I have a big problem with my past life

Chapter 303 Xi (Extra Story, Must Read)

Since I was born, I lost my eyesight, and the whole world I live in has been trapped in a thick darkness like an iron curtain.

The old people in the village said that I was a child who should not have been born.

Because of my birth, my mother, who was originally weak, died of a serious illness not long after.

Many times, I also feel that I am a disaster star that brings disasters, not only killing my mother, but also implicating my brother and making him live so hard. With such a sister who can't see anything with both eyes, in such a The world without enough food is really a big burden.

I have thought countless times, is it possible that as long as I die, my brother will not be allowed to live so hard.

But... I am really afraid of death, not because I am afraid of death itself, but because I am afraid that I will never hear my brother's voice again, and I will never feel the warmth in my brother's arms. Go and weep sadly.

I hate myself for being useless. If my eyes could see the light, I could help my brother to find food, wash clothes and cook meals. Instead of being like this, I can only stay in the dark all day long and wait for my brother to return home. .

This is the only thing I can do, waiting for my brother to come home.

Every time my brother went out to look for food, I stayed quietly in the house, because I couldn't see day and night, so I could only silently count the passage of time in the dark.

Usually, my brother always returns home when it gets dark, but one time, I waited in the dark for two full dark hours, but my brother still didn't come back.

Although when my brother was in front of me, he always said that it was easy and simple to go out to find food, and never mentioned any danger.But I can’t see with my eyes, but my hearing is very sensitive, but I know very clearly that the truth is not the case. I often hear people in the village talking about the dangers outside the village, and people often die on the road outside the village looking for food. en route.

Thinking of the words about the dangers outside the village that I had heard in the past, I curled up in the dark, thinking of my brother who had not returned so far, tears streaming down my eyes uncontrollably.

If my brother is really gone, then what is the point of me living in this world?

"Xiao Xi, brother is back..."

I don't know how long the time has passed in the darkness. Unknowingly curled up in the darkness and fell asleep, I heard a familiar call coming from my ear.

Hearing that my brother had come home, I threw myself into his arms, and the sadness and fear that I had suppressed before burst out all at once, and wept loudly.

Then, my palm touched some viscous liquid in the dark, with a pungent bloody smell, it was an unhealed wound on my brother's body.

And my brother just said that I encountered some small troubles outside the village, so I don’t have to worry about it, and said happily that the food brought back this time is enough for us brothers and sisters to eat for a long time, and he can stay with me all the time in the next few days. I'm here.

Although I couldn't see it with my eyes, I could clearly feel from the wound how serious and dangerous the so-called little trouble my brother was talking about made me cry more violently.

I blame myself very much, if it is not because of my burden, if my brother is not taking care of me who has been in poor health since birth, he can live a better life alone, at least he does not have to search for food so desperately.

As if sensing my inner thoughts, my brother held me tighter in his arms, then stretched out his palm and touched my head, and said softly: "Xiaoxi, don't blame yourself, all this has nothing to do with you Relationship. In fact, if it wasn’t for Xiaoxi who was by my side, my brother would have been unable to persist and gave up the idea of ​​living in this cold and cruel world, so it was Xiaoxi who gave my brother the hope of living. Brother should thank you."

"But, if it wasn't for me, my mother wouldn't have died at all. Just like what those people outside said, I am a child who shouldn't be born and will only bring disaster and bad luck." I cried.

"How could it be? Xiaoxi, do you know that when mother left, she had a smile on her face. In fact, mother's body was already exhausted, but because you were still in the womb, she I worked very hard until you were born. Just like the name my mother gave you when she was dying, you are her hope."

My name is "Xi", Xi is Hope's Xi, which is the name my mother gave me when she was dying.

My brother held my palm and said softly: "So from now on, Xiaoxi, you must stop saying such stupid things, and don't think about those stupid things in your heart. Let us, brothers and sisters, live together in this cruel world. Let's live together."

"Ok!"

I nodded heavily.

An indescribable warmth came from the tightly held palms. At that moment, it seemed that all the darkness in front of my eyes was melted by this warmth, and I became fearless.

As long as my brother is here, I am not afraid of anything!

We depend on each other for life.

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When I was young, I had never seen what my brother said about the light, nor had I seen the scene of flowers blooming everywhere under the sun, and the sea so blue that it meets the sky as far as the eye can see... These brothers are in my ears I have never seen the beauties that Bian has more than once described to me.

However, even if these scenery are really as beautiful as my brother described, I am not very interested. What I want to see most is not some picturesque scenery, but just my brother's appearance.

Because in my heart, my brother is the most beautiful and the best, and everything in this world can't be compared.

I'm really glad that I can become my brother's sister, and we depend on each other as much as we do now.

"Xiaoxi, don't worry, my brother will definitely find a way to cure your eyes so that you can see the light!" More than once, when my brother saw my dim eyes, he promised so distressedly.

And I, every time I smiled and nodded, convinced.

It's not that I believe that the eyes that I was born unable to see can be restored and finally see the light, but I just believe in my brother himself, as if I believe in this beautiful hope.

In fact, I know very clearly how difficult it is for me as a human being to be able to see the light in both eyes, it is comparable to going to heaven.

In this world, the human race is not only born with a weak body, it is completely incomparable to those monsters with a strong body, and it is also impossible to absorb and mobilize the power of heaven and earth like those monsters. It can be said that it is the lowest and most inferior race.

If it wasn't for the fact that the human race's flesh quality was so favored by the monster race, the human race would have been extinct for thousands of years.

There will never be a lord of the monster race who is willing to spend his mana healing for a human race that is just cheap and cheap food.

However, no matter what kind of desperate situation we are in, we must always live with hope in our hearts. This is the mother who gave me the name "Hee" and my brother taught me the principles of survival.

The village where my brother and I are located belongs to a great lord of the demon clan. There are more than a hundred of the same village in his hands.

Fortunately, this demon lord does not like young human races, but likes to eat middle-aged and elderly human races, saying that the meat of old human races is chewy.

Therefore, my elder brother and I live a life of being dependent on each other, relatively speaking, it is relatively peaceful, and there is not much worry about our lives for the time being.

And because my elder brother has shown extraordinary strength since he was a child, his elder brother can move a boulder that usually requires ten people to move by himself, so he is quite respected in the village, and no one dares to bully him We brothers and sisters.

For his unique strength talent, my brother himself doesn't understand why, but he often likes to look up at the sky, sometimes for a whole day, as if that is his final destination.

I originally thought that the days when we brothers and sisters depended on each other would go on peacefully forever, but that day, this peace was finally broken...

Another great lord of the monster clan came to visit the castle of the lord of our village, and the big lord of the monster clan from other places loved the fresh and tender meat of young girls the most, so all the school-age girls in the village were drafted into Table ingredients...

Among them, including me.

After hearing the news, my elder brother rushed back to the village. In order to protect me from being taken away for food, he fought with those monster guards.

The elder brother who was in a desperate situation awakened a talent that the human race did not have. Like the great lords of those monster races, he possessed the powerful power to communicate with the power of heaven and earth.

All the monster guards were beheaded by the elder brother alone.

Almost all the villagers who saw this scene knelt on the ground, thinking that the elder brother was the messenger sent by heaven to save the human race from suffering.

After obtaining this power, the first thing my brother did was to heal my eyes, allowing me to see the light for the first time in my life.

When I opened my eyes, the first thing I saw was the most beautiful scenery in my life, and that was the face of my brother that I had been longing to see for a long time.

Because I killed the guard of the demon lord, my elder brother who had just awakened his strength and was not ready to face the demon army directly left the village with me who had regained his sight, and began his life in exile.

And during the days of exile in the world, there are more and more followers around my brother. Under my brother's teaching, these people also mastered the method of communicating and absorbing the power of heaven and earth like the monster clan.

Because this kind of exercise was created by the elder brother, and the name that the elder brother gave himself was "Tao", they called this power "cultivation of Tao".

After seeing the light, although I saw the appearance of my brother who was thinking about it day and night, and saw the beautiful scenery that my brother told me more than once, I also saw the filth and tragedy in this world.

Too many human races are treated like edible livestock.

And for some reason, since gaining power, my brother also began to have some strange changes.

This kind of change does not mean a change in the treatment of my younger sister. In fact, my brother is still the same as before, pampering and taking care of me very much. Even if I want stars in the sky, he will do his best to pick them for me. .

The change of my brother happened in the treatment of other human races. Whether it was facing the tragedies suffered by the human race or the cruel actions of those monster races, there was no trace of compassion or anger in my brother's eyes, only that kind of aloofness. coldness and indifference.

This kind of feeling is like my brother no longer thinks that he is a member of the human race, and with a detached attitude that overrides everything, it is like watching the ants that are dying in the morning, watching everything below without sadness or joy.

Moreover, the number of times my brother looks at the sky has also increased a lot, and it seems that he will go away with the wind and return to the sky at any time.

My brother once said that he was going to find a quiet place with beautiful mountains and rivers, and take me in to spend the rest of his life together, ignoring the outside world.

But in the end, this idea was still not realized. His elder brother chose to lead the human race to fight against the monster race, and became the supreme king of the human race.

I didn't understand the reason for my brother's sudden change at the time, and I didn't think of the root cause of it all until a long, long time later.

That was one night, my elder brother who was looking at the sky suddenly turned around and asked me casually what wish I wanted to achieve, and then I said, I hope there will be peace in this world, and there will be no more bloodshed, death and sorrow.

My elder brother at that time, after hearing my words, just smiled lightly, and said softly that this wish was really difficult.

I didn't pay attention to it at the time, because it was true that this wish was too difficult, and I couldn't see the possibility of realizing it at all, so I just said it casually.Unexpectedly, my brother has always kept it in his heart.

In the days when I became the high-profile king of the human race and waged a desperate war against the monster army, because of my weak body, I was unable to communicate with the power of heaven and earth to practice Taoism, and my brother didn't want me to have this power, because my brother didn't want me to go Fighting against the demon clan on the extremely dangerous battlefield, so I was left at home, and he sent people to protect me heavily.

Just like before, waiting at home for my brother to return.

Every time my brother led an army to go out, I could only stay at home and pray to heaven for my brother's safe return. At the same time, when my brother's army returned, I held a lamp in my hand and watched my brother go home on the road outside the door.

What if my brother can't find his way home?
After all, my brother is fighting for the human race alone in this world, and I am the only relative, so even if it is only me, I must let my brother feel the warmth of home.

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In the fifth year of fighting against the monster army, a small rebellion appeared in the human race.

Those generals of the human race rushed to the house where my brother and I lived while my brother was fighting with the monster army on the front line, and took me hostage.

They also know that my brother loves me the most in this world. I am the king's brother, my only weakness.

The reason why they held me hostage was that these people thought that my brother must have hidden his secrets and didn't hand over all the cultivation methods, otherwise why would my brother be so powerful while people like me are progressing so slowly in cultivation.

They believe that as long as they hold me hostage, they can make my brother hand over all the cultivation techniques and tricks. At that time, the strength of the human race will increase by leaps and bounds, which can reduce many casualties and defeat the monster race more easily.

They had completely forgotten that if it wasn't for the appearance of their elder brother, the current human race would still be in a situation where they were animals. These people had no sense of doing anything wrong. Is a man of justice.

Then, when they took me hostage to my elder brother, they all died.

I have never seen my brother so angry, nor have I ever imagined that my brother, who has always been so gentle in front of me, has become so strong. Just looking at these people, they immediately lost all vitality.

"Oh, people's hearts."

Picking up the frightened me, my brother looked at the corpses under his feet, and said this sentence in a cold voice, his face seemed very disappointed and lost.

At that time, I thought that my brother was disappointed because of the actions of these people who hijacked me. Later, I realized that what my brother was disappointed was not the actions of these people, but that even if he really pacified the world, the human race is respected, and the world will be destroyed. There will not always be peace, there will still be blood and death and sorrow...

And the wish I made at that time may never be realized for me.

The reason is because of "people's hearts".

Even if there is no foreign enemy as powerful as the monster race, war and destruction will still occur in the endless fighting among the human race.

After that small rebellion, my elder brother seemed to be unaffected, and he was still fighting against the monster army on the front line as the king of the human race.

Perhaps in the past few years, my brother who has acted as a king has also seen many beautiful things in the human race. Those who held me before did not represent all of them.

Although it is difficult to realize the wish, after all, we must have a hope in our hearts, and maybe it will be realized one day.

However, for the sake of my safety, my brother spent a lot of effort to upgrade the cultivation base of the white fox we adopted together, so that the white fox can protect me for him when he is not around.

After another period of time, news of the defeat suddenly came from the front.

It turned out that it was the rise of the human race, which caused the mysterious and unpredictable Heavenly Dao to backlash, and the heavenly punishment was sent down in front of the army, causing countless deaths and injuries.

Perhaps under the rules of the Dao of Heaven, the human race exists as livestock. How can they stand up and become the masters of this land?

However, my brother said that the way of heaven does not tolerate the human race because it knows the potential contained in the human race, so it is afraid.

Therefore, the elder brother gathered the strength of the entire human race at that time and decided to build a weapon called "sword" to cut the sky.

Brother, he is really powerful, as if he knows everything.

However, something went wrong during the casting process of this sword, because no one could give it a spirit.

A spiritless weapon may be able to cut iron like mud, but it will definitely not pose a threat to the way of heaven.

And I also learned from the information secretly sent to me by others that my brother decided to cancel the sword-making plan, because only the closest relatives and loved ones of the sword-holder can give spirits to this sky-slashing sword.

And in this world, the only person who is qualified to infuse this sword is me as his younger sister!

If there is no such sword, then the elder brother who has been noticed by Tiandao is really in danger.

I understand the meaning of the message secretly conveyed to me by the other party, and I have already made a decision in my heart.

On that day, I put on the most beautiful new clothes that my brother gave me, cooked a table of my brother's favorite food on weekdays, and then took advantage of my brother's rest, I secretly left the house and walked towards the sword furnace. direction.

The hot white sky fire was burning fiercely, and the sky-slashing sword stood in it. Standing in front of the fire, I felt peaceful in my heart.

I have always been the one who is taken care of by my brother, and now I can finally do something for him, so I am really happy.

I don't regret my decision at all, the only thing I regret is not being able to stay with my brother for a longer time, not being able to see him more often.

But it doesn't matter, since then, I can still be by my brother's side, not like I could only stay at home and pray, but I can become the sword in my brother's hand, accompany him to fight everywhere, and never be separated for the rest of my life.

Jumping down, the white sky fire engulfed me, the scorching temperature was like the warmth of my brother holding my palm in that small village many years ago.

The kind of warmth that can dispel all darkness and be fearless.

Really... very happy!

　It took me a whole day to write about the big chapter of nearly [-] words, I hope you like it.

　　
　
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