Love for a limited time

Chapter 203 I Became the Person I Hate
"It's too stuffy inside, I'll wait for you to come out!" Li Zhibin walked over.

I know, he must know about me and Chen Zhiwen.

"Xiaxia!" I interrupted him as soon as he opened his mouth: "Don't persuade me, I'm fine!"

Li Zhibin smiled: "I'm not trying to persuade you, you think I'm someone who would do that kind of sissy thing!"

I shook my head and laughed: "Not like!"

"Have you eaten yet?" Li Zhibin asked me.

I shook my head, I just got off work and I was planning to go back to eat?

"That's just right, I didn't eat, I came all the way to find you, you invited me to dinner!" Li Zhibin couldn't help but pull me into his car, and when I realized it, he had already started the car.

"Okay, please!" He always said that the wind is the rain, I have to call my mother first, and tell her not to wait for me, and go to bed earlier.

Li Zhibin stopped at the entrance of a hot pot restaurant, and said that he hadn't eaten for many years and wanted to eat, so he asked me to accompany him.

"That's why you came to me!" I laughed at him, Li Zhibin remained silent, the smoke was lingering, I could hardly see his face clearly.

He said he wanted to eat it, but the soup was already boiling, and he didn't see anything in it. I always felt that he was worried.

"Zhibin, just tell me if you have anything to say, I always feel panicked when you're like this, you should just say it, it's okay, we are not afraid of any blows!" I smiled and patted my chest, trying to make the atmosphere less dull.

"Xia Xia!" Li Zhibin put down his chopsticks, as if mustering up a lot of courage: "I'll marry you!"

I was stunned for a moment, then smiled again: "I pretend I didn't hear that!"

"You obviously heard it!" Li Zhibin insisted: "If Aunt Yao keeps troubling you like this, you plan to live like this for the rest of your life! Except for brother, only I can protect you. He still doesn't know about it. The family relationship is not good, if you know, you can imagine, and, you know, I like you!"

I don't know when Zhibin will use tactics like this, he knows that what I care most about is whether Song Junxi is doing well.

I finally realized that he was not joking with me anymore, rest assured chopsticks, pinched the palm of my tangled hand fiercely, "Zhibin, I have always regarded you as my relatives. In my heart, you are my brother, I'm as important as Junxi in my heart, I'm not lying to you, really." I weighed every word, afraid of hurting him accidentally, I didn't want to: "I know you like me, and I like you very much, but no Likes and loves between men and women can only be taken away once they are given, Chen Zhiwen and I are a good example, there will be no good results, we are not suitable for each other!" My nose was sore as if choking So-so vinegar.

This is not the first time Zhibin said he likes me, nor is it the first time I have refused.

The point is that I can't treat him like Chen Zhiwen, I will die of guilt!
I don't want to hurt him more!
"I'm different from him. Selfish and cowardly things are not worthy of love at all! Xia Xia, I've been thinking about it for several days. Let's leave City A and go wherever you want, and take Auntie with me!"

"Zhibin, if there is any difference between Junxi and me when we leave, what will your parents do? Why are you so stupid?" I cried out uncomfortably, tears rolled down one by one, "It's not worth it!" Live shaking his head.

"There is nothing worth it." Li Zhibin said firmly, he stretched out his hand to hold my hand, "You were so determined back then, I know that no matter what I do, you will not change your mind. So I can only be silent I hid behind you, and then I thought my brother could give you happiness, so I went to the army. Do you remember what I said before I left, I said, if you have a bad life, I will take you away, but You are not doing well now, I have been waiting for so many years, I don't think I can wait any longer, Xia Xia!"

Li Zhibin's eyes are firm, "I don't care whether you love me or not in your heart, I only know that you are always in my heart."

I withdrew my hand little by little, "Zhibin, we should all wake up. Marriage cannot be settled, even if Chen Zhiwen and I get married, we will not be happy, and neither will we!"

Li Zhibin's expression didn't change much, it seemed that my reaction was in his expectation, "Is it because of brother?"

I frowned, "It has nothing to do with him. Really, Zhibin, it's my own problem." I clenched my fingers, "Zhibin, do you know that what you do now is what I did ten years ago?" He Junxi. Don't make you a stranger because of us, I hope you can live wantonly and be happy!"

Li Zhibin looked at me and smiled, "Happy and happy? Hehe, I knew I shouldn't have come, I shouldn't have said that, Xia Xia, since you said that you and brother have passed, why are you still so reluctant to let it go!"

"I let go of him, but I can't let go of love!" I looked at Li Zhibin's face against the mist, and felt more and more sorry for him.

Maybe, maybe I really should leave?

But where can I go, I can't take my mother away!

The hot pot that day had a taste of dissatisfaction, and Li Zhibin and I didn't eat much. Looking at the things that went in, tumbling in the pot, it was like our hearts.

When I got out of the car, Li Zhibin pulled me: "You pretend I didn't say anything, don't hide from me, you know I've always been thick-skinned, this little setback is nothing!"

Li Zhibin's smile is a bit forced, and I don't want to lose such a relative.

Nodded: "I have forgotten!"

"If you really forget, you fool, can't you make yourself better and make me feel at ease?"

"I'm living a good life. Is it okay to find someone to marry?" I laughed. To be honest, this time Chen Zhiwen's derailment touched me a lot. At least it made me understand one thing. The thing is, marrying someone you don't love will hurt him more than me!
"I thought so!" Li Zhibin murmured.

"Okay, let's go, drive carefully on the road!"

I drove him away, and I squatted on the ground, wanting to cry, feeling that I was a villain and worthless!

Is it possible that in this life, I will hide in the turtle shell like this for the rest of my life!
I hate myself for being like this, saying one thing, but thinking the other way around. This is the kind of person I hate to meet at work.

Unfortunately, that's what happened to me myself.

Under the dim streetlights of the community, I sat there alone with my knees hugged, not wanting to go up, I didn't want my mother to worry about me being worthless.

I don't know how long I've been sitting, my legs are a little numb, and when I got up, I tilted my body, and I subconsciously went to support the lamppost.

But my arm was suddenly held by someone. In the middle of the night, I was naturally startled and raised my head in panic. I felt even more confused and lost my direction, and subconsciously wanted to escape.

(End of this chapter)