dream back to qing dynasty

Chapter 54

In June of the same year, the [-]th elder brother Yinti joined the military department and transferred soldiers from Gubeikou, Luying, and Jiangnan Daying to Shaanxi.In September of the same year, roads were paved with loess in the capital, and incense cases were spread all over the place. Emperor Kangxi personally bestowed the Fourteenth Argonaut with the Heavenly Son Sword, and a letter from the general to let him go out of Beijing on a festival day and send troops to Qinghai to fight for rebellion.And Yinti finally became a direct contender for the throne, the "General King" with hundreds of thousands of soldiers in his hands.

In the blink of an eye, it has been three years since the fourteenth elder brother led the troops out of the customs. Apart from the so-called lure the enemy to go deep and be careful, he has always led the troops to rush forward. flee.Especially recently, with numerous victories and good news coming from the front, Fourteenth Elder Brother's ability to fight well has become a topic of praise from the ministers of the DPRK and China every day.

But Yin Xiang and Si Ye are busy in the household department every day, raising food in the front, and natural disasters in the rear. After all, the root of everything is money. Therefore, the household department is probably the busiest yamen in the capital except the military department. up.I haven't been in front of the lamp in the past two years. I saw Yinxiang coming back. Every time he came back, he just teased his daughter, said a few words to me, and then plunged into the study, or went straight to Lama Temple .

Yinxiang also apologized very much for neglecting me, and every time I just said, "As long as you are healthy, you can come as you like, don't worry about me", Yinxiang just hugged me tightly In his arms, he whispered to me that he is busy now so that he can be with me in the future, and I will naturally understand in the future... I just smiled and nodded, and said "I'm waiting".

In fact, I now understand very well that these three years have been an important period for Fourth Master, Eighth Master, and Fourteenth Master to try their best to accumulate their respective strengths.The fourteenth master has won consecutive battles and has the military power in his hands, the eighth master has made many courtiers, and the six departments are more than capable, but the fourth master gritted his teeth and devoted himself to doing things, and he did practical things.In the final analysis, what the several people were waiting for was the sentence that Emperor Kangxi closed his eyes.

The soldiers and horses have not moved, the food and grass go first, and the leader of the battle is most afraid that the supplies will not be able to keep up. There are many precedents where soldiers are not defeated but starved to death.But in the past two years, there has been a severe drought in Henan and a plague of locusts in Shandong. Looking around, they are all hands asking for money.But Siye and Yinxiang have tightened their money over the years, demolished the east wall to pay the west wall, and collected debts everywhere, but they never let the food and grass in front of them be tight. I can also see it, but the hard work behind it should be placed in the emperor's heart.

Of course, I can't tell Yinxiang these words. Thinking about how hard he and the fourth master are working so hard, they naturally have this calculation in their hearts, so I don't need to talk too much.Even if I don't say anything or do anything, the throne should still belong to the fourth master.

What's more, for a long time, I have been worried about my own existence, Yinxiang's fate has been slightly changed because of me, otherwise, he should have many children and grandchildren.So I don't even want to change the fate of fourth master, even if it's because of unintentional contact, I can't bear the result anyway.

Although everything in the past was moving forward according to the historical track, but before I saw the fourth master wearing a yellow robe, all the tiny details could mean changes.

Therefore, I closed my strict self in the mansion, and even hoped that others would forget that there is such a person as me.To the outside world, he only declared that he was in poor health and needed rest. Of course, Yin Xiang had no objection. I was his weakness, and Emperor Kangxi and Concubine De naturally knew it well. Summons are all reduced or exempted, but the daily rewards are still only more or less.

In the past three years, I just took care of the housework in the mansion and took care of Yinxiang and Qiang'er's daily life, but I never asked him anything about the changes in the court.In Yinxiang's eyes, the original selfishness made him think that I am really a woman who is knowledgeable, reasonable and content with my duty, and I am also doubly gentle to me.I could only smile wryly in my heart, the reason why I didn’t ask was not because I didn’t know, but because I knew too much, and now it’s September of the 61st year of Kangxi, and that day is not far away.

I don't know why, it seems that every three years, just like the tide of the full moon, some major events will inevitably happen, so watching the days slip by day by day, I always feel a little uneasy deep in my heart, but I can't know what it is for what.

I have felt dizzy from time to time in the past two years. I invited the imperial doctor to come and said that it was because of my weak body and disharmony of the five internal organs. Feel dizzy.

I don't know how many blood-enriching medicinal materials and supplements Yinxiang got for me, but it didn't work much, but it didn't get any worse.The imperial physicians all thought it was because I lost too much blood when I gave birth, but Yinxiang and I thought it was the result of the poison that night.But in any case, anemia is not a fatal thing, and I don't take it too seriously, I just insist on exercising every day.

As soon as I wrote a few lines by the window, I felt dizzy for a while, and I closed my eyes too busy, waiting for this dizzy feeling to pass. "Er Niang, Er Niang", Qiang'er's crunchy voice came from outside the house, I quickly rubbed my temples, and then put down the brush in my hand, when the curtain was lifted, a small figure was swaying ran in.

Xiao Tao'er's eager voice came later, "Oh, my little ancestor, you walk slowly, it's a good thing if you fall." Qiang'er was brought up by Xiao Tao, and I think sometimes she is stronger than me. nervous.Qiang'er threw herself on me regardless, I smiled and picked her up and put her on my lap, before I could speak, a big emerald green grasshopper suddenly appeared in front of my eyes.I was startled, couldn't help but dodged back, and took a closer look, only to find that it was a fake made of grass leaves and painted.

Qiang'er saw me hiding, so she giggled, "Er Niang, don't you look good", I tapped her forehead lightly, funny and angrily, "You, you scared me, where did this come from?" , Qin Shuner gave it to you"?After finishing speaking, I helped her straighten her messy braids. Her jet-black hair was thin and limp. I couldn't help kissing her, and Qiang'er shrank her neck and giggled.

This child is very energetic, running around all day long, curious about everything, and affectionate when he meets people, his temperament is becoming more and more like Yinxiang, not as quiet as he was when he was a child.Sometimes I can't help thinking that this child is not like me except that I was born, but every time I think of this, I feel a strange feeling in my heart, as if it is a kind of relief.

"No, my brother gave it to me." Qiang'er shook her braid and said crisply, "Oh, your brother Hongli is here." .In recent years, I have not been out of the gate, and I have not entered the second gate. Only Niu Hulu will bring Hongli to visit from time to time, chatting with me for entertainment.It's just that what she said were all short-sighted things from the parents. She never mentioned fourth master, Nala family, and concubine De, and I never asked about it.

"Greetings to my aunt, you are auspicious", a clear voice sounded at the door, I looked up through the curtain raised by the eunuch, Hongli was standing at the door with a smile, seeing me looking at him, he bowed and called me Qianer.The future Emperor Qianlong is 11 years old this year. The [-]% new Panlong jacket fits perfectly, the suede boots are spotless, and the dark braids are combed slickly. Obviously has the demeanor of an adult.

I waved to him with a busy smile, put Qiang'er down again, and watched Hongli approaching me steadily. I reached out and touched his side face, and asked with a smile, "When did you come, where is your mother?" , Hongli smiled, and replied clearly, "Er Niang may have just got off the car, and she met my younger sister at the door, so Er Niang asked me to follow my younger sister in first." Yes", he grinned with a toothy smile, which was childish.

Hearing Niu Hulu's arrival, I stood up and prepared to go out to meet her. Although I am naturally quiet, it is very important for my mental health to have a friend to talk to.I turned my head and glanced at Hongli. Before I could speak, he smiled and said, "Auntie, I'm taking my younger sister to play. You and Er Niang go talk."

I smiled and nodded, and watched him bow his head and say softly to Qiang'er, "Brother, will you take me to play?" This mother pulled Hongli and turned around and walked out.

Seeing the two children, one big and one small going out hand in hand, I couldn't help but shook my head amusedly, "Hey, what are you thinking with that half-smile?" Niu Hulu's laughter came into my head I looked up, and she was leaning against the door and looking at me with a smile.Seeing that Hongli was going to take Qiang'er out, she gave some instructions in a low voice before letting them go. I waved to Xiao Tao'er who was standing outside the door, and she hurriedly followed.

"Sister, sit down quickly." I smiled and greeted Niu Hulu to sit down. She walked over with a smile and leaned on the pillow, and asked the maids following behind to put all the big and small bags. On the kang table, they were ordered to go out.I reached out and took the cup over, poured a cup of ginseng tea for her, and said with a smile, "Why do I bring so many things every time I come here, and I don't have any favors to pay you back."

Niu Hulu smiled "chuck", picked up the cup first, took a sip, then wiped the corner of his lips with the handkerchief, and then said with a smile, "Look at what you said, it seems that I brought something here, It’s just to ask for favors from you.” I grinned, “Isn’t it a matter of face, you have to pretend, or you might not take it with you next time.” Niu Hulu’s “chih "He spat lightly, smiled and gave me a gouging look, then turned around and picked up a bamboo basket from the table.

"That's your favorite green tea. It was sent to fourth master by the former governor of Jiangsu and Zhejiang. Fujin rewarded us a few. I know you like it. I missed you first. You can tell someone to put it away later. That's enough." You've been drinking yours for a while," she said with a gentle smile.

Hearing the word Siye, I couldn't help being a little startled, as if these clear teas were sent to Siye's house by others for various reasons, and every time Niu Hulu brought them to me, Sometimes I also wonder, does fourth master also like to drink green tea, or is it because I like...

"Here, let's go on." Niu Hulu looked at me in a daze, stretched out his hand in a funny way, and handed it to my eyes. I hurriedly stood up and took it with both hands, thank you.The taste of this clear tea is bland, Yinxiang never likes to drink it, but I like its somewhat bitter taste, since Niu Hulu knew about my hobby, he would bring me some every time he came.

"By the way, last time you said that the tape you made for me is ready?" Niu Hulu asked me as if suddenly remembering something. The tape, with a smile in his mouth, said, "It's been made a long time ago, and I'm waiting for you to come and get it."

On Hongli’s birthday last time, I used a red string to weave a lucky one for him, and told him it would bring good luck. The child put it away happily, and for some reason Niu Hulu saw it and said it was interesting. , let me make one for her too, it's just a little thing, I naturally agreed.

I reached out and handed it to her, and saw that she held it in her hand with a smile and looked at it for a while, but she didn't put it on and put it in her sleeve instead. I couldn't help but feel a little strange, but I couldn't ask.Niu Hulu took a sip of tea indifferently, then talked about Zhang San Li Si, and invited me to live in the nunnery for a while.

Although she already has a precious son, Hongli, she has not changed her habit of going to the nunnery to eat vegetarian meals regularly. When she saw that I wanted to evade, she gave me a sideways look reproachfully, "Let's go in a carriage and stay for a few days. When I came back, there was no one else there, just us mother and child with us, let’s talk about what you are doing at home.”Seeing my noncommittal look, she jokingly asked, "Could it be that you are afraid that the Thirteenth Master will not be willing"?I smiled, "That's not true, let's ask him first at night."

"That's all right." Niu Hulu smiled, looked at me with concern and said, "The nunnery is blessed by gods and Buddhas, there is no harm if you go more often." I nodded dispensably, knowing in my heart The implication of her words is obviously that the nunnery is very good at praying for children. If I want to have a son, I should pray more.

I don't know whether Hongli was obtained by Niu Hulu's pious prayers, but Qiang'er is no less than a miracle to me, but if a miracle occurs twice, it is not a miracle. With a wry smile in his heart, he grinned, and brought the topic over without a trace.

Until she sent Niu Hulu away, she still told me to send her a letter as soon as possible. I nodded indiscriminately, thinking of saying something to Yinxiang at night, saying that he didn't want me to go, and I didn't want to. Well, thanks to Niu Hulu's kindness, at this juncture, it's better to have one thing more than one thing less.

Unexpectedly, when I talked about it at night, Yinxiang actually said yes, saying that it is not good to watch me bored at home all the time, and he has no time to accompany me for a walk, so I just let me relax by taking advantage of this, not to mention the nunnery If it is really effective, then he is also wishing for it.

While helping Yinxiang untie the loops on his cloak, I picked up the braids that got in the way and asked him to take them away first. I jokingly asked, "Aren't you afraid of getting Zhao Fengchu again?" Yinxiang's His back stiffened.I thought I had overplayed my joke and hurt him again. Just as I was about to explain how to turn around, Yinxiang smiled and turned around and said to me, "Don't worry, you are forcing Lao Ba and the others to do it now, and they won't do it." It's over." After speaking, he threw his braids behind his back, and sat down on the grand master's chair.

I walked over and poured him a cup of ginseng tea, and then I turned around and sat down drinking tea, Yinxiang wrinkled his nose, squinted at the tea in my cup and said, "I don't know what's so good about that thing , tasteless and bitter", I smiled slightly, "Bitter is also a kind of taste, it is still a special taste to taste it carefully."Yinxiang looked at me disapprovingly, "What a pleasure that is", and after finishing speaking, he stroked his forehead with his hand, looking tired.

I put down the cup, walked quietly behind him, and gently massaged his forehead and cervical spine with my fingers. He raised his eyes and smiled, grabbed my hand and kissed him, then let go of his hand and closed his eyes, and asked me to continue giving He kneads. "You'd better go, after a while, it won't be so easy to go out", after a while, Yinxiang said quietly.

I stopped my fingers and looked down at him, Yinxiang slowly opened his eyes and looked at me for a while, the black eyes were still shining brightly, but the bloodshot eyes could not be covered by anything.He took my wrist and turned it around, brought me in front of him, and leaned against his arms half-sitting like that.

He looked at me thoughtfully, but his eyes seemed to penetrate me and landed in an unknown place, but his fingers just subconsciously wrapped around a strand of hair from my temples, entangled, let go, entangled, let go ... I lowered my eyes, and leaned against him quietly, tightly, and there was only so much help I could give him now.

"The emperor's health is getting worse and worse, and he hasn't gone to court these days. This is already..." Yinxiang said in a low voice, I looked up a little, and he was looking down at me with worry in his eyes , with heaviness, helplessness, but also a glimmer of light.I sighed softly, "Sooner or later, people will have such a day, as long as they don't come to that day, they feel that they regret living in this life."

Yinxiang was slightly startled, looked at me steadily for a while, then suddenly grinned, "You're right", after finishing speaking, he kissed me heavily on the mouth, then shouted outside regardless, asking Qin Shun'er Hurry up to prepare a meal for him, "I know you have eaten, can you have another meal with me?" He lowered his head and asked me with a smile.

I pretended to think about it, and then said, "Okay, it's better to hold on than to be hungry." After speaking, I smiled and blinked at him. Yinxiang smiled, and the heaviness in his eyes seemed to disappear in an instant. Just slouching on the chair, smiling with good eyes, watching me direct the girls to serve dishes, but the expression on his face has a touch of real ease.

Seeing Yinxiang who had returned to normal during the dinner, talking and laughing non-stop, I was also laughing all the time, but I suppressed a kind of sadness in my heart. Although Yinxiang was smiling, the feeling in my heart was the same.What kind of place is the imperial palace, so that the son can only see hope after the death of his father. How many people's emotions will be distorted by the word "zhen".

I don't think that what I just said can solve the dark knot in Yinxiang's heart, it's just an excuse for people to escape the moral bottom line.That dark thought that people can't speak out, but really buried deep in their hearts, may be like a blunt knife, cutting every prince's heart bit by bit, but they have no time to lament their father's grievances. The imminent death is just because none of them know whether they will have tomorrow if they fail...

No matter what the reason is, since Yinxiang also agrees with me going out now, I followed Niu Hulu's family obediently the next day, and I heard Qiang'er's chirping and quacking laughter along the way. In order to accompany her, Hongli, He didn't even ride a horse, but sat in the carriage properly.

Niu Hulu and I chatted and laughed casually, watching Hongli's good-natured Qiang'er rubbing on his body, but there was no trace of impatience on his face, just smiling dotingly, accompanying Qiang'er play.I gave up the idea of ​​studying Emperor Qianlong's real personality a long time ago. Since I couldn't see through him when he was seven years old, I don't even need to figure it out in the years to come.

But no matter what, as long as he shows real affection to Qiang'er, then Qiang'er will definitely have a strong guarantee in the years to come.Although I don't know what Niu Hulu's mother and son really wanted to get close to me, but thinking that my purpose of getting close to Niu Hulu was not as pure as Bai Xue, I felt relieved. I have worked hard to give Qiang'er has planted a tree, so she might not be able to enjoy the shade, but it still depends on herself.

When the aunts in the nunnery saw Mrs. Niu Hulu and me, they greeted Niu Hulu and me with smiles, and they were busy. In my opinion, their attitude towards us was more respectful than the gods and Buddhas they enshrined every day. some.Niu Hulu's family is really devoted to my Buddha. It takes at least an hour to listen to the aunts' lectures. Although I really want to break out of the door, I can only smile and be speechless in the end.

But such a quiet day has not passed two days, Qiang'er may be because she went to a new place to play too crazy, and did not sleep well at night, so she coughed and had a high fever the next day.Niu Hulu wanted to send someone to invite the imperial physician, but I thought it was troublesome and was afraid of wasting time, so I coaxed Qiang'er to go home with me first.

"Sister Min, I'm really sorry I missed your serious business." I looked at Niu Hulu who came back with me apologetically, she smiled and shook her head lightly. The pendant on the head is also constantly swinging, "Look at what you said, if you say that, because I asked you to come, Qiang'er was exposed to the wind, then my crime would be even greater."

I patted Qiang'er who was already asleep in my arms, "Actually, you don't have to come back with me, you..." "Okay, I can't let go of seeing Qiang'er like this, how can I calm down and eat fast?" Those who recite the Buddha's name, please stop nagging." We smiled at each other, and Niu Hulu reached out and touched Qiang'er's forehead lightly, "It's okay, the heat is not too bad."I looked down at Qiang'er's burning red face, feeling pain in my heart. Niu Hulu saw that my complexion was not good, so he patted my hand in understanding. After two hours, the capital city was suddenly in sight. After entering the city in a short while, the sky was gloomy, and there were already fewer pedestrians on the road.I rejected Niu Hulu's wish to send me back. Seeing that she couldn't resist me, she could only let me get out of the car, and said with a smile that she would let me stay with her for a few more days next time, and said that after the imperial doctor left, someone would take me to the hospital. Give her a letter so you don't have to worry.I quickly agreed, and then I watched her carriage go towards Lama Temple. Hongli poked his head out and looked at us.

I got into the carriage, the little girl guarding in the carriage indicated that Qiang'er was still sleeping, I nodded, and tightened the quilt for Qiang'er, "Manzi, let's go back", I said softly.The little eunuch outside responded with a sound of a whip, the horses continued to move forward, and the guards also got on their horses and moved forward one after another, and someone went back first to notify.

After another half an hour, the outline of Thirteen Baylor's Mansion could be seen. "Go and tell Manzi, just go in through the corner door, don't make people turn their backs." I gave a low order, and the little girl hurried to the door, lifted the curtain and said something. "Understood", the little eunuch responded simply.

After walking for a while, the corner gate has already arrived, and someone has already come out to greet her. The car turns three times and enters the second gate. When I get out of the car, Xiao Taoer has already run over, stretched out her hand to take Qiang'er, her face has changed color, I He hurriedly comforted her in a low voice, "She's fine, she's just coughing and feeling a little hot, have you gone to the imperial physician?"
"Yes, I sent someone to invite you as soon as Guihe came to report the letter." Xiao Tao'er replied respectfully, and then said, "The Thirteenth Master hasn't come back yet, Qin Shun'er is also going today." "Yeah" I nodded, and walked towards the inner room. Xiao Tao'er behind me kept saying that she shouldn't go, and said that the atmosphere in the nunnery must be bad, and then scolded Xiao Tao who followed me out. Girl, she said that she doesn't even know how to serve, and it only took two days to make little princess sick.

I shook my head helplessly and amusedly. Except for not daring to say anything wrong with me, she blamed everything she could. Before I could enter the door, a little eunuch ran over and called, "Sister Xiaotaoer ", then saw me at a glance, and hurriedly greeted me, I waved casually and was about to enter the door.

It was Xiao Tao'er behind me who asked, "Has the imperial physician come?" I stopped when I heard this, and turned around to look at the little eunuch. He hurriedly replied respectfully, "Fu Jin, the imperial physician has come, but it's not Dr. Lin, who usually treats our family, is not on duty today. He is a newcomer. His surname is Fang, and the servant does not know him. Please come back, but the servant still wants to come back and ask if he can go again. The family invited Dr. Lin to come, and just now I seemed to see Director Qin's back, but he didn't care, maybe the servant made a mistake, and was afraid that he was in a hurry, so he hurried in and put things first."

"Well, I got it", I nodded, and then turned back to Xiao Tao'er and said, "You take Qiang'er to the ear room to show the imperial doctor, just take the prescription and don't grab the medicine first, understand", "Yes, I understand ", Xiaotao nodded, hurriedly led a group of girls, and took Qiang'er away. "Did you say that Qin Shun'er has come back?" "It looks like it, but I don't know where it is. Should I look for him?" I thought about it, "No, you can bring the imperial physician in first. ", "Zha..." the little eunuch slapped a thousand children, and retreated too busy.

Thinking about it carefully, the transcripts of the pulse records left by Qiang'er when she saw a doctor were all placed in Yinxiang's study, and that place is not easy for others to rummage through. After thinking about it, I'd better go there by myself.Our bedroom is not far from the study, there is only a corridor connected to the side entrance of the study yard, usually only Yinxiang and I walk around, and the servants will naturally go to the main entrance of the courtyard.After walking not far, I turned around the moon gate, and it was Yinxiang's study room. Before I got there, I couldn't help slowing down, and a candle was lit in the room. Could it be that Yinxiang really came back.

I was thinking about speeding up my pace, when I suddenly saw Qin Shun'er coming out from inside, just as I was about to call him, I saw him walking quickly towards the gate of the courtyard, waved away the little eunuchs who were waiting at the gate, and then He carefully closed the courtyard door.

For some reason, my footsteps became more and more hesitant, and finally stopped when I reached the side door. Who came, could it be Fourth Master, otherwise why did I keep it so secret, I couldn't help but frown.But no matter what they say, I don't think it's a good idea to appear in front of Yinxiang and Fourth Master at the same time. Since Yinxiang is back, I can ask anyone to go to Qin Shun'er to get the pulse.

Just as I was thinking, Yinxiang's voice came out from inside the room, a little hoarse and depressing, not as clear as usual, "You have worked hard these years", I was taken aback when I heard it, could it not be Si Ye, but I don't want to care so much , it doesn't matter who I am.Just as I was about to turn around and walk back, a voice rang in my ears like a thunderbolt, "Since the day the fourth master saved the life of the servant Ama, the slave's life belongs to the fourth master, so why bother."

Qingyue's baritone voice, every word and every sentence is as clear as saying, I will never forget this voice - Zhao Fengchu.If it was said that knowing that he was from the Eighth Master at that time was like a thunderbolt rang above my head, but now that I know that he is actually from the Fourth Master, the thunderbolt has already hit me hard.

My head suddenly became dizzy, and my body shook a little. I hurriedly stretched out my hand to support myself by the door, and subconsciously covered my mouth with the other hand. "Your sister," Yin Xiang seemed to hesitate, "I didn't know she was your sister...".Zhao Fengchu was silent for a moment before speaking again, his tone was low but full of firmness, "Master Thirteen, don't take it to heart, this servant has already told Fourth Master, ever since Xiang'er thought about it, this servant has After persuading her, it turned out to be her own wishful thinking, and she was trapped in a cocoon." Zhao Fengchu's voice became lower and lower.

For a moment, I just felt that the world was shaking, Xiang'er, who is he talking about, could it be... I couldn't help but lean my head on the cold porch pillar, and I only felt buzzing in my ears, but Yinxiang was a little bit The dull voice still floated over clearly, "Fortunately, Xiaowei..." He suddenly stopped talking, coughed, and said, "Fortunately, nothing major happened in the end. That's fine, put her in the abandoned prince's place, at least let her relax, and there will be someone there who will take care of her."

Yinxiang sighed slightly, but it sounded very clear in the silent night sky, "How many times she has served us for several months and helped us with a lot of things, and besides, it's for you. Master will definitely not let her die, and now she is the only one left in your family." "Yes, I understand it in my heart. Don't worry, she has served you and Fujin for a few months, it is her good fortune." Zhao Fengchu's voice suddenly became hoarse.

"Okay, let's not talk about this, it's rare for you to come to me today 'on an errand', what's going on with the eighth master, isn't the old fourteen's visit every three hours? Is there any movement in the mansion?" Yinxiang asked in a lighter tone, and Zhao Fengchu replied respectfully, "Yes, according to my servant, the Fourteenth Master is now The situation in Beijing is also a little uncertain, but the eighth master stopped him a lot of news, no matter what, they are not monolithic anymore, although the fourteenth master... ".

I turned around slowly, and walked back slowly. I was shaking a little because of dizziness, but I didn't fall down. I walked back step by step. In the distance, my legs suddenly softened and I sat on the ground.

(End of this chapter)