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Chapter 392 What to Do

When I think of Xuanxuan, I can't help it even more, and my heart hurts so much that I can hardly breathe.

Some images played over and over again in my mind:
When other children eat milk for the first time after birth, they all taste like their mothers, but Xuanxuan only has a bottle.

When other children learn to stand and walk for the first time, they all have their mothers to support them, but he only has a baby walker.

When other children learn to speak for the first time, they can call mother, but he can only face the air.

When other children held parent-teacher meetings after school, both parents attended together, but he could only look at others enviously.

……

Too much is too much.

Too many situations.

Each one makes my heart feel like a needle.

But this is not his fault, he has no way to choose his own birth, no way to choose his parents, they are all chosen for him by others.

other people!

I really hate Song Yunqing and Song Yuqing so much now, why should they? !

Why can you manipulate other people's lives at will? !
Why can you just steal other people's things? !
Xuanxuan is my flesh and blood, but when I gave birth to him, I didn't even hug him, just watched him being carried away.

In the past few years, I have never fulfilled the responsibilities and obligations of a mother.

I hate it!
Hate them, hate yourself too!

I think I was too naive back then.

Thinking about it now, there is no such easy thing in the world, people have already planned me out.

I regret it so much, but it's too late. There has never been any regret medicine in this world that I can take.

So all I can do now is maybe to make amends, to make amends to Xuanxuan, to make amends for all my absences and mistakes over the years.

But in what capacity should I take care of his future?
Qin Yuxiu and I haven't talked about marriage yet, and I thought of what Mrs. Qin said to me.

I feel like my future is in jeopardy.

"Qin Yuxiu, why didn't you tell me earlier? Tell me now, what do you want me to do? I can't let Xuanxuan go, but what should I do? Xuanxuan is now six years old, he is sensible, so you call How can I tell him that you are not Song Yunqing's child, nor Song Yuqing's child, I am your real mother!

At his age, whether he is old or young, it is impossible for him to understand the entanglements between adults. How do you ask me to tell him the truth?
Also, over the years, you have been telling him a white lie, making him think that he is the child of Song Yunqing who gave birth to dystocia. That's why he told me that he doesn't have much affection for his mother, because no one can Deciding life and death, his mother didn't leave him on purpose, but now, he suddenly became a commodity!
Don't you think it's too cruel to tell him this?can you do it?Can you bear it?How can we say it?

But if he doesn't say it, he will never know who his mother is. No matter how good I am to him in the future and how much he likes me, there will still be something missing in the child's mind forever.

How to do how to do?Tell me, what should I do? "

(End of this chapter)