falling angel

Chapter 9

That incident happened a year after I came to the nursery.During this period, I had a brief separation from Yueying, going back to my home in Mocheng to visit my mother.I remember when I left Mocheng, I was crying in my mother's arms. I told my mother that Yaoyao wants her mother to be happy, and Yaoyao wants her mother to be happy in the future.My mother just looked at me for a long time with wandering eyes that I had never seen before, and finally said something that I only realized after a lot of experience.

"Yaoyao, there is no one in this world worthy of your tears for her." With a bewildered expression, I lay on the rear window of the car, watching my mother staring at me in that long white trench coat, always.Until the driver and I finally disappeared at the end of Xishui Road.

After returning to the nursery, apart from guarding Moon Shadow, I never offended any momo.Because I remember that I told my mother that I want her to be happy forever.But one month later, when the gardenias bloomed again, I got the bad news that my mother died.Died by suicide.I can't remember how I came back to Mocheng, I just remember that when I returned to Mocheng, a very strange thing happened in Mocheng - all the flowers were infected with unknown diseases, and the flowering period was not over , have withered.I was wearing a snow-white spun skirt bought by my mother, standing under the gardenias on Xizi Road, watching the petals above my head falling down like snowflakes and falling on the hem of my long skirt. The wind blew by, They then floated leisurely to the ground.

Dad was wearing a black suit with a sad expression on his face. Behind him were grandma, grandpa, and some relatives and friends. They came out of the hollowed-out iron gate in my garden one after another, like a big black cloud, overwhelming White petals on the ground.I have always stood in the position where my mother sent me away, watching my father walk towards me step by step, and I have been watching like that.Dad came over and knelt down in front of me. He told me that we were going to see two people off, one was my mother, and the other was actually my brother.


In fact, my brother died when he fell from the stairs on his third birthday.And my mom, died the night after my brother died.Neither my father nor my grandparents gave any explanation for why the death of my brother and mother happened in just two days, but I know that they must be related.So when Dad came to hug me, I pushed him away vigorously, and stared at him like an angry cub with my usual resentful eyes.I saw the dodge in his eyes, and I also saw his decadence and cowardice under my gaze.


Before my mother was cremated, I cried for a long time holding her dead body alone.I saw her pale face, black lips, wearing the white nightgown that had appeared countless times in my dreams.When I was about to leave, my mother's hand slipped from the stretcher she was on, and I saw her, the open, no longer bleeding wound, like a baby's open lips .And in that clenched fist, there is a cross pendant necklace - inside is a photo of my family on my fifth birthday.


Cemetery, burial.I said nothing.Dad shed tears, is it because of guilt or because of guilt?I passed through the gap between the crowd, raised my hand and stopped a car to go back to the nursery.I walked straight back to the dormitory, hugged Yueying, I didn't cry, I just didn't speak.Moon Shadow looked at me and didn't speak, she kept asking me what's wrong?I didn't say anything, I just sat behind the curtain, looking at the sea in the distance, very blue, very blue, very far away.Moon Shadow stayed with me, holding my hand on her chest, and also staring at the sea.

"Yao, even if the whole world leaves you, I won't."

The tears were on the verge, and I wailed on her shoulder until there were no more tears.I said, "Yueying, do you know? In this world, I only have you."

There was no dream that night, and when I woke up I was lying on the ground next to the curtain with the window open.The sun was dazzling, and I wanted to stand up, but found the sleeping Moon Shadow, hugging my waist tightly with both hands.The sun shone on her long eyelashes, casting lovely shadows on her face.I smiled and shook my head, trying to push her hand away, but she suddenly woke up, hugged me nervously, and said to me: "Yao, you scared me to death." Wetting my shoulders, she sobbed and said, "You were going to jump from here last night. I talked to you, but you ignored me. You scared me to death."


I understood right away, I was sleepwalking again.This time, I wanted to jump off the building.My sleepwalking has become more frequent since then.Together with Yueying, finishing middle school and then high school, during the whole process, she has as many sleepless nights as I have.She always said: Yao, thank you for always guarding me.And I am ashamed, I should thank her.If it wasn't for her, I would have died many times in my dreams.And in the dream at that time, the black and white forest once appeared.My mother didn't speak, just hung in the distant sky, smiling at me all the time.


The relationship with Dad can be imagined.Shortly after Mom died, Dad remarried.I once saw that woman on the bed in my mother's bedroom. Although she didn't see me as a thorn in my side like the stepmother in "Snow White", she was an absolute intruder in my eyes.Every time she smiles and talks to me, I stare at her eyes with a little contempt—she is just a pile of white flesh in my eyes, shamelessly entangled with my father on my mother's bed .Although after my mother died, that room and everything in that room were sold or burned, and they changed bedrooms, but I know that my mother must be watching them in a corner.


Maybe it's because they couldn't do something wrong to my mother in the room where my mother died. In the second month after they got married, they sold the house and moved away from Xishui Road.

When I was sorting things out, I found the recording left by my mother in my room.My mother said: On the night my brother died, my grandma cried and asked my father to divorce my mother because my mother was barren.Mom said: She actually knew that Dad had a woman outside, but she didn't want to say it and couldn't say it.Because Yaoyao needs a mother, Yao needs a complete family.

My mother also said: Yao must live on strong, her mother died, because her life was very tiring.As for Yaoyao, she must have her own happiness.Don't hate anyone.Promise mom.

But I can't agree to my mother, because I hate my father, my grandma and grandpa, and the woman who became my stepmother.Together, they murdered my mother.

From that day on, I have only one purpose of living, which is revenge.I will use my own hands to make each of them pay for their actions.For this goal, the first thing I need to do is to make myself stronger.This is me, the reason why I studied so hard afterwards.Dad didn't have much time to care about my subsequent changes, because after my mother passed away, my second brother was born.I never went back to that home, I just withdraw the money I need from the bank card every month.I smoked, drank, bought fancy clothes, spent all his money I could, and he never asked.Our phone calls have also become easier.

"No money."

"How much?"

"2000."

"Okay, remember Chaka."



(End of this chapter)