i like you for many years

Chapter 26: Stubbornness (2)
Gu Qingcheng didn't ask her about Changge, nor did he express any opinion. He pointed to the half frog's head protruding from her trouser pocket. What is it?
I bought it a few days ago.As Qingman said, she took it out and showed it to him.

so cute.Gu Qingcheng took it and patted the frog's face.

Then give it to you!

no thanks.

For you!Qingman persisted.

Gu Qingcheng accepted it, took it off, and hung it on his key chain.Then he squeezed its white belly, and the frog spoke.

I love you!

Qing Man was taken aback.

Gu Qingcheng couldn't help pinching it a couple more times out of curiosity. I love you! I love you!

Qingman panicked inexplicably, and quickly pretended to be indifferent, and said, why don't you answer?

Um?Gu Qingcheng's expression was not what she expected, he seemed a little nervous.

Tch, I'm just kidding you.Qing Man snatched it over and pressed it a few times as if nothing had happened.Then I heard Gu Qingcheng say, I knew you were joking, his name is Changge, he gave it to you?Or is it that you bought it but were too embarrassed to give it to him?
Gu Qingcheng paused for a moment, then said, I can hand it over to him for you.

Qing Man suddenly felt sad.

It was also at this moment that she realized that she had someone she liked.

The person I like, of course, is not Changge.

It was Gu Qingcheng.

However, does this count as being rejected?

If so, she is not reconciled.

On the way home, Qingman suddenly said that she wanted to drink milk, she smacked her lips, and Gu Qingcheng laughed at her, dying of hunger.But he still went to the small supermarket on the side of the road while talking, and bought a can of Wangzai for her.

He helped her tear open the bright red soda can, she raised her head and poured it into her mouth, it was so sweet.

But it kind of fit her mood, she saw Gu Qingcheng's hurried back when he was helping her to buy milk, the traffic on the road covered him for a while, and she could see his big bag again for a while.

At such times, she couldn't help feeling a little happy.

After drinking the milk jug, Qingman couldn't bear to throw it away, so she carried it all the way home.When passing the last traffic light, Qing Man suddenly rushed out quickly.

Gu Qingcheng didn't react for a while, and wanted to pull her, but he didn't hold her.All I saw was Qingman rushing across the street and shouting at him, Gu Qingcheng, I like you!
Gu Qingcheng, I like you!

I like you, like you, like you...

……

It's hard to see how I feel.If you don't say it, I'm afraid I won't have the chance to tell you until you graduate and you leave here.

Gu Qingcheng, Qingman likes you!
She said all this in one breath, regardless of whether he heard it or not, although there were very few vehicles passing by on this street, Gu Qingcheng still stopped in place and did not move.

It wasn't until she turned around to run that he stopped her loudly, Qingman!
She turned her head and looked at him expectantly.

Qingman, I'm sorry.Gu Qingcheng quickly came to stand in front of her, and said in a low voice, if I misunderstood you, I want to say, I'm sorry.I already... have someone I like.

After he finished speaking these words intermittently, he went to look at Qing Man again. Her head was already lowered and lowered, and she was about to lower into the crack of the ground.Her shoulders twitched as she suppressed a low sob.

Can you tell me who it is?Qingman begged, let me know who it is, maybe I can trust it.

The fact is, as long as she thinks of how kind, caring and thoughtful he was to her, she really once felt that he secretly liked her just like herself.

She thought that only one person was needed between them to say such a sentence.

She even guessed that this confession would become a romantic and beautiful memory between them.

But all of this was suddenly shattered by his words.

She doesn't believe it, and she won't believe it anyway!Unless, he can really name such a person and convince her heart.

It's your senior sister, her name is Shen Shan.Although I have never confessed, but the person I like has always been her.Gu Qingcheng said.

...Shen Shan...

It was her.

Even Qingman, who is too lazy to care about those famous people in the school, has heard that Senior Sister Shen Shan is the vice chairman of the student union and also in charge of the entertainment department.She is thin, tall and has a good temperament. Even Qingman would sigh to the girls around her when she met her, she is so beautiful.

Gu Qingcheng, you go first.Qingman crossed her hands and hugged herself, and slowly squatted down.

And the boy in front of him, as if he really didn't know what else to say to her, finally calmed down and left.

Only Qingman stayed where she was, her crying became louder and louder, regardless of whether the passers-by were staring at her or not.However, if you happen to be passing there too, just hold your breath slightly and you can hear her whispering to herself.

Why, not me?

When Changge came to look for Qingman again, it seemed to be a matter of course, and Qingman simply agreed to be with him.

She never took the initiative to look for Gu Qingcheng again, and even stopped going to the subway station, and put away all his paintings at home.It's always like this, when you like someone, you can't wait to see his shadow all over the world.

Gu Qingcheng never came again.

He seemed to have evaporated from the world. In the past, she would "accidentally" meet him in the school cafeteria, but now, after many days, she never saw him again.

Changge took Qingman to meet many of his friends. A group of his friends formed a band and sang in some small bars all the year round. Changge occasionally went to play the guitar.When Qing Man went to visit, he specially happily opened a few bottles of wine, and brought his brothers to drink together.

Qingman said that I don't know how to drink, and a group of Changge's brothers made a fuss, so Changge was drunk.

After being drunk, Changge looked half asleep, but he still held Qingman's hand and refused to let go. He pulled her to a corner of the sofa and said drunkenly, Qingman, you don't know, I have liked you for a long time...he said I talked a lot, intermittently but sincerely, almost moved Qingman to tears.

She thought of Gu Qingcheng, who was so kind to her, but he had already pretended to be another girl in his heart.Looking at Changge in front of her again, she couldn't help hugging him.

But he didn't expect Changge to pull her into his arms.

She clearly felt his breath getting closer, but she couldn't move.Before she could even speak, her hands were tightly clasped by him.In the end, even obediently closed his eyes.

But Changge's actions did not continue.

She opened her eyes carefully, and saw Gu Qingcheng's face.

He appeared in front of her fiercely, pulled her out of Changge's arms, and then, regardless of how many people were present, he held her hand tightly, and with the other hand, he pulled Changge hard. Pushed down, and then ran out of the bar as fast as flying.

When Qing Man stepped out of the gate, she heard Chang Ge's voice, she was very sober, forget it, don't chase.

you let go of me!Qing Man yelled, I don't need you to care about me at all!
Gu Qingcheng stopped, turned around, and looked at her with unpredictable eyes for a long time, then he let go of her, walked away without saying anything.

That back view, from a distance, was so consistent with the back view she saw from the window every time he sent her home.But this time, he gave her a feeling of "never coming back again".

She thought he would continue to say to her fiercely "You don't like him at all! Why are you with him", and then she could say back to him "Don't worry, you don't like me anyway".

But he didn't say anything in the end.

Only leaving her a lonely back, Qingman couldn't hold back all of a sudden, tears poured out.

The last time Qingman saw Gu Qingcheng was the third day of the college entrance examination that year.

In fact, she has been guarding the school gate for the past few days, waiting for him to come out after the exam like other parents, and looking at him from a distance to see whether his expression is happy or worried.

It was the same that day, Qingman just hid in the corner and watched Gu Qingcheng leave the school under the scorching sun.She wanted to call him very much, wanted to have a few words with him.Even if it was just a short blessing, she never said it.

Later, all news of him was lost.

She didn't know where the city he wanted to go to was on the volunteer form he filled out, and which school would admit him.But she also vaguely remembered that he once said that if he wanted to go to the north for the college entrance examination in the future, he could go to see the snow with her.

Thinking of this, Qing Man felt a little sad again.

One year later, for the college entrance examination, Qingman applied for an ordinary university in Beijing.Before she packed her bags and hit the road, she went to that subway station one last time.

And the position in that corner was naturally empty.

But she still wanted to look at it, and saw Gu Qingcheng's face.

When she was leaving, Changge came to see her off, and he helped her carry the packages, big and small, and sent them to be checked with the train.And help her buy water and food.Just as she was about to board the train, Changge suddenly grabbed her.

He said, Qingman, I have never lied to you.

Just a short sentence, no other dialogue.Qingman nodded and waved goodbye to him.

In fact, she knows that no matter how stupid a girl is, as long as she can keep herself out of the matter, she can also tell whether the person in front of her is sincere or not.Changge never forced her. Although they didn't meet much, she no longer hated him.

It's just that every time she sees him, she will think of Gu Qingcheng.

University time flies quickly, and it is a year in a blink of an eye.

Qingman came back to participate in the class reunion, and everyone went back to school to see the teacher noisy all the way.When she ran into a female teacher who taught chemistry, Qing Man stood aside and listened to everyone's chat, but heard the teacher mention Gu Qingcheng's name.

She was startled immediately.

In the teacher's sigh, she seemed to have a premonition of something.

Sure enough, the teacher said that Gu Qingcheng was her favorite student in the third year of high school. He usually doesn't talk much, but studies hard.The important thing is that his father died early in a car accident, and he has always taken care of his mother.In recent years, my mother has been seriously ill again, and the compensation money from my father's death has been exhausted, so he buys paintings by himself to make money.Occasionally, I also go to some small shops to do odd jobs.During the college entrance examination, he performed very well and scored very high, but because of his mother's illness, he chose to go to Beijing to study as a free normal student.I heard that he took his mother to Beijing, and I haven't heard from him for two years, and I don't know how he is now... Qingman can't speak anymore.

Before she could even turn around, her tears fell instantly.The classmate next to her asked her what was wrong, and she had to say that she felt that this boy was so pitiful.

Many things she didn't understand at first now finally have answers.

You see, he said he wanted to show her the snow, so he really came to Beijing.They are still in the same city now, maybe he has taken the seat on the bus that she took.

She still remembered the day when he showed up at the bar in time. He clearly didn't want to see her with someone else, but he just felt that he couldn't give her a future or a promise, so he walked away in the end.

She remembered the camera he asked a friend to borrow in the past. In fact, she later saw the camera rental slip in his bag."100 yuan" was written impressively on it.

She would never believe what he said, never liked her.

By chance, Qingman heard a song sung by Ding Wenqi in the winter of 2002.She couldn't help crying when she heard it, and later, she went to buy a big photo frame, developed the only photo of Gu Qingcheng that was left with her again, and put it in it.

She turned it upside down and placed it on the bedside.

That song is called "Spring Falls".

Every winter
You say it's a pity you can't see snow
now you have your wish

What is it like

This winter
My regret is not having you by my side
make fun of my couplets

Rushing to help me rewrite

your message was mentioned

Forgive me for not having the courage to send you off that day
The spring characters you wrote for me last year are still there

It is said that spring will come after posting
The photo I took for you last year is still there

reverse every day

Hope to wait for you to come back one day soon

Qingman asked the teacher for the address of Gu Qingcheng's school in Beijing.

She wrote him a letter with only three words, I will wait for you.

In Beijing in 2009, after a heavy snowfall, spring is coming soon.

the deepest feeling
It's the most turbulent feeling
too stubborn
no right to regret

nothing happened
reluctantly go on

murmuring in the night

no one like you

One word can bring heaven or hell

——Liang Jingru "Nobody Like You"

If he missed that day, he would never have the chance to hold her hand again.And the temperature of that light, short-lived hug, he can hardly remember.

There is no one like you these years
At the beginning of April, Jiang Wei sent a note to Zhou Muyang who was seated next to him, asking him to meet on the top floor.

There was a bench on the top floor of the teaching building. Jiang Wei sat on it and read a novel on her mobile phone while waiting for Zhou Muyang to attend the appointment, but after more than an hour, Zhou Muyang did not come.She finally couldn't bear it and called him.

Zhou Muyang laughed exaggeratedly over there, and asked her what she wanted.She said I've been waiting for you for more than an hour, why haven't you come yet.Zhou Muyang said no, you are really waiting, well, I will come.

After speaking, he hung up the phone, and Zhou Muyang appeared at the corridor entrance less than a minute later.

something?He looked puzzled.

I like you.Jiang Wei gritted her teeth and closed her eyes, and simply blurted out, I have liked you for a long time.

you like me?Zhou Muyang smiled heartily, but quickly tried to hold it back. He lowered his voice and said, but I'm not interested in girls, so you like me too?

Jiang Wei was startled, she looked at him, looking at this boy she had secretly liked for a school year, she had imagined too many ways he would reject her, but she never thought it would be this.The horoscope on Weibo said that today is the right day for her to confess, so she came here rashly.

Unfortunately, from this moment on, it seems that Zhou Muyang's understatement is enough to announce to her that her fruitless secret love has just died, and there is not even a ripple in the hero's heart.

She lowered her head and said softly, oh, I see.Bother you.

Are you OK.Zhou Muyang seemed to suddenly realize his conscience and wanted to comfort her again.

It's alright.She forced herself to make a laugh that was ugly as hell, you go back first, I will go down after finishing this section of the novel.

Zhou Muyang looked at her suspiciously for a long time before turning around and going downstairs.After he left, she cried softly.

It's not just that she feels ashamed, but this is the first time she seriously likes someone, she just wants to have a chance to work hard to like someone, but why can't this work?

Then what was the kindness he had done to her in the past?He purposely brought her breakfast every now and then, watched her cry on the seat with a stomach ache, and even helped her run up and down to buy medicine.These are just concerns between friends, is she thinking too much?

She didn't understand, and couldn't figure it out.

When she came to school the next day, Jiang Wei hypnotized herself and said that she should just pretend that what happened yesterday had never happened, but when she found that Zhou Muyang just entered the classroom through the door, with color on his face, she knew that she should not do it again. Express those concerns that shouldn't appear, but in the end I couldn't hold back.

What’s wrong with you?She walked over.

Unexpectedly, Zhou Muyang was cold and said without even looking at her that it had nothing to do with you.

You... Jiang Wei was at a loss for words and almost cried.She tried her best to suppress her emotions, let out a soft oh, and turned back to her seat.She seemed to suddenly understand at this moment that she really didn't even have to be friends if she failed to confess.

He had never treated her so coldly.If it wasn't for what happened yesterday... She really couldn't think of any other reason.

So, will Zhou Muyang never show a handsome smile to her again, let alone pass several classmates to hand her the answers during the exam.Yes, who would do such a troublesome thing.

My best friend Sansan passed a note to her in class, and told her mysteriously that Zhou Muyang went to the neighboring school to fight with someone after school yesterday, and was thrown badly.

With his small body, it's no wonder he doesn't get thrown, he's as skinny as a stick.Sansan joked.

Why is he fighting with people?This is what Jiang Wei cares most about.

Then I don't know, but I heard it was because of a senior in high school over there. The senior had a grudge with others, and he ran to help get the limelight, but instead of being successful, he was beaten.Sansan wrote this.

Jiang Wei was stunned, the senior in the third year... he went to help... Could it be... no wonder his attitude was so bad when he mentioned this, she took a deep breath and didn't dare to think about it any more.

(End of this chapter)