dream back to qing dynasty

Chapter 33 Goodbye
"What's this?" Yinxiang asked me curiously while playing with the bamboo tube in his hand, "Huh, it's quite hot." He put the bamboo tube on the table and blew on his palms tightly.I smiled slightly, and stretched out my hand to take it. Xiaotao who was beside me hurriedly handed over a silver knife. I pried it with the tip of the knife, and a fresh fragrance wafted out.Yinxiang stretched out his nose and smelled it, "It smells so good." Then he probed to look carefully, "Hey, it's rice." He couldn't help laughing, stretched out his hand to take it from my hand, looked at it and smelled it.I smiled and watched as he couldn't wait to pick out a little bit with chopsticks and taste it.

"Be careful."

"Huh, it's so hot... um... delicious." Yinxiang muttered as he ate... "Oh, master, be careful, it's hot. The servant made it for you before eating." Qin Shun'er on the side Too busy to go forward to serve, Yinxiang also goes with him.A gentle breeze blows over the water, and it is now the eighth month of the lunar calendar. Beijing has the best climate of the year, and the air is slightly cool, with a hint of sweetness.

Shisan Beizi Mansion is not big in the first place. I mainly remodeled the two-story building where I lived and Yinxiang’s study. The first floor is used for receiving guests. Living by myself, I expanded the area of ​​the corridor and turned it into a comfortable balcony.The craftsmen have carried out the transformation of the upper and lower water according to what I said. Although it is neither fish nor fowl, it is much better than before.Right now, Yinxiang and I are sitting on the waterside pavilion, having lunch while admiring the scenery, and he even asked Qin Shun'er to get a fishing rod to stick there, but he didn't care about it, he just laughed and said it was Taigong Jiang fishing, The willing take the bait.I relaxed and leaned against the railing. This place is in the shade. Sitting here is really cool and comfortable. In two days, it will be the Mid-Autumn Festival again. Thinking about my mother’s birthday is coming again , but I am in a place where I can't contact her at all.My heart tightened, alas... I sighed lowly, and forced myself not to think about it anymore.

The day before yesterday, the little Gege, born to the Nian family in Si Ye's mansion, sent a post for the full moon wine. I shirked it on the grounds that my body had not recovered, but Yin Xiang must go.What happened during this period of time, I think he has a good idea, because he never asked me, but secretly thought of a way to prevent me from having too much contact with those so-called relatives and sisters-in-law.He didn't say it clearly, and I pretended not to know. I didn't want to cause any trouble, so I was happy and relaxed.

But the fourth master is different from others after all, Yinxiang still came to ask me if I want to go, at that time I was telling Qin Shun'er how to ask the carpenter to build me a rocking chair, my mouth was full of foam, Qin Shun'er was I was sweating profusely.When Yinxiang came in, he saw my blueprint and asked me if it was a boat. Seeing that my face was blushing, but Qin Shun'er was snickering on the sidelines, she took a closer look, turned her head and muttered Asked me, could this be a bow... Before I could get mad, he laughed himself, shook his head, and said that he had never seen a bow with a handle. Qin Shun'er beside "Puchi" couldn't hold back his laughter. I just scolded him for being an idiot for a long time, but now he looked at me innocently and confidently, with big characters written on his face: "Look, I'm not You idiot, but..." I rolled his eyes and said, "You go out first." The kid slapped a thousand children, and went out with a smirk.

Seeing that I took the blueprint away from him viciously, Yin Xiang hugged me with a smile, I struggled twice symbolically, but he hugged me even tighter: "What the hell is that?" I turned around Glaring at him, he said loudly: "A chair, this is a chair, why can't you see it!" Yin Xiang blinked and blinked: "That's a chair... yes, yes, it's a chair, why didn't I see it just now, look It’s because I’m so stupid.” Seeing my uneasy expression, he hurriedly followed me and pretended to slap himself on the head to show his vigilance. "Hey" I laughed: "Forget it." I flattened my mouth: "It seems that I am the one who is stupid." Yinxiang smiled slightly, kissed my forehead, and then let go I sit aside.I looked down at the drawings again, and I felt that my drawings were not bad. Even if I wasn’t a realist, I wouldn’t be an Impressionist. How could I give them so many associations? Everyone said that Picasso’s paintings were fantasy reality, Could it be that I also have this skill, no way...

Just as I was thinking wildly, "The fourth brother's mansion sent a post, saying that it was a full moon wine for Nianshi's little Gege, would you like to go?" Yinxiang's faint voice came from behind me...I paused and missed it. Turning to look at Yinxiang, he was lazily sitting at the desk, twiddling a red post he took out at some time between his fingers, his face was peaceful. "No!" I replied firmly.Yinxiang was stunned: "Why?" I turned around, continued to fiddle with the blueprint in my hand, and said lightly: "No reason. She gave birth to a baby and fucked me!" There was a silence behind him, "Haha..." Yinxiang Suddenly he burst out laughing, while laughing, he stretched out his hand and pulled me over to sit on his lap, and then took the blueprint in my hand and threw it on the table beside him.

"Just hate her that much, huh?" He looked down at me carefully, with amused but also somewhat clear eyes.I nodded and admitted straightforwardly: "That woman's intentions are not righteous, so it's better to keep her at a respectful distance." Yinxiang grinned: "Okay, since she doesn't like us so much, let her go alone. "Hehe, I chuckled, put my arms around Yinxiang's neck, and kissed the corner of his mouth lightly as a reward. His eyes darkened, and he held my face and kissed back. I took it seriously. with.

I thought a lot during the days when Yinxiang was recuperating before he came back, and gradually realized that self-righteous protection may be more serious than the direct harm consequences. explain.So since he came back, apart from the two topics of "I'm from the future" and "Fourth Master", I haven't hidden anything from Yinxiang, and the emotional communication between them has become more clear and real.And the effect of my frankness is also obvious. Yin Xiang's eyes are slowly faded, his cheerfulness, his enthusiasm, his frankness and straightforwardness, those things that I thought had faded away have returned. Only then did I realize that most of the problems were caused by me, and I couldn't help but secretly rejoice that my course correction was done in a timely manner. If this continues, the consequences... Think about the best way in this world to hide each other's concerns, test each other, Jia Baoyu and Lin Daiyu were the only men and women who guessed randomly, but unfortunately one died early and the other married someone else, neither of them had a good end.It would be fine if he married Yinxiang, but if it cost my life, then I wouldn't do it...

"What do you think we should give?" Yinxiang clasped my ten fingers and played with my fingers again, I smiled lightly: "As usual, let's double the gift. You and the fourth master have always been close, so it should be. Yinxiang nodded, then shook his head again. "Why, do you think etiquette is too thin?" I asked him softly. Although Yinxiang, the housekeeper of the mansion, trusted me, I always respected his opinion. I always believed that besides love, the most important thing between husband and wife is love. Just respect each other. "No," Yinxiang smiled, "I just think that if the concubine de concubine hadn't personally asked this time, it wouldn't be like the fourth brother's family style to practice such vain rituals." I rubbed my nose, and it was hard to say anything, the ancients Sons have always been favored over girls, and Miss Gege in each mansion has to make decisions. Even in the Sibeile Mansion, although the status of having a Gege is more precious, it is really not a big deal.

However, all these things happened before and after Nianshi's pregnancy this time, not to mention the premature birth, and almost included me, the so-called prince Fujin, in this. Most of it is because of Nian Gengyao, who has been promoted to Admiral of Chengdu and Nian's elder brother.Afterwards, Niu Hulu's words revealed that the little girl who packed the cakes and the eunuch guarding the door committed suicide by taking poison. Anyone who dares to mention it will be beaten to death.I knew in my heart that those two slaves were silenced, but I was lucky to be able to escape from that vortex, so I could only sigh twice in my heart, and curse the black hand behind it, Tian Dalei, by the way.To be honest, I still dare not be 100% sure that the poison was poisoned by Nianshi, but I just don't want to think about it any more. Anyway, I don't want to go to that place again.

"When will you give birth to a son for me?" Yinxiang whispered in my ear, I was startled and my face became hot. To be honest, I never thought about it seriously. "Let's go with the flow, it's not something you want to have." I said vaguely. "Who says you can have it if you want it?" Yinxiang looked at me seriously. "Ah?" Seeing me staring at him blankly, he suddenly smiled and pressed his lips tightly against my ear: "Wouldn't it be better to work hard a few times?"

"Bah!" I spat at him with a smile, blushed and broke away from his arms, saw his tired and lazy look, and said with a smile: "Go hard by yourself, I won't accompany you. "Yinxiang grinned, and was about to say something, when Xiaotao came in and said that someone from the prince's side came and was in a hurry to ask for official documents, Yinxiang made a grimace, and hurried out.He didn't come back until after attending the full moon wine at Si Ye's Mansion in the evening, besides saying that the little girl looked fresh, that is to say, Nian Shi was quite proud of his spring.While helping him change his clothes, I smiled and said, "What's there to be proud of? Let alone having a daughter, even having a son is nothing special. It's amazing if you have the ability to give birth to a man who is not a man or a woman." Xiang laughed so hard when he heard this, Xiao Tao and the other maids on the side also laughed so hard, this incident full of intrigue and tricks just disappeared with the wind amidst the laughter.

"You, it's too fuzzy again..." Yinxiang's chuckle suddenly rang in his ears. "Ah..." I suddenly woke up from the memory, turned around and looked over, only to realize that the guy who was still eating at the side just now leaned against me at some point, seeing me turn around , leaned his head heavily on my shoulder, and sighed contentedly. "Xiaowei, it's really good that you tidy up this garden. What do you think?" Yinxiang said with narrowed eyes. "It's nothing, I can do whatever I want. Anyway, I have always liked flowers, plants, landscapes, and this garden is not big, so I don't need any chests." Come over with a teacup.The cup is also made of bamboo tubes, which are all made from the leftover bamboo planted in the yard. Those that grow too thick, because they are not good-looking after planting, the gardener will throw them away, and I stop them. The bad ones are used to make rice in bamboo tubes, and the good ones are used to make cups and pen holders.I wrote a few Tang poems and Song lyrics, and asked the craftsman to engrave them on the bamboo tube according to my handwriting, and then painted the engraved writing with vermilion paint. Matching the green color of the bamboo itself, it is very wild and full of fun. I liked it very much when I saw it, and clamored to engrave the song I wrote before, so that he could take it with me, but I couldn't hold him back, so I had to find someone else to do it again.

I just took a sip and wanted to put it down, but Yinxiang picked it up and drank it: "What is it about getting in and out of the water? It's really convenient. How did you come up with it?" Startled, I can't tell him that this will be a common thing in the future, and it's not because of my talent.After thinking about it, "Maybe it's because I'm lazy." I said with a smile. "Ah?" Yinxiang was taken aback, looking at me inexplicably. "I didn't think about anything convenient or inconvenient, I just thought about being lazy. Why, isn't that good?" I glared at him.Yinxiang laughed out loud: "Okay, of course, then you can see if there is any inconvenience at home, and it would be better to be lazy."

"Hmph...I'll try my best." I glanced at him with a smile, ignored him, and let him lean over again with a smile. After a while, Yinxiang asked me in a low voice: "What are you humming? What song, why haven’t I heard it before.” After a pause, I realized that I had been humming Liang Jingru’s "Love You Isn’t Two or Three Days" just now, and I couldn’t help but smile, this is my current song. Mood?

"Xiaowei." Seeing that I didn't speak, Yinxiang raised his head to look at me carefully, and I smiled slightly: "How about I sing to you?" Yinxiang was taken aback for a moment, then smiled happily: "Okay, I haven’t heard you sing for a long time.” I sang clearly, when I sang “I love you not for two or three days, but I miss you many times every day”, Yinxiang just looked at me so obsessively, his eyes waved softly It was like the surface of the water in front of me, just like this, wave after wave, I looked at him with a smile, still singing softly...

"Papa!" Suddenly there was a sound of clapping from the side, I was startled and stopped talking, Yinxiang's face became serious, and he looked behind me at the same time, the fourteenth elder brother was half leaning against the door, with a half-smile on his face Yes, but the hands are still clapping.I was taken aback. I haven't seen him for a long time. It must have been more than half a year. Fourteen has also changed. His handsome face is more aggressive and decisive. I heard that he has been practicing in the barracks, and his temperament will change. It's natural.For him, I feel two points of guilt, more because I know the pity and sigh of his final fate, I lowered my eyes, and Yinxiang stood up with a smile: "Old Fourteen, when did you come?" , Those slaves don’t know how to report it.” He walked forward while talking.Brother Fourteen giggled: "If you pass the report, you won't be able to hear the wonderful song of Thirteen Fujin." He specially emphasized the words "Thirteen Fujin", and I shook helplessly in my heart. Shaking his head, he still has a grudge... Just as he was about to stand up, Elder Fourteen didn't look at Yin Xiang who was walking in front of him, but turned back to the room and said, "Really, Fourth Brother?" Sit back, what did he say...

Yinxiang's footsteps slowed down, as if he wanted to look back at me, but held back, he just smiled and said: "The fourth brother is here too, what a rare visitor." I took a deep breath quietly, and closed my eyes. Eyes, standing up slowly while leaning on the railing on the side.When I looked up, I saw Elder Fourteen. He was looking at me, with a slight mockery in his eyes and a trace of unconcealable jealousy and... Before I could understand, he turned his eyes and said to Yinxiang with a smile. say something.I didn't hear clearly, because all my thoughts were on the hem of the clothes floating behind him, the moon-white gown, the soap-green boots, he is still the same, he likes plain colors...

"Xiaowei." Yinxiang called me softly, my heart skipped a beat, I moistened my lips, and walked towards Yinxiang with a smile.Standing still, Wei Weifu leaned down: "Fourth Master is auspicious, Fourteenth Master is auspicious." Since the time I served tea and called Fourth Brother, I never called Fourth Master that way again, and I always felt panicked. It's better to call it unfamiliar.

"Get up quickly." The familiar hoarse tone sounded, my eyes felt hot for no reason, I quickly held back, blinked, and blessed my body again, then straightened up and stood beside Yinxiang.Hearing Yin Xiang, Fourth Master and Fourteen greeting each other, but his head was as heavy as a stone, and he just stood there in a daze, thinking of nothing and listening to nothing.

"Xiaowei, you look pretty good. I heard that your son was seriously ill a while ago, but I really can't see it now. It seems that he is well maintained." Elder Fourteen suddenly said with a smile to me. .Shocked, I raised my head suddenly, but felt dizzy, and unconsciously rubbed my forehead and temples with my hands, what did he call me... It stands to reason that he is my uncle, how could he call me so intimately, Yu Guang In the blink of an eye, Yinxiang only squinted his eyes, but didn't say anything.Before I could answer, the fourteenth elder brother laughed first, patted his head again, and said with a smile: "Look at my memory, you are already the thirteen Fujin now, but I just heard that your fourth master is ten Fourth master yelled, as if it was still the same as before, I didn't turn around for a while, sorry." After speaking, he bowed his hands to me.I knew very well that he said these words to imply that I would not forget the old feelings. I glanced at the fourteenth elder brother's smiling but still cold eyes, and my heart became clear. I smiled slightly: "The fourteenth brother is joking." It's gone." Elder Fourteen's face hardened suddenly, he pulled the corner of his mouth stiffly and turned away, but the temple on the side of his forehead jumped up suddenly.I sighed softly in my heart: People who want to hurt others are often the first to hurt themselves.

I turned my head, summoned up my courage, looked at Fourth Master, and said softly, "Have you eaten your meal? If not, use it here." Then I turned my head to look at Yinxiang, and said with a smile, "I Go and prepare some good dishes, you come to stay, okay?" Yinxiang was looking at me fixedly, with indescribable emotions in his eyes, my heart shuddered, what was this guy thinking again, could it be that I Can't he see the hard work?All kinds of emotions that were originally suppressed in my chest suddenly rolled like scorching magma. I suppressed the urge to explode, and couldn't help frowning.Yinxiang frowned, but suddenly laughed, and stretched out his hand to stroke my temple hair: "Go, get some good ones, don't wait for me to keep the guests, and make people laugh when the food is served." I Startled, Yin Xiang's words seemed to be like a pot lid, forcing back all the tumbling heat, my chest was blocked for a while, I collected myself, and smiled slightly: "I see, don't worry." After finishing speaking, I turned back to Si Ye They bent slightly, didn't look at them, turned around and left without looking back, just listening to Yinxiang calling Fourteen and the others, while Xiaotao who was waiting at the door hurriedly followed me up .

All kinds of cobblestones pave the paths, with bamboo shadows whirling on both sides, and the sound of rustling can be heard endlessly. I walked slowly among them, but Xiaotao chased me from a distance with a group of followers.The sound of the bamboo leaves rubbing against each other faintly sounded like weeping. I couldn't cry, but the bamboo cried for me... How could Fourth Master become so thin? With his bluish-white complexion and protruding brows, there was a hint of sarcasm at the corners of his mouth , eyes that were getting darker and bottomless...he became even more indifferent.I couldn't help but smile wryly, the power struggle, the indifference of family affection, all kinds of schemes and calculations were like knives, they took off the few soft parts left in him one by one, leaving only the heart as hard as stone and cruelty. Indifferent character, then which knife am I, and what have I dug from him...

Before, Yinxiang hinted to me half-jokingly whether he had thought about his decision seriously and carefully. At that time, I was confused. How dare I think about it, and I couldn't figure it out.As long as I think about it, I feel that I must be making the wrong decision.One left hand, one right hand, how do I choose...

"Huh..." I stopped and took a deep breath of the air filled with the fragrance of bamboo leaves, but when these two people appeared in front of me again today, I finally understood what my decision was... One of them is living happily, but I can go for the other... I shook my head violently, I don't know why I thought of that unlucky word, I quickly took a few deep breaths, and calmed myself down... Forget it, think Why so much, the future is not up to me to decide, but the happiness in front of me is in my own hands, isn't it?I can't help clenching my fist subconsciously.After I figured things out and came to a conclusion, I immediately relaxed, "Xiao Tao." I turned around and called out loudly.The little girl hurried over, glanced at me carefully, and saw that I looked fine, she was obviously relieved: "What do you want to do, master?" I smiled: "Go, let the kitchen cook some good side dishes, that's all. The one I asked them to make last time..." Xiao Tao pursed her lips and interrupted me: "I've already asked someone to do it. Waiting for your order, those masters will have to wait for dinner. Seeing what you did just now, I knew it must be fugue wandering." I smiled lightly, although she interrupted me, but I didn't feel disobedient in the slightest, this girl has won my heart, and a word of "fugue wandering too void" hurt my meditation just now. covered up the past.After joking around, I still went to the kitchen to monitor it myself before urging the girls to bring the dishes.

From a distance, I saw Yinxiang and the fourteenth brother leaning on the railing in the distance, pointing at the water and talking about something, but the fourth master was leaning on the short table alone, playing with a bamboo teacup in his hand, I swallowed With a dry mouth, he walked forward steadily.Instructing the maids to set up the food and drink, and was thinking about whether I should step back, Fourth Master, who had kept his head down, looked up at me.There were too many things in those eyes, but I found that I was able to accept them calmly, maybe because I figured out what I could do for him. Smiling faintly, he sat down on the other side of the short table.Xiaotao came up and poured a cup of tea for me, then stood back a few steps behind me, a moment of silence floated between us, Yinxiang not far away looked back at me, I smiled brightly at him, he Slightly returned a smile, and turned back to talk to Fourteen.My heart warmed, and I was very grateful for his thoughtfulness and his trust.

While I was thinking about it, I felt a direct gaze. I turned my head to look at Fourth Master. He had already raised his head, leaned on the soft cushion behind him, and looked at me indifferently. "You're much thinner." I said softly.Fourth master was startled, not sure if it was because of my words or my attitude. "After I got this disease, I realized that everything is empty. Only a good body is my own size. Fourth master, you should take care of yourself." I looked at him with a smile, and fourth master looked at me deeply At one glance, my heart still couldn't help shrinking heavily.He quickly turned his eyes away. "Looks like you're doing...well," he whispered. "Yes, I am very happy now, and I hope everyone is as happy as me." I said softly.Fourth Master tilted his body, I could only see his thin and angular side face, after listening to my words, he didn't move, but the corners of his mouth were slightly twisted.

Sighing helplessly in my heart, I am sincerely consoling him, he will eventually become the emperor, he will hold everything in his hands, what is the love of a small child in front of him, I will do everything possible to help him avoid it. Risky, but he will only stay by Yinxiang's side, take ten thousand steps back and say, it's much better for him to hate me because he can't get it than to hate me when he gets it, isn't it... Can't help but smile bitterly.

"Xiaowei." Yinxiang's voice sounded, I paused, and looked up, I don't know when he and Fourteen had walked over, and Fourteen sat on the left side of Fourth Master, and waved back to come up to give Xiaotao, who he poured the wine for, poured himself a drink, but his eyes wandered between me and fourth master.Yinxiang sat down next to me. "What are you talking about..." Yinxiang stretched out his chopsticks to pick up a piece of beef and chewed it in his mouth, asking vaguely.I chuckled: "I'm talking to the fourth brother." Finally, the fourth brother was called out by me.As soon as the words came out, Shisi's pouring hand stopped, frowned and glanced at me, then quickly looked at fourth master, but fourth master still remained silent, just pinching the cup in his hand a little harder.Yinxiang looked at my calm eyes seriously, and suddenly smiled, in addition to warmth, there was a look in my eyes that I had never seen before... My heart felt sad, it should be called a sense of security.He smiled and leaned over: "Let us listen to what you say is a big reason." I smiled and said loudly: "If there is something, don't be sick, if there is nothing, don't have money."

"Pfft..." Elder Fourteen spit out a sip of wine, he coughed lightly twice, his face was full of smiles, but when he turned his head to look at me, he put away his smiling face, and the expression in his eyes was complicated stand up.The smile in Fourth Master's eyes just slipped away, he glanced at me, then turned his head away, his face became ugly, as if the more funny I was, the more pain he would have, the only one who really laughed was the one beside me It's just Yinxiang, "Well said, well said..." He smiled and wiped the corners of his eyes with a silk cloth beside him.Although I also smiled, there was no smile in my heart. I just felt so tired and didn't want to stay here anymore.

"I'm a little tired." I turned my head and said to Yin Xiang who was beside me, and then nodded to the fourth master and the fourteenth prince, "You guys talk slowly, don't disturb me, I'll go to rest first." Seeing the tired look on my face, Yinxiang hurriedly ordered the servants beside me to take me back carefully.I stood up, stopped hesitating whether to get up and send my fourteenth, blessed body, restrained the thought of going to see fourth master again, turned around and left.Yinxiang wanted to follow, but I smiled and pushed him back. He smiled and didn't insist anymore.

I didn't go back upstairs. I always felt that it was weird that Fourth Master and the others were downstairs, so I went to Yinxiang's study room, and when I got there, I waved back the servants, and collapsed in Yinxiang's chair for a long time. He let out a sigh of relief.My heart is a little confused, but I don't want to think about anything anymore. I have figured out everything I should think about today, and there is nothing to think about.Picking up Yinxiang's copied poems from the table, his handwriting is very good. I often practice handwriting with him recently, and I have a three-point similarity.

Sweeping my sleeves, I brought a piece of paper to the ground, bent down to pick it up, and blew away the dust that might have gotten on it, "Ah." "Water Tune Song Head".Looking at Yinxiang's, and then looking at fourth master's, I sighed, leaned back heavily, closed my eyes, just thinking that I can't escape anywhere, I really don't know what I want to do for them How far is it to be considered the end, thinking about today's decision, I can't help but shake my head indiscriminately... With these two pieces of paper tightly clutched in my hand, I don't know when I fell asleep in such a daze ...

It's just that I really didn't know at that time that the decision I made in the bamboo forest today would come so quickly, only three years...

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