dream back to qing dynasty

Chapter 15 Dilemma
"Hoo, hoo..." Elder Brother Thirteen's rapid breathing kept blowing on my face. I didn't know if I was breathing, but I just looked at him straight, wondering why there was so much blood in my heart. !My mind was blank, I just subconsciously raised my hand and touched his face.

"Ah!" I yelled in pain, Brother Thirteen firmly held my wrist, not letting me touch him, I was startled, a little confused, but I only had the thought of worrying about his injury, so I tried hard She twitched her hand a bit, but he still held it tightly... I became more confused, why?Why don't you let me touch him?What am I did wrong?I ran here because I was afraid that he would be in danger.

All kinds of thoughts could not help turning in my mind, all kinds of dangers that happened just now, and Thirteen's inconsiderateness towards me now, all of which merged into an inexplicable pressure and punched my heart heavily.All the grievances flooded up at once, the eyes that should have been full of tears turned out to be very dry, and the lacrimal glands seemed to be frozen, I don't know if it was because of the cold weather or Brother Thirteen's ruthlessness.I was thinking vaguely, but unconsciously murmured in my mouth: "Do you think I am willing, do you think I am willing?" I struggled to get rid of Brother Thirteen and stood up, but he grabbed me tightly.I struggled like crazy, but with a wave of my hand, I hit Elder Brother Thirteen in the face. A touch of moisture made me calm down. I looked at the blood on my hands, and turned around to see Elder Thirteen looking at him non-stop. Touching me, touching my face...neck...arm...I finally realized that he was making sure I was not injured.

"I'm fine." I said softly.Shisan didn't seem to hear it at all, and just continued. I grabbed his face and made him look at me... "I'm really fine, I just sprained my foot slightly." I said with a smile.Elder Brother Thirteen looked at me fixedly, looked me over again, finally calmed down on his face, and said softly: "It's good that you're fine." There seemed to be no wind, snow and cold around me, and my heart was warm , slightly bent the corner of his mouth: "You..." Before he finished speaking, Thirteen suddenly fell heavily on my body, my back hit the tree trunk, and a burning pain spread on my back. Come……

"Brother Thirteen, wake up, you..." I couldn't care about myself anymore, I turned him over with all my strength, Thirteen's face was as pale as snow, the old blood was frozen, but new blood flowed out again ...I just felt a "buzz" in my head, and my eyes suddenly went dark. I closed my eyes and forced myself to calm down. After a while, I slowly opened my eyes and gradually recovered my vision.At this time, I calmed down. Although my heart felt like measles, the pain was unbearable, but my hands didn't shake at all. I laid Thirteen Brother's body flat and examined him carefully. There was a wound on his forehead. , although it is long but not deep, there are only some scratches on the face and neck, the most serious one is on the shoulders and iliac area, it seems that it was slapped severely by the female bear, the clothes are torn, and the claw marks are clear It can be seen that the wound is very deep, and a little muscle fat has been turned over.

Looking at those wounds, I only felt that my mouth was very bitter, but fortunately, it was freezing cold, although the wounds were large, the blood flowed very slowly, so I breathed a sigh of relief.Fortunately, it’s not as bad as I imagined. Although it was in the Qing Dynasty, there should be surgeons, but I don’t know if there is any tetanus... As soon as I relaxed, my hands suddenly trembled, and I tried hard to push him away. After finishing his clothes, he took off his outer clothes and covered him to keep him warm.He took out his handkerchief again and wiped the blood on Shisan's face.There was a burst of cold wind blowing, but I didn't feel cold at all.

"I found it, here it is, fourth master, fourteenth master..."

I was overjoyed when I heard voices coming from people, but it has come, the sooner such wounds are healed, the better. There was the sound of "creaking and creaking" stepping on the snow, and before I had time to turn around, a figure covered me. I looked up, and Si elder brother's pale face was facing me, with no trace of blood on his lips, and his black eyes were fixed. looking at me.I just wanted to open my mouth... "Xiaowei..." Fourth Master's hoarse voice caught me off guard, and I couldn't help but stare at him in a daze. Xiaowei...it's the first time he called me that... before I could answer, Fourth Brother Already bent down to inspect Brother Thirteen's injury.

"Fourth brother, is old thirteen alright?" Fourteenth brother's voice suddenly came, I was shocked, and when I looked back, fourteenth brother had already walked over, and there were many guards and sergeants beside me... Don't care too much: "Fourth Master, Fourteenth Master, hurry up, Thirteenth Master's shoulders and chest are scratched, need to be cleaned and stitched up, the wound on his forehead is okay..." Fourth Master has stood up: "Fourteenth brother, tell someone to go back quickly. For this kind of wound, you need to find a military doctor who is good at suturing. Doctor Lu will do it. Tell him to get ready!"

"Understood." Elder Fourteen quickly turned around to distribute, and a few sergeants walked up, apparently prepared, using something like a simple stretcher, padded a few cloaks, and carried Thirteen Brother go up.I hurriedly stood up, trying to keep up...

"Ah!" I almost fell down, my legs were numb, and my ankles were hurting. The fourth elder brother pulled me, and I subconsciously grabbed his arm. "Hmm..." He snorted, I looked up and saw that he was frowning, and then I remembered that his arm was also injured, so I quickly let go. "Why are you wearing so little?" Brother Si suddenly asked sharply, startling me, and couldn't help explaining: "Master Thirteen is injured and needs to keep warm." He was startled, and just raised his hand to my face, The fourteenth elder brother has already come up. Seeing me like this, he took off his cloak and wrapped it around me. I was startled, but before I could react, I was hugged by him. I only heard him say with a smile "Fourth brother, you are injured, let me do it. Come on, help fourth master go back." Fourth elder brother glanced at fourteenth elder brother indifferently, fell silent for a while, nodded, helped the guards and left.I haven't come back to it yet, Fourteen suddenly lowered his head to look at me, and I ducked back subconsciously.

"Are you dying?" He said with a smile.I never knew that someone could say something colder than ice with a smile on his face, looking at his eyes without the slightest smile, I let out a light breath and lowered my eyelashes: "Return to the master, of course I want it. "He was taken aback for a moment, looked at my businesslike and indifferent expression for a while, hugged me tightly, then lifted his foot and left.The attendant at the side wanted to pick me up, but when he saw it, he took two steps back in fright, and followed him embarrassingly.I was worried that he would do something or ask if there was something, but he just walked silently along the way, and I just hoped that he would go faster.Seeing that we are approaching the camp, my heart is all on brother Thirteen's injury.

"If it were me, would you come?" Brother Fourteen suddenly lowered his head and asked me softly.I was startled, and it took me a while to understand what he was asking me.I pursed my lips and glanced at him, still with such a foolish expression, but there are still some things I don't understand, but these have nothing to do with me, do they?I lowered my head and said softly but firmly, "No."

My courage is only enough to say the answer, and I don't have half a minute left to look up at the expression of the fourteenth elder brother.In fact, no matter who it is, as long as it is within my ability, I will help. I am not a woman in this era. I can’t do anything without men, and I don’t even have the ability to protect myself.I can protect myself, and I can even protect others, but no matter what, I can't tell him that, regardless of my strange background, a thirteen elder brother is enough to make me worry, not to mention... and... ...My heart trembled for a while-yes!And him... These thoughts are just for a moment, I just feel that the fourteenth elder brother paused, and continued to move forward...

When we arrived at the camp, he let me down, and as soon as I landed, I hurriedly bowed my body and said, "Your servant thanked you, master." I reached out to take off the cloak and returned it to him, but Brother Fourteen waved his hand and said, "Put it on, thank you." You." I paused, unable to express what I felt, but subconsciously, I absolutely didn't want to get entangled with him any longer, so I didn't refuse anymore, and Fu leaned down to thank him.Turning around and seeing the eunuchs and guards coming and going, I was about to grab someone and ask...

"Yuquan'er, come here." Fourteenth Master suddenly called out from behind me.A young guard ran over: "Master, you are back." He took a step forward and beat Qian'er down. Brother Fourteen glanced at me and said, "Well, how is Master Thirteen?" He took two steps forward and looked at them.

"Returning to the master, when I sent the thirteenth elder brother back, the imperial doctor Lu was already waiting. After reading it, he said it was all right, but it was only a flesh injury, not a bone. Thirteenth master's body and bones have always been good. Take care of it and it will recover soon.”

"Yeah." Elder Fourteen nodded, and I couldn't help but let out a sigh of relief. It's really great, and I finally let go of my worries.Turning around, I think it must be very chaotic there now, I can't help if I go there, but it's Defei's place, I ran out early in the morning, and I haven't heard from her until now, Dong Lian and the others must be in a hurry That's great... why don't you go back first!To reassure them, I have to explain to Empress Defei where I am going these days. "Alas..." I couldn't help sighing, I just remembered now, what can I say then?

"Uh..." The guard paused. "Is there anything else?" Brother Fourteen's impatient voice came from behind, I didn't care, and just kept walking.

"Yes, if you go back to Master, Fourth Master doesn't seem to be very well."

"What did you say?!" Elder Fourteen snapped.I just felt that half of my body was numb, and I stood there in a daze, not daring to look back——

"Yes, fourth master was injured in the first place. He bled too much. He was always weak, but he chose to go to find Thirteenth master. The wound was opened and he lost a lot of blood. His head was so hot that he was lethargic. Passed over. The imperial doctor said, it is a bit dangerous, just in front of the tent..."

I couldn't quite hear what he was talking about, but I just thought, it turns out that this is what it feels like to have my heart torn in two... It's really not as good as being snapped in two by that bear just now, maybe it's true I don't know if I was sent back to modern times.Anyway, it's better than suffering like this.I told myself forcefully that he didn't do this for me, but for Shisan... I told myself over and over again, it was not comforting, not shirking responsibility, it was a fact!I couldn't help shaking my head vigorously, trying to get rid of the thought hidden deep in my heart...

After a while, I deliberately took a deep breath and felt that I was much calmer. I was about to walk forward when I suddenly found that Brother Fourteen had come to my side at some point. I stopped and looked at him. "I see." He hummed softly, and slowly bent down, like an invisible mountain pressing down, I was forced to look at him, Elder Fourteen raised one corner of his mouth, and approached me The voice was so low that it was almost inaudible, "If the fourth brother was with the old thirteen just now, who do you care?" With good intentions, with some anger, and a hint of jealousy...

My heart gradually became cold, and I looked at Brother Fourteen almost angrily, how dare he, how dare he put this question that was buried deep in my heart and never dared to touch it so easily, Digging out like this viciously...

"Alas..." I don't know how many times I'm sighing tonight...

"Wow..." I twisted the cloth towel in my hand vigorously, shook it lightly to spread it out, and gently placed it on the fourth prince's head.He was still in a high fever, but luckily he was sweating a little bit. I kept changing the towel to cool him down and wiped him. "Huh..." I exhaled lightly, seeing that the fourth master had stabilized a lot and his breathing was no longer so short, I sat down leaning against the edge of the pit, staring at the sleeping face of the fourth elder brother.

In the afternoon, I went back to Concubine De's tent in a daze. Dongmei and the others were as anxious as ants on a hot pot. When they saw me, they asked questions like a cannonball, and they couldn't wait for me to answer, so they dragged me in. The concubine De's sleeping tent.Concubine De had a tired look on her face. I found out later that she had just returned from seeing Fourth Master and Thirteenth Master.Seeing me kneeling on the ground, she got me up and looked at me again.I knew it in my heart, and I told her everything without waiting for her to ask. This kind of thing can't be hidden. With so many people present, rumors are probably flying all over the sky at this moment.

Ever since I heard Brother Fourteen’s words, my heart felt like it was frozen, and it fell heavily in my chest, like a solid shot put. with all the emotions.I don't know if there is a broken can on my face, but I just stood there numbly with my head down, and I don't know how long it has been...

"Well, you child, you can be regarded as loyal, and you are weak, but you have such courage." The gentle voice of the concubine Defei suddenly reached my ears.After a while, I realized, I looked up at Concubine De in astonishment, she was looking at me with a gentle face.At this time, my brain started to work. Is it a blessing or a curse for me to say that, the concubine de concubine?After all, I am too conspicuous today, what would these masters think of me in the palace where everything is so regulated? ?
I hastily knelt down: "Master is overrated, this servant is just in a hurry, isn't it..." Before I could finish my sentence, I saw Empress De Fei gently waved her hand, and immediately swallowed the following words back.

"I know how you behave as a child, so you don't need to be humble anymore. Sigh! Today is really dangerous. Fortunately, God and Buddha bless you, and everything is safe..." Concubine De folded her hands and muttered a few words scriptures.My heart is a little more relaxed. I don't want to get 1 credits for this kind of work. I should give it to the gods and Buddhas. I am thinking wildly...

"Xiaowei, you must be tired today, you should have rested earlier, but your fourth and thirteenth masters were both injured, and they didn't bring the girl out, I think that brat is rude With thick hands and feet, Dong Lian and Brother Yu have been sent to take care of them."

I listened blankly, Concubine De picked up the tea, blew on the froth, took a sip, slowed down, and raised her eyes to look at me: "Brother Yu is not as careful as you, go and do it for her. Thank you for your hard work." I hurriedly got down and said, "Yes, this servant knows, this is all part of the job, there is nothing hard or not hard."

"En." Concubine De nodded in satisfaction, "I know it in my heart, you go." Concubine De said lightly. "Yes." I stepped back.

As soon as I got out of the tent, the cold wind hit my face immediately. It gets dark early in the Northeast, and the sun is like blood in the sky. I used to like to watch the sunset, but today I feel that the red is dazzling, so I turned around and left.Seeing Li Hai'er was in front, I hurried over to ask him, but this kid was very enthusiastic and insisted on leading me, I was not in the mood to talk to anyone today, so I just let him go.Along the way, he looked at me furtively, as if he wanted to ask something, and then I realized that he wanted to get first-hand information from me.I can't help but smile bitterly to myself, it seems that this time my reputation has not only spread to the Sixth West Palace, but even people outside the palace may know about it, what would they say?Heroine?Loyal protector?Still... I couldn't help but shivered, and didn't dare to think about it anymore.

Despite the many twists and turns in his heart, his face was still cold and indifferent. Li Haier held back all the way, but finally didn't dare to ask, turned a corner, and went to call Brother Yu first. I was standing not far away. There are often eunuchs, servants, and guards passing by, and when they see me, they either look at me clearly, or point at me behind my back.It is the first time in my life that I have tasted the taste of being criticized by others. I just feel that it is extremely weird. I don’t know how those celebrities can face it with a smile. a feeling of……

It's really endless. Just when I felt that my control index dropped and my blood pressure index increased, I saw Li Haier and Brother Yu walking out of a tent, and I couldn't help but breathe a sigh of relief.Fortunately, it’s enough to show my face once a day. I’ve already beaten a bear today. If I beat someone again… “Ha ha” I couldn’t help laughing, I’m afraid no one will think that I’m a loyal protector or something, they will only think that I’m crazy right? !When I think of this, I immediately lose my smile. If that's the case, it's not bad.There won't be any crooked and evil rumors popping up again.I lowered my eyelids to hide the sneer that might have appeared in my eyes.Brother Yu obviously didn't know about my great achievements today, so he hurriedly asked me where I ran to. I forced a smile and faltered a few words, but that kid Li Haier was smart, seeing my uncomfortable face, he hurriedly changed the subject Son, said that the empress is still waiting there.When Brother Yu heard this, he didn't bother to ask any more questions, and hurriedly explained a few words to me, then went back to Concubine De with Li Haier.But I was stunned outside. I thought that it was the Thirteenth Master who was asked by Concubine De to take care of me, but I didn't expect it to be the Fourth Master...

"Ah..." I couldn't help but sighed again, I rubbed my ankle with my hands, when the imperial doctor came just now, I let him see it by the way, it was just a little swollen, nothing serious, the imperial doctor left some medicine to reduce the swelling , I haven't had time to wipe it off yet.Looking up at the roof of the tent, I suddenly remembered the words "I know it in my heart" that De Fei Empress said when she came, and couldn't help shivering, and looked down at the fourth elder brother, what exactly does he know?Does it mean my personality?Or the friendship between Brother Thirteen and me... No... I shook my head, after last time, no one in the Changchun Palace knew that Brother Thirteen was close to me, Concubine De didn't let them spread the word...

I felt a little headache thinking about it, I lowered my head and rubbed my sore neck, and saw the flushed face of the fourth elder brother inadvertently, and stopped immediately... Could it be... Could it be... The Concubine De sent me here, is it good intentions or... ... I stood up "thump", refused to think about it, took two steps in the tent, calmed down slowly, poured some hot water from the warm dendrobium, sighed softly, and took a sip , My heart immediately warmed up.Maybe Concubine De just loves her own son more, and at the same time trusts me very much, that's why she let me come here. This is the only reason I can think of now.

"Huh..." He let out a turbid breath, forcing the thought that he didn't dare to think about anymore to the bottom of his heart.After taking a few deep breaths in a row, I felt that the carbon dioxide was spit out, but something was sinking in my chest like a heavy carbon monoxide, and the only oxygen I needed was extremely scarce.

I was about to get out of the tent to get a breath of fresh air... "Water..." Suddenly a weak voice came from the kang, I was startled, and hurried over, "Fourth Master, are you awake?" Seeing that he didn't open his mouth Eyes, I quickly dipped a cloth in water and lightly touched his lips.The fourth elder brother pursed his lips, and some sweat broke out on his head again. I wet a cloth towel and wiped it for him. Seeing that he didn't move, it seemed that he was still not awake. I sighed softly and tried him with the back of my hand. The temperature—fortunately, it's not that hot anymore.I suddenly found that his face was much thinner than the last time I saw him, and I couldn't help being taken aback. I saw him before, and I didn't notice it. But after thinking about it, I have been avoiding seeing him recently, and even if I did, it was just a matter of business. In public affairs, I don't pay attention to what is fat or thin at all.

Lonely officials, lonely kings, and finally became "lonely widows" for a lifetime.I couldn't help feeling a pain in my heart. I used to read the descriptions in the book, but now I really saw the future Emperor Yongzheng, and realized that his loneliness was far beyond what I could have imagined. A feeling of pity quietly surfaced...

"Oh!" I couldn't help sighing, I don't know how many times it was tonight, I couldn't help shaking my head, and suddenly found that my hand was subconsciously caressing the face of the fourth elder brother, I was shocked, hurriedly to shrink back...

"Ah!" I yelled softly, looking at Fourth Master, he was still breathing quietly with his eyes closed, but his fiery hand was already tightly holding mine...I subconsciously wanted to break free, But he held it tightly, and slowly put my hand on his chapped lips. My mind was in a mess, and I couldn't do anything. ...

The room was so quiet that there was only the crackling of coals in the smoking cage. A kind of deep depression and helplessness was transmitted directly into my heart through the skin. I was forced to feel this deepness like the sea water in winter. Once wet, there is no strength to struggle at all.

"Xiaowei..."

I was startled, a small sound came from outside the tent, it sounded like Dong Lian's voice.Could it be that the thirteenth elder brother... I hurriedly wanted to stand up and go out to have a look, but the fourth elder brother didn't let go at all, so I could only ask in a low voice: "What's wrong?" Dong Lian whispered outside the tent: "The thirteenth elder brother eats I took the medicine, but I still couldn’t sleep well, he—he’s always calling your name, can you go over and have a look..." I no longer knew how I felt, but subconsciously said: "I know Yes, my son will come later."

"Okay." Dong Lian agreed, and then she left in a hurry.

I swallowed, "Hmm..." I lowered my voice, "Fourth Master, I have to go and have a look." After waiting for a while, seeing that Fourth Master was still the same, he didn't speak but didn't let go. - so tight!I paused, and used my other hand to break his fingers. The fourth elder brother was obviously stunned, and opened his eyes suddenly. He couldn't believe it, and stared at me fiercely.I glanced at him, lowered my head and continued my work... It hurt so much, he clenched tighter and tighter, I don't know where the strength came from, as if he wanted to crush my bones.We wrestled like this... My heart was no longer controlled by reason, and the tears I had endured for a day finally fell...

It landed on my hand with a "snap" and slid across Si Ye's wrist. He seemed to be scalded and let go of his hand suddenly. I stood up slowly and looked at him. He I have closed my eyes, but my nose and wings are constantly moving, and I am panting heavily...

"I'll take a look, servant girl, I'll be back later." I said softly.The fourth elder brother ignored me, and I went down to Fu, and when I opened the curtain, I couldn't help but look back at him.Fourth Master was still lying there quietly, as if he had fallen asleep, but the veins in his clenched fists were bulging...

As soon as I came out, I saw a little eunuch waiting outside, and hurriedly led me to Brother Thirteen's camp.Seeing me coming in, Dong Lian nodded and left with an excuse.I couldn't control it anymore, I walked up and saw the thirteenth elder brother with a white cloth wrapped around his forehead, he was getting more and more haggard.

"Xiaowei, be careful...Xiaowei..." Thirteen's babbling suddenly came, "Run...ah..." He waved his arms, and I hurriedly stepped forward to grab his hand, but he turned back tightly Hold it, don't care about the pain.

"It's me, it's okay, sleep well." I comforted softly.After saying this a few times, Brother Thirteen really calmed down. I gently tucked him in the corner of the quilt, and patted him gently like last time. Gradually, he fell asleep, but He also tightened my hand, looking at his handsome and stubborn face, a wave of warmth slowly surged up...

I sat quietly on the side of the bed, the temperature of brother thirteen came from my palm from time to time, I looked down at the other hand, the finger marks were still there...

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