your voice my world

Chapter 13
Wu Manman did call Lu Miao the next afternoon, but instead of asking her out, something happened to Xu Jiayan.

Wu Manman called Lu Miao at the bar, where she met Xu Jiayan, who was drunk alone, and Xu Jiaqian couldn't get through the phone.

Lu Miao guessed that Chen Qi's matter had hit him too hard. He didn't answer her phone call or return her call last night. This is not like Xu Jiayan's style.

He will never not answer her call, even if he misses her call because he is busy, he will call her back as soon as he sees her missed call. Call back.

Last night, she and Qiao Ze talked about work late at night, and then spent some time digesting and reading the case files. She was so tired that she fell into a deep sleep and almost forgot about Xu Jiayan. Now she heard Wu Manman mention it. Suddenly remembered.

She tried calling Xu Jiaqian, but no one answered.

In Xu Jiayan's circle of friends, she only knows Xu Jiaqian, and now she can't be contacted. Xu Jiayan's painful belches on Wu Manman's phone come and go, accompanied by the sound of wine rolling into his throat And the sound of the cup falling heavily, the sound of "one more cup" sounded like a sound, completely giving up on oneself.

Lu Miao asked Wu Manman to give Xu Jiayan the phone. He was so drunk that he didn't know what he was talking about except talking nonsense.

Lu Miao was worried, and after asking Wu Manman to take care of it, she hung up the phone. She quickly changed her clothes and shoes, and said to Qiao Ze in the next room: "I have something to go out, I may not come back tonight It's time to eat, you don't have to wait for me." Then he hurried out the door.

Qiao Ze was busy, when he heard the sound, he turned his head and looked at the door, but she was nowhere to be seen.

He took the mobile phone and called her: "where are you going?"

"I'm going to the bar, Wu Manman called me just now..."

She spoke slowly, half a sentence was like a sentence, and before she had time to say the second half, Qiao Ze had already picked up the sentence: "Alone, pay attention to safety, call if you have something to do."

He hung up her phone and continued to work on his.

At seven o'clock in the evening, after finishing work, Qiao Ze had already prepared dinner, but Lu Miao did not come back.

He called her again.

"When will you be back?" he asked.

"I don't know yet, I may not be able to go back tonight."

Joze: "..."

"What's going on?" he asked.

"My brother is drunk and can't find anyone to take care of him." Lu Miao said, seeing that the car had arrived at Xu Jiayan's apartment, she helped him out of the car with great difficulty.

When she arrived at the bar, Xu Jiayan was extremely drunk, and was still drinking heavily. There were more than a dozen empty wine bottles on the table in front of her, but she couldn't persuade her. Later, she relied on Shang Qi and Wu Manman to help her. Only then did he help people into the car.

She was sending Xu Jiayan back now. There was no one in Xu's villa, and she didn't have a key, so she had to send him back to the apartment he let her live in instead.

At this moment, Xu Jiayan was so drunk that he was unconscious, and his whole body was almost lying on her body, but he vaguely recognized Lu Miao, so he called her uncertainly: "Miao Miao?"

Qiao Ze couldn't hear Xu Jiayan's grunt on the other end of the phone, but his attention fell on Lu Miao's sentence "My brother is drunk", and immediately frowned: "Are you with Xu Jiayan? Are you going to live with him later?"

"That's right..." Lu Miao responded with difficulty, "He was drunk in the bar and couldn't contact his family and friends. I will send him back first, and I may have to stay to take care of him tonight."

Seeing that Xu Jiayan was still calling her name, her lips were almost close to the back of her neck, she pushed his head away with difficulty, and while helping him to the elevator, said to Qiao Ze: "I'll hang up first, he too heavy."

"Wait a minute, which one is he..." Qiao Ze stopped, but it was too late, she had already hung up the phone.

When Qiao Ze called back, no one answered the phone.

He put down his phone, picked up his chopsticks, glanced at the dishes on the table, put down his chopsticks silently, took his phone, stared at it for a while, and sent a message to Wu Manman: "Miss Wu, Lu Miao will take her brother home in the afternoon, is it convenient for you to send me her brother's address?"

Wu Manman was very surprised when she saw Qiao Ze's message, but she didn't expect that Qiao Ze would personally ask her to find out about Lu Miao's whereabouts, and he didn't ask her if she knew, but asked for the address directly.

She immediately called him back, but Qiao Ze cut him off.

He sent back a message: "Sorry, it's not convenient for me to answer the phone right now."

Wu Manman forwarded the text message to Shang Qi who was on the side: "I can't tell, Mr. Qiao has a lot of heart for that little girl Lu Miao."

She still sold Qiao Ze's face, sent Xu Jiayan's home address, and added: "I just heard that the taxi driver she asked gave two addresses, and I'm not sure which one to go to. "

Qiao Ze quickly returned: "It's okay, thank you."

He turned around, picked up the car keys on the coffee table, and went out.

He remembered that she said on the phone that she could not find anyone to take care of Xu Jiayan, so she directly ruled out Xu's villa and went to the viewing edge given by Wu Manman.

On the way, Qiao Ze sent a WeChat message to Shen Qiao, asking him to help check Xu Jiayan's real estate along Guanjingyan, but Wu Manman didn't know which building it was.

Lu Miao hung up Qiao Ze's call and threw the phone into her bag, and helped Xu Jiayan back to his apartment.

The floor of his apartment is not high. The house is on the fifth floor, with a very spacious room and full glass floor-to-ceiling windows.

Xu Jiayan got drunk, pushed Lu Miao away as soon as he entered the room, covered his mouth, stumbled to the bathroom and vomited.

Lu Miao poured him a glass of water and asked him to rinse his mouth.

After vomiting, Xu Jiayan felt a little better. He took the water cup and rinsed his mouth. Although he was still hiccupping, he looked sober. He supported the sink with his hands, lowered his head and closed his eyes, and rubbed his hands. Between eyebrows.

Lu Miao looked at him worriedly: "Brother, do you have any discomfort?"

Xu Jiayan shook his head, but covered his forehead and eyebrows with his palms, looking painful.

"How about I take you to the hospital?" Lu Miao worriedly supported him, but was thrown away by him.He stumbled towards the living room, and sat down before reaching the sofa, his body crooked.

Lu Miao squatted down in front of him, and patted his shoulder worriedly: "Brother?"

He opened his closed eyes slightly, glanced at her, and finally replied her with three words: "I...it's fine."

The hand is still rubbing the center of the brow.

"Let me make you some hangover tea." Lu Miao asked.

He hummed vaguely.

When Lu Miao finished making the hangover tea, Xu Jiayan had already lay down on the sofa bed, without taking off his coat, shoes, and quilt, it was very cold.

Lu Miao found a thin quilt to cover him, and just bent over to help him, Xu Jiayan suddenly grabbed her wrist, Lu Miao didn't react, she was pulled down on him.

She got up in a panic, Xu Jiayan wrapped her arms around her waist, and with a twist of skill, she was thrown down, and he pressed her against her body.

Lu Miao pushed him in panic: "Xu Jiayan!"

Xu Jiayan didn't know if he was sober or not, he didn't let her go because of her urgency, but instead held her tightly, wanting to kiss her, yelling "Miao Miao, Miao Miao".

Lu Miao was impatient, she couldn't push him, but seeing his kiss was about to fall, she broke her heart, broke free with her hand, grabbed his arm and twisted it, and suddenly threw him over the shoulder.

Xu Jiayan was thrown to the ground, he was silent for a while, then suddenly became violent, and rushed towards Lu Miao, Lu Miao narrowly avoided sideways, his arm came towards her fiercely again, obviously He was a drunk person, but his movements were unambiguous, and he even showed a bit of ruthlessness, determined to catch her.

She dodged, and he pressed on step by step. When he reached the French window, he still grabbed her arm, pinched her and pulled her back, and pressed her tightly against the French window, making her unable to move.

She was almost on the point of crying.

"Brother..." She called him with a hint of panic, but failed to wake him up.

He burped, and the smell of alcohol approached with his breath.

"Miao Miao, Miao Miao..." He murmured her name, clasping her tightly with his palms, the more she struggled, the tighter he clasped, the closer his breath came, and her back was forced to stick tightly to the French window On the road, she struggled desperately, but the more she struggled, the more ruthless he became.

"Why do you have to reject me? I have sacrificed so much for you, how can I not compare to him, huh?" The hoarse voice gradually turned into a suppressed roar, with ruthlessness, and the alcohol forced out all his ruthlessness , forcing away his usual gentleness, he even pinched her chin, forcing her to look up at him, "You said, am I not good enough for you? Can't you just look at me a little bit?"

"..." She couldn't understand what he said at all, her chin hurt from his pinch, and his approaching voice was as helpless as a trapped animal, ruthless and painful.

She couldn't understand the pain he passed on at all. Why did he sacrifice so much for her, and why did he spend his whole life because of her?Except for that time when Lu Xiaocheng happened to call her and she asked him for help, over the years, the relationship between them was not deep, at most it was the living expenses he stubbornly charged into her card, and the occasional contact.

She passed out before he rushed over that night, and when she woke up, it was already the next morning. She was in the hospital, and he was taking care of her in front of the hospital bed. He looked the same as usual and comforted her with a smile. When they arrived, the police had already arrived, but they did not see Lu Xiaocheng.

Lu Miao suddenly thought of that morning when Chen Qi broke in and slapped him indiscriminately.

She always thought that it was because she got too close to Xu Jiayan, and because she troubled Xu Jiayan and Chen Qi that she hated her that much, if not...

Lu Miao suddenly panicked and uneasy.

"Brother..." She grabbed his hand with her backhand, "Are you still hiding something from me?"

Xu Jiayan didn't return her, and suddenly wanted to kiss her fiercely, with his palm firmly clasping the back of her head.

She dodged left and right, not allowing him to kiss, and she was so anxious that tears fell, while dodging, his lips fell on her cheek, near the ear.

Her tears fell on his cheeks, his movements paused for a moment, and then he bit hard on the carotid artery behind her ear, not a kiss, but a biting way, hard and cautious Biting the raised artery.

Qiao Ze just happened to go downstairs, got out of the car, and looked up after a distance, trying to determine from the light of the window whether the person was really here. When he looked up, he saw the entangled Two figures.

He turned his gaze away, took out his mobile phone, and called Lu Miao.

Lu Miao's cell phone in his bag rang.

Xu Jiayan's movements stopped.

"I'm sorry." A hoarse apology sounded from Lu Miao's neck.

Lu Miao pushed him away forcefully, stumbled to answer the phone, her heart was beating wildly because of the almost rape just now, her arms were trembling, and her voice was trembling when she pressed the answer button: "Hello?"

"Open the door." Qiao Ze's voice was slow and calm, causing her already beating heart to beat a few times.

"Where... are you?" She didn't even feel flustered in her voice.

Joze: "Go and open the door wherever you are now."

She held the phone and dared not move.

There was a knock on the door, thump, thump, thud, again and again, continuously and rhythmically.

The same voice came slowly from the other end of the phone.

She hurried down to open the door.

Outside the door, Qiao Ze was standing there with his mobile phone in his hand, looking at her with deep eyes, but surprisingly calm, so calm that she panicked for no reason: "You..."

Before he could speak, he interrupted her calmly: "How is your brother?"

"He..." She organized her words in a panic, "He just vomited, and he seems to be better."

He glanced over her shoulder and into the room.

She unconsciously followed his gaze and looked back at Xu Jiayan. When she tilted her head, the red marks around the carotid artery suddenly appeared and fell into Qiao Ze's eyes.

His pupils shrank suddenly, and his eyes were fixed on her neck.

As soon as Lu Miao turned around, she found something wrong with his eyes, and subconsciously raised her hand to touch it. When the tingling pain came, she suddenly remembered Xu Jiayan's bite mark, and she became more and more flustered.

"That... I... I'm not..." She didn't even know how to explain it, but just as she was flustered, Joze had walked past her and entered the room.

Xu Jiayan sat down with his back leaning against the floor-to-ceiling windows, with his legs bent, his head hanging weakly between his arms, his eyes closed, and he was still hiccupping, but it was no longer as violent and out of control as before.

The approach of Qiao Ze's footsteps made him open his eyes. He looked at Qiao Ze with a smile on his lips, but he didn't know whether to laugh at him or himself.

"Is Mr. Xu okay?" Qiao Ze asked, his voice was calm from beginning to end.

Xu Jiayan didn't answer, leaned on the glass with his elbows, stood up with difficulty, walked over unsteadily, passed by Qiao Ze, passed by Lu Miao.

Lu Miao instinctively shrank behind Qiao Ze.

Xu Jiayan paused, glanced at her, held the corner of his mouth and smiled, not knowing whether he was laughing at himself or her, the smile fell into her eyes, which made her feel a little uncomfortable, she bit her lip and dared not To see him.

Qiao Ze turned his back to the two of them and didn't turn his head. He knew Xu Jiayan's pause, he also knew the way he looked at Lu Miao, and the way Lu Miao looked at him.

Their every move was reflected on the floor-to-ceiling windows opposite.

Xu Jiayan hiccupped, ignored the two of them, went back to the room, and closed the door with a bang.

After a while, the sound of painful vomiting came from the room.

Lu Miao looked at the door worriedly, thinking about it, but was afraid that he would lose control again.

Qiao Ze turned to look at her: "Are you planning to stay tonight?"

She hesitated, shaking her head.

"Let's go." His palm reached out to her and fell on her shoulder.

She followed his footsteps, but her legs were as heavy as lead.

The sound of vomiting continued in the room.

The roar that Xu Jiayan pinched her chin was also repeated in her mind.

"Why do you have to reject me?"

"I have sacrificed so much for you, how can I be inferior to him?"

"Am I not good enough for you? I've spent my whole life for you, why can't you just look at me a little bit more?"

Every word, like a needle, stuck in her chest, so painful that she couldn't step out anymore.

She thought of the young man in white who stood in the shade of the tree at the school gate and waited for her with a smile in the year when she resumed her studies.

Thinking of that night, when she woke up in a daze on the hospital bed, he held her hand and comforted her in a warm voice.

Thinking of countless confused nights in the past, the warm voice on the other end of the phone.

And in social news, strangers died of suffocation due to vomit blocking the trachea due to drunkenness and no one to take care of them.

Lu Miao's footsteps stopped.

Joze looked back at her.

"I'm sorry..." She lowered her eyelids to avoid his gaze, "I... can't go back with you."

"..." He suddenly grabbed her arm, pinching her arm tightly, causing her arm to ache, and she had to look up at him.

He was also looking at her, his pupils were deep and sharp, his eyes were sharp and cruel, staring at her fixedly, as if he wanted to tear her apart.

"Are you serious?" He asked, his voice gradually became hoarse in the violently rolling Adam's apple, and the palm pinched on her arm almost crushed her bones.

It hurts, but the chest hurts even more.

She was almost overwhelmed by strange emotions, and she suddenly felt dazed, flustered, confused, and completely at a loss.

She spoke incoherently in this panic: "He... is my brother, and now he is so drunk, I... can't leave him alone..."

In the low whisper, she didn't know what she said.She was flustered, even terrified, as if she was losing something.

The pinched arm suddenly hurt heavily, and then the pressure suddenly lost.

He let her go.

"Okay." In the hoarse response, he turned his eyes away, "You pay attention to safety."

He calmly dropped a word, turned and left.

She raised her head in a daze, looking at his receding back, until she never saw him again.

The pain in her chest felt like it was going to explode, it was very uncomfortable, and his back view and his eyes made her uncomfortable.

She didn't want him to be like that. He should be as stern, steady, and calm as she was when she first met him, and he couldn't be defeated, not like he was injured just now.

She didn't want to make him sad, she couldn't bear to make him sad.

His face was a little wet, and something was dripping down little by little.She raised her hand and felt her face was wet, and a choked sob came out of her throat.

She sat on the sofa all night, thinking a lot, thinking about her, Xu Jiayan, and Qiao Ze.

She thought of the year she was repeating her studies. She wanted to report to the police school and major in anti-drugs, but Xu Jiayan refused to allow her to fill in any majors related to the police school.

He always said that he could fulfill any wish of hers, except this one.This business is too dangerous, and he doesn't want her to have another accident.

She couldn't convince him, and she couldn't get angry with him. He saved her, and like all big brothers, he silently accompanied her through the longest and most difficult year of her life.Although we don't see each other often, he will always appear at the school gate when she is confused, sad, or unable to hold on, waiting for her to finish school, eating and chatting with her, comforting her, and encouraging her.He is like her spiritual support, accompanying her step by step out of the shadow of Lu Xiaocheng's disappearance.

She had no position to fight against him at all, she cried and begged him at that time, but he was still indifferent, almost obstinately forcing her to fill in the major according to the school he arranged, and later she secretly entered the system to modify it without telling him Professional, Xu Jiayan only knew about it after the notice came out, but he was powerless to change it.

Also because of this incident, she began to be afraid of accepting his kindness.She didn't dare to easily accept anything he wanted to arrange for her, but she was afraid that she owed him too much, and she couldn't justly refuse him.She has her life to go, she can't do everything according to his wishes.

She can accompany him to eat, take a walk, listen to his gossip about work and life, but for his kindness, she dares not ask for anything, and never asks for it.She always thought that it would be good for her and him to keep a distance between friends and brothers and sisters, to contact him occasionally, to eat occasionally, not to be kind to anyone, and not to be kind to anyone, neither too close nor too distant.

She thought this was the most suitable state for him and her.He was indebted to her, and she didn't want him to feel guilty or owe her anything.

But she never knew that this kind of relationship would turn into love, and when she faced his questioning, she would feel unforgivable if she didn't respond.

But it shouldn't be like this.

She has always regarded him as an elder brother, and he has always been just an elder brother. She can't have any relationship with him other than brother and sister. Even if he is really good to her, so good that she wants to repay him, she still can't convince herself, Accept that he came into her life as another.

She wanted to wait for Xu Jiayan to wake up and have a good talk with him.

At dawn, Xu Jiayan finally woke up.

He didn't vomit anymore after Qiao Ze left last night, and he fell into a deep sleep. There was no such thing as Lu Miao was worried about being unconscious and blocked his trachea by vomit.

He slept all night, the alcohol had passed, and he seemed to have forgotten what happened the night before, rubbing his brows and pushing open the door to see Lu Miao on the sofa, he called her uncertainly: "Miao Miao?"

"Why are you here?" he asked.

The confusion in his eyes made her unable to say what she had been rolling in her heart all night.

"You were drunk last night." She replied nonchalantly, "I'll take you back."

"You didn't stay here to take care of me all night, did you?" Xu Jiayan patted his forehead annoyedly, took her hand and looked her up and down, "I'm in a mess and smelly, didn't I sleep all night? "

His palms fell on her shoulders, and he pushed her out: "Go back and take a shower, have a good sleep, and don't get tired."

He hired her a car, stuffed her into the car and asked her to give him a message when he got home, then closed the car door, not giving her a chance to speak at all.

Lu Miao had to go home first.

Today is also the day she officially reports to Qixun Venture Capital.

It was less than seven o'clock when she got home, and as soon as she opened the door, she saw Qiao Ze at the dining table.

He was eating breakfast, just picked up the milk in his left hand, saw her push the door in, glanced at her, and then his eyes fell back to the newspaper spread out in his right hand, drinking the milk.

Lu Miao felt a little uncomfortable when she thought of his eyes and back when he left last night, but the restraint and restraint in her bones made her not know how to explain to him what happened last night naturally.

She was afraid that her explanation would become superfluous and unprofessional to him.

She greeted him hesitantly in this entanglement: "Morning...early..."

"Morning." He responded quietly, calmly, as usual.

She pursed her lips, looked at him, and hesitated to speak.

He finally raised his head and looked at her calmly: "What's the matter?"

"I... will report to Qixun Venture Capital in a while." The words rolled to the tip of the tongue, abruptly replaced by official business.

He hummed lightly: "Be more careful, don't expose yourself."

She hummed, and didn't know how to continue the chat for a while, she was not good at words, and she didn't know how to continue in this subtle indifference.

Lu Miao finally scratched her head, went back to the room without saying a word, looked for clothes to take a shower, and prepared to wash up and go to work.

Joze looked up at her as he passed the living room.

Her gaze just happened to meet his, and seeing his deep and calm eyes, staring at her from head to toe, she was embarrassed again.

"What... what's wrong?"

"It's okay." Qiao Ze put down the milk glass with a bang, and returned his attention to the newspaper.

Lu Miao made a low voice, then turned around in frustration and went into the bathroom.

Qiao Ze glanced at the closed bathroom door, picked up the chopsticks several times, and dropped them with a snap.

Eyes closed heavily, he suppressed the unnecessary emotional disturbance in his chest, dropped the newspaper in his hand, turned and went back to the room.

After Lu Miao washed up, she didn't see Qiao Ze again until she went out, and she didn't dare to disturb him. The atmosphere in the room was so oppressive that she felt uncomfortable. Before going to work, she stood at the door of Qiao Ze's room and spoke softly to him. Don't just leave.

She went to work very early on the first day, but Wu Manman was earlier than her.

Seeing her come in, Wu Manman looked at her with a smile: "Did you not sleep all night last night?"

Lu Miao touched his face subconsciously: "Where did you see it?" He said again, "My brother was drunk last night, so I took care of him at his house all night and didn't sleep much."

Wu Manman was surprised: "You took care of your brother last night? Didn't President Joe go to you?"

Seeing the confused look in Lu Miao's eyes, she explained again with a smile: "Mr. Qiao asked me for your brother's address." There was a hint of ambiguity in her smile as she spoke, "Mr. Qiao cares about you."

As she spoke, she glanced at the door pointingly: "It seems that Mr. Su has no chance."

Lu Miao turned her head subconsciously and saw Su Ming who was about to enter the house.

Su Ming was also looking up here, smiling back to Wu Manman: "Sister Man, I let you know again?" Then he stretched out his right hand to Lu Miao, "Welcome to the company."

Lu Miao also smiled and reached out to shake hands with Su Ming: "In the future, if there is anything that is not in place, I hope President Su will take care of it."

Wu Manman arranged for her to be Su Ming's assistant.

Su Ming was not polite to her at all: "It's easy to say."

He turned around and took a stack of materials from his desk and threw them to her: "Familiarize yourself with the workflow first. This is a venture capital project we are negotiating recently. You should have a good look at it today, and accompany me to Guangzhou tomorrow."

Lu Miao looked at him in surprise: "Are you going on a business trip tomorrow?"

Wu Manman answered with a smile: "Our Su is always famous for his swiftness and resoluteness. Anyone who comes to him has no idea of ​​adapting or not. It is his principle to run and enter the working state, just get used to it."

Lu Miao nodded and spent a day digesting the work materials he gave her.

After get off work, Shang Qi and Wu Manman specially invited her to dinner to celebrate her joining the company. Su Ming and several colleagues from the office also went with them.

Qiao Ze didn't wait for her to come home, so he called her and asked her whereabouts.

"Dining outside, a colleague gathering." Lu Miao quickly returned to the past.

"Location." Qiao Ze on the other end of the phone said calmly, "Don't get drunk."

Lu Miao hummed and gave him an address.

When the phone was hung up, Wu Manman looked at her with a smile: "Joe is always worried about you." He raised his wine glass and toasted her again.

Today's dinner was set up to welcome her, and I don't know if it was to test her drinking capacity or to be really happy, everyone at the banquet took turns to toast her.

Lu Miao's drinking capacity is actually quite good, but she can't stand their persuasion, and people get a little drunk after drinking, but fortunately, she is clear-headed, and she also keeps in mind Qiao Ze's advice, and restrains herself. I was drunk, and I didn't leave with them at the end of the meal. I stayed behind with the excuse that my friend came to pick me up.

Her head was a little dizzy, and her whole body was a little confused. After watching them leave, she turned and went to the bathroom, scratching her throat to induce vomiting, trying to wake herself up.

Just as he was vomiting uncomfortably, a confused voice rang in his ears.

"Miaomiao?"

Lu Miao looked up and saw Xu Jiayan in the mirror. She washed her face with water, straightened up, and called him: "Brother."

Thinking of last night, people were always uncomfortable, so she avoided his eyes.

"How do you drink like this?" He asked, took a step forward, and stretched out his hand to pull her, but she instinctively turned to one side and avoided it.

His hands froze in mid-air awkwardly.

She was also a little embarrassed, and lowered her eyelids: "I'm sorry..."

Xu Jiayan smiled self-deprecatingly, withdrew his hand, and with a long breath, he looked at her: "Miao Miao, let's talk."

She looked up, looked at the seriousness in his eyes, and nodded hesitantly.

She wanted to say this to him this morning.

The two talked outside the mall and walked along the mall. She drank a lot of wine and took advantage of the night breeze to dissipate her spirits.

"Miaomiao, did I talk nonsense when I was drunk last night?" After walking for a while, Xu Jiayan asked her slowly.

Lu Miao was slightly stunned and looked at him.

"I have a bad habit. When I'm drunk, I tend to lose control of my behavior and do some unthinkable things." He stood still in front of her, looked down at her, "If so, I'm really sorry."

"For so many years, I took care of you willingly, and wanted to reduce my sense of guilt. In the process, I don't deny that I have feelings for you that are different from brothers and sisters, but it is not deep, and it is more likely to be based on previous feelings. Feeling guilty, I want to take care of you, so you don't have to have any psychological burden for rejecting me.

"Your refusal is expected for me. I want to pierce this layer of window paper. I really have a little bit of thought. It's best if you are willing to accept it, or you don't want to accept it. It just makes me It is a good thing for you and me to wake up from this abnormal thought and return to the pure brother-sister relationship with you."

He smiled at her in relief: "I'm really sorry for causing you so much trouble."

He suddenly opened his arms and hugged her.

"Brother wants you to be happy." He whispered.

What does wishful thinking feel like?
When this question crossed his mind, Qiao Ze was sitting in the car, looking at the two people embracing not far away.

He made a special trip to pick her up.

Since she told him on the phone that she was having dinner with Shang Qi and Wu Manman, he came over, guarded outside the mall, in the car, waiting for her to come out, and also prepared for her to call for help at any time.

He was not so relieved to leave her alone with Shang Qi and Wu Manman.

What he didn't expect was that when she came out, she and Xu Jiayan chatted and took a walk together like a couple, and then gently hugged each other on the street where people come and go, looking peaceful.

Although he always said that Qiao Shi was worthless on weekdays, she was right in one sentence.

He is unrequited love.

Since arriving at Xu Jiayan's apartment last night, seeing the two people kissing fiercely in front of the floor-to-ceiling windows, his heart felt as if someone had thumped him hard, causing his heart to sink.

In just one minute from downstairs to upstairs, he only repeated two sentences in his mind, did she fall in love with Xu Jiayan?So she loves Xu Jiayan?
He wasn't afraid of her dullness, but he was worried that when she woke up in this dullness, she already had someone else in her heart.

Xu Jiayan has been with her for many years, and his influence on her is subtle.He wasn't sure if she had fallen in love with Xu Jiayan before he knew it, or if it was just because of Xu Jiayan's brother's identity and her past with the Xu family that made her feel depressed Live this feeling, and last night happened to be a flashpoint for them.

When she agreed to go back with him, he thought he was just worrying too much, but she didn't choose to go back with him in the end.

She said sorry to him, she said she couldn't go back with him.

In the few seconds that he stared into her eyes, many images from the time he met her flashed through his mind.

Her resistance the first time he kissed her.

When he pressed her to ask her if she had feelings for him, she was flustered and dazed.

All along, he thought he knew her well, and he took it for granted that she was just dumbfounded, just not enlightened.

Everyone's experience is different, and the perception of emotions is different.Some people have to pick out the words clearly, and some people have to soak in warm water.

Lu Miao is different from others, sweet words are sugar-coated drugs to her.In the past few days, he has been thinking about how to handle her well. He is worried that if he speaks too clearly, he will scare her away like last time. He thinks that this tacit understanding is the most suitable for her and him state.

He was patient enough to wait for her to wake up, but he couldn't accept that she already had another man in her heart.

He told himself that he had no position to stop her from liking anyone, and as long as she didn't affect her work, he had no position to stop her or anything, even if he forced her to sign the agreement, all he could restrict was behavior, People's hearts cannot be framed.

He respects whatever she chooses.

So he left her alone at Xu Jiayan's house.

On the way back, all he could think about was her, which made his chest ache.

Obviously, people look inconspicuous, but they get along with each other day and night, unknowingly, he has already taken her under his wing, even unconsciously, taking her as his own, ignoring the principles he set And the rules, wishful thinking that she will be like himself, and slowly fall in love.

He roughly understood her psychological shadow, and he didn't even pierce it on purpose, thinking of boiling the frog in warm water, so that everything would come to fruition.He counted every step and grasped his strength, but he missed the meaning of Xu Jiayan to her.

They are all soaked in warm water, months and years, and he has already lost the opportunity in terms of time.

He didn't sleep all night, sitting alone on the sofa, his mind was full of images of her and Xu Jiayan entangled by the window, forcing him to pick up the car keys again and again, trying to bring her back desperately, and trying to reason again Force yourself to put down the key.

He liked her, but not to the point where he had to take her by force.

All he wanted was her willingness.

But obviously, he was not the one who made her willing.

He told himself repeatedly that he respected any decision she made, as long as it didn't affect his work, but there was a fire burning in his chest, which made his hand holding the steering wheel loosen and tight, tight and loose, his throat tightened, and he became a little bit more rational The ground was pulled away... Just when he let go of the hand holding the steering wheel again, she had already withdrawn from Xu Jiayan's arms, turned around and wanted to walk this way, and in her raised eyes, her gaze was the same as his of the collision.

She stopped, a little startled.

Qiao Ze opened the door and got out of the car, looking at her through the car.

"You..." The familiar panic hit again last night, Lu Miao didn't expect him to be here, she didn't know how long he had been here, her mind was a little confused, she didn't know what he saw or if he misunderstood something.

Xu Jiayan hugged her just now, and when she was not paying attention, he gave her a brotherly hug and told her that he wanted her to be happy, that's all.

Lu Miao watched Qiao Ze calmly turn to Xu Jiayan in this kind of cranky thinking, and greeted him calmly.

Xu Jiayan also responded with a polite greeting, turned around and asked if she wanted him to take her back.

She subconsciously refused.

He didn't insist this time, and after telling her to be careful, he left alone.

Only Joze and her were left at the scene.

"I met my brother in the bathroom just now..." she said slowly, "He said he wanted to talk to me."

He hummed calmly: "You don't need to report relationship problems to me, just report to work."

Lu Miao bit her lip subconsciously, her voice lowered: "Okay."

Seeing that he had bent over into the car, she hesitated for a while, walked over, and got into the co-pilot too.

"How's work today?" Qiao Ze asked in a low voice just as he sat down.

Seeing his indifferent attitude, Lu Miao didn't dare to say much: "It's just to get to know each other, understand the work process, and then have dinner together at night, which is a small welcome party."

Qiao Ze turned his head and glanced at her: "Did you drink a lot?"

Lu Miao nodded: "I've been being given alcohol all the time."

After finishing speaking, he saw him sweeping her around: "Are you all right?"

She shook her head: "It's okay."

Qiao Ze nodded, said nothing, and started the car.

The atmosphere in the car became dull with silence.

Lu Miao glanced at him secretly, unable to read his emotions from his calm side face.

She hesitated for a while, and asked him hesitantly, "Did you come here specially to pick me up?"

"No." His calm voice combined with a calm side face, as if returning to the indifference at the beginning of the acquaintance, Lu Miao didn't dare to speak anymore, and sat in the car cautiously.

After returning home, Lu Bao still rushed towards Lu Miao cheerfully as before, but Lu Miao was no longer in the mood to tease it, and quietly followed behind Qiao Ze, Lu Bao whined resentfully twice.

As soon as Qiao Ze turned his head, he saw a man and a dog following behind him like tails.

He raised his eyebrows slightly: "Is there anything else?"

Lu Miao pursed her lips lightly, hesitated for a moment, then raised her head and asked him: "Are you angry with me?" There was a hint of caution in her tone.

Qiao Ze looked at her: "Why are you angry?"

She bit her lip, not daring to ask.

Qiao Ze turned around and made her a cup of hangover tea, and handed it to her: "Drink some tea to sober up."

Lu Miao took it and held it in both hands, but hesitated to drink it.

Qiao Ze seemed to sigh: "I've made the tea for you, and you want me to feed you?"

Lu Miao shook her head in a daze.

Qiao Ze patted her on the shoulder: "It's getting late, go to bed early after drinking." He walked around her and went back to the room.

When the door was closed, Lu Miao was a little startled, and the discomfort in his heart intensified.

Qiao Ze is still the same as usual, but it seems to be different.

She didn't know if this change in Joze was related to last night.

Do you think she spends too much time on personal affairs and disapprove of her, or is it just because of Xu Jiayan?He didn't say anything, didn't ask, she didn't know whether she should explain to him that she and Xu Jiayan had nothing, and she was afraid that after explaining, it was just that she thought too much, he didn't mean that to her at all, and then it would be To embarrass each other, he said that it is forbidden to fall in love during the cooperation period.

But that night...

Lu Bao was still circling around her resentfully, moaning softly, and pulling her clothes from time to time.Lu Miao felt uncomfortable and didn't know what to do. She knelt down to look at it, but she couldn't say anything to it, and she didn't dare to say anything. Qiao Ze in the room was separated by a door.

The hangover tea in her hand has slowly turned from lukewarm to cold, her alcohol has not dissipated, and her stamina is still there, her head hurts, but she doesn't want to drink it, she even wants to imitate Xu Jiayan, and she gets drunk directly, what to say, what to do What, I have the courage to say and do it, and the next day I say "I'm drunk, I don't remember", and I evade everything.

She held the tea cup tight and loose, loose and tight, bit her lips lightly, stood up silently, took out a bottle of white wine from the wine cabinet, poured herself a full glass, and downed it all in one go , and then drank another large glass until the bottle of white wine was drunk to the bottom.

He wasn't very drunk, but after a few glasses of baijiu and the wine he drank before, his courage suddenly became stronger.

She supported the table and stood up, knocked on Joze's door, and called his name.

The door was quickly pulled open from the inside, and the strong smell of alcohol came to the face.

A small wrinkle slowly formed between Qiao Ze's brows: "Why are you drinking again?"

Lu Miao was frightened by the sternness in his voice, and muttered for a long time: "I...I just want to practice drinking..."

"Nonsense." Qiao Ze reprimanded, and went out to make sober tea for her, but she grabbed her from behind just as he took a step.

He looks back at her.

She was also looking up at him, biting her lower lip, her eyes were a little red, and she looked like she was about to cry.

"Why do you become hot and cold?" she asked, "Can you tell me what I did wrong? I'm so stupid, I really can't figure it out..."

The hoarse voice with a crying voice was like a muffled hammer, hitting his chest heavily, making his chest hurt and tight, and he could hardly breathe, looking at her with complicated eyes.

"I don't know if you are angry because of me and my brother, and I don't know if you still like me, I dare not ask..." She sniffed, looking more and more aggrieved, "My brother helped me so much , he was drunk in the bar and no one cared, I just wanted to send him back... I didn't know he would suddenly go crazy and want to kiss me, I tried to push him away. I really have nothing with him, he just It's just my brother... well..."

His shoulders were suddenly grabbed by his backhand, tightly and tightly, and his eyes were fixed on her.

"What did you say?" His voice was deep and hoarse, and the veins in the arm pinching her shoulders were faintly bulging, and he looked a little out of control, even ruthless.

Lu Miao had never seen him on the verge of losing control like this, his eyes were sharp and fierce, as if he wanted to tear her apart.

"You..." She was frightened by him, her mind went blank, and she looked at him in horror.

His arms tightened suddenly, and he lifted her up to his eyes, lowered his head, and kissed her fiercely.

She pushed his head in fear.

He paused for a moment, but it was only for a moment. Her body was so light that he had already picked her up by the waist, turned around and threw her on the soft big bed. Her wrist pressed her tightly under her body, not giving her a chance to escape.

She looked at him in horror.

He was also looking at her, his eyes were not as fierce as before, but still deep and dangerous.

Lu Miao panicked for no reason, her mind was dizzy, she couldn't think at all, she just instinctively pressed her back against the bed, moved her body inch by inch, trying to escape.

He didn't let her run away, he sank his palms into her hair, and exerted a little force with his fingertips, forcing her to raise her head slightly and meet his eyes.

"You like me." He said, his voice hoarse like something choked, "Lu Miao, you like me, right?"

He seems to be confirming, but also convincing her, convincing her to admit that she likes him.

She thought yes, and nodded in a daze.

The next morning, Lu Miao woke up first. The hangover headache woke her up, her head was swollen, and it hurt like a needle prick.

As soon as she opened her eyes, she saw a large area of ​​naked wheat-colored skin, firm and well-proportioned, and a powerful arm was hugging her tightly, which made her blindfolded in shock.

Qiao Ze was awakened by her movement, squinted his eyes and opened them, still extremely sleepy, and asked her in a hoarse voice, "Why did you wake up so early?"

He turned over, put most of her body into his arms from behind, and continued to sleep with her in his arms.

Lu Miao was so frightened that she lost all sleepiness, her limbs were stiff, her eyes were wide open, and she didn't dare to move at all.

Qiao Ze, who was sleepy, clearly felt her stiffness, opened his eyelids, and glanced at her: "What's wrong?"

"No...it's okay..." Her voice became stiff, "I...I'm going to the toilet..."

She rolled out of his arms in a panic, pulled a thin quilt with trembling hands, wrapped herself tightly, and sat there for a long time without recovering.

After tossing and tossing all night, Qiao Ze was already so sleepy, he told her vaguely "don't catch a cold" and fell asleep again.

Lu Miao almost rolled and crawled out of bed.

Lu Miao almost didn't cry. With trembling arms, she carefully pulled out her underwear from his trousers, wrapped in a quilt, and left Qiao Ze's room in a panic.

Lu Bao was just outside the house, looking at her eagerly with his eyes open, and barking at her happily when he saw her coming out, so scared that Lu Miao hissed at it, and tiptoed cautiously to the bathroom to wash it.

Lu Miao hardly dared to lower her head to look at herself. She vaguely remembered what happened last night. When she closed her eyes, her mind was filled with images of him pressing her under him, so hot that she didn't even dare to stay in the bathroom.

When she came out of the bathroom, Lu Miao saw the empty wine bottle on the dining table. She thought of her drinking to strengthen her courage, and patted her forehead annoyed.

She vaguely remembered that it was she who took the initiative to find Qiao Ze, explained to him, and even... confessed his love.

She didn't remember the whole thing after that, but she only remembered that after drinking most of the bottle of liquor, she tremblingly knocked on the door of Qiao Ze's room, and babbled nonsense at him, and then he suddenly lost control and left her on the ground roughly. bed...

The whole process feels like... she seduced Qiao Ze while she was drunk.

Thinking of what he might look like when he was sober, Lu Miao panicked, not knowing how to face Qiao Ze who was sober for a while.

He didn't know what he would say about her. With his rigor, would he blame her for not focusing on work, would he despise her?
Many possible appearances of Qiao Ze after he woke up flashed through her mind, indifferent, harsh, apologetic, calm...all kinds of things, except that he couldn't be gentle.

This feeling is like she slept with Qiao Ze, even though she was the one who was slept, but because of her initiative, she became the chief culprit in this out-of-control love between men and women, and gave Qiao Ze Ze any possibility of accusing her.

She didn't know where she got the courage to tease Qiao Ze recklessly last night, probably because of alcohol.

Drinking is wrong, drinking is wrong...

Lu Miao was so annoyed that she wanted to disappear in place and never see Qiao Ze again.

Fortunately, today is her business trip, Lu Miao has never been so grateful to Su Ming and Wu Manman as she is now.

They gave her a reason to disappear openly, so that she didn't have to face Joze's possible anger or indifference after waking up.

She hastily packed her luggage and sneaked out the door. She didn't even dare to call or send text messages to Qiao Ze, so she just left him a note and left.

(End of this chapter)