Pride and Prejudice; Sense and Sensibility

Chapter 63

Mr. Bingley not only did not receive a letter of apology from his friend for failing to perform as Elizabeth had expected, but also brought Darcy to Longbourne a few days after Lady Catherine's visit.

The two distinguished guests came early.As Jane sat there she was constantly apprehensive lest her mother should tell Darcy to his face the news of his aunt's visit, but before Mrs Bennet could tell of it, Bingley proposed to go for a walk, as he was going to be with him Simply being alone together, everyone agrees.

Mrs. Bennet was not in the habit of walking, and Mary never wanted to waste time, so there were only five people who went out together.Bingley and Jane immediately let the others go ahead, and they themselves went behind, leaving Elizabeth, Kitty, and Darcy to entertain each other.All three were silent: Katie was too afraid of Darcy to speak; Elizabeth was secretly making her best resolutions; and perhaps Darcy was the same.

They went to Lucas's house, because Katie wanted to see Maria; Elizabeth felt that it was not necessary for everyone to go, so when Katie was gone, she ventured on with him.

Now was the time for her to make up her mind, and she immediately mustered up her courage and said to him: "Mr. Darcy, I am a selfish person. I just want to make myself happy, regardless of whether it will hurt your feelings." You are too dear to my poor sister, and I cannot fail to be grateful to you. Ever since I learned of this, I have wanted to thank you; and if all my family knew, I would not I can only thank you."

"I'm sorry, I'm so sorry," said Mr. Darcy, both astonished and excited, "that if the matter were looked at in the wrong light, it might have made you feel badly, and you would never have expected to know it. I did not expect that Madame Dana is so unreliable."

"You shouldn't blame my aunt. I only knew you were involved in this matter because Lydia herself didn't pay attention and let it out first. If I don't find out clearly, of course I won't let it go. Let me thank you on behalf of my whole family. You, thank you for your sympathy, not being afraid of trouble, going to them after suffering all kinds of grievances."

"If you really want to thank me," said Darcy, "you have only to show your own thanks. You needn't deny that I've done so much, among other reasons, to please you, that your family needn't thank me. Although I respect them, I only thought of you at the time."

Elizabeth was too embarrassed to say a word.After a while, her friend said again: "You are a cheerful person, and you will never make fun of me. Please tell me honestly, whether your mood is still the same as in April. My wishes and emotions are still the same. As always, as long as you say a word, I will never mention this matter again."

Elizabeth felt more uneasy and anxious when he heard him express his heart in this way, but she had to speak again.

She then hesitantly told him that her heart had changed so much since the period he had just mentioned, and that she was now willing to accept his kindness with joy and gratitude.

This answer simply made him feel happier than ever.Like a man passionately in love, he seized the opportunity at once, and poured out his heart to her with infinite delicacy and passion.If Elizabeth could look up into his eyes, she could see that his beaming expression made him more free.Although she didn't dare to look at his face, she could hear his voice, and she could only hear him tell her all his emotions, how important she was to him, and the more she listened, the more she felt him. Emotion is precious.

They just walked forward without even identifying the direction.They have a lot of thoughts to think about, a lot of emotions to experience, and a lot to talk about, so they really don't have the heart to pay attention to other things.At this moment, she immediately realized that it was thanks to his aunt's strength that the two parties could obtain each other's understanding this time.It turned out that when his aunt went back, she passed by London and really went to him once, and told him all about her coming to Longburn, her motives, and the content of her conversation with Elizabeth, especially Elizabeth's words. She talked in great detail, emphatically talking about everything that the old man thought was arrogant and eccentric and shameless.The old lady thought that, even if Elizabeth refused to agree to annul the marriage, her nephew would definitely give her a personal promise.However, what the old lady didn't expect was that the effect was just the opposite.

He said: "I hardly dared to hope before, but this time I feel that things have hope. I fully understand your temper. I think, if you really hate me to the bone, and there is no room for redemption, then you will definitely die Lady Catherine confessed it straight to the face."

Elizabeth blushed, and said with a smile: "This is true. You know that I am straightforward, so you believe that I will do that. Since I can hate you in front of you, I will naturally Scolding you in front of any of your relatives."

"Which one of the words you scolded me didn't deserve it? Although your accusations were groundless and were all based on rumors, my attitude towards you that time really deserved the most severe reprimand, which is unforgivable. I When I think about it, I can't help but hate myself."

Elizabeth said: "What happened that afternoon, we don't need to argue about who should be more responsible. Strictly speaking, both sides' attitudes were bad, but since that time, I think both of us are more polite. gone."

"I'm really sorry. For several months, when I think of the words I said at that time, the behavior, attitude, and expression I showed, I feel unspeakably sad. If you scold me, you scold me. Well done, I'll never forget it. You said, 'If only you had been more polite.' You don't know how much pain that made me, you can't even imagine. But honestly, I It took a long time to understand and admit that your words were right."

"I never expected that sentence to have such a great impact on you. I didn't expect that sentence to make you uncomfortable at all."

"It's easy for me to believe what you said. You thought I didn't have any real feelings at the time, and I'm sure you must have thought that at the time. I'll never forget that you turned your back on me and said no matter what I said to you A marriage proposal can't even move your heart, so that you can agree to me."

"Oh, you don't have to mention my words again. It would be shameful to mention them. Tell you, I am also embarrassed by that incident."

Darcy referred to the letter again.He said: "That letter... After you received my letter, did you immediately have a good impression of me? Do you believe the things said in the letter?"

She said that letter had a big impact on her, and since then, all her prejudices against him have slowly dissipated.

He said: "I thought at the time that you must be very sad to read that letter, but I really have to. I wish you had destroyed that letter. There are some words in it, especially the opening words, I really don't want to Go see it again. I remember something that must make you hate me."

"If you think that you must burn that letter to keep my love, then of course I must burn it. But then again, even if I am easy to change my mind, I will not turn against you after reading that letter."

Darcy said: "When I wrote that letter, I thought I was completely calm and level-headed, but I realized afterwards that it was really out of resentment."

"The letter may have a bit of resentment at the beginning, but that's not the case at the end. The words at the end are completely merciful. It's better not to think about that letter again. Whether it's the writer or the recipient, the mood Everything is very different from the original, so all unpleasant things should be forgotten. You have to learn my outlook on life. If you want to recall the past, you should only recall those things that make you happy."

"I don't think you have that view of life. Nothing in the past is to you to be blamed, and therefore you recall everything with satisfaction not so much because you It’s more because of your innocence. However, my situation is completely opposite. I can’t help thinking of some painful things in my mind. I really can’t, and I shouldn’t. Although I don’t advocate selfishness, But in fact, I have been selfish all my life. Since I was a child, adults have taught me how to behave in this way, but they did not teach me to change my temper. They taught me to learn this rule and that rule, and let me learn their arrogance Arrogant. Unfortunately, I am an only child (for several years, I was the only child in the family), and I was spoiled by my parents since I was a child. Although the parents themselves are kind people (especially the father, he is completely charitable and amiable ), but condoned my selfishness, arrogance, and even encouraged and taught me to be so. They taught me not to look down on anyone except my own family members, taught me to look down on the world, at least hope I despise other people's knowledge, despise other people's strengths, and think that people in the world are inferior to me. From the age of eight to 28, I have been brought up in this way. Dear Elizabeth, if it were not for you, I might still be the same today. That's it! I'm not lucky to have you! You taught me a lesson. Of course I couldn't stand it at first, but I really benefited a lot. You humiliated me for a very reason. When I proposed to you, I thought you would definitely agree. Thanks to you for making me understand that since I believe that a young lady is worthy of my favor, it is absolutely impossible for me to be self-satisfied with her."

"Did you really think you would win my favor?"

"That's exactly what I thought. You must laugh at me for being too conceited? I thought you were counting on me and waiting for me to propose."

"It must be because of my bad attitude, but I tell you, I didn't mean to be that way. I never meant to deceive you, but I often make big mistakes on the basis of whim. From that afternoon on, you must He hates me so much."

"Hate you! At first I might be very angry with you, but after a while, I will know who I should be angry with."

"I hardly dare ask you what you thought of me when we met at Pemberley. Do you blame me for coming?"

"No, where, I'm just surprised."

"You are certainly surprised, but I am probably more surprised than you by your promotion. My conscience tells me that I am not worthy of your hospitality. To be honest, I did not expect to be treated extraordinarily at that time."

Darcy said: "My intention at the time was to be as polite and considerate as possible, to let you see that I was quite magnanimous and disregarded old grievances. I hope you know that I have taken your reproach seriously, sincerely corrected my mistakes, and can forgive me and dilute your grievances." Dislike for me. As for when I had other thoughts, it is really hard to say, probably within half an hour after seeing you."

He then added that Georgiana had been very happy to be her friend that time, and had been disappointed by the sudden interruption of the friendship.Then, of course, the reason for the interruption of the friendship was brought up, and Elizabeth realized that he had made up his mind before he left the hotel to follow her from Derbyshire to find her sister. Not to worry about other things, but because this matter is on my mind.

She thanked him once more, but the mention of the matter was so painful to both parties that they did not discuss it further.

They wandered in this way for several miles at leisure, not paying attention to such things, and finally looked at their watches and realized that it was time to go home.

"Where are Bingley and Jane?" From this they both passed on to the other pair.Darcy had long known that his friend was engaged to Jane, and was delighted.

Elizabeth said, "I have to ask you, did you find it unexpected?"

"I'm not surprised at all. When I left, I thought it was going to work."

"Then, you gave him permission a long time ago. I really guessed it." Although he intended to argue that her statement was wrong, she believed that it was indeed the case.

He said: "The night before I went to London, I confessed this matter to him. In fact, I should have confessed it a long time ago. I told him everything about the past and let him understand the thing that I blocked him in the first place." , it was so absurd and imprudent. He was taken aback. He never thought of such a thing. I also told him that I thought your sister was plain to him, and now I realized that I was wrong. I saw at once He still has a lot of love for Jane, so I have every confidence that the two of them will be happy together."

Elizabeth could not help smiling at the ease with which he could command his friend.

She asked: "You told him that my sister loves him. Did you experience it yourself, or did you hear it from me in spring?"

"I have experienced it myself. I have been to your house twice recently, and watched her carefully, and I can see that she has a deep feeling for him."

"I think, once you explain it, he will understand immediately."

"Indeed. Bingley was a man of the utmost sincerity and modesty. His timidity, his indecision on such urgent matters, and his belief in my word always led to everything going well this time. I was obliged to ask him I confessed one thing, and I think he will inevitably be angry about it in a short period of time. I told him honestly, last winter your sister went to the city to stay for three months. I knew about it at the time, but deliberately I kept it from him. He was really angry. But I believe that as long as he understands that your sister has feelings for him, his anger will naturally disappear. Now he has forgiven me sincerely."

It seemed to Elizabeth that Bingley was so easy to believe; she could not help saying that Bingley was a very lovely man, but she did not say it.She remembered that it was not yet time to joke with Darcy, it was too early to tease him.

He went on talking with her, predicting Bingley's happiness--a happiness not to be compared with his own, of course.The two kept talking and walked into the house and the hall before they separated.

(End of this chapter)