Peking University "poor" students

Chapter 13 Extra Story: I have been waiting for this day for 14 years
When I saw her for the first time, she was secretly putting a small caterpillar into the hood of the kid next to me, and I found out.She stared wide-eyed as if threatening me, but I ignored her and didn't remind the unlucky guy.

At that time, my parents were about to divorce, and my grandma sent me to another kindergarten in the town temporarily in order to make me less affected.I am very precocious, probably forced out by the noisy environment of adults.I like to stay in a quiet place alone, play with stones, and look at the sky.My mother said, I have mild autism, let me be happy.But didn't she herself look in the mirror and say to be happy every day, and she never really became happy?
I am a transfer student, so I can safely enjoy others' unfamiliarity and indifference to me.Because of the unfamiliarity, no one said I was a freak, just out of the group.I don't want to blend into this noisy environment, I just want to enjoy being alone.

The next day she came over and grabbed my clothes and asked me to be her soldier. The reward was that she could lend me her most precious submachine gun to touch.I still ignored her, I don't like noisy people.

On the third day, she put the caterpillar in my rice bowl, looked at me proudly and smiled.I grabbed the caterpillar, put it in her bowl, and stirred it, but still didn't say a word to her.I admit, I was provoking her.After I was done, I also felt like I was bored.She didn't speak, just stared at the rice bowl in a daze.Then, she raised her chubby hand: "Report to the teacher!"

I thought she was going to expose my feat and looked at her coldly.Girls like to make snitches the most, she was just being a bit of an idiot, she reported it face to face.

The teacher walked over slowly wearing pointed high heels, and said sweetly, "Zhou Linlin, what's the matter?"

"Report to the teacher, the uncle who cooked today didn't wash the rice, there are small worms in it." She said as she picked up the wriggling worm with chopsticks, and held it high in the air for the teacher to see.

The teacher was a young girl who had just graduated and was assigned. She was so frightened when she saw the living insects.The children surrounded by the crowd didn't understand the situation at first, but when they heard the teacher's screams, they all panicked and burst into tears.

Inadvertently, the two of us worked together to clean up the teachers and classmates.

Before school, I waited for my grandma to pick me up.I remember the weather that day very clearly. The torrential rain before the typhoon completely paralyzed the traffic in the town.Kindergarten teachers have notified all the family members who can notify, which means that the school can vacate the beds of boarding children and squeeze them, so parents should not take the risk of picking them up.

But I still stubbornly stood under the eaves of the school gate and waited for my grandma.When I was young, I relied on my grandma the most, because I thought my parents had abandoned me and didn't want me anymore.If the grandmother who loves me the most doesn't want me anymore, I have nothing to miss.

The rain was thick and dense, and through the thick rain curtain, I waited anxiously.The teacher persuaded me to go back, saying that my grandma had been notified, and it was inconvenient for the elderly to come here, so it would be good for me to stay here for one night with peace of mind.I suddenly became very self-willed, crying and shouting to see my grandma.Because I am afraid.

She came over, put her arms around me and said, "It's okay, it's okay, I won't sleep with you tonight. Don't be afraid, don't be afraid." After she finished speaking, she hummed a song, "Shake, shake, shake until Grandma Qiao, grandma calls me a good baby..."

I gradually stopped crying, wiped my face, and squatted under the eaves to watch the rain.Her childish and genuine voice was like the rain, digging holes in my heart one after another.

In the evening, she really shared the same bed with me.She certainly didn't expect that when I officially entered her life a few years later, we would start in the same room.But at that time, she was running outside to tell her friends that she liked a boy.Unfortunately not me.

On the bed, she hugged me like a doll.I smelled a nice soapy scent on her, as fresh as she was.She pouted and told me that in fact she was not with me, she was also afraid, especially when the typhoon caused a power outage, if someone let her hug her, she would not be afraid.

She also thanked me secretly, saying that if she becomes a man in the future, she will marry me, and if I become a man in the future, she will marry her.I don't know if she meant "becoming" in the next life, but did she get my gender wrong?If the eyelashes are longer and the eyes are bigger, will she be so confused that she can't even tell the difference between male and female?I just didn't expect that more than ten years later, she would still propose to me in her unique way, and I still didn't know how to face it.

I envy her every time she casually says those words.I'm not a sensitive person, but every time I hear her say this, I get nervous, and she's happy in her own kingdom.She controls my thoughts so easily that I feel out of control, so I envy her.Wen Tao is right, I am a coward, I have too many worries, and the mood of worrying about gains and losses makes me lose one opportunity after another.If I could learn her eccentricity, when she proposed to me, I would agree, and immediately drag her to the Civil Affairs Bureau to register.In this way, will she not play jokes in front of me in the future and mess up my love story?

She was very obedient when she was sleeping at night, she just hugged me, which was different from the girl who kicked the quilt around.I don't know if it's because someone hugs her that she will be more obedient?However, when she woke up in the morning, her hair was still standing up like a chicken coop.She looked at me in a daze, like looking at an alien.

For the next few days, I didn't enjoy being alone like I used to.I followed her and watched her annoyed at the toy gun she had stolen from a neighbor and then destroyed.At that time, I thought it would be great if I became very capable and could troubleshoot a lot of problems.Later, I fell in love with computers, and when I helped others solve computer bugs one after another, I could always think of her who was frustrated at that time.

I have been preparing for so many years before she asked me to help her buy a computer.At that time, she was so stupid that she didn't know what to do when she faced the sudden porn on the computer, and then she had to brag about herself and pretend she was someone who had experienced it.hehe.

Afterwards, she invited me to the cafeteria for dinner, and I was a little annoyed at the way she fawned over Ru Ting timidly.Every time she shouts that she is an invincible King Kong beautiful girl who is not afraid of anything, but in front of other beauties, she will always show inferiority complex.This kind of inferiority made her deliberately please and cater to.I don't like her like this.It doesn't matter what she looks like, even if she has a bag on her face, she is still the one in my heart, and it has nothing to do with whether she grows into a fairy or a village girl.

She argued with me on the bus, saying that she pays attention to the beauty of the soul and hates fake things.I really wanted to agree with her, but when the words came to my lips, they turned into ridicule.Probably I have also become stupid, and being with her tends to reduce IQ to a very low level.Having said that, since I bought her the computer, she never asked me to fix the computer or anything, which disappointed me a lot.If I had known this, I would have made some bugs in her computer.I think so, am I becoming an idiot like her again?
I have been in this kindergarten for less than a month.My mother felt that the teachers in that kindergarten were not qualified enough, so she transferred me back to the original kindergarten.Adults never understand what children want. In the kindergartens of the 80s, there was no difference in the number of teachers. My mother was just making things up.At that time, my mother was too lonely and always wanted to do strange things.

I disagreed with life and death at the beginning, but I have already adapted to this place, and the sudden life with the group made me feel novel.Catching caterpillars to make pranks with her, and charging and fighting with her, I had a very comfortable life.I'm not even that dependent on grandma anymore.Every time my grandma came to pick me up, I felt a little bit reluctant.But when her parents came to pick her up, she dropped everything and threw herself into their arms.She really doesn't fit in a place made up of walls.So when I was in high school, I was a little surprised when I saw that her grades were No. 20.Am I underestimating her or underestimating the power of God?

Adults are always stronger than children.Not long after I changed schools, I moved again, farther away from the kindergarten in the suburb.In my new kindergarten, I also slowly began to learn to fit in and get along with other children, but I could no longer find such a happy mood.But no matter what, I gradually grew up, and gradually became more cheerful, willing to make friends with others, such as my neighbor Xiaoxi, and my neighbor Ru Ting who moved in later.

Xiaoxi is a sensible elder brother. He knew what he wanted to learn and what he wanted to do when he grew up.When we were in elementary school, our ideals were to lie to adults and say that we wanted to be scientists and mathematicians. In fact, we didn’t know what scientists and mathematicians actually wanted to do.However, Xiaoxi has decided to become a doctor, an angel in white who holds a scalpel to save lives and heal the wounded.However, on the eve of the college entrance examination, because his beloved woman gave up her dream of studying medicine and chose economics, he just wanted to fight side by side with her.As a result, the woman flew to the United States with other men, leaving him alone to remember and mourn.Will I be like Xiaoxi?
Ru Ting liked to follow me since she was a child, just like I was willing to follow behind my girl back then.Although I should be sensible in elementary school, I still put the caterpillars in Ru Ting's rice bowl as a prank.Ru Ting was so frightened that she kept crying, her throat became hoarse from crying, and I didn't want to apologize either.Grandma beat me for the first time because of Ru Ting. Grandma said that our family owed Ru Ting's family a big favor.If it wasn't for their family's help, maybe I wouldn't even have a father.I hate this practice of adults. We remember the goodness of others, but we can't humble ourselves because of it.Every time I interact with their family respectfully, it makes me tired.I put the caterpillars in Ru Ting's bowl, and I challenged Ru Ting in my own way.If Ru Ting faced the challenge head-on like she did, maybe we would really become in-laws like Grandma hoped.Therefore, my she will always be a unique her.

When I was in elementary school, I didn't even see her. I thought I would never see her in my life.I recalled her eyebrows, which gradually became blurred.I'm no longer sure if she has a mole on her forehead, or if she likes to pout.Only when she put her arms around me and said "It's okay, it's okay" still reminds me.I almost thought that I was going to forget this period of history, thinking that it was just an episode in the long river of life.But why do I feel sad and hopeful for no reason when I hear someone sing "Shake, Shake, Shake to Grandma Bridge"?

When I was in junior high school, my parents reconciled, and our whole family moved to the new community.Although Shanshan next door is several years older than me, she has become one of my good friends.He likes to collect all kinds of submachine guns. He said that when he was a child, he was always robbed of submachine guns. When he saw a submachine gun, he wanted to snatch it back weirdly.He blamed his neighbor for being too brave when he was a child, which made him have eccentricities.She was the first thing I thought of at the time, and she also had a unique emotion for submachine guns at that time.I blurted out and asked him what the name of the person who snatched his submachine gun was.My heart was inexplicably excited, as if it had been buried for many, many years, and something that had been buried very deep was suddenly about to break through the ground, and suddenly it was about to see the light again.

When Shanshan told me her name, my heart beat like a drum.I insisted on asking him to show me the picture of that person, and Shanshan looked at me like a weirdo.I know I'm not normal, but there's nothing I can do.She is right, maybe feelings are a kind of obsession.Because of this obsession, I got stuck in this quagmire, and I haven't pulled out until now.I looked at her in the photo, smiling heartlessly and wearing her elementary school uniform.The front teeth just fell out, and the new teeth haven't grown yet, so she smiled presumptuously at Shan Shan, whose face was covered in mud.Very good, very good, I took the photo away like a baby, and put it in the innermost layer of my wallet. When I feel the most uncomfortable, I always pull it out to look at it, like a tranquilizer, like a requiem Soup, I feel at ease after reading it.

From Shanshan, I learned about her junior high school.

I couldn't suppress the thoughts in my heart, and went to find her secretly.After thinking about it for so many years, I will definitely not recognize her, but I still asked for personal leave from the school and went to her school stubbornly.I anxiously searched for her classroom.Just as get out of class was over, the classroom was crowded with people, and I was nervous not to let go of any figure who came into my sight.But I still haven't found her.I thought sadly, am I chasing an illusory phantom?Maybe she is no longer the one she was then, and I am just living in a dream that I wove.When the class bell rang and I was about to disappear from here, I saw a sleeping face facing me outside the classroom window.The breeze blew by, and her bangs fluttered gently with the wind. The lines of her face were not as firm as when she was a child, but a little softer.The class bell didn't affect her at all, but her eyelids trembled slightly.I was worried she would wake up, but she fell asleep so peacefully, like an angel.I stood aside tremblingly, that distant dream was so real in an instant, I just stretched out my hand.Her deskmate shook her awake violently, and she woke up in horror, seeing everyone around standing up to greet the teacher, she also stood up in a panic, and after sitting down, she began to rummage through boxes and chests to find textbooks.I really want to laugh, I want to touch her hair close to me, I want to hold her in my arms. For the first time, I clearly understand that this is called heartbeat, and this is love.

Wandering around her school, I suddenly felt that the whole sky became clear and the whole school became kind, as if the place where she stayed was emitting golden light like heaven.

Later, I went to her school by bicycle every week, sometimes I could see her from a distance, and sometimes I just wandered around the school.I have feelings for this school even more than my alma mater.I know when the first magnolia blossoms bloomed in the school, on which tree a swallow's nest was newly built, and when she laughed heartily and when she was sad alone.Occasionally, when I went to eat in their cafeteria, I would encounter her muttering and wolfing down a chicken leg and a small plate of braised pork every day.So when she invited me to eat in the cafeteria, I ordered these dishes.She swept it away as usual.

To my grief, she didn't recognize me, even though I stood in front of her, looking at her with burning eyes.She just walked by quietly, and then secretly said to the person next to me: "Wow, did you see that handsome guy?" After the person next to me nodded, she said, "You are so calm when you see the handsome guy , I thought I had yin and yang eyes, and I was the only one who saw the handsome ghost."

I laugh.She always has a way of making me laugh.

Later, when she told me brain teasers and bad jokes, I wanted to laugh, but I still pretended to be angry, and she nervously admitted her mistake.Although the way of admitting it is a bit strange, it is indeed her unique way.

She's always going to have a way of making me angry, even when she's messing around with the kissing thing and using everything from flying bugs to cuckolds.I threatened her not to drink in front of others. I was afraid that she would ask someone else to kiss her after she lost her composure.I can't get used to her.

I watched her get drunk twice, and every time she got drunk, it tossed me hard.

Before she got drunk for the first time, Ru Ting just asked me to help her carry drinks back to the supermarket, but I didn't expect to run into her.At that time, she and Xiaoxi ate together every week.I know they can't be together, and sooner or later she has to face that reality.But I can't tell her that I understand the feeling of heartache.I'm still jealous of Xiaoxi, jealousy is a bad thing.When I saw her get angry at Ru Ting, I also got angry.Probably evil fire is contagious.I insisted on asking her to apologize, without giving in at all, as if her giving in would make me feel better.But when she really backed down, bowed and apologized and went to pay the bill, I just stood there in a daze.

When I saw the beer on the counter, saw her frantically looking for her wallet, saw her crying foolishly, and saw her grotesquely running away, I knew that I would never want to hurt her.Because while hurting her, it will only hurt myself more.I may not be her conjoined twins, but she is my heart.

I frantically called her, the phone rang over and over again, but she didn't answer.I was so anxious to hit the wall.Thinking of her embarrassed appearance, I feel uneasy like never before.I even called Xiaoxi and asked if he had heard from her.Xiaoxi said blankly that she didn't know.I was even more flustered. At that time, I began to hope that she could find Xiaoxi and cry, it was better than hiding alone.

When the phone was connected, my voice was trembling. When I asked where she was, I would only repeat where she was.She was right, I became a repeater.When I met her, I lost my normal logic and couldn't think clearly.It's really a bad habit.I drank cans of wine with her, and listened to her talk about her love, her love at first sight, and her loss.And I can only be an audience, an audience whose heart is bleeding but cannot groan.

When I carried her home, she lay on the bed and kept crying, calling her mother for a while, and going home again, making noises like a child.I had to put my arms around her: "Okay, okay, big deal, I'll sleep with you." Then I sang to her "Shake, shake, shake to Grandma's Bridge", I thought I was such a fool, only use what she gave I left something to comfort her.I have run out of other options.

When she was drunk for the second time, the scene was out of control.I never expected that she would kiss me so recklessly. After the kiss, she lay down on the table like a normal person, leaving me standing there like a fool.I smelled the soapy scent of my childhood again, smelled the fresh scent, even though the alcohol at the time was about to cover it up.She hangs on me like a monkey, whispering love words in my ear that only I can hear.The instinct of a man makes me a little impulsive, but she still wants to take off my shirt without knowing it, completely ignoring Shanshan who is stupidly standing next to me.

I asked Shanshan to take a taxi back to the hotel by myself, and then coaxed her out of Haidilao.There is a hotel next to Haidilao, and the welcoming lady walked towards us enthusiastically, which made me run away with her on my back in embarrassment.

In her state, no taxi driver wants to pick up our work.I wanted to call my friends and ask them to drive to pick me up, but I was afraid that she would go crazy.

I just walked a few steps and stopped a few steps, the summer evening wind was blowing towards us, and my girl was on my back.I'm very happy.Sometimes she gnawed at my ears and sometimes pulled my hair. I was made very uncomfortable by her, so I had to yell at her: "You will regret it if you do this again." She was silly and happy, patted my face and said: "I think I know you, maybe a long, long time ago, before we have any memory, we knew each other." My heart became soft and warm, and she could do whatever she wanted.Originally, I wanted to spoil her. If she doesn't make trouble, how can I spoil her?

When she arrived at the dormitory, she sang and danced loudly, and wanted to tell the whole world that she found a handsome guy.

I don't mind her saying that, I can't wait for it to become a fact, but I want this fact to happen when she is awake.

When I was in junior high school and advanced to high school, I insisted on going to my grandpa's school.Because I'm sure she's going to go to that school.We are finally under the same blue sky.She chose liberal arts, I chose science.I know that high school is not the time for romance, and I don't want to influence her, nor do I want to be influenced too much, even though I am ready to go to any college with her.

One day I saw her exclaiming in front of the school's honor roll that my grades on the list were like the obituary column. I wanted to laugh. She always said something lightly and wittily.In the cafeteria, I saw her eating meat in big mouthfuls, and then her face was covered with acne the next day.I think she is going to grow in the direction of disability.If she continues to be disabled, no one will want her anymore, so I have no choice but to pick her up and take her home.

In the third year of high school, her grades fluctuated up and down.Before each mock exam, she used a small poker fortune-telling to predict her exam results.She hit 20 at her best, 120 at her worst with a severe fever.That day her father came to school to persuade her not to take the exam, but she insisted on taking the exam instead.Probably because of the teacher's stimulation, her enthusiasm was aroused. Every day, seeing her holding a book and reading, her expression was exactly the same as that of tutoring computer class.When the results of the college entrance examination were released, I didn't expect her to be able to enter Peking University because she did so well in the exam.I wonder if God has somehow helped me get the best of both worlds.

After the college entrance examination, her mother called me, and I was so flustered that I didn't know what to answer, I just said yes.I am grateful to my aunt for entrusting her daughter to my care, and secretly hope that she will entrust her daughter to me for the rest of her life.

On the train, I was so nervous that I didn't dare to look up. I foolishly turned my pen, foolishly looked at magazines that were useless, foolishly cold as ice.I don't know what tone and posture I should use to talk to her freely, so I can only pretend to be arrogant, just like when I first met her.I will wait for her in college, waiting for her to let me put down the armor that only exists for her again in her unique way.

She happily asked me: "Excuse me, are you Fang Yuke?"

I waited 14 years for this day, 14 years for her to call my name.From the original ignorance and ignorance to the current rock-solid, I am on the stage alone.And now I want to officially invite her, ask her to come on my stage, ask her to dance with me.

The song doesn't stop, the curtain doesn't thank, until the end of my life, my dance partner is still her.

(End of this chapter)