Marriage pet: marrying a thousand gold

Chapter 231 Concentrated Dream (Su Ningxue) (5)
Besides, is it too late to regret now?

Su Ningxue, who never believed in love, fell in love with Jin Zhaodong, but in exchange for a marriage in name only.

I just smiled faintly, but in fact, I have nothing to regret. At that time, I did still love him.

I have never disclosed to my mother the fact that Jin Zhaodong and I have not performed the ceremony of husband and wife so far.

But before Ningqiu and her mother left, she suddenly turned her head and said to me, "Sister, I heard that your good friend Huihui from college is married, do you know?"

Huihui?That delicate and timid girl immediately appeared in my mind.

Seeing the puzzlement on my face, Ning Qiu moved her lips, looking hesitant to speak, and finally shook her head: "It's nothing, I just heard someone mention it a few days ago, so I'll tell you."

Thinking about it later, how insensitive I was in terms of emotions back then, why did I not understand Ning Qiu's hints, and stubbornly bumped my head against the south wall?

That night, when Jin's father said at the dinner table that he would transfer Jin Zhaodong to XJ to build a base, I saw relief on his face, and this emotion made me tightly clenched the chopsticks in my hand.

His expression constantly satirized my feelings that were wasted. He turned out to be so eager to run away from me.

On the day he left, I didn't go to the train station to see him off, the house was deserted, only I hid in the room that belonged to us on the grounds of being sick, looking at the cold furniture, thinking——

It's good that he's gone, at least he won't be bored with each other.

It is not impossible to live alone in an empty house.

Every night in the dead of night, I look at the dark ceiling and wonder, is the widow whose husband died the same as I am now?
Sometimes I thought I would hide under the blanket and laugh, but when I smiled, I wet the pillow towel.

He raised his hand to wipe it off, only to realize that tears had already flowed down his face.

I don't know what I'm crying, why I'm crying, or if it's just a way of expressing my emotions.

The head of the Jin family treated me well, as long as it was my request or what I wanted to do, he would nod and agree without saying a word, and he never even made it difficult for me about the issue of children.

Yes, what's the embarrassment, it's not my fault, is it?

I often sit on the balcony on the second floor, and occasionally I hear my mother-in-law handing in her handkerchief and talking about how my son treats his daughter-in-law well, but I can't help but sneer.

Even though Jin Zhaodong is good in every way, there is only one thing——

He does not love me.

Four simple words, but enough to destroy the image of his beloved wife in my heart.

If I hadn't heard the sudden explosion in the base on the XJ side, I think I would have lived in such a peaceful way, eating alone, sleeping alone, and guarding the huge house alone.

If I hadn't seen the bloody bodies being carried out on TV, I wouldn't have impulsively carried a small luggage bag and used it for nearly a month to go to Tianshan Mountain.

At that moment, I realized that sentence, whoever falls in love first in love is doomed to lose.

I fell in love with Jin Zhaodong first, so I was doomed. This hard unrequited love is the fetters of my life. It made me lose myself, lose my freedom, and become a fool!
Su Ningxue has always been a proud person since she was a child.

The moment I stepped on the crowded and dirty train, I made a bet with myself——

If he is still unmoved this time, then I will no longer live with my obsession.

I will leave him, leave that cold and empty home, and leave this loveless marriage with Jin Zhaodong.

The affluent life of ample food and clothing made me pampered since I was a child. Although I am not as domineering as ordinary young ladies, I can't suffer too much.

I can't bear the bad smell in the car you pushed me, and even wanted to get off the car when I arrived at the next station, but hesitated when I saw the fiery red hibiscus flower on the side of the road.

After all, I did not turn back the same way, carrying my luggage, no longer lingering.

The two-day and two-night drive made me exhausted, and my neat clothes were covered with dirty dirt, so I got off the train unkempt.

The family didn't know that I was looking for him, and I didn't tell him that I was here.

Originally, I was here to gamble with one breath, and I didn't want to be ruled out before the game opened.

Su Ningxue is still not brave enough in the face of feelings!

I also didn't expect that the time to buy a bag of oranges could allow a thief to successfully steal my money.

When I stood on the street of WLMQ with a bag of oranges in my hand, looking at those strange and indifferent faces, I wrapped my arms tightly in the cold night, and my body trembled slightly because of the cold and fear.

I have no money, nothing but a bag of oranges!

If I had sent a telegram home, I should have been out of trouble immediately, but I didn't.

I stood in front of the telegraph office for a long time, and finally chose to go to him with that bag of oranges.

Maybe I will die in this chaotic place, maybe I will be kidnapped by human traffickers, maybe I will go to the police when I am really desperate...

There are countless possibilities, but I dare not think about it, maybe I can find him soon.

Because I know very well in my heart that he doesn't love me, so any hope for him has become a delusion.

I can no longer remember how I survived those days when I had no money, and I ran alone at the foot of the Tianshan Mountain with that bag of oranges. Even I can’t believe the situation when I think about it.

Maybe even God couldn't stand it. I dangled in its sight. After nearly a week of hard searching, I found out the address of the base where Jin Zhaodong was.

Maybe it's because of God's pity on me, when I arrived at the base in a state of embarrassment, I finally saw a little bit of emotion in Jin Zhaodong's eyes.

He was slightly injured in the explosion, and his arm was broken because of the jump out of the way. I looked at his hand, which was immobilized by bandages and splints, and I didn't know how to comfort him. I just handed over my own orange.

The evening in Tianshan was very bright, and the bag of oranges was very clearly visible under the light.

The oranges are all shriveled, shrunk into a small ball, and the water has evaporated along the way, and now there are only some peels left. Looking at the things I have worked so hard to bring up, I feel a little depressed.

I put away the oil paper bag in embarrassment, couldn't help biting the corner of my lips, trying to find a place to throw the orange.

Jin Zhaodong suddenly took a few steps towards me. He took off the scarf around his neck and wrapped it around me. He also unbuttoned his coat and took my thin body into his arms.

(End of this chapter)