In the spring before the first wife's return to the hall

Chapter 93
The rain was no longer pouring, as if the sky had opened a hole, and the water fell straight from the nine heavens: it was so big that people and things on the opposite side could not be seen.

There seems to be nothing between the sky and the earth, except rain.

It's not dark and invisible, and it's not bright like day. There is nothing in the rain but water, not even darkness and light.

Apart from water, there was mud under her feet, and the clothes on her body were no longer used to keep warm, but were wet and cold like a snake, wrapping her tightly around her, making it more and more difficult for her to breathe.

"No, no—!" She woke up screaming loudly, with tears all over her face, but her body was cold, and her clothes were the most soaked, tightly wrapped her in an unspeakable discomfort.

The only difference from her dream was that instead of letting the muddy water wash her downhill on the muddy ground, she was lying on the bed; however, it was not warm, her hands and feet were cold.

The house was lit, but it was not very bright; because the space between the sky and the earth is not the darkness of night, but the endless rain.

There were still tears in Jin'er's widened eyes, the person who grabbed her hand was Qi'er, and the person who caught her eyes was Lianxiang.

The gate of the Jin Mansion, the confrontation with Mrs. Jin, and the refusal to give in to Tan Qiuyin; the alleys where you and Qi'er passed by pressing Lianxiang into the bath...

Everything came to her mind, her lips trembled, and she regained her senses, but the tears on her face couldn't be stopped no matter what.

There was not a single sound of crying, the tears poured out like that, silently.

Qi'er looked at Lianxiang at a loss, not knowing what was wrong with Madam, and hoped that Lianxiang would have an idea.

Seeing Jin'er waking up, Lian Xiang breathed a sigh of relief when she saw the look in Jin'er's eyes: "Qi'er, please go out and bring a bowl of hot ginger soup, add brown sugar, Madam just needs to be smooth. "

Although Qi'er was worried, the coldness of Jin'er's hands also made her extremely frightened. She thought a bowl of hot ginger soup was a good idea, so she nodded and went out to make a fuss.

Lianxiang looked into Jin'er's eyes: "Ma'am, do you know where you are now?" Her voice was very slow.

Jin'er closed her eyes: "I know. Lianxiang, they are all gone?"

"No." Lianxiang felt relieved, knelt down on the footrest, and reached out to hold Jin'er's palm: "Madam, you—" She wanted to cheer Jin'er up, she didn't want Jin'er to fall down , but when she opened her mouth, she suddenly realized that there was nothing that could move Jin'er.

What does Jin'er care about?Gold and silver?no.Kim Kyung-il?Of course not.Golden House?Jin'er didn't make up her mind whether to come to Jinfu, and besides, she really didn't come here for Jinfu.

correct!

Lianxiang's eyes lit up: "Not for anything else, but for the sake of the eldest girl and the young master; you don't want them to face the pain of losing their mother just after they got a mother?"

"As you said, if you can, you will let them live a better life." She looked into Jin'er's eyes: "Madam, you won't forget, right?"

Jin'er turned over and said, "No. I'm fine. It's just that the rain is too heavy, and the thunder is too loud. I, I'm just scared."

She didn't want Lianxiang to see her now, because she couldn't control it now, and she was afraid that there would be such an expression on her face that she shouldn't have; and she and Lianxiang were not friends.

Jin'er suddenly said: "I miss my parents." Lianxiang was taken aback by the words without beginning or end, but she thought about it carefully and said: "Well, I'm afraid we can wait until the rain stops. .”

"It's raining too much. Even if you call a doctor, there is no groom who can drive the horse out of the house. The master and the butler went out in the rain. I'm afraid it's impossible to pick up the master and wife. You have to wait."

After finishing speaking, she glanced at Jin'er: "Actually, the servant girl thinks it's better to have less contact..."

Qi'er came in at this time: "How is Ma'am? The ginger soup is ready and it's boiling hot. You have to feed Madam carefully." She rushed to Jin'er's bed, really concerned.

Lianxiang looked at her and then at Jin'er on the bed: "Madam misses her parents." With a bit of helplessness in her words, she gave Qi'er a wink after speaking, just to make Qi'er talk to Jin'er.

When Qi'er heard this, she had too many questions when she thought about the last time she went to Mu's Mansion with Jin'er, but as far as Jin'er's younger brother was concerned, she also believed that the less contact with Mu's mansion, the better for Jin'er.

But when do people get homesick?Of course it was when she was most helpless, when she was most hurt, and when she was loneliest: she sighed softly when she thought of how Madam was in her nightmare just now.

Qi'er took the ginger soup from Lianxiang's hand again, sat on the head of the bed and called Jin'er softly: "Madam, eat some hot soup, you will get better when you warm up, everything will be fine of."

The comforting words she can say can only be this kind of nonsense words, some things she can't say even if she understands; and some things she doesn't understand let alone ask.

The people in Mu's residence are of course family members in Jin'er's heart. As a girl, even if she knows that the family will drag Madam, but can she say something to persuade Madam?

She is not Lianxiang, besides, Lianxiang obviously said it but it didn't work.

Jin'er responded: "Put it over there, I'll get up and drink later." Now she doesn't have any thoughts, no thoughts at all.

She is no longer the person who trained Lianxiang, and she is no longer the person who confronted Mrs. Tai and Tan Qiuyin. Now she is lying on the bed like a child, and she just wants a relative to hug her.

Just hug her.

Qi'er looked at Jin'er's back and sighed softly, thinking that he understood Jin'er's mood very well: as a married woman, her home is her in-law's home, and the former home was called her mother's home: her mother's home , not her home.

But how can Jin'er make Jin'er feel like a monk?In the Golden Mansion, Jin'er only made things difficult for her, no matter how strong she is, she would get tired sometimes, but now Madam just revealed her original weak side.

After five years of hard work, Qi'er didn't see Jin'er's journey home but could imagine it; now it's normal for Jin'er to miss her parents.

She watched Lianxiang put Jiangtang down, and stretched out her hand: "Madam, the servant girl will help you up." She couldn't let Jin'er let her go, as a person who hurts his mind will hurt his body.

Jin'er pushed Qi'er's hand away: "I'm fine, I just want to be quiet." That nightmare shattered all her strength, and now she wants to curl up into a ball and cry silently for a while.

There is a kind of sadness that only you can understand.

Lianxiang is a little angry, but more worried, because her fate is tied to Jin'er, if Jin'er continues to sink, the result will be self-evident.

Qi'er thought of Jin'er's yell before she woke up, and she thought that Madam must have dreamed the scariest thing in five years.

Seeing that Lianxiang was about to say something, she immediately took her hand: "Servants, go out for a while. Mrs. Tai and Mrs. Tan both asked about Mrs. Madam just now. I'm afraid they will come over soon."

Qi'er really understands Jin'er, knowing that what can cheer Jin'er up at this moment is not her and Lianxiang's consolation, but the temptations of Mrs. Tai and Mrs. Tan, especially the temptations with malicious intentions.

Jin'er was silent after hearing Qi'er's words, and she didn't speak until Qi'er was about to step out of the room, "What did they say?"

No matter what kind of injury and pain, no matter how much sadness and despair, what she can do is to live.

Qi'er knew that he had used the right method, turned around with a silent smile at Lianxiang, went to the bedside and picked up the ginger soup, and watched as Lianxiang helped Jin'er up.

"Ma'am, how about some ginger soup first?" Qi'er handed the small spoon to Jin'er's mouth.

Jin'er looked at the little spoon and smiled, then pushed the little spoon away to take the bowl, and sipped ginger soup while blowing: She is not a delicate person, and if she wants to live, what can she be pretentious about?

After she finished drinking the ginger soup, she handed the bowl to Qi'er: "I said, I'm fine." At this moment, this sentence finally gained some confidence, and it fell into the ears of Lianxiang and Qi'er to convince them scored three points.

Qi'er put the bowl away: "Mrs. Tai and Mrs. Tan think you are just..." She looked up at Jin'er at this point: "Do you still remember what happened just now?"

Zheng's making things difficult when serving tea, she kept every word of Jin Jingyi's questioning in her ears, how could Jin'er forget?Hearing this, she looked at Qi'er: "They think I'm just pretending, just to avoid embarrassment in front of Mrs. Zheng?"

In fact, of course not, because there is something that no one knows, not even her parents: she is very afraid of thunderstorms.

Not all thunderstorms scare her, she is only afraid of the stormy weather with thunder and lightning in her bones; however, she never tells people, and never let people see it.

Today's weather is really a torment for her, Tan Qiuyin can hide in Jin Jingyi's arms generously, but what can she do?I can only tell myself that it is not scary, I can only tell myself what is scary?

But the past still surged up, hitting her with a splitting headache, and she passed out just as Mrs. Zheng was serving tea.

It's not pretending, there's nothing to pretend, Zuo is just a cup of tea; what she wants is that title, and as for Tan Qiuyin whether to offer it with both hands, or to fight her to the end, she will not change her mind.

She doesn't care what other people say.

"Really?" Jiang Tang made Jin'er's face blush, and there were fine beads of sweat on her forehead and the tip of her nose, making her look more energetic.

She stretched her waist: "Then let them guess for themselves. Well, just now Lianxiang, you said that the master went out to invite a doctor?"

Lianxiang knelt on the footrest: "Yes. Ma'am, you can't scare us like this again." At least until she became an aunt, Jin'er couldn't do anything wrong.

Jin'er looked at the wind and rain outside: "It seems to be getting bigger."

Qi'er heard the footsteps outside, she leaned down and hurriedly said: "Mrs. Tai is very angry at the fact that Master went out to invite a doctor."

(End of this chapter)