falling angel

Chapter 14

Sitting across from him and looking at him may be a kind of dream for ordinary girls.How can there be such a beautiful boy in the world.His skin is fair and flawless. Although there are some bruises under his eyes, it still doesn't affect his shocking beauty.Such long eyelashes, so delicately embellished the pride and sadness in his eyes.Very straight nose, very angular lips.He stretched his legs, sat under the tall locust tree and gently rubbed the wounded place. For some reason, I suddenly felt a little ashamed.

"It seems that every time I see you, there will be a bloody disaster, huh?"

I didn't speak, just looked him in the eyes: "You deserve it!"

He slightly raised the corners of his mouth and smiled, quite disapprovingly.

"why are you laughing?"

He lazily raised his eyes and met mine: "Why can't you get along and talk to the people around you calmly? When I see you, you always look so arrogant and domineering. It reminds me of an animal , an animal that is strong on the outside but dry on the inside.”

I looked back at him sharply and provocatively, and warned him not to say anything that would hurt me.

He shook his head: "Crabs and lobsters are sensitive and fragile animals. When they see someone approaching, they will wave their pincers or tentacles viciously. With the shell removed, they are left with soft, vulnerable flesh."

"It seems that you were injured too lightly today!"

He put away his smile: "I knew you would find me."

"It's because you know what you've done. What's your intention?"

I stared at him intently, as if trying to dig out a little bit of guilt or nervousness from his calmness, but to no avail.

"I've done nothing but the picture I've sent you."

"Since you can take such tricky and clear photos, you shouldn't have any problems taking other photos. What's your strength? Human face and animal heart, why are you pretending?"

"enough!"

His sudden growl startled me a lot.I watched his handsome face suddenly gloomy.

"Are you really aware of the truth of the matter?" He stood up, raised his right hand and pinched my chin vigorously. I wanted to break free, but he, who was weak in appearance, had so much strength that I couldn't move. Then he His eyes were placed less than two inches away from mine, a strange sense of oppression and heat made my breathing heavy.

Then he said to me in a tone of suppressed anger: "Don't be so judgmental, little one. Whatever you've been through, it's in the past. Even if you try to pretend to be strong, you still can't be happy. I just say one thing , but you have to remember clearly: I didn't do that thing."

Then he let go of his hand, and I took two steps back.Watching him hang the white shirt obliquely on his left shoulder, bumping his injured right foot, and walking towards the depths of the sunset step by step.I don't know why, but my heart hurt a little.


When I went back to the dormitory, Yueying had already bought dinner and was waiting for me.Seeing me coming back, she stood up hastily and asked me where I was and what did I do?Why didn't you say hello to her when you came back late.The people in the dormitory pretended to have something to do and left one after another.And from their dodging eyes, I have already read their attitude towards me and Yueying.

"Why do you look bad?"

I sat down and ate without saying a word, and didn't answer Yueying's question.So Moon Shadow fell silent.She knows me, and at times like this, we don't need words between us.

I didn't go to the evening self-study after dinner.I watched Yueying walking out of the dormitory door alone with a stack of books in her arms, and watched her raise her head and look in the direction of the dormitory windowsill.Probably because she saw the light of the flickering cigarette butt I was holding in her mouth, she waved her hand in my direction, and then walked towards the teaching building.

I watched that pale little shadow gradually disappear from my sight, and suddenly had a strange thought——she would just walk out of my life and never come back.Like many years ago, my mother didn't even say goodbye.

Not long after Yueying left the dormitory, I took to the streets.I feel like my life is a little out of order.That handsome man with only two faces made me lose my ability to think twice.I staggered into the Green Demon, and heard the boss talking about why I came so late.I didn't say anything, walked up to the bar, plucked lightly on the guitar and sang "Goodbye, My Lover" by Shuimunianhua.This time is not a weekend, many students need to study by themselves at night, so there are not many young lovers cuddling with each other.There are few people in the bar, some are one person, some are several people, they are either laughing and talking about their private affairs, raising their glasses to celebrate something, or there are many wine bottles on the small table in front of them, listening to me Shaking their heads, they picked up the wine bottle and took a painful sip—they must have lost their love, or met misfortune and used alcohol to drown their sorrows.

When it comes to wine, I have always tasted it lightly, because I don't like that state of confusion.Although many books and plots keep telling me that drunk can forget many things and become happy for a while, I still want to stay sober and feel sober.

Mizuki's songs always have a touch of sweetness and bitterness.Those lovers fell in love and parted, embraced and then separated, as if they didn't really have anything, and they hurriedly became the past.But no matter what, it is a love worth remembering and cherishing.and I?What is love?
I hugged Yueying, and we hugged each other through many painful and sleepless lonely nights, but she was still a sister in my eyes.I want to protect her from any harm, I will be heartbroken for her, happy for her, and troubled for her, but do I love her?Do I love Moon Shadow?If I really love her, why am I so calm when she kisses me?I sang numbly: "Goodbye, the person I love the most", but my thoughts flew to unknown distances.

"No matter what you have been through, it is the past. Even if you try to pretend to be strong, you still can't be happy."

Those deep and sad eyes have been lingering in front of my eyes.Why do I feel so tense and oppressive when he is close to me?My heart skipped another sneaky beat just thinking about that feeling, and that made me angry.


(End of this chapter)