wasting time with you

Chapter 36
Mu Yan stretched out his hand and pulled her to his chest to hug her, and the things hidden in his eyes were hidden in the dark night: "I just realized that the night view of City A is so beautiful." Behind the bustling city there are many unknown He is thinking about how to discover a certain shocking secret.

He was a man who was sometimes deep and sometimes humorous, so An Yiruo naturally couldn't notice the slight strangeness like a spider's web.Lowering her eyelashes, she smiled, feeling that the embrace at this moment was extremely sweet, and couldn't help calling his name softly, "Mu Yan?"

"Huh?" Mu Yan replied lazily with his eyes closed, his mind still wandering.

Putting her small hands on his big hands around her waist, An Yiruo said softly, "I like you to hug me from behind the most." As if guessing that he would be confused, she explained, "This posture has a feeling of mutual bond." He His heart overlaps hers, so close that there is no gap.

Mu Yan laughed silently, gathered her arms and hugged her tighter, letting her back press against his chest, listening to each other's heartbeats, one after another.

At night, when the passion faded, An Yi fell into a deep sleep like a cat. Mu Yan hugged her sideways, leaned over and kissed her smooth shoulder in exhaustion, "I'm sorry to have wronged you. I didn't know it was her."

I didn't know it was midsummer, so I deliberately made things difficult for you.

The so-called falling in love is easy but staying together is difficult.Mu Yan is already aware of some kind of potential danger, and he can't rest assured if he doesn't get rid of it for a day.After thinking all night, his original hesitation was finally dispelled by his determination to protect An Yiruo, so he decided to call Sheng Xia.

At lunch time, Han Yuting came to An Yiruo's office, "Come with me to the Bayless Leisure Club, Mr. Chen from Hong Kong Yunshi Group is here."

Regarding work matters, An Yiruo had no reason to refuse, so she neatly packed up her drawings and left the company.

As the boss of Fengxing, Han Yuting seldom socializes, and occasionally shirks, but he just takes Shengxia there. It's the first time to take her to meet a client. When An Yiruo was on the road, he couldn't help but say: "Mr. Sheng has always been in charge of Yunshi's orders, right?" ?”

"The secretary said she was out, but I didn't get through to her cell phone." Han Yuting focused on the road conditions, and said lightly, "Chen is always our old customer, and now he is here, we should do our landlord's favor."

I see.An Yiruo did not forget that last night Mu Yan told her to stay away from Han Yuting, so he stopped talking.

There was no traffic jam, and we arrived downstairs in no time.

Han Yuting was very gentlemanly, as if he knew that she couldn't walk fast in high heels and deliberately slowed down.An Yiruo followed behind him, and walked to the pre-booked private room under the guidance of the waiter.When passing through a private room with a half-open door, she suddenly caught a glimpse of a familiar figure from the corner of her eye.

Taking two steps back and stopping outside the door, An Yiruo saw Mu Yan's tall and straight figure sitting inside with his back to her.A slight smile floated on her cheek, and she was about to say hello to him, when a female voice came from inside, "I thought you would never marry because of your deep affection for Shuhui."

With a cold and sarcastic tone, and a familiar voice, if it's not Midsummer, who else could it be?As for Shuhui - upon hearing this completely unfamiliar name, An Yiruo suddenly thought that Tan Ziyue was hesitant to speak during that small gathering.

Will there be a connection?
While thinking, Mu Yan inside spoke.

"I don't want to mention the past." The deep and mellow voice was imperceptibly indifferent and alienated.

Sheng Xia asked coldly: "Did you forget how Shuhui left?"

For Muyan, Shuhui's departure seems to be a heavy blow.Because he was obviously silent for a while, he said: "I haven't forgotten. But what do you want me to do? Seven years, isn't it enough?" In a helpless tone.

"Are you planning to just use one sentence? Isn't it enough to kill everything? If you weren't too stubborn, how could she die!" She kept it in her heart, and even never married. But I can't forget how a drop of bright red blood flowed from Shuhui's body. I can't forget."

The girl who was only three months younger than her passed away like that, and she was separated from her cousin forever.After many years, Shengxia still couldn't let go of her hatred for Muyan.

If it weren't for him, Shuhui wouldn't have died.

Memory came back, and Sheng Xia choked up: "You killed her."

The scene of He Shuhui lying in a pool of blood instantly appeared in his mind, and Mu Yan's chest hurt like a crack.

That's right.If it weren't for him, Shuhui wouldn't have died.

Mu Yan raised his head, and when he spoke again, his deep voice was full of desolation: "It's my fault. If it wasn't for me, Shuhui would not have died." The cruel truth does not allow him to evade or shirk responsibility.That heavy past, that love that was terminated by death made his heart hurt for seven years, but even if he died, she would not come back to life. Mu Yan had no choice but to stand up.

He is a sane man who has finally come out of the shadows after experiencing pain and collapse.

Unfortunately, not everyone can be so sensible.

The information bag in his hand slipped to the ground, as if the tense heartstrings of several people were broken.

The lungs were filled with pain, so tight that there was no room to breathe.The usually calm eyes were turbulent, An Yiruo almost had the urge to run away.The temperature of the air conditioner seemed to be a few degrees lower, and she was shivering from the cold as if she was in an icehouse.

To pick up the materials that fell on the ground, someone has already taken a step ahead.

It's Han Yuting.

Seeing that she didn't follow, he stepped back: "What's wrong?"

At this time, Mu Yan heard the voice behind him and turned around. Before the pain on his face faded away, he saw An Yiruo standing there with a pale face.

The moment his eyes met, An Yiruo had the illusion of being cut off from the world.Although he still doesn't know the past of Mu Yan and Shu Hui, he already guessed that it was an extremely deep and deep relationship for him.It's different from Xiao Ran.

As if he didn't know anything about what was happening before him, Han Yuting's probing eyes swept across Midsummer and settled on Mu Yan's gloomy face.

Not a coincidence.Mu Yan calmed down, feeling as if he had been set aside.

An extremely unexpected meeting, with a subtlety that is not easy to be deciphered.

The four stood facing each other, silent.

The air is filled with complex emotions, which are lingering and lingering.

Mu Yan moved first.He walked over to grab An Yiruo's hand, and found that her hand was freezing cold.And the warmth in his hands made An Yiruo unable to control the heat in his eyes.

My heart is sad, like a stick in my throat.

Sheng Xia looked past An Yiruo and landed on Han Yuting, calmly: "Yuting, why are you here?"

Han Yuting pulled the corner of his lips: "Don't bother you to catch up with your friends, I have an appointment with Mr. Chen from Yunshi." He looked at An Yiruo: "Yiruo, Mr. Chen is still waiting for us." After he finished speaking, he turned to An Yiruo Walking away from the next room, he seemed to know that An Yiruo would not leave in a rude manner.

Looking at Sheng Xia's hostile eyes, An Yiruo felt that if he stayed for just a second, he would drown and die.She withdrew her hand dejectedly, "I'll accompany Boss Han to meet the client, so I'm leaving first."

The moment he crossed paths with Mu Yan, his arm was held again.

Mu Yan's pupils darkened a bit, and his voice had an irresistible tone, "I'll pick you up after get off work, and I'll talk to you when the time comes."

It turned out that Xiao Ran was not the only one in his past.

For a while, An Yiruo couldn't digest it.

Seeing the fog in her eyes, Mu Yan sighed in his heart, lightly touched her stubborn and sad face with the back of his finger, and realized that he had made a huge mistake, because he had indeed deliberately concealed the past.

An Yiruo didn't refuse or agree, but just broke away from his hand and left silently.

When meeting Mr. Chen, An Yiruo behaved poorly.She was devastated, with a tired look on her face, she didn't know what Han Yuting and Mr. Chen talked about, she just tried her best to piece together the scattered memories, so as to find some clues to understand the past between Muyan, Shengxia, and Shuhui.

Of course it was futile.

An Yiruo suddenly realized that she knew too little about Mu Yan.This realization made her heart sink again and again.

Mu Yan, didn't we promise to be together forever, why didn't you be honest with me?Whether it is good or bad, whether it is related to love or not, I can accept things about you, just like you accept my past.Are you not confident in yourself, or in me?
Numerous emotions are crazily intertwined, and one heartache is so painful that it cannot be added.Her eyes gradually became blurred, as if separated by a thick fog that could not be dispersed, she could no longer see everything around her clearly.

When she walked out of the clubhouse, she couldn't even adapt to the strong sunlight in the afternoon, and subconsciously stretched out her hands to cover her eyes, "Mr. Han, I feel a little uncomfortable."

How could Han Yuting not see her heartbreak and haggardness?His eyes were bottomless, and when he spoke, his voice was different from the usual deep one, and his concern was palpable, "I'll take you home." Before she could refuse, he opened the car door and waited for her to get in.

An Yiruo couldn't refuse.

Foreign vehicles cannot enter the community, so Han Yuting only sent An Yiruo to the main entrance of the community.

She thanked her and got out of the car without looking back.

Watching her thin back disappear into sight, Han Yuting's cold eyes darkened again and again.He looked up at the turbulent dark clouds in the sky, trying his best to suppress the complex emotions that jumped up in his heart.

I shouldn't provoke her anymore, but is it really nothing to do with her to venture back?

Say it, even I don't believe it.

Why lie to yourself.

An Yiruo never thought that the drama only in film and television dramas would be staged on him.When she received a call from Sheng Xia, she blocked her original refusal, "Is Miss An afraid of knowing his past?"Anyway, knowing that he had a deep relationship, An Yiruo didn't mind listening to Midsummer's version.

Go as scheduled.

There was silence in Man Coffee, An Yiruo and Sheng Xia sat facing each other.

An Yiruo unconsciously stirred the coffee, waiting patiently for her to speak first.

Sheng Xia said surprisingly, "Will you leave him?"

Leaving Muyan?Facing this provocative question, An Yiruo said firmly, "No."

Such an answer surprised Sheng Xia somewhat.But she just smiled calmly, and then her thoughts drifted away.

It's been a long ten years, and I don't know where to start.

Amidst the strong fragrance, An Yiruo learned about Mu Yan and He Shuhui's past:

He Shuhui is a quiet girl like a chrysanthemum, and she and Mu Yan are childhood sweethearts, the kind of first love of childhood sweethearts.

He Shuhui moved into the community where Muyan lived in his first year of junior high school.Coincidentally, the school they attended was only one street away.Because the two parents were old acquaintances, Mu Yan took her to and from school naturally.Later, he went to the police academy, and He Shuhui was successfully admitted to the high school with the highest enrollment rate in the city. The relationship between them began to be maintained by correspondence.It wasn't until she stepped into college that they established a relationship.

The 22-year-old Mu Yan was young, impulsive and energetic. He was shot in the chest during a mission. He Shuhui rushed to the scene, held him in his arms when he fell, and cried until he fainted.Really aware of the dangers of his profession, the gentle He Shuhui changed his normal attitude and tried his best to persuade Mu Yan to quit the police force to take a stable job, but Mu Yan's attitude was resolute and refused.

This stalemate lasted for half a year, and finally the two elders of the He family also came forward to interfere in the relationship between the juniors.Father He even directly talked to Mu Kaisheng, hoping to mobilize work for Mu Yan.Because of this, Mu Yan had a big fight with He Shuhui.The two were very emotional that time, and finally broke up unhappy.Later, He Shuhui used going abroad as an excuse to make a final struggle, but was killed by a drug dealer who took revenge on Mu Yan on the way to the airport.

During He Shuhui's funeral, Mu Yan, who was dressed in black, knelt in front of her grave for a whole day and night, and silently endured He's mother's beating and scolding.The next year was the happiest for Mu Yan in his life.He refused to go home because he was afraid of facing his parents; he drank without restraint; he trained like crazy.

From the distress at the beginning to the anger at the end, Mu Kaisheng slapped Mu Yan hard, pointed at his nose and cursed, "Mu Yan, do you know that you are a son and a parent? Where did you put us? Can you come back like Shuhui? She will not want to see you like this. Is there any point in blaming yourself now? If you really love Shuhui, catch the person who killed her and let him get Deserved sanctions!"

In the torrential rain, Mu Yan collapsed and was ill for seven days. After waking up, he was completely reborn.The painful experience made him calm down day by day. After nearly a year of investigation, Mu Yan personally shot and killed the murderer who killed He Shuhui.

That year, Mu Yan went to the cemetery and brought He Shuhui's favorite lily, and sat there for a whole day without saying a word.

In the next few years, Mu Yan's life was filled with work and training.Except for the appearance of Xiao Ran when he was an undercover agent, before meeting An Yiruo, his emotional world was like a blank sheet of paper, empty.

Such a heavy past will soon be over.Of course, Sheng Xia had never seen the second half with her own eyes, and she didn't know how Mu Yan struggled to get to where she is today after being abroad for many years.What she saw was his forgetting, and he started a new relationship.

Sheng Xia didn't like herself who was trying so hard.But on the first day after returning to China, I met Mu Yan and An Yiruo hugging outside the Yinke Building, and the dusty memories deep in my heart were awakened.The destructive personality in the subconscious was exposed little by little, and she couldn't control it at all.Every time he saw An Yiruo, he would think of his dead cousin.Sheng Xia hated An Yiruo more and more, so she killed her over and over again, which was a perfect design draft, so as to vent her depressed emotions.

But Xinxin knows how innocent An Yi is, and what she does is meaningless except to make herself uglier.

Midsummer hates herself like this.

Imagining Mu Yan's decadent appearance, and imagining how he struggled to get out of the pain alone, An Yiruo felt very distressed.

For He Shuhui, he is deeply in love, otherwise he wouldn't have been in a stalemate for half a year without ruthlessly saying that he wanted to separate, and it wouldn't have taken seven years of precipitation to get out of the haze.It turned out that a calm and steady personality was not born with him. He changed only after going through that heart-wrenching scene.And his heart was baptized with blood.

For a moment, An Yiruo couldn't tell if he was panicking about Mu Yan's deep love for He Shuhui, or if he was more afraid that his love with Mu Yan could not match the relationship between him and He Shuhui for more than ten years.

I have no confidence in myself or in the future.

The night is still bright, and the street lamps cast a hazy yellow light, illuminating the slightly floating dust in the air.An Yiruo stepped on the accelerator hard, and the car sped away like an arrow, and was instantly lost in the dark night.

Certain corners of the city are full of temptations.Many fragile and injured souls, under the cover of night and dim light, indulge in the wild side of gentle human nature.

(End of this chapter)