to him, but thousands of words rushed up all at once, and she suddenly didn't know what to say.After a long time, he said in a hoarse voice: "Huai Yue, I want to drink."

There is a homely restaurant in the east of Division A, which was opened by a Sichuan military wife named Liang. It has been a small restaurant for some years, but later it made money and bought a nearby hotel, doubling its size. .

Gu Huaiyue seldom came here to eat, and the leaders of the division had never had a meal here.So when she saw him bringing his wife to the shop for a drink today, Sister-in-law Liang's mouth was so open that her jaw almost dropped.

Regarding this, Gu Huaiyue just smiled slightly: "Special dishes plus beer."

"okay."

Sister-in-law Liang responded and rushed to serve them a few signature dishes and three bottles of beer.

Yan Zhen watched and shook his head: "Sister-in-law, we don't want beer, but white bar instead."

Sister-in-law Liang glanced at Gu Huaiyue, joke, liquor!Who dares to get his wife drunk in front of the division chief of staff!However, to her surprise, Gu Huaiyue nodded, so she had no choice but to do so.

Gu Huaiyue looked at Yan Zhen, who was sitting with her head bowed, not responding to the dishes served by Mrs. Liang.He thought for a while, picked up a pair of chopsticks and handed them to her: "Eat something before drinking."

Yan Zhen seemed to come back to his senses suddenly, blinking his eyes slightly: "I want to drink."

At this moment, she is very like a child, if she can't get something, she will be obsessed with it, and even her eyes look particularly aggrieved.He still didn't understand what was going on, but because of her like this, he still poured her a glass of wine, and then quietly watched her drink one glass after another.His originally pale face flushed a little, and his cold hands warmed up, but he became more and more uneasy.I can't let her drink like this anymore.

"Yan Zhen." Gu Huaiyue clasped her hand, "I can't drink any more, let's eat something." He lowered his voice almost subconsciously, as if he was afraid of scaring her.

"Then what should I do if there is more than half of the bottle left?" Yan Zhen whispered, as if muttering to himself, "Why don't you drink?"

He looked at the half bottle of wine in front of him: "Yan Zhen, we only need one bottle."

"Okay." She nodded unconsciously. She drank half a bottle of wine to her heart's content, but she was also drunk.

Gu Huaiyue took the remaining wine, poured it into the glass in front of him, and poured two glasses.He looked at the two full glasses in front of him, and then at Yan Zhen.She drank too much, her cheeks were flushed, and her eyes seemed to be covered with water vapor, which was wet.Gu Huaiyue gave her a serious look, then raised his head, and drank all the two glasses of wine. The 53-degree wine made his stomach burn and hurt, and he coughed twice because he drank too quickly.But Yan Zhen was lying on the table, as if falling asleep.

Gu Huaiyue supported Yan Zhen's arm and walked slowly on the way home.

A few military officers cast curious gazes at them, but they were all forced back by the cold gaze of the chief of staff.It seems that he overestimated her drinking capacity. She was drunk, and she staggered a little when she walked, but she still insisted on not letting him help her. "Don't help me!" Yan Zhen stood on the spot and collected himself, "I'm not drunk yet."

Gu Huaiyue stared at her intently, as if looking at a child who was throwing a tantrum. After a long time, he hooked the corners of his mouth helplessly: "It's fine if I don't help you, but you have to walk steadily."

"I'll walk steadily!" Yan Zhen promised, but she sprained just as she took a step, and Gu Huaiyue naturally supported her.Yan Zhen looked at him, and suddenly stopped: "I remembered a line of poetry: Draw a knife to cut off the water, and the water will flow more, and raise a glass to relieve sorrow and sorrow!"

Being drunk and reciting poems, Yan Zhenke startled the soldiers standing guard at the sentry box in the family building, but seeing the face of the chief of staff, he didn't dare to say anything, so he turned off the flashlight resentfully.

"Don't move around." Gu Huaiyue reached out and clasped her arm to prevent her from moving around. With a light movement, he brought her into his arms: "Tell me, what's wrong with you?"

Stuffed in his arms, she muttered, "I'm fine, I just drank some wine."

Gu Huaiyue looked down at her, and suddenly sighed: "You have something on your mind."

worry?She did have something on her mind, and her mind was hidden too deep and buried for too long, almost becoming a heart disease.It seems that forgetfulness is also a good thing. If you don't want to remember, you can forget it openly.

Yan Zhen pressed his forehead against the first button of his uniform, the cool metallic texture made her awake for a moment, but the subsequent upsurge of uneasiness made her miserable, as if who was in her heart Throwing a handful of needles, it hurts: "I want to forget, I think about it all the time, I tell myself not to think about it, I tell myself to be happy, I almost did it—" She paused, hoarse Repeating the last sentence carefully: "I almost made it, but unfortunately I saw her again."

Gu Huaiyue looked down at the top of her hair, hesitated for a moment, then reached out and patted her back lightly.He didn't know how to coax her, he just remembered that when little friend Gu Jiaming was still young, he could stop the little guy's tears by patting him on the back like this.

"You know? I was so stupid when I saw her today, but you see, she forgot all about it. It doesn't matter if she doesn't remember me, but you said how could she forget my father? As long as I think of me-you say , why, why did she forget—"

She asked this question repeatedly, like a stubborn child searching for the answer to a complicated question. If she figured it out, everything would be fine. If she couldn't figure it out, she would ask the question to the end.However, how he wanted to give her an answer, he didn't even have time to be shocked.

Yan Zhen also understands that even though she has done so much, even including her marriage, it is impossible for her to get the answer. It is ridiculous to think about it: "It would be great if I didn't meet her. If I didn't meet you, I should How nice." There was some pain, even if her life's happiness was at stake, she didn't want to go through it again.

Yan Zhen's words made Gu Huaiyue's body stiffen involuntarily. He was silent for a moment, then reached out to support her arm: "Yan Zhen, stand still."

"I won't stand!" She was stubborn, "I'm not your soldier, don't order me!"

It turned out that the consequences of letting her get drunk were so serious, he had to remember that he would never let her touch alcohol again.Gu Huaiyue bent down slightly, picked her up horizontally from one side, and quickly controlled her limbs and led her into the corridor.

"let me go!"

Yan Zhen struggled on his own, his face flushed, Gu Huaiyue hugged her with one hand and pressed her arm with the other, he almost couldn't hold her back. Seeing that she was about to fall from his hands, he couldn't suppress the sudden anger and called her name: "Yan Zhen!"

The entire corridor is full of echoes.

He got angry, he has always had that indifferent appearance, as if nothing can arouse his emotional waves, and the occasional expression of happiness and anger is also invisible.Now she finally pissed him off and he lost his temper and it was for her.She should be happy, but why does this feel so bad?Grabbing his collar, Yan Zhen wanted to cry.

"Yan Zhen." He tried his best to restrain his emotions. He wanted to tell her not to say such things again, because he was about to lose her.

If this continues, there is really only one way left for him - he loosens his grip on her, locks her waist tightly, raises her chin, leans over and kisses her lips forcefully.It seemed to be venting his anger at the moment, or perhaps his anxiety.

After a long time, Gu Huaiyue let go of her when he could no longer feel her struggle.He thought he frightened her, but at this moment, Yan Zhen caught his neck unexpectedly, and pressed his soft lips.She didn't know how to kiss and was in a panic, her teeth almost bit his lower lip to bleed.Gu Huaiyue's whole body was shocked, and he immediately put his arms around her shoulders and pulled her away.

Yan Zhen stared blankly at him, and only after seeing his lower lip bitten by her did she understand what he had just experienced.It was her first kiss, but he rejected it like that.Yan Zhen lowered his head and finally couldn't help crying: "Don't treat me like this, if you don't love me, don't treat me like this."

Gu Huaiyue looked at Yan Zhen, and suddenly seemed to lose all his strength.But even though he became exhausted, he still stretched out his hand and supported her: "Yan Zhen, let's talk, shall we?"

Only one emergency light was on in the bedroom.

Yan Zhen lay on the bed and let him wipe her face messed up from crying with a warm towel.The light in the room was very dim, so she couldn't see his expression at this moment, but could only feel his gentle and restrained movement of wiping her face.Yan Zhen closed his eyes, but couldn't sleep.Others would fall asleep when they were drunk, but why did she become like this when it was her turn, drunken and noisy.

She forced herself to open her eyes, and from the corner of her eye, she saw Gu Huaiyue washing a towel in the hot tub, and then wiping her hands.As soon as she touched it, she couldn't help crying out: "It hurts—"

Gu Huaiyue paused, glanced at her, and said, "Be patient first, if you scratch your skin, it will inevitably hurt you."

She probably got it when she was messing around in the corridor just now, she didn't want to think about the gaffe tonight, so she hummed lightly, and Yan Zhen turned her head away.But not long after, she heard Gu Huaiyue speak, his voice was particularly deep and hoarse in the dark room.

"Yan Zhen, do you still remember the comrade-in-arms I sacrificed in Tibet?"

She was silent for a long time before she pressed the pillow and responded in a low voice. Gu Huaiyue who received the response said unhurriedly, "His name is Qin Fang, and we are soldiers of the same year." Her wound was rubbed with medical alcohol, the light source was faint yellow, and his side face could be seen slightly, which was soft and different from usual.

"Later, the special forces came to our regiment for selection. We went to more than half of the company, but only the two of us passed the first-level selection. At that time, I thought, it's great, it's good to be assigned to a unit to fight side by side. At that time, the two of us They are all platoon leaders, and they are still very young. I only know that whether it is a soldier or a general, they will be proud to die on the battlefield." He said lightly, and then changed his hand to apply medicine, "But then I went to the base of the special forces. Only then did I realize that there is only one of them among the two of us, so there will be another selection between the two of us."

She froze for a moment, and then listened to him quietly: "At that time, I really wanted to give up, but Qin Fang picked up my gun, wiped it clean and told me that he wanted me to compete with him. I left and he stayed. , or he leaves and I stay."

He fell silent when he said this, until Yan Zhen couldn't help asking in a hoarse voice: "And then?"

"I won and stayed," he said, with a bitter smile at the end, "but then I never saw him again. Huilian went to deliver supplies the next day and died."

Yan Zhen was startled.

"Then, I became a Special Forces soldier, and I was the thorn in the side of the Special Forces. Because I think they destroyed my friendship and my faith. Believe it or not, this is me when I was young."

Yan Zhen moved, didn't turn around or respond, and continued to listen to him: "Later the brigade took care of me." He still remembered a sentence that the brigade said at that time, he said that as a soldier, no matter where he goes, his comrades will be forever comrades.Even if the person is dead, what does it matter if they are not in the same unit? !
Thinking of these past events, Gu Huaiyue suddenly smiled: "I was scolded by him, and I felt that I was so stupid, and then I honestly became a special soldier. Afterwards, I went home and got married , At that time, I really felt that the happy days were not far away, and it was right in front of me.”

Yan Zhen inexplicably felt uncomfortable in his heart. He never mentioned his last marriage to her.Now he finally said it, although the tone was still the same, but she could clearly hear his longing and longing.She never knew that he had been like that before, looking forward to happiness like a ignorant teenager.She suddenly didn't want to hear it anymore, and struggled to turn her head away, but Gu Huaiyue grabbed her forearm.

Gu Huaiyue looked at her like this: "I once thought that some things should never be mentioned again, and I also wanted to forget them as if they were the past. But Yan Zhen, I couldn't." He sat on the bunk in front of the bed On the soft blanket on the bed, he talked about his past in a leisurely manner. Whether she was listening or not, he just wanted to say it: "My ex-wife is Lin Ke, and she is five years younger than me. She was in high school. Transferred to City C, the residence is very close to Gu Yuan, so she always goes to and from school with Huaining, and has a good relationship with our family. She likes Huaining, but Huaining is very stubborn, he doesn't like her , and even ran to become a soldier. Lin Ke is like a little princess. She is loved and pampered by all of us, and she lives a carefree, heartless life. Ning rejected her. After learning that Huaining was a soldier, she cried very sadly, as if she had been abandoned. At that time, I only thought of her as a child, and thought it was nothing special. After a few days, she was alive and kicking again, but Then one day she told me that she wanted to marry me. I asked her why, and she said that if I really loved her, she would agree, so I agreed. I loved her as my sister, and then tried hard to treat her as my wife It hurts, and we all try to live as a couple."

Speaking of this, he laughed at himself, but in Yan Zhen's view, he felt that it was a kind of happiness.

"After we got married, we got along very well, because I was away from home for about eleven and a half months out of twelve months a year, so I seldom quarreled. Later, she asked me that she was not afraid that she would run away with others if I didn't come back. Is it? My answer is that if you are happy, then we will start to quarrel." He smiled at this point, "She said that I don't understand love at all, I think I may really understand, I thought I loved her. She is love, but later she told me that a person who does not have any possessive desires for his wife, how can he talk about love? I think, that is probably the case. There is no real love between us, so after everything was spread out, she refused. Seeing me, I don't know how to face her, I can only escape further and for a longer time."

His words shocked Yan Zhen for a moment, because she could hardly think of the reason for their unhappiness.She turned her head and asked in a low voice, "Then, how did she die?"

"Difficult labor. The doctor said that the cesarean section was performed too late. Before that, Lin Ke insisted on giving birth naturally. Moreover, she had antenatal depression. I just didn't know about these. When she entered the operating room, I still I was on duty in the army and couldn’t get a call.” His face suddenly became tense, “At that time, he received a mission, a drug cartel was operating at the border, and it sent our squadron to assist the police in arresting them. Border drug dealers are very cunning, We will not hesitate to swallow drugs in order to sell drugs. We met such a group of drug dealers. They are all equipped with guns, so the troops can shoot and kill them when necessary." After a pause, he said, "That was the first time I It was the only time he killed anyone."

Yan Zhen suddenly opened his eyes wide and looked at him in disbelief.

"It's a woman. Her belly is slightly distended, and she's trying to take out the micro-punch attached to her waist while we're both firing. I can see her every move through the scope, before she takes out the gun. , I shot her, and I shot her.” He said in a hoarse voice, “I thought there were drugs hidden in her stomach, so I shot, and I found out after the autopsy report that there was She was four months pregnant. So I shot two shots, and then I got back to the base and got a call from home."

She could almost immediately guess what he heard from that phone call. He had just shot and killed two people, and immediately received the news of his wife's dystocia and death. She couldn't even imagine his expression at that time.Yan Zhen tried to speak, and stopped him from speaking, but found that his throat was so hoarse that he couldn't speak, his nose suddenly became sore, and the corners of his eyes were instantly moistened with liquid.

"I answered the phone and found it unbelievable, and I couldn't figure it out. Then I locked myself in the room and thought about it for three days and three nights. I was thinking about what fate is. I never believed in fate or coincidence before, but you know Is it? Sometimes fate is just such a coincidence, if you don’t believe it, it will make you fall so hard that you dare not get up again.” He thought he had forgotten all this, but he never told anyone.But now it is so smooth to say it, as if it has been repeated a thousand times and ten thousand times in the bottom of my heart. "In those few days, I wanted to talk to someone, but I didn't know who to talk to when I picked up the phone. No one in my family knew that I was on a mission. Before that, I called home and said that I was participating in an exercise, so I didn't dare I can't tell the people in the team. The only person who knows is the team leader. I told him that I can't figure it out. After thinking for so long, I can't come up with a result. The team leader told me that if you can't figure something out, don't Think, do what I have to do. So, I have to go home to deal with her funeral, and then leave the special forces."

"Stop talking!" Her voice was obviously crying with depression.But Gu Huaiyue just held her hand as if he didn't realize it.

"I can't stay in that place anymore, because as soon as I lie down, I can't help but think about what the people around me are going through when I shoot and kill people, over and over again, day and night. After being transferred here, I didn't If I want to get married again, it’s not that I don’t want to, but I don’t dare to think about it. I don’t understand. I’m not yet 30 years old. Why do I have to go through life and death? A big joke. In order not to make myself more ridiculous, I decided not to think about anything, just tell myself that this kind of life and death goodbye once is enough."

He heard Yan Zhen's suppressed sobs, and knew that she was crying for him, and the crying seemed to pour into his heart, causing him pain wave after wave.He grabbed her hand, and his voice was extremely hoarse: "I really think this is enough, but I met you again later."

When he proposed to her, he just wanted to find a woman to live a peaceful life, but he didn't expect that this woman would bring him so many surprises.She knows soldiers.She loves his child very much, and even brings him across the grassland to see him at night because of a little lie.She was willing to go to Tibet with him, to enter the restricted area of ​​life above 4000 meters above sea level to meet his comrades in arms—too many things that he never thought of before had happened to him.Therefore, he had to face himself and her.

"I once asked my team leader what love is. The team leader said that everyone has an answer to this question, and I have to find it myself, but let me tell you, I haven't found the answer so far. Did you forget I also have those that don’t fall off. It’s like a hurdle, like digging a grave in my heart, and every person buried in it has to erect a monument. This monument will stand there, no matter how much you want to cross it. But even if this No matter how narrow the road is, people can get through it, right?"

Her hand was held by him all the time, so she could only turn her head and bury her face in the pillow sobbing.Gu Huaiyue supported her face with his hands, and looked at her: "Stop saying that you regret meeting me, I want to be with you."

She rested her head on his shoulder and cried her heart out, not only for herself, but also for the man in front of her.She said that she regretted it, so he insisted on showing her everything about him, which made her hurt and made her unable to do anything again.He was sure, and she couldn't refuse at all.

Yan Zhen didn't know how to speak, let alone what to say.The only thing I could do was hug him tightly.

That's it, she told herself.Don't think about the past anymore, don't say regret anymore, just be with him like this.

Because she also wants to be happy.

(End of this chapter)