Your promise, my sea

Chapter 19

It wasn't until the evening that Mr. Gu saw Gu Huaiyue's attending physician.He had only heard about it from Tu Xiao before, but now he met him and unexpectedly discovered that the doctor who performed the surgery on his son turned out to be an old comrade-in-arms who had gone to the front with him.

Gu Huaiyue took the opportunity to pass the two old people who were reminiscing about the old days, walked towards Yan Zhen who was standing aside with his head down, and asked, "Shen Mengjiao is gone?"

"Ah."

Yan Zhen nodded with a sullen head, and Gu Huaiyue brushed her hair, seeing her pale face: "What's wrong, your face is so ugly?"

"It's okay." Yan Zhen murmured, and by the way drove away the negative thoughts in his mind, "It's not good to be a little bit emotional."

She deliberately said it outrageously, which made him chuckle: "Okay. The big deal is that you can get some money from me, okay?"

Normally, she would have glared at him, but now Yan Zhen felt a little unbearable when she heard him say such words, and she took a deep breath to suppress this feeling: "I just heard that the intern Said you went to check again, is there any problem?"

"No big problem." He looked at her softly. "The old doctor said that he was afraid that the tear would move again, and that he was afraid that it would affect the operation plan. He checked and everything was fine."

"That's good." Yan Zhen felt relieved and held his hand tightly.

After the old man finished talking about the past, the three of them went back together and had a simple dinner. The old man proposed to go back first, and there were activities in the evening.Yan Zhen, who was packing her things, heard this and hurried over. The old man stopped her with gestures, so Yan Zhen had to stop. Gu Huaiyue handed the hat to the old man, and told him to pay attention to his health.

"Okay, you kid is still nagging me."

The old man said, before leaving, he took a deep look at Yan Zhen.Yan Zhen understood what the old man meant, that was to tell her not to think too much.The old man understands her thoughts, but he still takes care of her emotions, Yan Zhen is very grateful for this.

"Why are you in a daze? Want to go with the old man?"

A long-sleeved jacket was draped over his shoulders, and Yan Zhen turned his head to meet Gu Huaiyue's smiling eyes.She didn't refute his words, but just tightened her coat and got into his arms.

"Can you hug me?" she asked sullenly.

Gu Huaiyue looked down at someone who threw himself into his arms automatically: "Why are you so active tonight?"

"Do you want to hug me?" She deliberately made a fierce expression.

Gu Huaiyue smiled, and hugged her horizontally: "Of course."

Not only to hug, but also to have a princess hug!And Yan Zhen thought that he was "wolf-like" like that night again when he saw his movements so quickly, so he was so frightened that he quickly protected himself, but he didn't make any next move after he put her on the bed.

Gu Huaiyue looked at her helplessly with his head propped on one hand: "I'm also the People's Liberation Army anyway, am I that unreliable?"

"The People's Liberation Army likes to conduct surprise raids." Yan Zhen grunted and covered the two of them with a quilt.

Not to mention, he really wanted to surprise her again.It's a pity that the operation will be performed the day after tomorrow, so we must pay attention to "temperance" in these two days.In fact, he wanted to hug her after he knew she had cried in the old military doctor's office. He could roughly understand her mood after seeing Shen Mengjiao, and he also understood that she would be a little fragile at the moment, but the elders were present, and the two juniors couldn't be too nervous. too intimate.So, he just put his arms around her shoulders.Now, with her in his arms, he could feel a certainty that made him feel at ease.

After sleeping in each other's arms overnight, the old military doctor called Gu Huaiyue over early the next morning, saying that yesterday's examination results came out.Yan Zhen wanted to follow, but was stopped by Gu Huaiyue. He pointed to the thermos that the old man had sent over: "Drink the porridge first, and I'll go back when I go." This posture is the same as at home. Not like a patient either.

Yan Zhen pursed her mouth, and sat on the bedside drinking porridge spoonful by spoonful, when she suddenly heard a low buzzing sound coming from under the pillow, she turned it out and saw it was Gu Huaiyue's cell phone.After thinking for a while, she pressed the answer button, and a hurried voice came from the other end: "Hello, is this Huai Yue? Is Yan Zhen here? Ask her to answer the call."

This voice belonged to Jiang Yi.

Yan Zhen shook the phone vigorously and said, "It's me."

There was a sudden silence on the other side, and it took a long time before he hesitated to open his mouth: "I couldn't get through to your mobile phone, so I called Huaiyue's. Did you bother him?"

"fine."

Only then did Jiang Yi feel relieved: "That's good, I'm fine. I just heard from Jiaojiao that she went to find you yesterday. Don't take it to heart. Jiaojiao's problem is that I haven't solved it. I will tell her understandable……"

"I know." Interrupting her eager words, Yan Zhen said lightly, "I don't care about this, please rest assured."

"...Hey, good." Jiang Yi responded repeatedly, "Then I won't bother you."

"Please wait a moment." Yan Zhen stopped her and said after a moment of silence, "Do you have time now? If so, let's meet. I have some questions to ask you."

Jiang Yi was a little stunned for a moment, she didn't expect Yan Zhen to offer to meet: "Okay."

After hanging up the phone, guessing that Gu Huaiyue would have to come back later, Yan Zhen put on a coat, explained to Tu Xiao, and walked out of the hospital. When he reached the gate of the hospital, he happened to see Jiang Yi get off the car.When the four eyes met, Yan Zhen could see from her eyes that she was tired and sick. It seemed that Shen Mengjiao didn't lie to herself. Jiang Yi really had a bad time these few days.

It was still the teahouse from last time, and the tea ordered was still the same as last time. Yan Zhen asked after silently tasting a cup: "I said before that I don't care about your identity, but yesterday Meng Jiao came to question me. At that time, I suddenly realized that it would be better to understand this question." Holding the teacup tightly, Yan Zhen looked up at Jiang Yi: "It may be presumptuous to ask like this, but I want to know, are you my biological mother?"

After listening to the first half of the sentence, Jiang Yi understood what Yan Zhen was going to ask, and now she was silent, her hands on the table curled up involuntarily: "Yan Zhen, I promise your grandma will not mention this matter to you. "

"But if you don't clarify this issue, your family and I will never be able to let go of it."

"Yan Zhen, I—"

"I understand what grandma means." Yan Zhen said, "But this is my problem, and grandma can't always bear it for me."

Jiang Yi looked directly at Yan Zhen. She had never seen Yan Zhen being so stubborn. His temper really resembled that of Old Yan.

Moving her lips, she said three words slowly: "I am not."

After getting the answer, Yan Zhen's mind went blank for a moment, and then she leaned against the table and asked in a hoarse voice: "Then why does my father keep your photo? Who is my biological mother? Where is she now?"

"Yan Zhen—" Jiang Yi looked at her who was a little out of control in panic.

"Please tell me!"

Forced by her series of questions with no way out, Jiang Yi closed her eyes tightly and said in a hoarse voice, "She passed away."

Those four words completely confused Yan Zhen.This answer was indeed the easiest answer for her to think of, but when she heard it with her own ears, she still couldn't accept it completely for a while, and sat there for a long time without moving.

Jiang Yi also took a sip of tea in a panic: "Actually, I never want to recall this period of the past. Even if your grandma didn't remind me, I wouldn't mention it in front of you. I thought you would know, but then I thought about your father. Why should I tell you, it would be nice to let you grow up without any worries. Or I will tell you when you grow up and reach the age where you can bear the truth." Jiang Yi looked up at Yan Zhen: "I never thought of that , Old Yan, he will die so early."

Yan Zhen blinked his eyes slightly, as if he was listening.

"Yan Zhen, the reason why your grandma doesn't want me to tell you is because she is worried about you." Jiang Yi looked at her, as if she was thinking about how to tell her, and her speech was extremely slow, "Because, Lao Yan is not your biological son. Father."

Yan Zhen didn't seem to hear clearly: "What did you say?"

"I said Lao Yan, he is not your biological father." Jiang Yi repeated.

Yan Zhen suddenly gasped from the bottom of his heart, stood up while supporting the table, fixed his eyes on Jiang Yi, and almost squeezed out the words: "How is it possible!"

She thought that this would scare Jiang Yi away, but Jiang Yi didn't refute, and still looked at her like that, as if what she was stating was a very ordinary thing.In the end, she was the one who was frightened, trembling slightly while supporting the table: "He has been with me since I can remember, and he treats me so dearly, how could he not be my biological father?!"

"It's true." Jiang Yi looked at her like she was looking at a child at the moment, "Your biological father was also a soldier. He grew up with Lao Yan and joined the army. The border post was separated. Your father is an admirable soldier, because he was stationed at the border post with your mother, guarding the water pipeline for nearly ten years. Such hard living and working conditions, the two depend on each other, Both happy and hard."

It's not that Yan Zhen has never heard of such a husband and wife post, but she never thought that it would have anything to do with her.

"Later, your mother became pregnant when your father was due to change jobs in two years, and your father sent your mother to the county hospital for delivery when he was about to give birth. Because he was on duty every day, he invited a fellow villager to accompany your mother. Live in the hospital. It can be said that everything is well prepared, just waiting to hold the baby. During the delivery, your mother almost lost half of her life to give birth to you. Before she could take a look at you, she fainted. The condition of the frontier hospital is poor, and the blood pressure can't be stopped at all..." At the end, Jiang Yi's voice was choked.

That's it, died?Yan Zhen was even a little dazed: "What about my father?"

Jiang Yi calmed down: "He buried your mother in Tibet, and then asked for leave to return to his hometown, and handed you over to Lao Yan and grandma, who helped take care of you. He said he had no relatives, and the conditions there were poor. , I can’t let you suffer as a child. The higher-ups also proposed to transfer him back, but your father refused. He said he would stay there with your mother, and he would be buried there after death. Who would have thought it would be As the saying goes, there was an avalanche on the way back to the outpost, a small car was completely buried in the snow, and when the rescue team arrived to dig them out, they were all out of breath."

"Later, Lao Yan insisted on keeping you at home. At that time we were preparing to get married, we had a big fight over this matter, and later we separated." Jiang Yi said, a little ashamed, "In retrospect, I still I would be ashamed of myself for being selfish at the time."

After that, there was a suffocating silence.Yan Zhen stood quietly, until his hands and feet were completely cold, and he slowly came back to his senses.She sat down slowly along the chair, looked up at Jiang Yi, and was full of thoughts for a while, as if she had a lot to say.

Jiang Yi waited silently, but in the end she only heard this sentence: "Thank you for telling me this."

After meeting Jiang Yi, Yan Zhen was in a daze.

She was not mentally prepared.Before meeting Jiang Yi, she told herself that she could accept any reason.Not because she is open-minded, but because she doesn't want to disturb her life because of these things.But the only thing she didn't expect was that the truth would be so unbelievable.

When she was a child, Yan Zhen would guess whether her mother was alive before seeing the photo. After seeing the photo, she would wonder if the person in the photo was her mother. The only thing she didn't expect was that she was adopted by her father.

She is very confused now.

When she thinks of her biological parents, the two relatives who have never seen each other in the snowy plateau for ten years and are buried there will feel strange and unimaginable.Yan Zhen didn't know how to treat Jiang Yi, and there was - Gu Huaiyue.

When thinking of him, Yan Zhen's eyelids suddenly twitched.She pressed her eyes with her fingers, and looked up to see the old military doctor and the old man coming from outside the ward.

The old military doctor looked at her kindly: "Where's Huaiyue?"

Yan Zhen woke up and said: "Someone from the teacher came to talk to him about something, and he will be back soon."

The old military doctor smiled and said to the old man: "When you go back after the operation, you have to ask your daughter-in-law to make up for it. I see her complexion is worse than Huai Yue's."

The old man looked at Yan Zhen and nodded: "Did you hear that, this is the doctor's order, which is more effective than my words."

Yan Zhen tried his best to smile, lowered his head and put the broken hair behind his ears.

Gu Huaiyue came back in the middle of the sentence, and being caught by the old military doctor was an education: "Old Gu, your second son is not very patient, and he is going to be on the operating table the next day and he is busy sticking to his job."

The old man immediately stated: "I'll hand him over to you, you can train him however you want, and I won't interfere."

Gu Huaiyue was very helpless when the two old men sang together, so he had to turn his head to meet Yan Zhen and smile.

On the second day of surgery, the doctor told me to go to bed earlier at night, because I had to get up early the next morning to prepare.It is not a difficult operation, it lasts for a long time, and the first work is cumbersome.Chief of Staff Gu felt that he could bear it, because he could go home a few days after the operation was completed. This was decided after haggling with the old military doctor for a long time.

Sitting at the end of the bed, Gu Huaiyue looked at Yan Zhen who was exchanging postoperative precautions with Tu Xiao not far away, the corners of his mouth slightly curled up.After waiting for a while, seeing that the two were still talking, they couldn't help but chase them away.

Tu Xiao grinned and left, while Yan Zhen glared at him: "What are you doing, I still have something to ask."

"Don't worry, it won't be too late after the operation is finished." The chief of staff was very confident. Thinking about the difficult days of convalescence during this period, Gu Huaiyue couldn't help but sigh, "It's finally coming to an end, I I miss Gu Jiaming a little bit."

When mentioning the children, Yan Zhen unconsciously showed a smile: "Jia Ming must also miss you very much."

"It's hard to say." Gu Huaiyue lay flat on his back and looked at her, smiled and said, "Maybe he misses you more. Little brat, once you have a mother, you forget about your father."

Yan Zhen was choked speechless by his words, she sat down beside his bed, and asked with a smile, "Are you jealous of me?"

Smiling so proudly, Gu Huaiyue couldn't help pulling her over and holding her into his arms: "It seems, there is a little bit."

"Then you should spend more time with him in the future."

"Yes, there will be time in the future." He said, looking at her puzzled look, he smiled again, "I will tell you when the organization formally talks to me."

"What about now?" She squinted at him.

"Secret for now."

A few days ago, Liu Xiangdong came to him to talk about this matter. He said that he was recommended by Commander Xi as an important person from a certain military academy.Asked why, Lao Liu only said that his body was not suitable for field troops.When I first heard it, Gu Huaiyue thought it was funny. A few years ago, when he came down from the special forces, he was injured all over his body, and he didn't listen to what the above said.

In the end, it was Lao Liu who enlightened him, asking him to think more about his family and Yan Zhen.That's why he hesitated a little. You know, the military academy he was going to go to was in City C, which was much more convenient than City B in every way.

Yan Zhen didn't know this, looking at Gu Huaiyue's serious look, he just wanted to bite him, but it was just thinking about it.Suddenly the light was turned off with a bang, and Yan Zhen's shoulders were immediately hooped: "Okay, it's time to turn off the lights, go to bed."

"Wait a minute, I still have work to do!" Yan Zhen struggled, but the hand on her waist remained motionless, "Gu Huaiyue!"

There was nothing she could do about someone who was a rascal, but seeing his peaceful sleeping face and the corners of his mouth curled up, she couldn't get angry.After a few seconds of stalemate, Yan Zhen finally surrendered and nestled into his arms.

And the person above the head opened his eyes at this moment, looked at the obedient little white rabbit in his arms and smiled slightly.

"What are you laughing at?" Yan Zhen asked sullenly.

Gu Huai coughed twice and said, "Standing still is the way to defend against the enemy. The ancients never deceived me."

Get cheap and sell well!Yan Zhen was so angry that he laughed back, his eyes turned red when he smiled.

The operation was scheduled for the next morning, and the old man came over early in the morning.

Although the old man has experienced many battles in his life, the saying that the older a person is, the less courageous he is, is not bad at all.Everyone can see the old man's nervousness.

Gu Huaiyue had been injured before, but he had never had such a big scene, so he couldn't laugh or cry for a while.He looked at Yan Zhen who was standing aside silently watching the nurse prepare his feet, and reached out to hold hers: "It's okay, minor surgery."

"I know."

"Then why are you nervous?"

"Not as thick-skinned as you, Naikang."

If Chief Gu heard this, he would probably launch a surprise attack, but now in front of so many people, all he could do was squeeze the hand he held in his palm.

The old military doctor has already arrived, and the preparations for the operating room are ready, just waiting for this patient, Yan Zhen urged him: "Hurry up and get to work, don't be dazed."

Gu Huaiyue didn't let go, and still looked at her like this.Yan Zhen understood what he meant, and a blush appeared on her cheeks.She looked up at everyone, and everyone turned their backs knowingly, Yan Zhen seized the time and leaned over to kiss him: "I'll wait for you."

Gu Huaiyue smiled lightly, and squeezed her hand tightly before letting go, as if in response.

The door of the operating room was tightly closed in front of her, and Yan Zhen stood there for a while before walking to the bench beside him and sitting side by side with Mr. Gu.

"Dad, this corridor is a bit noisy, you can go to Huaiyue's ward and wait."

"It's okay, just wait here." The old man smiled, "Your mother sprained her ankle a few days ago and couldn't come, she said that during Huaiyue's surgery, I was waiting every second outside, and I would notify her as soon as it was over. "

Yan Zhen also smiled slightly, no longer dissuading.

In fact, she understood that the old man sat here with her because he was afraid that she would be too worried to sit here alone.Gu Huaiyue once told her that the old man talks less, but he loves the children no less than Li Wan. If one day you talk to the old man, it means that there is a major problem in the direction of life.

Yan Zhen just smiled when he heard it, but now that he thinks about it, it's really like this.Old man, he knows people's hearts better than anyone else.

She hesitated for a moment, then turned her head: "Dad, I went to see Jiang Yi yesterday."

The old man said, "Did you talk?"

"Well, she came to see me several times before, and each time it was a bad breakup. We finally sat down and talked yesterday."

"Got an answer?"

"Yes." Yan Zhen bowed his head, his voice hoarse, "She said, she is not."

This answer did not surprise Mr. Gu too much. He paused and looked at Yan Zhen: "Then did you ask her who your biological mother is?"

Yan Zhen nodded, and simply told the old man what Jiang Yi said that day.

After listening to the old man, he fell silent and sighed for a long time: "Your father is a good man. Not every soldier can leave his homeland and stick to the plateau for such a long time like him. And your mother, they are all worthy of admiration. "

The corners of Yan Zhen's mouth curled up slightly, but his heart was inexplicably sour: "Unfortunately, I didn't know their existence until I lived for almost 30 years."

"You can't say that." The old man comforted her, "You were young at the time, and it would be too hard for you to grow up with this burden. Your grandma and the others don't say that they have their reasons, but I would do the same."

"I understand." Yan Zhen bowed his head, "I won't blame anyone, whether it's my biological parents or grandma and father, no matter how much I do, I can't compare to their efforts."

"Then you have figured it out." The old man smiled, "But I see that you have been absent-minded since yesterday. What's the matter?"

Yan Zhen lowered his head when he heard the words, and after a long silence, he said: "I just feel a little confused, I don't know how to deal with Jiang Yi, I feel a little guilty about Huai Yue, and grandma, I don't know what to do. How to tell her the truth I know, and my biological parents—”

There were so many questions that she was almost overwhelmed.

The old man understood her complicated mood at the moment: "These are all hurdles, you have to make up your own mind how to cross them, just don't give chances to regret in the days to come."

Such gentle relief from the old man suddenly made Yan Zhen's nose sore. After thinking for a long time, she finally made a decision: "Dad, I want to go to Tibet."

"To Tibet?"

"I want to see my biological parents." Yan Zhen said, "I've been thinking about what I should do these days. Might not be safe."

"Of course it should, and I have no reason to object." The old man smiled, "It's just a girl, what should Huaiyue do?"

This is where she hesitated.

Yan Zhen shook the hands curled up on her knees, and said hoarsely: "I don't know." The person she didn't know how to face was him: "Actually, I want to tell him, but I don't know what to do." How to say."

"If he knew, he wouldn't let you go alone."

"I understand." Yan Zhen whispered, "But I can't let him go with me."

Firstly, his leg injury is still not healed; secondly, she has to solve these problems by herself.

After the old man finished listening, he remained silent.After a while, he stood up and walked towards the door of the operating room.Although there are glass windows, you can't see anything from the outside.He stood there, silent for a long time, then slowly turned around and said two words: "Go."

"Hmm?" Yan Zhen couldn't hear him for a while because he spoke too fast.

"I say you go." The old man repeated lightly, "Problems have to be solved, one by one. Here in Huaiyue, if you really can't open your mouth, I will speak for you. It's too hard over there, you still have to Don’t go alone, go with the school’s Tibet aid teacher and go together.”

"dad--"

Such a meticulous arrangement made her choke up as soon as she opened her mouth. The old man patted her on the shoulder: "I'll give you time, but you have to promise that once you get past this hurdle, don't think about anything else. Have a good time."

"Okay." Yan Zhen nodded.

Gu Huaiyue's operation went smoothly.

Thanks to the meticulous preparation before the operation and the superb medical skills of the old military doctor, the operation ended earlier than expected.

When Gu Huaiyue was pushed out, she was still under anesthesia. The old military doctor told her that once the anesthesia time was over, the place where the operation had been performed would inevitably hurt severely, so she had to take care of it carefully.

Yan Zhen nodded, looking at his pale face, her eyes moistened.And Gu Huaiyue could bear it after all. After tossing and tossing for two days after the operation, he didn't cry out in pain, and he didn't fully wake up until the third day.

The moment he opened his eyes, Yan Zhen was making the quilt for him, and he suddenly held his hand. After being startled, he realized that he had woken up. His face was a little pale, but there was a smile on the corner of his mouth.

Yan Zhen quickly turned his head away, not looking at him.Gu Huaiyue was not in a hurry, and slowly rubbed her palms until she couldn't bear the itch and turned to give him a look, then he saw her already flushed eye sockets.He said hoarsely, "It will be fine in a few days."

"I know." Yan Zhen smiled, "Are you thirsty, I'll pour you some water."

"it is good."

She poured him a glass of water, helped him up again, Gu Huaiyue took a few sips from her hand, and then stared at her again.

"Is there something on my face?" Yan Zhen was a little hairy when he saw it.

"Yes. Haggard, worried, and tired." Gu Huaiyue said while looking at her, until Yan Zhen couldn't help but glared at him, then he smiled, "Are you going to add another patient to the hospital?"

"No way!" Yan Zhen said with a grimace, "You, you'd better fall asleep, and talk a lot when you wake up."

If he couldn't say that, he changed the topic, a silly girl, he smiled lowly, and held her hand: "I can't sleep anymore, we'll go home when we're almost done, let you have a good rest."

"Then get well soon." Yan Zhen whispered.

"Okay." Gu Huaiyue agreed with a smile.

This time he didn't write a bad promise.

He is recovering well after the operation and will be discharged from the hospital in a few days.In Gu Huaiyue's words, their soldiers have hard bones.

A lot of people also came to the division one after another, they were all young officers, and they didn't shy away from talking to Gu Huaiyue.Yan Zhen sat on the sidelines and listened to these people's gags, but she also found it quite interesting. When she was walking away, she heard a major officer ask Gu Huaiyue: "Chief of Staff, I heard that you will be transferred to the military academy to be a teacher next year. Is it true?"

teacher?Yan Zhen stopped in his tracks and looked at Gu Huaiyue in surprise.Why haven't you heard him mention it?

Gu Huaiyue glanced at her before saying, "Who did you hear this news from?"

"Don't worry about it, anyway, the teacher's rumors are quite messy. Lao Liu said that you are a talent in training, and everyone doesn't want you to go."

Gu Huaiyue smiled: "Okay, I'll accept your compliments. This matter hasn't been decided yet, we'll talk about it when the time comes."

Yan Zhen has been sitting silently by the bed, and suddenly remembered the secret thing he said before the operation, could it be this?
"What are you thinking about?" After sending off those people just now, Gu Huaiyue saw Yan Zhen sitting by the bed in a daze as soon as he came back.

"Is it true?" Yan Zhen raised his head and asked him.

"What's not true?"

"Oh, don't pretend to be confused." Yan Zhen said anxiously, "You, are you really going to turn into a civilian job? No more troops?"

Gu Huaiyue looked at her anxiously with a smile, and after a while, his expression became serious, and he said seriously: "Well, no more soldiers."

These five words are easy to say, but it is very difficult to decide.It's just that there is no turning back when he starts his bow. If he wants to do it, he will do it thoroughly.

"How does this work?"

"Why not. From now on, you and Jia Ming will be my soldiers." Gu Huaiyue said with a smile, "I haven't been able to take good care of you and Jia Ming since we got married, and now I have suffered with me for such a long time, it should be It's time for me to make up for you."

"Huaiyue—"

"Moved?" Gu Huaiyue teased her, "If you are moved, add another soldier to me. Two are too few."

Yan Zhen grabbed his clothes and didn't know what to say. After a long time, under his expectant eyes, she said, "Huai Yue, let's separate for a while."

Sure enough, his body stiffened in an instant, and his voice became a few degrees colder: "What do you mean?"

"I, I mean, I'm going to go to Tibet, so I have to be away for a while."

Before he finished speaking, he felt a sigh of relief: "What am I? It scared me." He knocked her on the head: "From now on, you are not allowed to leave half of what you say."

Yan Zhen bowed his head and said nothing.

"There's no need to separate, if you really want to go, I'll go with you."

"No!" Yan Zhen refused, "Your leg has just been operated on, so you can't go to such a cold place!"

"It's okay." Gu Huai smiled, "I can still bear the cold, I'm not disabled."

"That's not OK."

"Yan Zhen——" He took her hand, trying to make it clear to her that he was fine.

"No matter what you say!" Yan Zhen pushed his hand away, and after yelling such a sentence, both of them seemed to be frightened.

Soon, Gu Huaiyue withdrew his hand and frowned slightly: "Yan Zhen, what's going on?"

Yan Zhen looked at him, there was so much he wanted to say to him in his heart, but he didn't know how to say it for a while, until a voice came from the door of the ward: "I'll tell him."

The two looked towards the door at the same time, it was the old man.

Yan Zhen looked at the old man almost helplessly, and finally asked the old man to speak for her.She glanced at Gu Huaiyue, his gaze did not loosen, and was firmly locked on her.Under his gaze, Yan Zhen closed the door and left.

She was useless, and she just ran away when the two confronted each other.She thought it would be better this way, but she still felt uneasy sitting on the bench outside the ward.Looking at such a thick door, she couldn't hear what was talking inside, so she could only cover her face heavily.

After waiting for an unknown amount of time, when she couldn't help but want to knock on the door, there was a loud cracking sound from inside, her eyelids twitched, and then she jumped up from the chair, ran forward to knock on the door without thinking. Door.

But someone was faster than her, and the door opened a second before she knocked on it.

Gu Huaiyue stood in front of her, and behind him was the glass tea set that he swept down on the floor, and it shattered to the ground, which shocked her.

"Huaiyue——" She almost lost her voice, and took his hand. She was slightly relieved that it was intact, and then she was taken aback, because Gu Huaiyue held her hand instead, with a tight expression. He said to her in a tense tone, "Come with me."

In Yan Zhen's initial impression, Gu Huaiyue only had two expressions: a polite smile or a calm alienation.After getting married, she found that he was still black-bellied, cheating, and angry.There was one emotion she rarely saw in him, and that was anger.Even in City B last time, when he got angry at her in the corridor, it was because she pushed her into a hurry, not because she cared.

So what now?Was he completely pissed off by himself?Yan Zhen thought helplessly.

He brought her to a small garden in the General Hospital of the Military Region. Not to mention the secluded location, and from here you can see the highest mountain in City B from a distance. The scenery is very good.This good place was discovered by her when she was walking with him every day during that period of time. She never thought that he would bring her here now.

In fact, Yan Zhen doesn't understand him now.He brought her here, and she was ready to bear all his anger, but at this moment, he suddenly shook off her hand, turned his back to her and said nothing.

Yan Zhen could see his hands clenched tightly through his back, as if he was trying to suppress something.She moved and couldn't help but try to call his name: "Huai Yue."

"Don't talk." Gu Huaiyue waved his hand to stop her from speaking, and repeated what he said just now in case she couldn't hear clearly, "Don't talk yet."

His voice was very low, and his whole body was tense, Yan Zhen understood that he was trying not to get angry with himself.For some reason, she suddenly felt her nose sour, and her eye sockets soon became moist.

"Huai Yue." She held his hand, letting tears flow down slowly, "I'm sorry, I—"

She wanted to say something, but his hand was suddenly taken away from hers.She watched him turn around with wide eyes blankly, and looked at his red eye sockets with even more astonishment.She raised her hand almost subconsciously to touch his eyes, but before she could touch them, she was pulled into his arms by him.

"How come I don't know that you are such a stupid person?"

He almost gritted his teeth to say this sentence, and he could feel the intensity through his hug.After hearing this sentence, Yan Zhen wanted to cry, and wanted to just cry in his arms, because she knew that what he said meant that he would not blame her, and he couldn't bear to care about her.

"Gu Huaiyue, Gu Huaiyue, Gu Huaiyue—" She hugged his neck, crying uncontrollably, as if she wanted to vent all the grievances and fears in her heart.

"Yan Zhen, do you know what I do?" He let go of her slightly, looked at her crying messily, and said in a hoarse voice, "I'm a soldier, how can you bear so much alone without letting me know What? Do you know how I felt after listening to the old man just now? When it comes to combat, why do you have to fight alone when it's your turn? Are you stupid?"

She is stupid, stupid.What Shen Mengjiao said was right, she was guilty, so guilty that even when she was happy, she could only silently rejoice.He told her everything from the very beginning, to the point of being honest, but she married him out of revenge.What's even more ridiculous is that in the end, it turned out that it was all wrong. How could she tell him this feeling?
"I don't want to involve you anymore." She cried, "I just want to be with you after all this is done."

"Is it that important?" He lifted her tear-soaked hair and looked into her eyes that were red and swollen from crying. "Is it so important for what reason? As long as we are together now, we will always be together in the future." Isn't it enough to be together?"

Yan Zhen almost looked at him in disbelief, Gu Huaiyue could only smile wryly, it seemed that it was necessary to let her know his true thoughts, because she was different from him.

"Yan Zhen, people who have experienced life, death and parting are not easy to care about anything. They have learned to take everything lightly, and they have never owned or lost. I was like this before I met you, and I am like this after I met you. I'm not young anymore, so I can't bear to waste time with sad and painful things that don't matter. I can't bear to, do you understand?"

So he said she was stupid, stupid enough to want to waste so much time doing something that made them all uncomfortable, stupid enough not to trust him.

"sorry."

Gu Huaiyue looked at her, took a deep breath and said, "If I said I care about you, I love you, would you continue to leave me alone to bear those burdens?"

He never said the three words "I love you". At the first wedding, he said "I do" to Lin Ke.He is willing to take on the responsibility of a husband, protect her and love her.

But now, he said "I love you", there is no wedding, no witnesses, but the meaning of these three words is enough to cover everything.

Yan Zhen, who understood all this, couldn't help covering his mouth, and said in his ear with a sob: "No, never again."

Because she couldn't bear it either.

(End of this chapter)