sorry i love you

Chapter 27 How Coincidentally "Destined"

On the fifth day of the fifth day, she finally got better. She could barely walk outside, and rested for another two days. On the seventh day, Qing Yang went out to the flower shop early in the morning. She picked some flowers she liked and asked the clerk to wrap them up. She planned to take them to the flower shop. Mother.She was too young when her mother died, and she had no time to ask her mother what flowers she liked, and she never had the opportunity again.She thought that her mother liked her, and the flowers she liked probably wouldn't be hated by her mother.

Take a taxi to the cemetery outside the city, get in the car, report the address, and suddenly hear the driver say: "Miss, have I seen you?"

She was taken aback, and looked at the driver, who was the master who took her from the train station to the hotel the day she first arrived, and couldn't help smiling, "Master, what a coincidence."

The driver was also very happy: "It seems that we are destined! By the way, are you going to see someone?"

Qingyang didn't want to hide it from him, "Yes, to see my mother."

The driver was a little surprised: "The people in that cemetery all died in the earthquake 18 years ago, your mother...is it too?"

This matter was a wound in Qingyang's heart, she didn't speak, but nodded.

The driver was even more strange: "Then you are a local?"

"No", Qing Yang paused, then turned his head to look out the window, "I have been away for 18 years." I can't recognize the plants and trees here, I can't remember the people here, how can I count it as a person? native?It's just a passerby who has more feelings for this place than outsiders.

The driver also seemed a little disappointed, "It's been 18 years... how fast, I remember at the time I thought life was just like that, but now that I think about it, life is actually very long."

It is indeed very long, but just like this road, no matter how long it is, there will be an end.

After getting out of the car, Qingyang walked into the cemetery with flowers and found her mother's tombstone, but unexpectedly saw an unexpected person.Hearing her footsteps, the man turned his head and saw her, but when his eyes fell on her, he was in a trance, and he couldn't help calling out: "Qingyi..."

Seeing him here, Qing Yang was not so happy at first, but when she heard him call her mother's name, she felt angry in her chest.

He said coldly, "Uncle, you've got the wrong person."

Father Xu came back to his senses all of a sudden, looked at Qingyang in front of him, and smiled lovingly: "Qingyang, you also come to see your mother."

Qing Yang walked over and put the flowers in her hand in front of the tombstone, "Yes, I came to see my mother, because my mother wanted to see me." Although she answered Xu's father, her eyes were on her mother's tombstone.

Xu's father felt a little embarrassed, and when he didn't know what to say, he heard Qingyang continue to say: "And my mother won't want to see you, uncle, so you'd better not condescend to come here in the future."

For the first time in 18 years, he spoke to Xu's father so unceremoniously. He has raised her for 18 years. She knows that she owes his kindness, but he lacks the happiness of his mother's life. Isn't he here now to find some inner peace? consolation?

When Xu's father heard Qingyang's words, his expression changed, and he said, "Lan Qing already told you what happened 30 years ago, right?"

Qingyi... Lanqing... No matter what the woman's name is, he can call her so kindly.

"Yes, my aunt told me a long time ago, in order to keep me away from your son. I must stay away from him. After all, he is your son, so he will probably be the same as you!" People hurt themselves again, in fact, she knows it all too well, it won't be the same.

"Qingyang, you don't have to react so strongly. Lan Qing probably didn't tell you what happened back then... What happened back then was actually Qingyi's own choice."

What's the point of saying this now? "My mother is dead, do you think I will believe it?"

When people make mistakes, aren't they all used to finding excuses to cover up for themselves?
Father Xu smiled wryly, "I know you won't believe it. No one thought that such a thing would happen at the beginning. Qingyi hated Yuguo so much that she made up her mind to send him to jail, but if she called the police, it would mean The fact that she was...she was raped is no longer a secret, and she knows that the Xu family has always been famous, and she doesn't want to let me be ridiculed, so she insists on breaking up with me. "

Wang Yuguo, Wang Lanqing's younger brother, also Xu Nancheng's uncle, was the culprit in the whole incident, one of the reasons why Qingyang couldn't forgive the Xu family.He had liked her mother for a long time, but her mother didn't like him. She got drunk once and did something wrong.

Qingyang also met Wang Yu several times when she was a child, and every time he saw her, she always felt weird, and then she realized that it was because of her mother.

"So you agreed." Qing Yang sneered, with disdain in his laughter.

Xu's father's complexion darkened, "Yes, I agreed, she called the police, and my father would never let her into Xu's house, and if he made my father anxious, he would even attack Qingyi, so I agreed. Later, when someone accused me of abandoning Qingyi because of that incident, Qingyi took the initiative to stand up and defend me, saying that she had already fallen in love with someone else and decided to break up with me. She said that the person she fell in love with was your father, Qingyi and I’s college classmate, I knew he liked Qingyi for a long time, but I didn’t expect that he would actually marry her in the end.”

At first, Qingyang didn't know that her mother married her father because of this, so she was a little surprised, and then smiled, "This is enough to show that my father is the one who loves my mother the most. You probably don't know, my mother When you suffer from mental illness, you know the reason. Normally, everything is fine, but once you get sick... my father alone bears the burden of the whole family, and he is often hurt by the sick mother, but he never thought of abandoning my mother. If it were you, would you be able to do it?"

Xu's father's face suddenly turned pale, and his hands clenched into fists and then gradually loosened, "I don't know...Qingyi once told me that she can't help me on the way to realize my ambitions, the only thing she can give me is It is freedom, I just hope that I can achieve what I want, and now I am only one step away from what I want, all I can do is to tell her."

The only thing that can be given is freedom... Is this really the mother's original choice?
So what about her now?She doesn't have Pei Xinying's family background, now that she thinks about it, what she can give Xu Nancheng, like her mother, is nothing more than freedom.

coincide?Maybe it's fate. It's fate that she should be the same as her mother's choice. I wish him happiness.

Father Xu looked at Qingyang who was suddenly silent, and guessed what she was thinking, reached out to pat Qingyang on the shoulder, but Qingyang dodged reflexively.He smiled knowingly, and said: "Sometimes, letting go may not be a kind of fulfillment."

This is Xu's father's attitude. He has always felt guilty towards Qingyang's mother, but guilt can't replace everything. He didn't want to hurt Qingyang, but he didn't stop Xu's mother from hurting Qingyang.

He is clear about the relationship between her and Xu Nancheng, and as someone who has experienced it, he understands their feelings very well. From a human point of view, he really shouldn't stop the two of them, but from a rational point of view, as a father, his choice and Just like his father.

The Pei family behind Pei Xinying will be a strong support for Xu Nancheng's career in the future, and saying that he is well-matched does not mean feudalism, on the contrary, it is very reasonable.They are all too young to make rash decisions for fear that they will regret it in the future.

"I've finished what I want to say, you and your mother can stay alone for a while." Father Xu said, turned and left.

Qingyang approached her mother's tombstone, squatted down, looked at the tombstone with her eyes level, and said softly: "Mom, did you really think so?"

Set him free and wish him happiness...

But you won't be able to see him and others happy, aren't you really sad?After all, I was once so close to happiness...

She rested her head on the cold tombstone and smiled wryly: "Mom, is this genetic? Why did I seem to be in the same situation as you were?"

"Mom, do you know? I fell in love with someone, the kind I like very much, but he is Uncle Xu's son, or Wang Yuguo's nephew. He has a fiancee, a daughter of everyone, and they are about to get married ...I want to bless them, but I can't, I'm not generous at all, I see them together will be uncomfortable, I will be very unhappy, I know I shouldn't, but I just can't control myself...Mom , did you encounter a similar situation back then? That's why you came here with Dad, right?"

"By the way, Mom, I have a boyfriend. He treats me very well, the kind that makes me feel guilty. I often think, if I met him first, would everything be different? Mom, Do you feel the same way about Dad?"

But, if there is no if, it is him who let go of her defenses a little bit and approached the bottom of her heart, that person is irreplaceable.

The scenes of the two getting along with each other from childhood to adulthood came to mind. Tears slipped from the eyes and fell on the stone slab. In such a place with no one else, in front of her mother, she was finally willing to show her truest emotions, crying like a helpless child.

"Mom, do you know? On New Year's Eve, he appeared in front of me. I really thought I was dreaming. It was his fiancée's phone call that woke me up. The next morning I learned that he left At that time, I thought, that’s it, after all, he is just a passer-by in my life, coming in a hurry and leaving in a hurry.”

I talked to my mother intermittently for a long time. When I stood up again, my legs were almost unconscious. Perhaps it was because of crying for too long, and my head was dizzy. The dizziness made her feel a little nauseous. Stomach also upset.Standing up with difficulty, Qingyang supported the tombstone next to him, and moved forward little by little.

Suddenly someone rushed over to support her, she raised her head, and saw the person she thought was the least likely to appear——Chen Anliang.

(End of this chapter)