sing love song for you

Chapter 20 Exclusive Memory
I hope you are my exclusive memory

in the bottom of my heart
no matter how ugly others say
now i have things
it's you who gave me half of the love
——Chen Xiaochun
"Are you crazy? You are making fun of your own career." The manager's first words after taking Qin Nuo home were hysterical roars.

Xu Shi had been educated at the police station, but Qin Nuo had already calmed down. Facing the manager's accusation, he lowered his head knowing that he was justified.

This made the furious manager scold even more vigorously, "Qin Nuo, Qin Nuo, who are you not good at fighting with? You fight with Duan Yifeng. Do you know how difficult it is to find him to make an album? A while ago you put the scandal With such a big commotion, the upper management of the company is already very dissatisfied. I put up a life and death statement in front of the boss, and I will definitely make the new album popular, so I suppressed the matter. Now it’s all right, you ruined it all! What do you say? What to do? Tell me what to do?"

"It's not that I caused trouble on purpose." Qin Nuo finally couldn't help it, and argued, "Duan Yifeng came to the door by himself. I was playing games well..."

"What? You're playing games again. At this juncture, you still have the mind to play games?"

"..." Being caught again for no reason, Qin Nuo stopped talking and pretended to be dead in front of the manic manager.

The manager scolded him for a while, but seeing that he didn't respond, he finally stopped chattering and took out his mobile phone to make a call.

"Hello, Teacher Duan?"

Qin Nuo was drowsy at first, but when he heard the manager's phone call, he suddenly woke up with a jolt, and stretched his neck to listen carefully.

"I'm so sorry! Teacher Duan, our A Nuo is young, ignorant, too impulsive, and not smart enough to do things. Please don't mind if anything offends you..." The manager began to speak humbly in front of Qin Nuo face to apologize.

Qin Nuozai listened carefully, and in the end he only admitted that he was young, and everything else was bullshit.

You have no brains, and your whole family has no brains.

"Qin Nuo!" The manager suddenly said seriously, "Come here and answer the phone."

"Me?" Qin Nuo's eyes widened in disbelief, but he didn't move.

"Come here!" The manager was angry, and threatened with a look of "Come here, I promise I won't hack you to death".

Qin Nuo finally compromised, took the phone, and said "Hello" angrily.

"Where is Xiaofan?" Duan Yifeng's steady voice came from the other end of the phone.

"I don't know." As soon as Qin Nuo opened his mouth, he was thumped by the manager next to him.

"Let me ask you one last time, where is Xiaofan?"

Although he didn't see anyone, Qin Nuo could completely imagine the chilling eyes from his tone - this man is crazy and can do anything.

"Going back to my hometown..." He finally couldn't bear the pressure and said it.

Qin Nuo silently repented in his heart: Ye Fan, Ye Fan, it's not that you are a younger brother who doesn't help you, who made you such a fierce man, younger brother, I can't handle it at such a young age!

In this way, after learning the address of Ye Fan's hometown from Qin Nuo, Duan Yifeng drove there overnight to look for Ye Fan.

By accident, while Duan Yifeng rushed to Ye Fan's hometown non-stop, Ye Fan also packed his things and boarded the bus back to S City.The two just missed on the highway connecting the two cities, and neither of them knew the excitement in the other's heart at the moment.

Yes, Ye Fan was very excited, so excited that his heart almost jumped out.

In her ordinary and mediocre life, she has only been brave twice, one is when she ran to confess to Duan Yifeng on a rainy night, and the other is now.

I don't know when it started to rain outside the car. The weather was exactly the same as when she impulsively ran to Duan Yifeng's house to confess her love that day, but her mood was completely different.This time, she was even ready to sever all ties with him, as long as he said a word to end, she immediately let go, and let go willingly.

In such a decision, Ye Fan rushed to S City.

She came back so suddenly, without anyone notifying, she rushed to Duan Yifeng's apartment in a hurry.

Since Duan Yifeng has been living in the hotel during this time, there are no reporters staying at the apartment, and Ye Fan is familiar with the guard, so she arrived outside Duan Yifeng's house very smoothly.

Everything around her was still so familiar, the man she once loved to the core was at the other end of the door, but Ye Fan suddenly became timid, and the hand that pressed the doorbell stopped in mid-air.

She hesitated, not only because she was afraid of facing Duan Yifeng, but also because she was afraid that after ringing the doorbell, she might never see this man again in her life.In the end, she was still reluctant, he was her first man after all, she used to think they would be together forever, but now...

Don't think so much anymore, short-term pain is worse than long-term pain.She gritted her teeth, took a deep breath, and slammed the doorbell.

"Who is it?" A pleasant female voice came from the door.

Ye Fan was stunned, and the courage he had worked up with great difficulty disintegrated in an instant.

She wanted to run subconsciously, but the door was already open.

"Ye Fan?" Si Qingya opened the door, looking in surprise at the young girl who had turned around and was about to run outside.

She looked thin and ordinary, her hair was wet from the rain, and at first glance she was too ordinary, but for some reason, a voice in Si Qingya's heart told her that this girl was Ye Fan.

Ye Fan's footsteps stopped, she didn't expect that Si Qingya would recognize her at a glance, she lost her senses for a moment, she turned her head and answered in a low voice, but she didn't dare to look at Si Qingya directly.

It really is her!Si Qingya smiled softly, "Come in and sit down quickly, you're already drenched."

"No! I...I..." Ye Fan couldn't bring himself to find Duan Yifeng after all, "I'm fine, I'm leaving first."

"Yifeng is not here." Si Qingya said suddenly, stopping Ye Fan's footsteps, "Because I am here, it is not convenient for him to live here. But, don't you want to talk to me? I have a lot to say to you Woolen cloth."

Her tone was so friendly that Ye Fan couldn't help but relax her vigilance. At the same time, she also heard other meanings in Si Qingya's words.

Duan Yifeng didn't live with her?Aren't they former lovers?Is there any untold story among them?Many questions hovered in Ye Fan's mind.

Suddenly, Xiaoyu poked his head out from behind Si Qingya, saw Ye Fan, and shouted in surprise, "Mother Xiaofan, mother Xiaofan, you finally came to see me, I miss you so much, come in quickly!"

"..." Before Ye Fan recovered from the extremely embarrassing atmosphere, he was dragged into the room by Xiaoyu.

Ye Fan's arrival made Xiaoyu very excited, and kept calling "Xiaofan's mother" and "Xiaofan's mother", which made Ye Fan extremely embarrassed and his face flushed.

"Mother Xiaofan, why haven't you come to see me recently? Have you had a fight with your father? If your father bullies you, you have to tell me, and I will teach you a lesson for you. Mother Xiaofan, I really miss you, you Don't leave Xiaoyu behind, okay..."

The child's questions were always so direct that people didn't know how to answer them. Ye Fan could only perfunctory while observing Si Qingya's expression secretly.

Si Qingya clearly sensed Ye Fan's embarrassment, knelt down and said to Xiao Yu, "Xiao Fan's mother got wet just to see you, what should Xiao Yu do?"

"I'm going to get a towel for Xiaofan's mother." Xiaoyu said loudly.

"What else?" Si Qingya persuaded.

"What else?" Xiaoyu scratched his head, looking at Ye Fan with big bright eyes.

"I still have to pour tea for Xiaofan's mother, and bring something delicious for Xiaofan's mother." Si Qingya said with a smile.

"Yes, then I'll go now. Xiaofan's mother, sit here and wait for me obediently!" Xiaoyu turned around and gave Ye Fan a big smile, and then ran into the house in a hurry.

"Xiao Yu really likes you." After watching Xiao Yu enter the room, Si Qingya turned her head and gave Ye Fan a kind smile.

"Well, it's...isn't it..." Ye Fan was amused by Xiao Yu and relaxed a lot, but when he heard Si Qingya talking to him, he immediately felt guilty again——Xiao Yu is indeed a good boy, and she also Very close, but after all, the woman in front of him is his biological mother.Ye Fan felt that it was normal for Si Qingya to have thoughts.

Si Qingya didn't show any concern, she sat down and said softly, "Xiao Fan, can I call you Xiao Fan?"

"Well, of course." Ye Fan nodded hastily.

"I'm Si Qingya, you can call me Sister Qingya. I'm Xiaoyu's mother, you must have already guessed it?"

Ye Fan nodded, and said weakly: "Hello, sister Qingya, I... I have seen your photos..."

"Don't be nervous, just chat with me. I've been in there for too long, and I'm a little uncomfortable coming out. I just want to find someone to talk to!" When Si Qingya said this, her expression was very calm , Ye Fan was confused.

At this time, Xiaoyu came out with a towel and food, "Mother Xiaofan, these are the snacks that my father bought for me. They are delicious. Try them soon."

"Xiaoyu, good boy, mom has something to say to Xiaofan's mother, why don't you go to the room and play by yourself for a while?" Si Qingya coaxed Xiaoyu patiently.

Ye Fan watched silently from the side. Obviously, Si Qingya is a good mother. From the time she entered the door to now, her words and deeds give people a feeling of being knowledgeable and sensible. There should be very few men in this world who would not do it for such a woman. Interested?But what did she mean by what she just said?

Just when Ye Fan was puzzled, Si Qingya had already convinced Xiao Yu.

"Xiaofan's mother, you have a good chat with your mother, but you can't sneak away, otherwise Xiaoyu will be very sad, very sad, very sad."

After getting Ye Fan's reassurance, Xiaoyu finally walked into his room reluctantly.

"Xiao Yu is not exaggerating. When you were not around, he was really sad and kept telling me about you." Si Qingya turned her head and said to Ye Fan with a smile.

Ye Fan was taken aback, and his face flushed immediately, "Actually I...I..." She didn't know what to say.

"Actually, you are very kind to Xiaoyu." Si Qingya continued her words, "I can see that you really love Xiaoyu and Yifeng. For so many years, letting Yifeng help me take care of the child is really true. It's not easy, I've been worried about them inside, and I feel relieved when I see you."

"Inside?" Ye Fan finally couldn't help asking.

"Yifeng didn't tell you, did he? I was sentenced to eight years in prison for manslaughter, and I was just released a few days ago."

Si Qingya's words were so natural and direct that Ye Fan's eyes widened, thinking that there was something wrong with his ears.

Manslaughter?sentencing?These words were too incompatible with the gentle and generous woman in front of her, and she couldn't connect the two.

What Si Qingya said was the truth, and it was a long story.

Back then, Duan Yifeng and Si Qingya were studying in the same high school, along with Shao Jun, Wang Shuai, Luo Xiaozhong and others.Due to the like-mindedness, everyone secretly formed a band. Duan Yifeng is the guitarist, Wang Shuai is the bass player, Luo Xiaozhong is the drummer, and Si Qingya and Shao Jun are the lead singers.

The young people played very well, and they often got together to practice, and Si Qingya was also the school belle, and a ignorant affection soon developed between the young people.

Duan Yifeng fell in love with Si Qingya, and under the instigation of Wang Shuai and Luo Xiaozhong, he carefully planned the confession ceremony. Unexpectedly, on the day of the confession, they saw Shao Jun and Qingya hugging each other. Only then did they know that the two had been secretly dating for a while without telling others.

Si Qingya said that Duan Yifeng's personality at that time was completely different from what he is now. When he learned that the person he liked was caught by his good brother, he was very annoyed. Regardless of Wang Shuai and others' dissuasion, he rushed forward to fight Shao Jun.Both of them were full of blood, you punched and kicked each other, and finally even broke into the police station.

In the end, this incident caused a lot of trouble. The school punished several people involved in the fight and ordered the band to disband.Shortly after the band disbanded, Duan Yifeng went abroad to study under the arrangement of his adoptive parents, and he went for five years.

After Duan Yifeng left, many things happened.

Shao Jun ignored the school's ban and continued to secretly form a band, but was eventually expelled from school when he was discovered by the school.However, Shao Jun is a person who is very persistent in music. After leaving school, he did not give up his pursuit of music. He took Luo Xiaozhong to continue to form a band, first sang in bars, and then took some commercial performances intermittently, and got mixed up in the circle. Small achievements, and even have a large number of crazy fans.

I have to admit that Shao Jun is extremely talented, just like the brightest star in the night sky, even in the deepest darkness, it can still emit blazing light.

No young girl can refuse such a man, and Si Qingya is no exception.They fell in love, even though parents and teachers tried to stop her, Si Qingya followed Shao Jun without hesitation, became his band's manager, traveled around with him, and even performed abortions for him several times.

Si Qingya said that ever since Shao Jun's band became famous, he has changed. He didn't go home all day and all night. She loves so much that she loses herself, and she is devoted to Shao Jun.When Duan Yifeng returned from studying, she had already married Shao Jun, and she devoted herself to helping him in his career.

However, things did not go as expected. The commercialization of the music scene intensified, and more and more small bands were disbanded because they could not survive. The situation of Shao Jun's band was not optimistic either.He had the idea of ​​going solo, and went to the music company for several interviews, but in the end he didn't hear back. He was depressed day by day, drinking and buying drunk all day and night, and giving up on himself.

Seeing this, Si Qingya couldn't bear her husband's depravity like this, so she secretly asked Duan Yifeng for help.

"At that time, Yifeng's career was still in its infancy, and he couldn't help much, but I could feel that his personality was much calmer, and he was no longer as impulsive as before. He didn't blame me and Shao Jun. During our most difficult time For a while, she provided us with a lot of help." When Si Qingya said this, her eyes were full of gratitude.

"Later, I had Xiaoyu, and I didn't want to give up on this child, so I insisted on giving birth to him. After Xiaoyu was born, Shao Jun seemed to realize that he was a father, and began to change. He went out to find a job, gave birth to him My living expenses and money have become richer. I thought he had finally changed, but I didn't expect..." Si Qingya paused when she said this, and it was obvious that it was a very painful memory for her.

It turned out that Shao Jun was infected with drugs while playing in the band. After the band disbanded, he lost his source of income. After Xiao Yu was born, the pressure was even greater. So he decided to take the risk and embarked on the road of drug trafficking, and soon It was discovered by Si Qingya.

"After learning that he was dealing drugs, we had a big fight. He refused to listen and wanted to go, so I took a knife from the kitchen and tried to stop him. He came over and took the knife from me, but I refused to let him go. , just missed it for a while..." Si Qingya couldn't continue, she lowered her head and wiped away her tears.

Painful memories are like scabbed scars, a small touch can cause heart-piercing pain, not to mention Si Qingya's memories are so dark and unbearable.

"Sister Qingya, the matter is over, you better stop talking." Ye Fan tried to comfort her.

"No." Si Qingya raised her head, shook her head, and showed a pale smile, "There are some things, if I don't say it now, I will never let it go. If you and Yifeng are together, you have the right to know the truth. Always Since then, in order to protect Xiaoyu, he kept silent about this matter and suffered a lot of grievances. I can no longer be so selfish."

Si Qingya continued: "At that time, I was just out of confinement, and after killing Shao Jun by mistake, I wanted to surrender, but I was afraid that Xiaoyu would be taken to an orphanage without his parents. I didn't want him to be in such an environment when he was born. In the end, I decided to ask Yifeng for help and entrust Xiaoyu to him."

Since she voluntarily surrendered herself and cooperated with the public security organs to capture Shao Jun's accomplices, Si Qingya was not sentenced to a heavy sentence, but was sentenced to eight years in prison for manslaughter.

These years, Duan Yifeng has not broken his promise, and has been taking care of Xiaoyu like his own son.In order to prevent Xiao Yu from having any shadows in his heart, he did not tell anyone about Xiao Yu's biological father. He only declared that Xiao Yu was his and Qing Ya's child, and even chose to hide it from Ye Fan.

"Yifeng didn't hide it from you on purpose. For me and Xiaoyu, he sacrificed a lot. I don't want to see him again because our mother and son miss our own happiness. You will come to him because you can't let him go. I hope You give Yifeng a chance, and you are also giving yourself a chance. He is really a good man worth entrusting for life.

After listening to Si Qingya's words, Ye Fan was full of thoughts and couldn't speak for a long time.

She thought about many possibilities, but she never thought that this was the truth.She has always thought that she is the most wronged, but she never expected that Duan Yifeng is the one who bears more burdens.

Si Qingya is right. Duan Yifeng is a good man. He is stable, forbearing, affectionate, and talented. From the time he met him to the present, his words, deeds, and actions have deeply attracted her, making her fall in love with him so much. Extricate oneself, love so righteously that there is no turning back.

But the better he is, the more afraid she is, afraid that her ordinary self is not worthy of such a perfect man.She has already tasted the pain of loss and cannot bear to lose again.Will he still be the same after all he's been through?Is his old love for Si Qingya unforgettable?Can they go back to the past?

Just when Ye Fan was in great distress, his cell phone rang suddenly, and it was from his hometown.

"Xiaofan, a man named Duan Yifeng came to see you, he seemed very anxious, do you want to tell him where you are?"

Ye Fan did not expect that when he came back to find Duan Yifeng, Duan Yifeng actually went to find her. Although the two of them did not meet by mistake, Ye Fan was still deeply moved when he heard the news.

"I'm with Sister Qingya." Ye Fan tried to calm himself down, but the hand holding the phone still couldn't help shaking slightly, "Sister Qingya has already told me everything."

"I'll be right back, you wait for me, and you're not allowed to go anywhere." Duan Yifeng didn't hear Ye Fan's voice for half a month, and Duan Yifeng wished he could appear in front of her immediately and hug her into his arms.

"Wait a minute." Ye Fan paused, then said weakly, "Be careful on the road, don't drive too fast."

"wait for me."

"Well, I'll wait for you."

After a few simple words, Ye Fan hung up the phone.

She knew that there was no need to explain too much about the misunderstanding between them. That man was rushing all the way back to find her at this moment, which was enough to explain everything.

"Sister Qingya, I would like to take the liberty to ask you a question." Ye Fan looked at Si Qingya hesitantly.

"You said."

"You... you treat Yifeng... and..." Ye Fan was a little hard to say.

Si Qingya already understood her thoughts, and asked with a smile: "You want to ask me if I have ever loved Yifeng, don't you?"

Her directness made Ye Fan quite embarrassed, but she really wanted to know the answer to this question, "Yifeng is really good to you, I can understand..."

"Stupid child." Si Qingya interrupted her, "I am very grateful for everything Yifeng has done for our mother and son, but love and gratitude cannot be equated. I took a wrong step 15 years ago and paid a heavy price for my choice Maybe you will think that I regret it, but in fact I have never regretted it."

"You chose that person, you...don't regret it?" Ye Fan didn't understand why Si Qingya said that?
Si Qingya nodded, "Shao Jun is my first and only man in my life. Loving him took up my entire youth, and all my love and hatred were devoted to him. That was a moment I will never forget. Feelings, if there is no him, I may never experience what is called vigorous love in my life, let alone such a lovely child as Xiaoyu. Everything has a cause and effect. I have thought through it in the past eight years. In fact, there is no right or wrong in love. Only love and pain is called life, isn’t it? Xiao Fan,” Qingya said here, watching Ye Fan seriously, “I ask you, if I let you go back to the beginning, would you still love me? Choose to be with Yifeng?"

Back to the beginning?Ye Fan nodded without thinking.

At this moment, the scene when she saw Duan Yifeng for the first time appeared in her mind - the sunshine at that time was just right, the leaves were swaying with the wind outside the window at that time, there was a sweet flower fragrance in the air at that time, The dust of the dust all carries the taste of love.

At that second, she was moved by this man; at that second, her life was changed; at that second, she never regretted it.

"Sister Qingya, I understand what you mean, thank you."

Although today was the first time the two met, Ye Fan was grateful for every word Si Qingya said.

"Thank you? I really should thank you. With you here, I don't have to worry about Yifeng. After Xiaoyu and I leave, Yifeng will depend on you to take care of him."

"You are going to go, where are you going?" Ye Fan asked in surprise.

"In order to marry Shao Jun, I severed the relationship with my parents. The two elders were heartbroken and went to settle in Australia. Over the years, I have missed them very much. They also came to see me several times and agreed that they would come to me as soon as I came out. Take Xiaoyu to live with them in Australia. As a daughter, I never fulfilled my responsibilities as a daughter for one day, and I want to try my best to make up for the rest of the time."

"Then...does Xiaoyu know?" Ye Fan was quite worried about Xiaoyu.

He has been with Duan Yifeng all these years, and suddenly wants to leave Yifeng, will he be willing?

"I'll talk to Xiao Yu about it. He's a sensible kid. I believe he will understand me."

Ye Fan could understand Si Qingya's thoughts, she was Xiaoyu's biological mother after all, and it would be great for mother and son to live together.

But thinking of breaking up with Xiaoyu, Ye Fan couldn't help but feel a little disappointed.During the time she spent with Xiao Yu, she had completely regarded him as her own child, presumably Xiao Yu would not accept separation so easily, right?

The fact that Xiaoyu was about to leave made Ye Fan's mood fall into the bottom, time passed by, and the waiting became more and more unbearable.

At this time, Duan Yifeng was driving to his home in a hurry.

The way home is not long, but it is not short.Along the way, his mind was full of the moments when he was with Ye Fan, her innocence, her kindness, her tenderness, the courage of love bursting out of her thin body, and the love he had never experienced in his life. I've been touched.

With such emotions, after three hours of running around, Duan Yifeng finally arrived at the downstairs of the apartment.He didn't even park the car, opened the door and rushed into the pouring rain.

This situation, just like Ye Fan summoned his whole life's courage to confess to Duan Yifeng that night, the same weather, the same sweat, and the same heartbeat, the difference is that this person is replaced by him at this moment.This time, he will never let go.This time, he wants to walk hand in hand with her for the rest of his life.

Hearing the door opening, Ye Fan stood up nervously.

After looking forward to the reunion for so long, she even imagined countless scenes of the reunion, and finally waited for this moment, but she was at a loss.

The door opened, and Duan Yifeng stood outside, panting slightly, his whole body was dripping with water vapor, water droplets fell from the tip of his hair, and flowed down his cheeks, whether it was rain or sweat.

He didn't come in in a hurry, and stood at the door, staring at Ye Fan affectionately with his obsidian eyes, meeting her eyes.

Si Qingya understood their feelings at the moment, and left the living room knowingly.

Only the two of them were left, and the surrounding air seemed to freeze. In just a few seconds, it seemed as long as a century. Countless images of them together flashed in Ye Fan's mind like a movie film.She had a lot of things she wanted to say to Duan Yifeng, and thousands of words lingered in her heart, but in the end they only turned into silent tears, bursting out of her eyes.

Tears dripped down and touched the softness of Duan Yifeng's heart, he couldn't hold back anymore, rushed into the room, and hugged Ye Fan into his arms.

He hugged her so hard, as if he wanted to rub her into his body.This girl carried all his love, he wanted to hold her like this, for the rest of his life, and never let go!

(End of this chapter)