I have a big problem with my past life

Chapter 105 Extra Story: Until I Can See You With a Smile (Five Thousand Chapters!)
I heard that before I was born, my parents wanted a daughter very much, so when my father, who was waiting anxiously outside the delivery room of the hospital, heard the doctor say that the mother and daughter were safe, he danced excitedly and distortedly.

Jiang Jingyi, this is the name my mother gave me.

Jingyi's "quiet" is to hope that I can be a gentle and quiet beautiful girl in the future.

Let me state in advance, this is not my narcissism, but my mother's exact words!
Secretly telling you, my mother is a very narcissistic woman, she seems to be very confident in her genes, and even though she has been married to her father for so long, she even has a daughter now, but she still has a The heart of a girl who never grows old, especially when she gets along with her dad.

Obviously they are already old couples, but they are as sweet as a newlywed honeymoon on weekdays, completely disregarding my feelings as a daughter sitting next to me, and I was forced to stuff my mouth full of dog food.

So to some extent, I really grew up eating dog food!
As for the "Yi" in the name, it is my parents' best wishes for my daughter. I hope that I will be happy and happy in my future life without sadness!

But in fact, having said so much, the main reason is that my mother thinks the name "Jingyi" sounds good. When she went out to introduce her daughter, she seemed to have a lot of face!
Many times, as a daughter, I feel very helpless to my mother who lives like an eighteen-year-old girl forever.

However, thanks to my mother's personality, my childhood was very happy and happy.

Perhaps it is the reason why the two of them have studied abroad for many years. My parents respect my personal wishes and ideas very much. Under the tough decision-making of my parents, other children of the same age, after school every day and every week During the holidays, when I applied for various cram schools such as Olympiad classes, I would have fun every day when I came home from school, and I was very happy.

As for learning musical instruments, I also proposed it on my own initiative, because my mother, who is proficient in musical instruments, often plays the piano at home when she has nothing to do, while my father sits aside and listens happily. It is said that they met because of music.

Having said that, my daughter will severely condemn the two of them!

You said that they have been an old couple for so many years, what are you doing to be so happy and sweet when you have nothing to do on weekdays? It’s fine to forcefully stuff my daughter with dog food. The most serious problem is that it made my eyesight become higher.

How to find a boyfriend in the future, what should I do if I can’t get married?
After all, seeing my parents has been like a day for more than ten years, there is no cold war, no quarrel, only slow sweetness, this happy married life, I am naturally unwilling to let go of my future married life.

But, the world is so big, and there are so many scumbags, how easy is it to find a perfect love that can grow old together?
Maybe it's because I ate too much dog food at home. I was a little precocious and thought so melancholy until... I met him!
As for his name, let me keep it a secret, so I won't tell everyone, why don't we just call him "stupid" for the time being, hee hee!
It's not that I have a problem with him, but because he is really stupid and stupid!Look at my sincere eyes, I definitely did not lie to you!
Maybe it's because God thinks that I'm living too happily and too embarrassingly, so they want to send me some tribulations.

So in the third year of junior high school, I was very unlucky. I had a small heart problem and was sent to the hospital for hospitalization.

Well, I'd better tell you the truth, it's not a small problem, I have a big heart problem and need a major operation.

Although Mom and Dad found the best surgeon and used the best medicine, the chance of success is only [-]%.

In the more than three months before the operation, I was admitted to the intensive care unit of the hospital, received pre-operative care and preparation, and waited for my fate to judge me.

During the period of my illness, my parents stopped their business and took care of me wholeheartedly. I know that they, like me, are pretending that the operation will be successful, and then I can go back to the hospital. After school, they cheered and comforted each other like this.

Only then did I realize that I could also become so strong, even crying when there was no one around!
I really don't want to make my parents sad anymore. I know they are sad enough because of my illness.

Later, they came less and less often, because they started traveling around the world looking for doctors, trying to increase my chances of successful surgery even if it was just a little bit.

The nurse lady who came to deliver medicine to me every day praised me for being brave, but I was not brave at all, and this bravery was just faking.

I am very afraid of death, because after death, I really have nothing left.

Because of a heart problem, I couldn't climb the stairs or go through the corridor to take the elevator, so my ward was arranged on the first floor. Outside one of the windows was a small alley that few people passed by. When I was bored, I would sit in the ward. In front of the window, looking out the window in a daze.

At dusk that day, I woke up from my sleep in a daze, with cold tears all over my face, half of the pillowcase was wet.

I repeated that nightmare again, dreaming that I was lying on the cold operating table, the operation failed, and my parents were holding my dead body and crying.

I got out of bed and was about to go to the bathroom to wipe my face with a wet towel, but I heard sobbing faintly from outside the window, as if... It was still a boy.

I quietly walked to the window, hid behind the curtains, and peeked out through the gaps in the curtains, trying to see who was crying outside.

On the pile of debris in the alley outside the window, a boy in school uniform sat on a cardboard box and wiped his tears, with a few little wild cats snuggled up close by his feet, enjoying the small dried fish he fed.

"Xiaobai, I'm really sad now. She rejected my confession, saying that she has no feelings for me at all."

"Xiao Huang, do you think it's better for me not to go to school tomorrow? To avoid embarrassing her."

"Xiao Hei, don't bother to eat dried fish. Do me a favor. I've changed from a crush to a lovelorn, and I'm dying of pain."

……

I listened behind the curtain for a while, and I probably understood what the plot was. The boy failed to confess his crush on the girl, so he came to talk to these little wild cats.

And it seems that this boy often comes to feed these little wild cats, and has become a good friend, and even gave each little cat a name according to its color.

In other words, how failed this person must be in life, but he was rejected by the girl he had a crush on, and he was a manly man, crying like the end of the world, it was too bad!

What a fool who doesn't cherish the good life!
Seriously, seeing this idiot outside, who was about to undergo heart surgery and only had a [-]% chance of surviving, I was absolutely pissed off.

What I have always longed for, but others don't cherish it, but I am entangled here for trivial matters such as broken love, it is a waste of life!

"You idiot, are you still a man? If you really like other girls, you must have the courage to continue chasing them. What's the point of crying here? You're a complete coward. No wonder other girls look down on you!"

I admit that at the time, due to my own reasons, I was a little angry, so I just ranted through the window.

But what I didn't expect was that after I finished speaking, the idiot who was wiping tears fell down from the carton in fright, and threw away the small dried fish in his hand.

"Xiaobai, Xiaohuang, Xiaohei, you...have you become so smart that you can even speak human words?" After he stood up from the ground, he looked at the fish he was picking up with a pale face. The happy little wild cat asked them solemnly with a shocked expression on his face.

This idiot actually thought that the one who spoke to him just now was the little wild meow under his feet?

What kind of IQ is this? How can Meow speak?Even film and television dramas stipulate that after the founding of the People's Republic of China, they are not allowed to become elites!

This man is really an idiot, it's so funny!
The anger that I had finally brewed was completely extinguished by a waterfall, and I couldn't be serious anymore, so I couldn't help laughing out loud.

And hearing the laughter, the idiot outside the window finally understood the real situation, and his face turned red like a monkey's ass.

I don't know if he was embarrassed because he just misunderstood that Meow could speak, or because I felt ashamed because I saw the previous behavior of wiping tears.

This is the first time I met him in my life.

Later, during the conversation, I also learned something about him from this idiot.

For example, because his parents are not around, and there is no one at home, he often stays out late after school, and these little wild cats were discovered by him accidentally some time ago, perhaps out of a kind of loneliness Well, he would often bring delicious dried fish and the like, and come to them to chat and talk about his troubles in life, just like the shadow of a broken love.

Then he asked me very distressed, what should I do now after I failed to confess myself.

I, who was hiding behind the curtain, decided to act as a mysterious dog-headed strategist and help him chase that girl!
If the operation fails and unfortunately dies, it will be regarded as doing good deeds before dying.

What's more, waiting for the days before the operation is too boring and boring, and it's great that this stupid-looking fool appears in front of him!

There is a saying that goes well, women know women best!

So, in the days that followed, I hid behind the curtains of the window and acted as a dog-headed military adviser. I listened to him to report on today's situation every day, and analyzed what I should do next to get closer to that girl.

What?You ask me why I hide and don't face this idiot with my true face?
Are you an idiot for asking this question? You don’t know that girls love beauty!

Because of my physical condition, during the days when I was hospitalized for treatment, I had to take a lot of medicine and hang several bottles of medicine every day, my body was swollen to death, and even my vocal cords were hoarse like an old woman, so I don’t want to go like this See people, especially a boy, even though he is an idiot!
Besides, don't you guys think that this kind of setting of a mysterious military strategist who doesn't reveal his true face is very mysterious and powerful!
Don't those peerless masters in novels, film and television dramas also wear a bamboo hat and a mask in broad daylight!

Gradually, without waiting for him to knock on the window with a branch every day, I would stand in front of the window early, waiting for him to come and share with me his progress today, as well as some interesting things that happened in school.

But sometimes, this idiot always misses appointments and is late, it's really annoying!

This idiot, doesn't he know that he can't be late for the promise he made with the girl?

Well, I'm going to draw a circle silently by the wall, cursing him that there will be no seasoning packets for instant noodles in the future.No, this is not cruel enough, he should be cursed that only seasoning packets are the right way to eat instant noodles in the future!

Being late and missing appointments is the most annoying thing!
When will this idiot come?It's getting dark, so maybe something happened on the road... Bah, bah, bah!Maybe... he just caught up with the girl he likes again and went on a date with her?

But if he catches up with the girl he has a crush on, doesn't it mean that he won't come here in the future?Then what should I do?

etc!Why should I care about that idiot? Anyway, my original purpose is to help him catch up with the girl he has a crush on, and just do good deeds?

But... for some reason, when I think of such a scene, I always feel a little uncomfortable in my heart, as if a piece is missing out of thin air, empty.

Maybe, it's because my condition has gotten worse, this unsatisfactory heart!

Sometimes, I feel like a resentful woman who stays alone in a vacant house, always full of complaints!

Today, my body is full of frustration, and the treatment is still painful.

But when I think about seeing him at dusk after today's treatment is over, I feel that the pain in my body is much weaker, and I can survive it by gritting my teeth!

"I'm so sorry! I've let down your help all the time. I've figured it out recently and I'm not going to chase that girl anymore!"

This idiot's voice came from outside the window, what does it mean that I'm just not going to chase it?
"Actually, I finally discovered recently that I don't like that girl as much as I imagined. Because I have very little contact with her, in fact, what I like is not her, but a illusory character that I imagined and perfectly beautified. ’” he explained.

"Thank you, big sister who didn't want to be named, for your help all the time! Although I, Ning Ye, will stop chasing that girl, I will definitely come to see you every day in the future. Anyway, there is no one in my family, so it would be nice to have someone to chat with! In addition, eldest sister, you are so kind, I believe the disease will recover soon!"

Hearing the key point of the last paragraph, the heart hanging behind the curtain finally let go.

But what the hell is this big sister called?It's just that my voice has aged a bit due to the treatment, but I'm still a young girl, I really have no vision, um, continue to draw a circle and curse you!
I thought that such a day would last until the day I entered the operating room.

But that day my parents came to the ward exhausted and said they helped me contact the best hospital in the provincial capital. A famous foreign surgeon would arrive there in a month. It will increase by half.

So, I have to go through the procedures for transferring to another hospital right now, the car is already parked outside, and I'm going to go to the hospital in the provincial capital to take up the surgical quota.

I looked out the window. When that idiot comes over tonight, will people who can't see me be worried?
It doesn't matter if you let him worry, whoever made him always miss appointments and be late because of various things, he should also let him experience the feeling of waiting...

But once I leave, it will determine whether I live or die, and I may never come back.

Or... just say goodbye to that idiot, lest he worry all the time!
It's just that it's still early in the morning, and it's still very late before the agreed evening, and I can't wait until then.

I thought about it, and the nurse and sister found chalk, and wrote a farewell message on the window glass connecting me and him, telling him that he had recovered and left the hospital, so that he didn't have to worry about himself, and he would never leave the hospital. You don't have to work hard to run this way anymore, we will meet again if we are destined.

I followed my parents to the hospital in the provincial capital. I was already ready to lie on the operating table and accept the judgment of fate, but it was very strange.

The heart is no longer as fragile as it used to be, it is like a newborn, able to jump and run, and no longer has to accept painful treatments every day.

Now, not only my parents, but even the doctors in the hospital couldn't believe it, shouting that this is a miracle in the medical world.

Perhaps, this is indeed a miracle,
Whether it's my illness, or the fact that I met that idiot named Ning Ye.

That's right, that idiot is Ning Ye!
Shhh, everyone should keep this secret for me, but I have been holding back and not telling him.

Originally, I wanted to wait until we get married in the future and give him a good surprise (scared?) at the wedding scene. He will definitely cry at that time. I feel a little excited when I think about it!

It's just, I really can't wait for that day.

That being the case, I'd better keep this secret silently in my heart, lest this idiot be reluctant to part with me.

Finally, let me make a few wishes greedily.

I wish Ning Ye that your future life will be full of sunshine, may your brows no longer be covered with sadness, frost and snow, and may you be treated tenderly by this cruel and cold world...

I hope that one day, I will meet you again in the vast sea of ​​people!

Hope to see you with a smile by then!
　The first volume ended successfully. I heard a saying before that the best tragedy is to crush happiness for you to see, and the best comedy is the completion of sadness... The title of the chapter indicates everything, and I can see you again with a smile ah!
　　
　
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