Love for a limited time

Chapter 243 If guilty, I am the original sin

At this time, the sun outside the window was bright, and large swaths of warm yellow light shone in through the window, outlining a golden outline around Song Junxi standing by the window, pulling his own charm to the fullest. Infinitely deep.

Most people would look old-fashioned in a gray suit, but he wore it with a special charm, deep and restrained, and even the back view was very deep, I couldn't help but be fascinated by it.

I bit my lip, and I still don’t intend to tell him what happened back then. I don’t want him to feel guilty. Let him taste the pain again.

"Junxi, you just need to know that for so many years, you are the only one in my heart, not even Chen Zhiwen!" I gave him a statement that couldn't be regarded as an answer.

"Xia Xia, you know, that's not what I mean! Did we ever have children?" As soon as Song Junxi finished speaking, my face turned pale in an instant!

"I remember that before our accident, your menstruation should have come, Xia Xia, tell the truth, do we have a child?"

My body softened, and I almost fell down on the sofa, and turned my head away from him: "No!"

"Is there anything we can't say between us?" Song Junxi came over and put his hands on my shoulders, vowing not to give up until the goal is achieved!
"Junxi...don't ask me if it's alright, I beg you!" I feel like I can't escape at all, if I don't tell him today, he won't leave, I know his temper!

"Xiaxia, I just want you to tell me no matter what happens in the future, happy, I will be with you happy, sad, I will share it for you, Xiaxia, today I will know no matter what!"

I looked at him for a long time, my eyes were a little absent-minded, and I slowly looked out of the window. The sunlight made me unable to open my eyes: "We had a child...but when I found out, he had already Gone!"

I dare not look at his disappointed eyes, how sad I was then, how sad Song Junxi is now.

His tall body took a step back feebly. Although he was still standing there, it seemed like a building was about to collapse. The heaviness made me feel that even the bright sunshine could not reach my heart!
"What did you say?"

"The child... is gone!" I looked out the window, closed my eyes, and repeated with tears.

As soon as the words were finished, his body was hugged by him all of a sudden, tightly, but the tears could no longer be stopped, and they fell wantonly.

"Isn't it..."

"I'm the bastard, I shouldn't have left you alone, I really deserve to die!" Song Junxi's voice trembled, and I even felt his whole body trembling slightly!

"No, I didn't protect our child well, I didn't even know he was in my stomach... I didn't know until the moment I woke up from the ward, I lost him, Junxi, I really He is a sinner who killed his father and killed his child!"

"It's not you, it's all my fault..."

Song Junxi's high-end suit was soaked by my tears and snot for a while.

"Xiaxia, it's my fault, I'm an asshole, I shouldn't ask, I always make you sad, Xiaxia, we will have children in the future, there will be more, this time we will guard together Look at him, okay, don't cry!"

"Junxi..." I couldn't speak at all, I felt that my breathing was disordered, I couldn't take a breath, and I almost fainted.

"Xia Xia, I owe you too much in my life. If I can't give you back a stable life, I'm willing to die to apologize!"

With tears in my eyes, I shook my head desperately: "Don't, don't say that word, I'm scared, I'm really scared, I can't bear this feeling of loss anymore!"

"For a long time, I didn't dare to close my eyes at night. As long as I closed my eyes, the blood of the child would flow all over my body. The pain seemed to swallow me up. I wanted to escape, but I couldn't escape. I'm really unforgivable! I think what we have to bear between us is my retribution. The two of us are like two flies lying on the glass. The future is bright, but there is no way to go... "..."

"If you are really guilty, I am the original sin. If you really want retribution, come to me..."

That sad topic, after that day, Song Junxi never brought it up in front of me in order to be afraid that I would be sad, but I know that he must be suffering day and night in his heart, I understand the pain!

Song Junxi couldn't resist me in the end. He took me to see the house his friend said that afternoon. The location and price were suitable. After I met his friend, I quickly settled the house and paid him part of the rent first. On Song Junxi's face, he agreed to pay for the rest after the decoration is completed.

Sure enough, acquaintances are easy to deal with. It is thanks to Junxi that the place can be settled so quickly this time.

Then came the decoration. Li Zhibin had a good eye, so I left the decoration to him to keep an eye on.

I didn't expect Uncle Song to come to the studio to find me, so I was really surprised when I saw him.

"It's not easy for you and your mother these years!" I didn't expect him to mention the events of the year first.

"It's okay, it's all over!" I smiled, I didn't think he came today just to reminisce about the old days.

"Xia Xia, we are also deeply sorry about Brother Deming. I actually went to your mother at that time, hoping that he would accept our compensation, but she refused! I know you have had a hard time these years, I didn't expect that the love between you and Junxi is so persistent, it makes us parents feel ashamed!"

Uncle Song smiled self-deprecatingly!
"Uncle, don't say that!" Although I said this, I still didn't understand him very much. I have been married to Aunt Yao for more than 30 years. It really seems too fickle!
"I know that you, like Junxi, feel that Uncle is too ruthless in doing this! But, for me and your Aunt Yao, the divorce is actually a relief, so she agreed!" The cup in front of Uncle Song There were wisps of white smoke, but he didn't drink it!

He is an elder, so I am not easy to say some things, although I really want to ask him, he is relieved, but have he ever thought about Junxi's feelings.

I'm really glad that Aunt Yao's legs can walk, otherwise, her life would be even more hopeless. I always think that Uncle Song is a good person, at least a person who values ​​feelings, otherwise he wouldn't be so kind to my father and help us so many.

However, this good man did the most sad thing for his wife and son, I don't understand!
(End of this chapter)