dream back to qing dynasty

Chapter 38
The words have been spoken, and I can't take them back anyway. A feeling of relaxation hits my heart. The fear and fear these days disappeared in an instant with the words. I secretly took a deep breath, relieved Instead, my mind became clear, and I quickly calculated in my heart, but I just knelt there numbly.However, the atmosphere in the room was disturbed by my words, and I just lowered my head, and various thoughts were spinning in my mind.

I don't know how long it took, "Why?" Kangxi's voice suddenly penetrated my thoughts, the voice was not loud, but the meaning in it pierced into my heart like a red needle, and I couldn't help shivering , Subconsciously raised his head and glanced at the wise and wise Ming Jun.Contrary to his voice, Emperor Kangxi's face was still peaceful, holding a string of Buddhist beads in his hand, but his black eyes were as deep as the bottom of the sea, making it impossible to explore the true meaning.It looks like...it really looks like, for a moment, I seemed to see Yinxiang's eyes, and then I seemed to see Fourth Master.Yinxiang, fourth master... I don't know why, when I think of them, I will become calm and brave, and various thoughts flashed in my mind. I smiled slightly and said lightly : "Because I hate." Kangxi was startled, and couldn't help frowning slightly.

The elder brothers around me looked at me suspiciously, like those of the third master who didn't know, were either full of doubts, or thoughtful, while the ninth master's eyes were a little bit suspicious, but his expression was still condensed, and Secretly gave the somewhat irritable Master Shi a wink, telling him to hold his ground.Eighth Master's face sank like water, all the gentleness and elegance of the past had disappeared, the corners of his mouth were tightly pursed into a straight line, and he just stared at me firmly, while Fourteenth Elder Brother's face was as pale as snow, with an unbelievable expression in his eyes. , was also slightly panicked, his fists were clenched tightly, and a vein on his forehead burst out.In the blink of an eye, everyone's expressions fell into my eyes, and an uncontrollable smile surged up from my heart. In an instant, their panic and uncertain fear of what I would say , gave me a feeling that their future and life were in my hands, even though it was only for a moment, although the price I paid for it was...

Looking at Kangxi who was patiently waiting for my answer, I replied softly: "The emperor knows that since I married Yinxiang, I have had nothing to do. The crown prince has been persuading Yinxiang to take a concubine, and Yinxiang is also tempted." After a pause, these words are half true and half false. The prince did persuade Yin Xiang to take a concubine several times, but Yin Xiang cleverly and tactfully refused.Thinking of this, my heart warmed up, but I continued to say: "I am a proud woman. I have only been married for a few years, and my husband will take a concubine. I can't tolerate such insults, so I hate, I hate the prince who is born out of nothing, and I also hate him. Yinxiang is weak-minded and turbulent, so I cursed the prince and imitated Yinxiang's handwriting, making him unable to explain." These words sounded like lines from a second-rate romance drama, coupled with my third-rate acting skills... ... After I finished speaking, I couldn't help but smile bitterly in my heart.

The room was quiet for a while, and Emperor Kangxi said in a deep voice, "Then why did you say it now?" I thought for a while: "It's nothing, I just regret it, and I never thought that things would become so big." , I slightly bent the corner of my mouth: "The emperor also knows that women have long hair and short knowledge, so they can't think too far." Kangxi was also taken aback by my teasing words. People have told him such things, but my life is about to die, and I can control who he is.If he hadn't given birth to this group of sons who are like wolves and tigers, how could I have been forced to such a state of seeking my own death.But the look of surprise just slipped through his eyes: "Come on, the pen and ink are waiting for you." He said slowly, and in a blink of an eye, the rice paper emblem and ink were placed in front of me. He hesitated and wrote down what he had just heard from Master Shi.After I finished writing, I picked it up and gently blew on the ink, ignored Li Dequan who was stunned by the side, and took a closer look. Fortunately, I have learned Yinxiang's characters over the past few years, and I just want to find one. The scapegoat, there is not much difference between the likeness and the likeness. I sneered in my heart, and passed the paper to Li Dequan.

Li Dequan held it up respectfully, Emperor Kangxi took it, and looked at it carefully under the shadow of the lamp. Brothers looked at Kangxi and then at me, looking nervous, but no one knew what was written on it. "It's really good..." Kangxi looked at it for a while, and squeezed out these words from between his teeth.I really want to take a picture of the faces of Ba Ye and the others, I am afraid I will never see their expressions like seeing a ghost again...

"You all go out and wait in the court. If there is anyone who speaks recklessly, they will be killed without pardon." Emperor Kangxi suddenly said, and everyone looked at each other. Although they were worried for different reasons, no one dared to violate the emperor's will. They all filed out and retreated one by one.

The room was really silent, I knelt there with my head down, everything in front of me seemed to be in a dream, but I couldn't help but think, although the topic of an interview with Emperor Kangxi alone is extremely bad, if there is this opportunity , I don’t know how many historians will flock here, even if they know that they are going to die... While thinking about it, the golden clock in the room suddenly struck ten times, and my heart trembled. A pair of well-made buckskin soap boots Stopped in front of me, an indescribable pressure was under the hood, I couldn't help tightening my shoulders and clenching my fists, waiting for the thunderous blow.

"Why?" The emperor's voice floated down from above my head lightly, asking exactly the same question as before.I paused and closed my eyes, yes, Kangxi probably didn’t believe even half a word of what I said just now, the only thing that surprised him was that I actually wrote the content of Nightmare Town perfectly. come out.

"Because I don't want Yinxiang to die." I raised my head and glanced at Emperor Kangxi. He was staring at me with his hands behind his back. He frowned when he heard me say this, and tightened the corners of his mouth, but he didn't speak. .I took a deep breath, "Maybe the emperor wants to say that you have no intention of killing Yinxiang, because you know he didn't do it." Hold on to me... My heart was beating violently, and my hands were trembling uncontrollably, but I still straightened my back and looked at him, thinking in my heart that fear can also give people courage. "However, it is impossible for the emperor not to deal with such a big matter. Even if he is not killed, at least he will be banned. But for Yinxiang, what is the difference between letting him die." I said hoarsely , "Just now the emperor announced the clan mansion to come in, that's what he wanted to do."

Kangxi looked at me fixedly, without saying a word.I couldn't help swallowing dry foam, I just felt my throat was on fire, resisting the discomfort, I said: "The emperor also knows about this matter, if you continue to investigate this matter, you will lose more than just Yinxiang's son, But your decision like this is too unfair to Yinxiang, he has lost his mother and can no longer be abandoned by his father..." Kangxi's face froze when he heard this, the corners of his mouth stiffened, and he stopped looking at Dust.After finishing those words in one breath, I was a little out of breath, and paused, "So, it's best for me, isn't it?" After saying these words, I slumped on the ground exhausted, and I said everything I needed to say, Kangxi can do whatever he wants.I couldn't help but raised my hand and held the finger pull Yinxiang gave me through my clothes. I tried my best, really tried my best, you know, Yinxiang...

After a long time, "Why did you do this?" Kangxi asked slowly, his voice became softer, but I was taken aback.Why... I don't know why, but I just don't want Yinxiang to suffer. If I only know him from books, then what happened to him is nothing more than pity and lamentation.But now, his breathing, his eyes, and his bones and blood have been integrated into my life. I watched him suffer again and again with empathy, how could I let him fall into the pain that he could never extricate himself from.What's more, I always feel faintly in my heart that I shouldn't exist. I have changed too much in Yinxiang's life, good or bad, so if my disappearance is used to exchange for his safety, it should be considered a It's a very good deal... Thinking of this, I couldn't help but smile bitterly.

In a blink of an eye, I suddenly found that Emperor Kangxi was looking at me silently, I forced a smile, and said in a low voice: "Yinxiang has done everything that can be done for me, I just did what I should do." Kangxi was startled, Rubbing his forehead with his fingers, he sighed lightly: "Then have you ever thought about how Yin Xiang will deal with himself after he finds out about this?" His heart convulsed, and a sense of dampness rushed into his eyes. I closed my eyes hard, and after a while I looked up at Kangxi: "My choice is the same as yours." I stared at him and said word by word: "Two-harm-phase-comparison-take-its- light."

Kangxi was taken aback, a trace of helpless paleness and the embarrassment of being stepped on the pain flashed past his eyes, and it took me a moment to feel that no matter how wise and wise Kangxi is, he is still a mortal and a father after all, but he has too many Ordinary people don't have to go through painful choices.

"Is there anything else you want to say?" After a while, Kangxi who returned to normal said calmly.I wanted to shake my head, if I couldn't save my life, then what else can I ask for, but then I suddenly thought of something, so I bent down: "Yes, please don't offend my family, my majesty, I have feelings for them." I have always been indifferent, and they have not benefited from me, so don't blame them for such bad things." After I finished speaking, I kowtowed heavily.Others don't tell me, that mother-in-law is sincere to me after all, even though she loves her own daughter, not me, a magpie's nest and a fake, I fell on the ground, and the room was silent...

"Come here." Kangxi suddenly called out sharply, and Li Dequan responded, "Tell the guards to come in."

"Cha." Li Dequan hurriedly agreed and backed out, not daring to look at me for half an eye.There was a sound of footsteps, and Detai's simple and heavy voice sounded: "Slave pays respects to the emperor." Kangxi took two steps back and forth, looked at me again, and suddenly turned back to the seat in the middle, and said slowly but clearly, " Lock Yalarta in a forbidden room, keep him under strict supervision, and return to Beijing for another trial, during which no one is allowed to approach, do you understand?!" Detai was stunned, but was intimidated by Kangxi's gloomy tone, and hurriedly called again. Say a thousand children: "cha, the slave obeys the order."

Detai strode up to me, but he was embarrassed to pull me up, and couldn't help but feel a little at a loss. I shook my head slightly, and stood up staggeringly: "Thank you, Your Majesty, for your kindness!" But I couldn't help smiling bitterly, Thank you for the person who wants to kill me, really... Kangxi glanced at me indifferently, and waved at me.

I turned around and followed Detai and walked out. There were guards in front of me and behind me. The elder brothers and ministers outside the door naturally heard the will of Emperor Kangxi just now. Ba Ye watched me come out in a daze. , while the somewhat bewildered Master Shi stood behind him, Master Jiu stood in the shadows, and Fourteen had a face of pain, his teeth clenched on his lower lip that had lost all color.Seeing me coming out, he took a step forward as if he wanted to say something, but he was grabbed by Brother Jiu behind him. I sighed in my heart and stopped looking at him. I just subconsciously followed the guards, walking on the Detai in front of me stopped suddenly, and I almost ran into him in a daze.

Seeing him standing there in a daze and looking ahead, I followed his line of sight, it hurt so much... I couldn't help but clutch my chest with my hands, in the dim light, Fourth Master stood at the gate of the courtyard like a wood carving or stone sculpture , the eyes full of pain and depression are staring at me for a moment...

Dawn, dark, this is the only feeling I have about the outside world, and time seems to have paused in the silence, which makes me feel a little unaware of the cold and heat.Then from the attic where Chengde was detained, he was moved to the carriage he was sitting in now, the only difference was that it was a little more rickety.The old eunuch who came to take care of me never said a word, just brought the food silently, and then removed the empty plate after I finished eating, and even cleaned the toilet bowl after I finished it in time.At the beginning, I was really embarrassed, and I murmured a few words of thanks, but I never got any response from him, until one day, I accidentally discovered that he was actually a mute with his tongue cut out.

That day I couldn't even feel the daytime, my heart was beating so fast, I couldn't hold it down with my hands, until the dumb eunuch came in again to help me pack my daily necessities, staring at his dull face, a little muddy. In a blink of an eye, he didn't seem to notice, and went out after cleaning up. My heart stopped beating, but a suffocating fear locked my throat.

"Bang Dang, Dang Dang", the carriage was walking on the official road without rushing, the windows around the car had been tightly pasted with mulberry paper, and I spent my daily necessities of life in this carriage, which was a few feet square, and the only way to judge time was The moment the old eunuch opened the curtain.I couldn't see the outside at all, but my eyes were subconsciously staring at the car window, imagining what the scenery outside was like and what other people were doing in my mind.

I haven't said a word for ten days. In the first five days, I can still talk to myself, cheer myself up, and try not to let myself think too much.And ever since I saw that old eunuch Qi Gen's broken tongue, I don't want to talk anymore, I just sit quietly in the corner every day, eating when I'm asked, and sleeping when I'm asked.If you don't explode in silence, you die in silence. It's not that I don't understand this truth, but I still can't help myself and let myself slide slowly towards the bottom of the dark valley.

Since that day, Kangxi has not summoned me again, but my diet and daily life are not bad, and the only difference between me and my past is that I don’t see the light of day.Thinking of this, I couldn't help touching the finger ring hanging on my chest. This was my only comfort. Whenever I thought that the time when the carriage stopped and let me get off might be the end of my life, I was so frightened that I wanted to go crazy. And this finger is the only evidence that can prove that everything I have done is worthwhile.And... it's fourth master's heart-wrenching gaze, looking into fourth master's eyes that day, for some reason, my tears just fell out drop by drop, and the sudden grievance in my heart made me want to cry out loud , but the muscles on his face made a big smile on his own initiative.Seeing my smile, Fourth Master was taken aback, his lips trembled slightly, but he couldn't utter a word, seeing him bit his lower lip hard, a trace of blood gradually oozes out.

Those drops of blood and this finger-wrench accompanied me through this difficult journey of death.Sometimes I also wonder if those on death row will also count down the day of the end like me.Just counting, eating, and sleeping every day... Maybe after today I don’t have to be afraid anymore. Today is the No. 16 day. According to the calculation of the distance, I should reach the capital.

The carriage became winding and winding, then stopped suddenly, and there was a faint human voice. I was leaning against the board wall and was about to sit up, when the curtain at the door was suddenly pulled open, and the light was fierce. The shot came in, I couldn't help but raised my hand to cover my eyes, and the golden stars danced around in my closed eyes.

There was a rustling sound, as if someone was flipping through and checking something, I managed to open my eyes to see, a figure was retreating, and the curtain was closed again, the corner of the clothes flashed, and in an instant, I I have already seen the second person I have seen in these days, because I am too familiar, it is the color of the guards of the Forbidden Palace.

Finally, if there is a mirror in front of me, I can see the expression on my face, it must be extremely weird, because I don't know whether I am crying or laughing now.The carriage continued to move forward, and it seemed to be a long and short distance. The carriage finally stopped. The old eunuch lifted the curtain of the carriage and made a gesture to signal me to get out of the carriage.For a moment, I had the idea of ​​staying in the car, as if I could temporarily avoid the terrible fate in front of me, but in a moment I shook my head at my naive idea, gritted my teeth and moved away.These days I either lie down or sit, my legs seem to be numb, and when I support the old eunuch’s hands to get out of the car, I feel his hands are dry and cold, and a chill creeps up my heart along his fingers, I can’t help it The ground let go, and the moment my feet touched the ground, numbness and soreness surged up like needle pricks. I couldn't help shaking, but I would rather fall than touch that old eunuch again.

The old eunuch didn't take the initiative to help me, but only waited for me to stand firmly before leading me forward.I looked back, and there were more than a dozen guards and eunuchs standing on the other side of the carriage, but everyone turned their backs to me and did not dare to turn their heads.I grinned wryly, and followed the old eunuch who was waiting for me step by step. I saw the high palace walls all around, and it was dark, but there was a long and narrow corridor in front of me, so dark that I couldn't see the end. , I couldn't figure out where it was in the darkness, but my heart skipped a beat for no reason.The only light came from the lamp in the hand of the old eunuch in front of me, flickering, extremely desolate, the sound of footsteps echoed in the dark void, my heart beat faster and faster, but it was not because of fear, but because of It's because of an increasingly familiar feeling, could it be...

The old eunuch in front of me suddenly stopped in his tracks. I looked over and saw a mottled wooden door looming in the flickering lights. "With a sound, it opened slowly, and a deep breath floated out.The old eunuch signaled me to go in, I subconsciously grasped the collar, and walked in slowly with my legs as if stepping on cotton. There were a few people standing in the yard, but I didn't care to look carefully, but walked slowly but firmly to the house At the door, I secretly took a deep breath and mustered up the courage to look at the lintel...

"So it's called Yunxiu." I muttered to myself vaguely, "Hehe..." An uncontrollable smile came up, "Haha, haha..." I laughed out loud.The old eunuch who had been with me for sixteen days without changing his face finally raised his eyes, and looked at me who was out of breath from laughing in panic. For a while, only my slightly crazy laughter echoed in the yard Then, the other people in the yard couldn't help but took half a step back.

"Ahem..." I laughed so hard that I couldn't help coughing, covered my mouth, and calmed myself down slowly. The trachea gradually became smoother, and finally I couldn't help but look up at the door again. On the road, there is no place to look for when you break through the iron shoes, and it takes no effort to get here... A sense of peace that I haven't seen for a long time overflows my chest. Although the place is dark and gloomy like a cage, it makes me feel the distance from home.I rubbed my face with my hands, turned to look at the silent crowd, and asked indifferently: "What do you want me to do now?" After not speaking for a long time, my tongue was a little stiff, and my voice sounded very vague.A eunuch flashed out of the shadows. It was too dark to be seen, but the voice was still clear: "You should rest first." After speaking, he took out a bunch of keys from his waist and walked quickly At the door of the house, I opened the door lock with a clatter, and walked in. After a while, the room was lit up, and the eunuch appeared at the door, and bowed to invite me in.

I didn't want to ask too much, so I walked in. The room was still tidy and the mattresses were new, but there was a faint musty smell, but it was much better than the dilapidated ones in the 21st century. Can't help but smile wryly.There were already two young eunuchs behind him, one made a pot of hot tea, the other brought several plates of snacks, the sweet smell wafted over with the wind.I turned around and saw a desk in front of the bed, so I couldn't help walking over it. A ream of Song paper, a Duan inkstone, two ingots of Hui ink, and a few wolf hairs of different thicknesses were neatly placed on the desk.I was stunned, and picked up a little wolf pen and looked at it in my hand, those pens and inkstone were actually my daily use, a trace of sarcasm welled up in my heart, and I turned to look at the leading eunuch who was serving respectfully beside me: "You are thoughtful. "My sarcasm fell on the eunuch's shoulders like dust, and he respectfully replied with an attitude that he didn't even want to brush it off: "Fu Jin, please rest early, if you have any orders, please tell the servants, the servants are cheap My name is Wang Fuer." After speaking, he glanced at me.I opened my mouth subconsciously, but I just waved my hand. He gave a thousand blows and led the two little eunuchs out.

I stood there for a while, I didn't know what it was like, I just sat on the stool slowly, picked up the teapot on the table and poured myself a cup of tea, a smell of Pu'er slowly surrounded me with the heat , I closed my eyes and didn't want to drink, but simply felt the warmth in my hand that I hadn't seen for a long time.

Just now he wanted to ask the eunuch about Yinxiang, maybe because he had been imprisoned for too long these days, his mind became dull, and he wanted to do some stupid things that he would never do in the past.I can't help but look around, windows, walls, beams, pillars... I once told Xiaochun that fate is just an excuse that people can't explain things, and they don't care about the pain and sorrow in it. Said, this is your fate, it must be the worst result.Thinking about me who said these words at the time, I must have spoken earnestly and with foresight.But looking at myself now, what I said at that time was simply a joke. I was the one who was fiddled with by the hand of fate and fiddled with me without knowing it. It’s a pity that Xiao Chun’er can’t see it... Thinking of Xiao Chun’er, I feel blocked, I shook my head and didn't think about it any more. A few days ago, Master Shi's sentence of "the promiscuous court" had already explained too many problems. I tried my best to wake her up, but the result was still the same, and even Yinxiang's life was affected.If Xiao Chun'er said to me again at this time, "This is my life", I'm afraid I would have no choice but to nod.Thinking of Yinxiang, I felt a pain in my heart. I don't know what he is doing now. If I guessed correctly, Kangxi should still be imprisoning him.If I let him know what I did and my situation at this time... I couldn't help shivering, and didn't dare to think about it anymore.

It may be that I have been detained for too long, I am a little dizzy, and now I don't feel sleepy at all. After thinking about it carefully, I took an ingot of ink and rubbed it slowly in the inkstone.Stained with ink with wolf brushes, hanging his wrists on the paper, unable to write for a long time, only feeling that there are thousands of words in his heart, but he can't express every single word.

"Pa" a drop of ink fell thickly on the snow-white Song paper, splashing dots of ink marks, looking at the speckled paper, an ominous feeling hit my heart, I swipe the paper into a ball, Throwing it out fiercely, the ball of paper rolled lightly into the corner.

After making up my mind, I decided to write down all the funny cross talks and jokes I know. Yinxiang likes to listen to these the most. My favorite sheer smile.Thinking of this, I quickly put down my pen, as if someone was chasing me, and wrote one after another... As I wrote, my thoughts were surging, and the words I wanted to say poured out like a tide.I muttered to myself, as if Yinxiang was facing me face to face on the paper. I couldn't help laughing when I wrote it happily, and tears fell on the paper uncontrollably when I wrote it difficult. I didn't care. Just writing, I don't know how long it has passed, I just feel that the candlelight is gradually flickering and dimming...

"Wow..." It seemed to be the faint sound of paper shaking. I paused and was about to move when I felt my arms go numb. When I raised my head, the sun that I hadn't seen for a long time was directly shining into my eyes. I quickly closed my eyes, but I enjoyed the feeling of the sun on my face. It turned out that I fell asleep without knowing it.

I closed my eyes and stretched my waist. I haven’t slept so soundly for a long time. It may be because I was exhausted because of the bleak future, or I was relieved to find that I might escape the catastrophe and return to modern times. Dream.My body hurts a bit, I didn’t sleep well last night, I opened my eyes, stood up and wanted to exercise my muscles, but found a person standing by, holding something I wrote last night...

I was stunned, still a little confused in my heart, just stared at that person for a while, and suddenly realized, I took a stride, snatched the piece of paper back, and said sharply, "What are you doing here?!..."

Fourteenth elder brother stood in front of the window in a daze, still holding my jade rod in his hand, pinching and turning it unconsciously.For my undisguised hostility, there was no laughter or sarcasm as usual, his face seemed to become blurred, and the facial features were clearly carved on the face, but it gave people a feeling of being covered in clouds.

Just now, a loud shout made my heart pound non-stop, the room was terribly quiet, only occasionally my suppressed heavy breathing came out, the moment I saw him, an uncontrollable hatred surged from the bottom of my heart , I can't wait to slap him a few times, and then kick him to the sky.My eyes must have been sharp, Fourteen finally moved away his eyes that were staring at me, and a touch of weakness that I had never seen in his eyes slipped out of his eyes without any concealment.The rising morning glow sprinkled on him through the window lattice, and the soft color reflected his face paler, his stiff body was like a statue, I couldn't help but think, if I had to give the statue a name, it should be called For "regret"...

My throat tightened inexplicably, I closed my eyes, and let out a long breath. All the anger, hostility, and contempt seemed to be dissipated with the carbon dioxide and the wind. I think it's too strange, Ba Ye and his hands and eyes are open to the sky, I don't know how many times I have been taught.Turning around, I picked up the papers scattered on the table and the ground one by one, and stacked them one by one in order.What will happen to Yinxiang when he sees these, I can't help but guess, will he realize that I have no choice but to keep them carefully, or will he resent my self-assertive decision and tear them to pieces. "Oh..." I couldn't help but sighed again, no matter what his reaction was, I probably didn't have the life to witness it with my own eyes...

"Xiaowei..." Fourteen's hoarse voice sounded softly behind me.My deliberately busy hands froze slightly, and I calmed down, and I said lightly: "You go, the emperor has ordered that no one should contact me, do you want to disobey the holy order?" thing. "Xiaowei, I..." Elder Fourteen called out in a low voice, but there was no more words.I just feel that my heart is on fire, and I don't want to argue with him anymore. What else does he want, what does he want me to say, forgive him for wanting to kill my husband, but accidentally hit the passenger car and killed me, or something... I I couldn't help shaking my head with a somewhat angry smile. If that's the case, I can only say that he thinks too highly of me, and I don't have such a big heart.But there was still silence behind him, he didn't speak anymore, but he didn't leave either.

It's really unbearable, since he wants to embarrass himself, then... I turned around and looked at him: "You..." But the rest of the words were choked in my throat, and those black eyes exactly like Fourth Master looked straight at I, it seems to be full of thousands of words that cannot be uttered, I couldn't bear to look away, but I thought in my heart, it turns out that people without tears can cry bitterly...

Behind me was the desk, and I couldn't help but grasp the edge of the table with my hands. A sudden pain came from my fingers, and I subconsciously looked down, only to find that my knuckles were all white from the force, but since I first saw Brother Fourteen, Scenes quickly slipped through my mind.The fourteenth elder brother who kissed me to anger Shisan, but was choked by my action of wiping his face with his sleeve; the one who asked me jealously in the paddock, if Shisan and fourth master had an accident at the same time, I would go to rescue Whose fourteenth elder brother; the fourteenth elder brother who toasted me with a hoarse voice in the bridal chamber... I shook my head vigorously, and the one who will be suppressed by my own elder brother in the future will never be able to do it for the rest of my life The high-spirited general king...

Brothers win the heir, either you die or I die, the process is tragic, and there will be no warmth, but unfortunately I can only look at the problem from the standpoint of Yinxiang and the fourth master, so... I lowered my head to calm myself , raised his eyes to look at the fourteenth brother on the opposite side, stared at him firmly, and said slowly: "You are a man, there are things that men must do, and since you have done it, don't regret it."

Brother Fourteen was taken aback, the muscles on his face twitched slightly, his nose fluttered, he half-opened his mouth, but couldn't say anything, I sighed secretly, I can still live if I do evil, I do it myself... ... I slowly turned my back, as if stuffing a handful of rotten cotton wool in my heart: "You go, I don't want to see you again from now on." After a pause, I finally couldn't help but sarcastically said, "Even if I want to see it, I probably won't have the chance."

There was a "click" sound behind him, and after a while of silence, footsteps sounded, the door opened with a "squeak", and then slowly closed with a "squeak".I stood silently at the desk, my mind blank.After an unknown amount of time, I suddenly felt a numbness in my calf, obviously from standing for a long time. I licked my lips, turned around and walked towards the bed.

"Kala" kicked something, I looked down and saw that it was a half-broken white jade pen, I subconsciously bent my legs to pick it up, a scarlet pierced into my eyes.There was heat in his eyes for no reason, he stared blankly for a while, then walked slowly to the wastebasket, let go...

Another six days passed in a blink of an eye, and no one bothered me anymore, and there was no news from outside. This claustrophobic courtyard seemed to be forgotten by others, and I didn't care. Apart from eating and sleeping, I just kept writing, Although I don't know how much time I have left, I know that I still have nearly half of my life and haven't finished talking to Yinxiang.I can neither embroider nor cut clothes and make shoes, but I don't want to leave Yinxiang with a little thought, so I can only write desperately, although I don't know whether Yinxiang can see these things...

He will eventually know why I left him. I'm not worried that he will be so weak that he commits suicide for a woman. Even if he wants to, there will still be Si Ye, even Kangxi, watching over him.But I am worried that his passion will make his life worse than death. The relationship between us is too deep, even different.

Hehe... I looked at the text in my hand and smiled wryly. If this piece of paper is brought into modern times, it will probably be regarded as an inspirational article and shown to people with depression.I wrote and wrote all day today, with only one central meaning, that is, one must live, and only by living can there be hope...

The door squeaked. The door is too old. The only advantage is that it can be used as a doorbell. You don't have to worry about the kind of thing that happens when someone comes in and stands behind you without you noticing it.The footsteps behind me were very light, maybe the little eunuchs came to bring me dinner again, these days they did not speak more than [-] sentences to me, and the answer "yes" accounted for more than half of them.I waved my hand: "Put it aside, I'll eat it later."

"Yes." A soft voice came over, my back stiffened, and I slowly turned my head... the handle head, the bottom of the flower pot, the sky green kan'er, the plain eight-panel skirt, and the seven fragrances A beautiful face instantly appeared in front of my eyes.I looked at her for a while, she was looking at me at first, but after a while she lowered her eyes, I thought about it, turned around and put the pen in my hand, pressed the unfinished letter with a paperweight, and turned the stool around direction, sit facing Qixiang.

"How is Yinxiang?" I asked softly.Qixiang paused, then lowered her head and said in a soft voice: "The Thirteenth Master is still detained in the beekeeping lane. It is believed that although he has suffered a little, he is still in good health. It's just that the guards are stricter and no one is allowed to approach."

"Oh, really..." I felt relieved, and Kangxi really didn't let him out.As for the stricter supervision, firstly, it is because he does not want any rumors to reach his ears; secondly, it is better to protect him.It seems that although what I said that day was cryptic, Kangxi still understood it...

"Fourth Master has been working on this matter, I heard that he knelt outside the Qianqing Palace all night." Qi Xiang suddenly whispered, I paused, and my heart writhed in pain.These days, I have written countless things that I want to leave for Yinxiang, but I dare not write a single word to fourth master... I closed my eyes and waited for the pain to subside.After a while, I opened my eyes: "Is my family okay?" Qixiang was startled: "Yes, the matter of your imprisonment is a secret. The emperor issued a strict decree that no one is allowed to disclose it." I clicked head, and asked the last question: "How did you come in?" Qixiang smiled slightly: "This is a side room at the back of your lord's side hall. The emperor ordered you to be detained here, and your lord Take care of me." I was stunned for a moment, and then I realized that this kind of scandal involving the palace could be exposed, only I was imprisoned in the palace, and your lord is the highest-ranking concubine in the palace, such a thing is natural Only leave it to her.The inside and the outside are connected in an instant. The emperor is not having a good time these days. I shook my head lightly. Do not deal with him.And the conspiracies and tricks that his capable sons have created, I'm afraid it can't be solved by the word "chilling"...

"This is something your master asked me to bring to you." Qixiang's voice pulled me back from my thoughts. "Oh, is that so?" I responded casually, not interested in unpacking the bundle Qixiang was carrying.Qixiang stared at me with a weird expression, there was something in his eyes that I couldn't understand, but more panic and nervousness.I fixed her eyes and stretched out my hand slowly: "Bring it here." I whispered.Qixiang's face froze, she walked over slowly, and handed me the bundle, but her hand was trembling slightly.

I took it and put it on my lap, opened it layer by layer, and a set of exquisitely embroidered robes appeared in front of my eyes.There was a "crack" in my mouth, the sound of gnashing my teeth startled me, my temples throbbed, I stared blankly at the clothes in my hand, the bright red color seemed to overwhelm me: "Hehe..."

Qixiang, who retreated to the side, looked up at me with some panic, and I realized that I was actually smiling: "Okay, I didn't expect that there would be a day to wear Zhengfujin's outfit, hehe..." I unconsciously used my fingers to smooth the clothes there. Walking on the cold silk and satin, the red gradually turned pale, as if a white silk was tightly strung around my neck, making me suffocate...

"Is there anything else?" I looked up at Qixiang.She was taken aback, and was startled when she saw my calm face: "It's nothing, the master just said that it is the emperor's will for me to give this to you, and nothing else." I nodded: "Got it, then You go down." Qixiang blessed Fushen, and retreated step by step, I just sat on the chair coldly, my mind was very confused.

"Fujin." Qixiang suddenly stopped in her tracks, "Maid...what can I do for you?" She asked dully.I was taken aback, and looked up at her, but her delicate face contained a trace of firmness.To be honest, I still don't understand Qixiang, who she is, and what kind of relationship she has with Yinxiang, but I have no chance to ask Yinxiang.He looked down at the robe in his hand, it was clearly a death talisman from Hades...

I stood up suddenly, threw the clothes aside, and quickly packed up the things I wrote these days, a thick pile, I searched around, and picked up the furoshiki used to wrap the clothes from the ground I got up and carefully wrapped up all the precious and precious things I wrote.Gently pressing on it, I carefully picked up the bag, took a deep breath, turned around and handed it to Qixiang: "If you can, help me to Yinxiang." Qixiang was a little displeased. Looking up at me in disbelief, I nodded.She staggered up and took it with trembling hands. The moment the burden left my hand, I felt a part of my body go with it.

Qixiang hugged the burden tightly as if she was holding her life in her arms. She squeezed her dry lips and asked me with some difficulty: "You... believe me..." I paused and said in a hoarse voice: " I have no other choice but to choose to believe in you, if you are willing to do your best, I shall be grateful for your kindness."

Qixiang was shocked, bent over, turned around and walked towards the door, there was a "squeak", the door was ajar, and she suddenly turned around: "You really don't want to know..." I shook my head and interrupted her: "I don't want to know how you and Yinxiang are, that's your business, not mine." Looking at Qixiang's pale face, I smiled lightly: "You go, I just don't want to die and don't feel at ease." Qixiang He opened his eyes wide, then lowered his head immediately, bowed deeply to me, and went out without looking back.

I stood at the door in a daze, I couldn't see or hear anything outside, only the wind blowing through the crack of the door could bring a breath of life.I looked at the desk, and it seemed that I didn’t need to write any more, so I turned around and walked to the bed, and lay down on my back. The big red robe was also embroidered with Ruyi, I couldn't help but smile wryly, Ruyi... Who will my death be according to...

There was a sound of voices, I rubbed my eyes, the lights outside dazzled me a little, lights? !I sat up slowly, I haven't seen the lights flickering for a long time...

"Squeak" The old wooden door announced the arrival of someone routinely. The light outside made me uncomfortable, so I squinted my eyes. "Fu Jin." A figure slapped a thousand children down, stood up and turned around to close the door after speaking, and the room was much darker again.I stared straight at the person in front of me. Although there was still a respectful smile on his face, a trace of discomfort flashed in his eyes. I couldn't help but sneered in my heart: "It turned out to be Eunuch Li coming here." Li Dequan, the chief eunuch His face froze, but he bowed his head in a seasoned manner and said, "I don't dare to be a slave."

I crossed my legs, and I already understood the reason for his visit. During the day, Qixiang sent the clothes to me in advance. I clenched my fists, but my body felt cold and hot for a while.Seeing that I didn't speak, but just stared at him, Li Dequan coughed twice: "The emperor has something to ask you." After speaking, he waited for me to kneel down to answer, and after waiting for a while, seeing that I didn't move, he frowned , I was a little surprised on my face, but I endured it, and coughed twice: "Hmm... the emperor asked, do you regret it?" .But Kangxi's question was like pouring cold water on me, which shocked me. I straightened my back slowly, and said word by word: "I-don't- regret it!"

Li Dequan's eyes flickered, but he didn't say anything. He just lowered his head and sighed lightly, then raised his head and said clearly: "The emperor has the will." Come, but all the strength in his body seems to have been exhausted, so he grinned reluctantly: "Eunuch Li, it's not because I'm being rude, I really don't have the energy to stand up, just listen here, okay?" Li Dequan was stunned, Bowed: "Yes." He cleared his throat again, and said calmly, "The emperor ordered, Yalarta's Mingwei, because jealousy turned into hatred, to do something insane. It's still good, I will commit suicide and remove my name from the imperial family's imperial seal, this is it." He paused, "Fu Jin, you...understand?" I nodded numbly.He also said: "It will be announced to the outside world that because of your insanity and serious illness... um... you will never offend your family."

Haha... I felt a wry smile in my heart.Removal from the royal family means that everything about me will be wiped clean, and there will be no trace left in history... I said that I have read so many manuscripts of Qing history, but I have never seen my number .I subconsciously looked around again, it seems that I really want to say goodbye to everything in front of me, everything in the past few years seems to be a dream...

The door squeaked again, and I turned my eyes to see that a little eunuch came in with a box of things, handed it to Li Dequan respectfully, and then stooped back.I watched in a daze as Li Dequan put the box on the table, and took out a wine jug and a cup one by one. His movements seemed to be in slow motion, and I felt that the air around him became frozen.

"Clatter..." There was a sound of water, the sound of poisoned wine hitting the bottom of the cup, and my hands began to tremble violently. For a moment, I wanted to scream, to run away, to...seeing Li Dequan take a step He walked up step by step, and bowed respectfully in front of him, with his arms stretched forward. On the boxwood tray, there was a small white jade wine glass, and the water waves were faintly shaking in it...

It's so cold... This is the only feeling I hold that wine glass, but I'm wondering when I picked it up, a unique aroma of "Osmanthus fragrans" comes out, the jade-colored wine glass, the vermilion wine Liquid, really beautiful, no wonder people say that gorgeous things are usually poisonous, both natural and artificial.What is this for, is it to reduce the fear of death... Swallowing dry mouth forcefully, screaming in my heart, let it end, let everything end... I slowly raised the wine glass in my hand and approached lips, close your eyes, and raise your head...

"Fu Jin, the servant has retreated." Li Dequan slapped him a thousand times, turned around and retreated, the door closed with a "squeak", and I leaned heavily against the wooden wall behind me.This time it’s all right, I’ve done everything I need to do, and I’ve swallowed the ticket to go home. The only thing I can do now is to wait, but I don’t know if I will wake up and return to modern times. Or go directly to the place where I never have to wake up again...

My mind gradually went blank, and my stomach was on fire, but I didn't know whether it was the poison or the alcohol. I subconsciously pulled out the finger ring from the neckline. It was also white jade, but it was Gentle, I put it on my lips and rubbed it, Yinxiang... I'm sorry, I'm really sorry... It's not what I want to come here to meet you, but it's not what I want to leave you like this need……

A heavy consciousness pressed down from top to bottom, and the things in front of my eyes became more and more blurred, only the light of a candle was still dancing faintly... I tried my best to clenched the wrench in my hand, goodbye, Yinxiang, and , Yin...

"Hiss..." My head hurts so much, I couldn't help pressing my temples tightly with my hands, let the pain subside slowly, and waited for a while with my eyes closed, the pain finally disappeared, but I still didn't want to open my eyes.What I could smell in my nose was a mildewy smell that had been in disrepair for a long time, "Hehe..." I laughed lowly, I really didn't know if God treated me well, hot tears squeezed from my closed eyelids When it went out, it became cold when it flowed to the jaw.I opened my eyes, stood up with my hands on the moldy desk, and didn't want to take a second look at this place. I turned around and opened the door to go out. Another pain.

Out of the gate, the sun was already setting outside, my feet seemed uncontrollable, and I walked towards the Changchun Palace step by step. The long corridor is so familiar, but also so strange, the tourists on the road Gradually, there were more people talking, laughing, exclaiming, and commenting from time to time, brushing past me.Seeing the gate of Changchun Palace approaching, I stood still, took a few deep breaths, and mustered up the courage to step in... The bricks, the tiles, the beams, and the pillars, except for being mottled and old, everything Still the same.The porch I walked through every day, the steps where I scrubbed the porcelain for the first time, the side room where I sorted out letters for the concubine... I slid my fingers one by one.

It may be that the gate is about to close, the number of tourists has decreased greatly, and the Changchun Palace has also become silent. Occasionally someone comes in and sees me like this, maybe they just think that I am too intoxicated in history.After reading it back and forth several times, I walked to the porch where I usually sit for a long time, sat down, and closed my eyes.I often chat and laugh with Yinxiang here, and I also ran into Fourth Master once in a while. Their faces are like a revolving lantern in my mind. "Ah." I couldn't help but yelled out in a low voice, I didn't want to move, I just sat there for an unknown amount of time, letting my tears flow and dry.A breeze came, and it still had the same smell, faintly came the words that Yinxiang and Fourth Master once said to me: "Xiaowei, love you... love you..."

"Xiaowei..." A familiar voice came to my ears, and I was startled, only to feel that my eyes were dizzy and I couldn't see anything.What's the matter, could it be that I fell asleep again?Did Xiaoqiuer come to look for me?I have been missing for a long time, so she must be anxious too. "Xiaowei." The call came again, and I was shocked.wrong!This voice is not Xiaoqiu's, but...

I tried my best to open my eyes, but a shock and dizziness hit me. I closed my eyes and opened them again. The sky-blue silk curtain, the light pink tassels, and the fragrant and soft satin quilt...all of these are so familiar, I I live in such an environment every day, what is going on, am I still dreaming?So which one is the real one, and what does God want...

"Ah!" I wanted to scream, but there was only a hoarse gasp. At this moment, I felt that my throat was on fire, and every breath was like a knife... The pain made me calm down, and I closed my eyes. After thinking about it carefully, it seems that I really drank that cup of poisoned wine, but I did not die. Why... It seems that the dream of returning to modern times just now is a reflection of my subconscious desire.Now... my nervousness made my breathing quicken, and my throat immediately became more painful. I couldn't help but hold my throat with my hand, but was held tightly by the other hand, and a cold feeling hit me .My heart trembled, this is... I wanted to look but didn't dare to look. After holding back for a long time, I finally opened my eyes and looked at that person. Tears flowed down my face. My lips trembled but I couldn't say a word. Come on, after a long time, a sentence that couldn't be more hoarse floated out of my throat: "You are crazy..." He paused, squeezed my fingers one by one with his, and then stared at me firmly. I said in a hoarse voice: "Yes, I have been crazy since the day you opened my fingers..."

(End of this chapter)