Brother Gao Leng, be nice

Chapter 39 Delusion
Su Jin helped the drunk Li Xin into the bedroom, and slowly helped her to the bed and lay down.

Li Xin was sleeping on the bed, murmuring drunken words, Su Jin bent down to listen, but couldn't hear clearly what was being said.

Sighing, she walked to the end of the bed and was about to take off Li Xin's shoes. Just as she bent down, her fingertips touched Li Xin's ankles wearing high heels, and she felt Li Xin shrink back suddenly, dodging Su Jin's movements.

Su Jin paused.

At this moment in the dead of night, the room was so quiet that the breathing of the two could almost be heard.At this moment, Su Jin heard Li Xin's soft murmur, "Don't touch...A Jin, I hurt."

A soft sentence, if you don't listen carefully, it will hardly be noticed.

However, just such a small sentence almost caused a storm in Su Jin's heart, easily smashing all her barriers.

Su Jin still kept bending over. Her outstretched hand trembled slightly, and she gritted her teeth hard. She stretched her hand forward and slowly lifted Li Xin's skirt that fell to her ankles. The inch by inch of the skirt was lifted up, and the calf under the skirt was also exposed in front of Su Jin.

Different from the smooth whiteness of the other leg, the other leg under the skirt spreads from the ankle up to the calf, covered with a long scar like a centipede with deep visible bones, the age of this scar can be seen from the appearance Feeling, but compared with the smooth and tender skin around, it will only make the scar look more ferocious.

Su Jin opened her mouth slightly, she wanted to make a sound, but her throat was so choked that she was close to losing her voice.She lowered her head slightly, stretched out her hand and stroked the scar slowly, from top to bottom, like a devout believer, caressing that inch by inch full of pity.

"Ah...Ah Xin..." The touch under her hand is so uneven, every inch Su Jin touches, she feels her heart throbbing, and her tears flow down her cheeks, dripping down on Li Xin's legs up, blurred vision.

Su Jin nearly lost her voice and growled, a hoarse and pathetic moan from her chest filled the quiet room.

She seemed to have lost all strength, and lay limp beside Li Xin's bed. She looked at Li Xin's exposed calf on the bed, and the hideous scar seemed to have been severely scratched on her heart, dripping with blood.

Su Jin's eyes were already close to lax, she stared at Li Xin's legs obsessively, and then she recalled what those legs looked like in that deep memory?

Yes, these legs should appear on the dazzling stage, accompanied by lights and countless applause, tiptoeing, dancing various moves that make people applaud, and dancing gracefully.

Instead of being covered under the long skirt, hidden in the shadows, covered in dust, and unable to welcome the glory that belongs to him anymore.

Li Xin on the bed seemed to hear the sound, and turned over in a daze. She fell asleep, but her subconscious mind would put that leg away.

That's right, her Ah Xin is a beauty-loving person. Every time she goes out on stage, a person who demands perfection even a strand of hair, how could she not care about the imprint left on her body.

Such a person, how could he not care, how could he bear it, this almost ruined her mark for half of her life.

Su Jin clenched her hands into fists and gritted her teeth fiercely. Looking at Li Xin's sleeping face, she cried silently, tears streaming down like rain.

"How...how did you survive? Li Xin." Su Jin murmured, "How...how did you survive, Li Xin."

Li Xin, who was so drunk, didn't hear Su Jin's soft words, and still slept very comfortably.

Her brows and eyes were no longer as gentle and restrained as before, and even when she was asleep, she had a somewhat aggressive shadow.

"...I'm sorry...I'm sorry...A Xin," Su Jin whispered to Li Xin with a trembling voice, "I'm sorry...I couldn't be by your side...I should be here, I should be here..."

You shouldn't be left alone like that, and you shouldn't be allowed to go through those extremely gloomy years alone.

Su Jin sat on the carpet, hugged her knees, slowly leaned against Li Xin's bed, and was silent for a while. She slowly raised her hand and took off the watch on her right hand.

She slightly raised her slender hand, facing the moonlight coming in from the window, there was a long and narrow scar on her white wrist, she opened her hand slightly, and in the palm of her hand, there was also a ravine scar.

She turned her head slightly, smiled faintly at Li Xin, and said to her softly: "It's okay, Ah Xin, you see, I have one too, and one more than you, so don't be afraid, we are the same."

"No matter what, I'll be with you."

Su Jin smiled faintly.

The world only knows that painters are talented and talented.Little did they know, she was just a waste who couldn't even hold a pen in her right hand.

She has practiced tea art hard for many years, and she was able to hold the teacup tightly and pour the tea steadily. At least from the outside, it was almost perfect without any flaws.

Su Jin leaned slightly against the bed, closed her eyes, and muttered lightly: "I can draw with my left hand now... write with my left hand, eat with my left hand, you don't know how good I am now..."

Low-pitched complaints, in the quiet room, one after another, it seems that the words that have been saved for half a lifetime are all whispered tonight.

Those who listen seem to spend their entire lives listening carefully and counting the half of their lost years that no one knows about.

...

If Li Xin was awake, she would definitely remember the scar on Su Jin's palm, and it could be clearly engraved deep in her mind, and she would never forget it in this life.

At that time, she woke up in a daze, and saw Su Jin sitting quietly beside her bed, looking at her fixedly.

"A Jin." She didn't know how long she had been in a coma, her voice was dry and hoarse.

Seemingly hearing her voice, Su Jin seemed to come back to her senses, collected herself, and quickly leaned over to ask her, "Are you awake? How do you feel? Is there any pain?"

A series of questions made Li Xin's not sober mind really unable to turn around.

She shook her head dully, Su Jin seemed to breathe a sigh of relief, and then slowly sat back in her seat.Lying on the hospital bed, Li Xin turned her head slightly, slightly puzzled. This was the first time she saw Su Jin with such a tense expression, and she was really uncomfortable.

Seeing that the atmosphere seemed a bit dignified, Li Xin opened her mouth slightly, and she deliberately called out to Su Jin, "I'm thirsty, I want to drink water, and I want to eat."

Su Jin seemed a little absent-minded, and immediately got up to give Li Xindi water and things.

Li Xin leaned against the bed, holding the water glass in his hand in a daze, the temperature was right, and he grasped it just right.

She stared at the water glass in her hand, tears dripping down like that suddenly, Su Jin, who was washing the apples, saw Li Xin's appearance, and just stood there at the door in a daze.

"A Jin, don't be like this, don't be like this..." Li Xin lowered her head, her face was blocked by her drooping hair, and Su Jin couldn't see her expression clearly.

Just listening to Li Xin's trembling voice, Su Jin knew that she was crying.

Su Jin walked over slowly, squatting slowly in front of the white hospital bed, her face could no longer maintain her paleness, she bent her back like that, leaning against Li Xin's bed, hoarse in uncontrollable pain, "Li Xin , I'm sorry, I'm sorry, I'm really sorry..."

That's what Li Xin had never seen before. Su Jin looked so broken and desperate, as if she lost all her arrogance in an instant, she curled up so humblely, crying beside her.

For ordinary people, Li Xin's legs should be a relatively reassuring result.If you stick to those hard rehabilitation exercises, you may still be able to walk later.

But for a dancer like her who started dancing as long as she could remember, it was tantamount to the bad news of a thunderbolt. Apart from walking normally, she was barely able to do it, let alone such violent movements as dancing.

With a pale face, Li Xin quietly listened to the doctor beside her talking about her injury. She listened carefully to every word, and she was forced to accept every cruel fact.

Su Jin walked to the corridor outside, changing the cigarettes in her hands one after another, and there were ash-covered cigarette butts all over the ground.

In the days that followed, both Su Jin and Li Xin seemed to be dead, spending every day in numbness, sunrise and sunset, just like that quietly without making a sound.

Su Jin became more and more silent, and her addiction to cigarettes became more and more serious. From time to time, she still smelled of alcohol. One day, Li Xin came to her senses and turned to look at Su Jin, who was sleeping on the sofa, with a twinkle in her eyes. She was so tired, so decadent and embarrassed, that she almost didn't recognize her.

Li Xin got out of bed slowly, straightened her arms, and wanted to help her cover the slipped blanket, but Su Jin woke up suddenly with just a light touch. She opened her eyes and saw Li Xin in front of her hurrying out He asked in a low voice, "What's the matter, do you want some water?"

Before Li Xin could reply, she hurriedly got up to pour water for her.

Li Xin looked at Su Jin's walking back and said aloud, "I'm not thirsty."

Su Jin didn't seem to hear her words, she still turned her back and poured water.

"I said I'm not thirsty, Su Jin, did you hear me?" Li Xin said to Su Jin word by word.

"Kang Dang"

The glass in Su Jin's hand just slipped and fell to the floor, breaking into pieces.

With her back turned to her, Su Jin quickly squatted down to pick up the shards of glass, and hurriedly said to Li Xin, "Stand there, don't move yet."

Li Xin looked at Su Jin who was squatting on the ground picking up the stripped pieces with his bare hands, and shouted with a choked voice, "Don't pick it up... Su Jin don't pick it up..."

Su Jin ignored her, just kept her head down and picked it up, muttering: "Stand there and don't move, wait until I clean it..."

"Su Jin, I told you not to pick it up!" Li Xin yelled at her with a trembling voice, "Turn around, why don't you dare to look back at me!"

Su Jin stopped moving, with her back to Li Xin, squatting in the dark ward, never looking back at her.

Standing behind her, Li Xin suddenly smelled a faint smell of blood in the air.

She came back to her senses suddenly, and staggered towards Su Jin. Looking at the scene in front of her, she couldn't help covering her mouth to control her uncontrollable screams.

Su Jin squatted on the ground with her head down, her expression unclear.There were shards of glass on the ground, and the biggest piece was held tightly in Su Jin's palm. The sharp edge cut through her palm, and she held it tightly, almost sinking into her flesh. inside.

The bright red blood dripped down the floor from her fingers, which was shocking.

Li Xin squatted down suddenly, she quickly pulled Su Jin's wrist, and said angrily and crying: "What are you doing! Su Jin, are you crazy?"

Li Xin pinched Su Jin's fingers tightly, and said in a trembling voice, "Let go, let go!"

In contrast to the blood all over the floor, Su Jin's face was completely as calm as ashes. She slowly raised her eyes, and her eyes fell on Li Xin's anxious face. After a long while, she slowly opened her mouth and said, " You see, it turns out that only in this way can I see you..."

"So it still hurts, so I'm still alive."

That bleak night, a small ward, two weeping girls kneeling in the pile of glass facing each other, and those bloody memories.

After all, it became a mark that they could never forget in this life.

Su Jin leaned against the bed, looking at Li Xin who was drunk, the postures of the two overlapped for a moment after seven years.

Only this time, they were no longer the collapsed and helpless girls they were back then.

Su Jin slowly closed her eyes, her consciousness gradually sinking.

I have been burdened with wind and rain, and the years are hard to change. How can such a person look forward to those misty romances?

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