Dressed as a tyrant and kissing the little queen

Chapter 482 Your Life Is My Own
Xiao Li struggled in his arms regardless.

Her emotions seemed to be a little out of control, and her eyes were very red.

Afraid of hurting her, Ling Jian let go of her.

Xiao Li knelt down in front of him, her voice choked with sobs, but she was extremely determined: "Cousin, just let me go."

Ling Jian's eyes were a little complicated.

I didn't know what it was like for a while.

"If you are afraid that your aunt will come back and blame you in the future, I will write to my aunt and make it clear that I am leaving by myself and have nothing to do with my cousin."

Xiao Li continued, "Auntie will understand and won't blame my cousin or anything. I won't blame my cousin either. I know that my cousin is the emperor, and he can't help himself in many things."

"I know you have been wronged."

Ling Jian said categorically, "But going out of the palace is absolutely impossible."

Xiao Li's face became paler and her body trembled slightly.

She didn't say anything anymore, she lowered her head as if accepting her fate.

Ling Jian hugged her and lay down, but she didn't struggle.

The candle was extinguished, and in the darkness, Ling Jian hugged Xiao Li and kissed her lips.

Xiao Li let him kiss him with a somewhat numb expression, without hugging him back, nor giving him any response.

Ling Jian just kept on kissing her neck gently.

That kiss was more lingering than ever before.

He hurt her, as if he intended to make up for her in this kind of love, every movement was extremely gentle.

Xiao Li only felt that it was suffering, and for the first time hoped that Ling Jian would end soon.

Ling Jian later held her in his arms and finally fell asleep.

Xiao Li opened her eyes wide, staring at the dark night in a daze.

She wondered in a daze, does her cousin love her?
Perhaps, there is a little bit of love.

Even if you keep a kitten and puppy by your side, after two years, you should have some feelings, not to mention that she is still a real person.

If she didn't know the truth about An Shenxiang, perhaps, she could still call out for cousin Ling Jian heartlessly, and live happily in this palace with a little hope every day.

But now she knows everything.

You can no longer deceive yourself and others, saying that Ling Jian is the emperor, and the Sangong Sixth Courtyard is normal.

It is because of her body that she can no longer comfort herself, which is why she has not had children for more than two years.

Ling Junxing is also the emperor, but for Qin Luoyu, he can dismiss the harem.

Qin Luoyu is the princess of Great Qin. Great Qin and Ling Kingdom once had a life-and-death enmity, but Lord Ling still dotes on her to the bone. In this world, Ling Jian has long planned to inherit it.

The blood of Daqin also flows through Ling Jian's body.

But he can be so unfeeling to her.

It was so unfeeling that her heart seemed to have fallen into an ice cave. From the inside to the outside, it was covered with thick ice.

Ling Jian refused to let her out of the palace, but she didn't want to stay here any longer.

When she was young, her life was too hard, even when she was taken into the palace later, she never dared to have any extravagant expectations.

What I want in this life is to marry a good man, have children, and live this life safely and smoothly.

However, this insignificant dream was also torn to pieces by Ling Jian.

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Xiao Li always remembered her childhood.

Every time her mother, Qin Suhan lost her temper, she would call her a burden and drag her down, and would scold her bitterly while beating her.

"If I hadn't been pregnant with you, I wouldn't have let go of being a good princess and ran to this remote town to suffer like this."

"It's all because of you that I have such a difficult life! It's not enough for your father to destroy me, but he also left you to torture me. Why don't you die, why don't you die!"

When she was young, she was ignorant, and when she was beaten, she would only cry and beg for mercy.

Later, when she got older, she knew the past of Qin Suhan and her father Xiao Shangyan, and knew what kind of sacrifice Qin Suhan had made for her back then, so she only had guilt and sympathy for Qin Suhan.

She fell into deep self-blame.

Xiao Li even thought more than once that it might be better for her to die.

After she dies, Qin Suhan can go back to Liyang, even if she can't be a princess again, life will never be worse than now.

That night, when she was beaten all over by Qin Suhan again.

Xiao Li didn't hate her, but felt sorry for her more and more, and felt that he was dragging her down.

The wound on her body hurt so much, Xiao Li couldn't sleep, so she quietly walked out of the courtyard.

The moonlight was so bright that night, Xiao Li walked alone on the deserted street for an unknown amount of time.

She saw a small pond.

She hesitated for a moment, then walked in slowly and little by little.

When the pool water submerged her mouth and nose, and the feeling of suffocation came up, she was not afraid, but just felt relieved and relieved.

If she died, Qin Suhan would feel much better.

In the future, she will never drag her down again.

That year, Xiao Li was only six years old.

She thought she was going to die, and even expected that she would die.

However, she did not die after all.

Qin Suhan's heart-piercing cry pulled her back from the groggy darkness.

When she opened her eyes, Qin Suhan held her in his arms and cried so much that she burst into tears.

"If you die, mother alone, what should you do?"

Xiao Li didn't understand, didn't Qin Suhan always say that she was dragging her down, and always said that she wished she would die soon.

Why was Qin Suhan crying so sadly when she was about to die.

After that, Qin Suhan didn't hit her again for several days, and even treated her cautiously, which was rarer and gentler.

She naively thought that she was still very important to her mother, that she still loved her and cared about her.

Unfortunately, Qin Suhan's tenderness did not last long.

But after more than a month, she reverted to her old ways, and even hit Xiao Li harder than before.

"You still dare to seek death at such a young age. I have suffered so many crimes, but I didn't die. What right do you have to die?"

Qin Suhan scolded while beating, "I finally gave birth to you, I worked so hard to bring you up, is it just for you to seek death? Why did I give birth to such an unfilial daughter like you? I live for a day, you don't want to die !"

Xiao Li never had the thought of seeking death again.

She is not even qualified to die.

It was not easy for Qin Suhan to give birth to her. It would be unfilial for her to die like this.

She still has to work hard to repay Qin Suhan's kindness in giving birth.

In those few years, no matter how hard the life was, she tried her best to hold on. Even if her immature shoulders were unbearable, she gritted her teeth and endured it.

When she was eight years old, Qin Suhan died of illness, and she was brought to Night City by Xue Yuheng. Since then, her life has undergone tremendous changes.

Qin Luoyu treated her very well.

It was so good that whenever she thought of the word aunt, the corners of her mouth would curl up, and a warm current would flow through her heart.

For the first time, Xiao Li felt that it was so beautiful, happy, and warm to be alive, loved, and hurt.

After living in the palace for ten years, Xiao Li never thought of dying.

until tonight.

When she was a child, the hopelessness and helplessness of being severely injured, but no one could save her from the sea of ​​suffering, seemed to surround and annihilate her little by little again.

Can't escape, can't break free.

And this kind of painful day can't be seen at a glance.

Every day she lives, she has to grit her teeth and suffer.

The night in the palace is completely silent, with a bright moon in the sky.

The moonlight is as bright as that night when she was six years old.

Xiao Li stood blankly outside the gate of Qiushui Palace for a long time.

Only here in the huge imperial palace can there be a little bit of warmth.

It's a pity that that warmth is now an unattainable dream.

Xiao Li thought, does my aunt know about the existence of An Shenxiang?

If my aunt also knows.
Xiao Li's heart seemed to be pinched by an invisible hand, and her breathing was choked.

She is always afraid of causing trouble to others.

So after ten years in the palace, she tried her best to be as quiet and cautious as possible, and she didn't want to cause trouble to anyone, especially her aunt.

But unexpectedly, in the end, it still caused a lot of trouble.

As her mother Qin Suhan said, she is a burden, a burden.

Her life, since she was born, has been a mistake.

When she entered the palace, she was wrong.

Ling Jian married her, making his mistakes even worse.

Xiao Li thought, if she died, all these mistakes could be ended.

In this world, there is nothing worthy of her nostalgia.

It was because she couldn't see clearly, and she was trying to hope for more.

Under the moonlight, the clear water of the lake was turbulent, with a little bit of silver light shining.

The night wind blew her hair, carrying the coolness of the lake.

Xiao Li's tears flowed silently.

After more than ten years, she once again chose to die.

The last thing I want to say in my heart is still sorry.

I am sorry.

I'm sorry, aunt.I'm sorry, Lingjian.

She was too tired and didn't want to hold on anymore.

As early as the age of six, she should have left.

Living so many years is already a gift from God.

There were hurried footsteps in the distance, and someone called her name: "Xiao Li!"

It was Ling Jian's voice.

Xiao Li didn't look at him, and quickly jumped into the water.

With the sound of hurried footsteps coming, Ling Jian jumped in without hesitation.

When Xiao Li was forcibly grabbed by him and carried ashore, she felt desolate and ridiculous in her heart.

Even in death, one cannot be free.

Twice, it turned out to be the same ending.

Ling Jian was drenched all over, and his face was terribly dark.

When he woke up, he found that Xiao Li was no longer there, he just thought she couldn't sleep, so he came out for a walk.

He didn't disturb the court ladies and eunuchs, thinking that Xiao Li couldn't sleep in the middle of the night last time, and found her outside the gate of Qiushui Palace.

This time Ling Jian came directly to Qiushui Palace, but unexpectedly, she was not found.

When I searched all the way, I saw her standing by the water from afar.

Under the moonlight, her eyes were full of tears, Ling Jian was slightly startled, and called her name.

He thought that Xiao Li would be angry and sad, but he never thought that Xiao Li would seek death.

"If you are not allowed to leave the palace, you will seek death?"

Ling Jian was extremely angry, and his voice was stern, "Xiao Li, your life belongs to me. I didn't tell you to die, so you can't die!"

Obviously being extremely angry, he no longer called me to Xiao Li, but called me.

Xiao Li was in a trance, as if she had returned to 12 years ago.

Her mother also scolded her sharply, "I'm not dead, what right do you have to die? If I live for a day, you don't want to die!"

Xiao Li couldn't help laughing, smiling, but tears rolled down her face.

(End of this chapter)