surrogate wife

Chapter 126 For me or yourself?

I have always felt that before everything gets better, we will always experience some unhappy days. This period of time may be very long, or it may be just waking up, but no matter how much time it takes in the middle, it is just for this good day. All feel worth it.

I also know that most people who drink too much are drunk, and when they are drunk, they can't taste the taste of wine. Some of them drink cup after cup to relieve their worries, and some just regard it as a coherent action, so they stagger Drinking one cup after another, even if you are delirious, you don't want to let go.

And my feelings for Chen Haotian are like this, in fact, it is very clear that the feeling of liking is just right, overindulgence will only lead to the brain being dazzled by reason.Every time I want to question why he doesn't give me the affection I want, I can't help but ask myself, am I greedy?
Isn't there such a saying, just try it out!

Thinking about it, I suddenly became a little slumped, and I just lay in his arms silently. His shoulders have always been broad, and I always feel at ease when leaning on him.

His legs shrank slightly, and I immediately jumped up and asked, "Are your legs sore?"

He smiled, then stretched out his hand to pat it, and when I saw it, I leaned over and rubbed it for him twice.

His eyes were full of tenderness, and those eyes were also full of joy. He moved his hands and wanted to hug me, but found that the posture seemed a bit wrong, so he shrank back.

I thought it was because I pinched him comfortably, so he also smiled. I pouted and raised my hand and patted his leg heavily, and then said angrily, "Didn't you just say that you want me to explain it to you? How can I pinch it for you?" Twice your legs and you will forget!"

He laughed out loud, went to the bed, put his hands behind his head, and said, "Xinxin, Gu Xue is my guilt, it has nothing to do with love!"

I sat closer, glanced at him, and simply lay down too.He freed up one hand for me to use as a pillow, and I moved my body to lean on it politely, without looking into his eyes, I turned sideways and lay on his chest.

I asked him, "Then how does Gu Xue treat you?"

Chen Haotian was silent for a while, then sighed, and his voice was a bit heavy, he said: "In the end, I hurt her, I didn't think too much about it at first, I just felt that we got what we needed when we were together, but she moved In my heart, I also know that she treats me well, and she has worked hard for me in the past few years, and then I proposed to break up with her, and she refused desperately, and then started to help me run business!"

"Business? She works in your company?" I didn't understand.

He shook his head, his eyes reflected some helplessness, then he turned his head and said in a deep voice, "Have you ever heard of sex deals?"

I said "Ah!", and after thinking about it, I immediately blushed and became dry.I stretched my neck, glanced at him secretly, then exhaled, and said slowly: "I've heard of it, but...!" After thinking about it, I still didn't say it, but roughly summed it up: " It should be similar to the unspoken rules in the entertainment industry!"

He rubbed my fingers, touched my fingernails all the way to the back of my hand, he moved his body, and then held me tighter, he said: "It can be said that they are all hidden, but they are not related to entertainment. The circle is different." After speaking, he turned his head to look at me, he seemed to hesitate for a moment, but he still opened his mouth and said, "Gu Xue is helping me do this!"

I was dumbfounded, which can only be described as dumbfounded.That woman who is so beautiful that I'm jealous, Gu Xue, who exudes an extraordinarily noble temperament, I never imagined that she would do this!

I shook my head and couldn't figure it out. I hurriedly sat up, but still couldn't believe it. I said, "Are you fooling me? Is she... isn't she your woman?"

Chen Haotian also sat up with me, gave a wry smile, and then twitched the corners of his mouth at me, he said: "There are no feelings in the business field, only interests. When I first met Gu Xue, frankly speaking, it was because I was lustful and slim. Ladies, gentlemen are good, but I don’t like to play around, I can sleep with women, but I never go to whores, so I simply hired her, and she also said that I was the first!"

I blinked my eyes in disbelief, so I asked him: "You mean, Gu Xue was still a virgin when she was with you?"

"No?" He seemed to know that I misunderstood the meaning, so he explained, "She has talked about friends, but this kind of nurturing relationship with me is the first and only one!"

I couldn't help shaking, thinking, I really can't accept his explanation.It turns out that the nurturing relationship can be described in this way, and I can't help but be deeply impressed by their principles.

At the beginning, Chen Haotian went to the end smoothly. He told me: "Almost from 05, Gu Xue came into contact with my business. It was also a coincidence. I took her to Hangzhou to play, and there happened to be a I wanted to buy land, so in order to save time, I took her with me. The jokes among us at the wine table were naturally big. Not sure, so I asked someone to find the upper floor, and Gu Xue was there that day."

He lit a cigarette and smoked it again, but only took a few puffs, then choked it out, and then continued to say to me: "Gu Xue, you have seen, dignified, noble, and beautiful, after a few glasses of wine, the other party is a little Drunk, I pulled Gu Xue to toast, and the man said that he was not as lucky as me to be accompanied by such a beautiful woman. After saying this, Mr. Xue, who helped us build relationships after the show, encouraged us to go to Bathing City, and then told me That old official must have taken a fancy to Gu Xue!"

"And then they...?"

"No!" Chen Haotian replied firmly, he said: "After all, she is the woman who has been with me for more than a year. Even if I don't love her wholeheartedly, I can't give her to him because of the dignity of a man!"

"What happened next?" I asked impatiently.

He sighed deeply again, and said in a deep voice: "Later, I spent money to find someone else, but the old official didn't want it anyway. He just said that he fell in love with Gu Xue, and then I ignored it, and then another After the week, someone told me that this land might be bought by someone else. At that time, I was in a bad mood, and I didn’t know how Gu Xue knew. There was a quarrel, and I was very annoyed, so I told her that I wanted to buy it. After breaking up, she disappeared for more than a week, and when she came back, she brought me a land subscription book!"

"Since that time, Gu Xue seems to have regarded this kind of transaction as a way to detain me. I also understand that without her, I would not be able to go so smoothly. Many things in the business world can be easily discussed. Too much, she even took a bed photo for me to threaten my opponent!"

I stared at him with almost no expression on my face, and patted my face for a long time before I could calm myself down.What he said frightened me deeply. Apart from being unbelievable, I felt that the man I loved in front of me seemed to be something I couldn't see through in my whole life.

As Liu Han said, his age and experience are beyond my imagination. There must have been countless things that I can't understand but are real in him. His actions, his dedication, and his rewards are all I don't know what was mixed in, but it was at this moment that I felt afraid of him for the first time.

His eyebrows twitched slightly, looking at my expression with some displeasure, he asked me: "Did you hate me after hearing that?"

I bit my lip and shook my head, but I didn't know how I felt.

Chen Haotian smiled bitterly, and then said: "I know you will definitely feel disgusted by me, but Xinxin, it's not that I'm bad, but this society itself exists, without me, other people will also In this way, you are still young, it may be because you have not stepped into the society, and one day you will see through this society like me!"

"No matter how hard I see it, I won't take everything as a deal, I..." I was about to say something, but when I thought about the fact that I had chosen surrogacy for money, I stopped talking return.

At that moment, I didn't know how to deal with it. At that moment, I suddenly found that my values ​​and outlook on life were shaken quietly.

He still felt that I was innocent, and he told me: "This society is actually a society where people cannibalize people. In this world, power and money are the most essential reasons that induce human beings to commit crimes. I did not commit crimes, I was just fighting for my life." In life, I don’t want to use many methods and tricks, but if I don’t use them, I will be eliminated. Xinxin, you have never lived the kind of life when you are trampled under your feet. If one day you can understand, Then you won't feel anything about it!"

I didn't want to listen anymore, so I interrupted hastily, he glanced at me, sighed helplessly, and didn't say any more, just took my hand and assured me: "Xinxin, Gu Xue and I have nothing Love, it's just that she has paid too much for me over the years, and I also have a heart, sometimes I don't want to be too cruel to her!"

"So you took her out without telling me?"

He looked at me tiredly, and said helplessly, "How could I take her out? It was a real business trip!" He was afraid that I wouldn't believe it, so he spoke seriously again.

"Didn't I tell you before that I got a company? Shuxian also helped me invest. Now for the divorce, I want to vacate the business she is in charge of as much as possible, so I have to do a good job in the transfer project. This time the operation team It’s from Taiwan. Later, it introduced me to a boss in Beijing. The boss had also cooperated with me before. Regarding the financing of the project, the financing was settled because Gu Xue stayed with him for three days, so this time I did it. Take Gu Xue with you!"

When the truth was told, I lost my usual expectations. I listened silently, and I couldn't even shake my emotions.

Chen Haotian thought I was still angry, so he went on to say: "I have really talked about breaking up with Gu Xue, and I also agreed that this is the last time, and she also agreed, and only made me one request, that is, to talk about this Let me accompany her for a week before closing the deal!"

"So you accompanied her first, and then asked her to help you negotiate business?" I still couldn't understand, and my tone was somewhat blunt.

He just explained to me: "Xinxin, that cooperation is very important to me. I did this to quickly get my company on the right track and divorce Shuxian!"

I don't know what to say, his words are for me, but when he really said it, I always feel that he is for me!
(End of this chapter)