The Biography of Concubine Xi of Yongzheng

Chapter 419 Selfishness
When Xianyun asked Gege Chan about reconciling with her master, she did bring a trace of reproach.For so many years, she has been used to doing things conveniently due to the convenience of Gege Chan being favored, but now that she suddenly received less things, she subconsciously complained that Gege Chan was ignorant and always put on face for the Lord, That's why they suffered in the house as well.

However, she didn't expect Lingxi to choke her so bluntly all of a sudden, she couldn't hold back her face, she hurriedly looked away guiltily, but still firmly denied: "Where... when did I become like this, Lingxi, your mouth It's really unpleasant, I... don't know your level of knowledge anymore!"

Naturally, she would not admit it, if she did, it would be a loss to Geng Gege.

The two people in the room have always been on good terms, so after Lingxi choked that sentence, she regretted it, and seeing Xianyun's uncomfortable face, she coughed in embarrassment: "It's fine if you don't think so." .”

Xianyun went back with a face of unease, and Gengshi just happened to see him, and Gengshi asked casually, so Xianyun told all the things just now: "... Gege , it was the servant who said the wrong thing and hurt each other's friendship. But can Ge Ge persuade Chan Gege a little? Chan Gege is not the way to go on like this. I'm afraid that the two little elder brothers and little Gege will suffer in the future."

Geng was silent, and glanced at the opposite side of the window. The Hongzhou brothers happened to be gnawing watermelon by the window, wiping the sweat from their foreheads while gnawing.

She frowned distressedly, turned her eyes back to look at Xianyun, and felt that what Xianyun said was not unreasonable.She has depended on Yanhua for so many years, and it is quite comfortable to live in peace, if it is not for Hong Zhou, she can live a bit harder life.But now that Hong Zhou is by her side, she can't see her child suffering, so she has to be selfish for a while.

"I'll go and have a look. In the future, you should also pay attention to what you say. Although my sister and I are familiar, you should not say what you shouldn't say. It's not good if you hurt your feelings." After Geng said a few words to her, he said A girl waited for her outside with an umbrella.

She walked quickly to the shade of the umbrella, and went to the opposite side after deliberation in her heart.

At this time, Yanhua was painting, and she had developed this habit after giving birth to Hongli. She would paint whenever she was in a bad mood, even if she just scribbled and painted casually, she could vent her anger in her heart.

Jiahui was obediently sitting on the small stool next to her, and was also writing and drawing on the small table, so that she didn't even know that her face was stained with ink.

"Mother and daughter are exactly the same, even the way of recreation is the same." Geng smiled lightly, and walked over to see what they were drawing.

After Jiahui called her mother, she lowered her head and began to write and draw seriously.

Jiahui is painting flowers and plants, looking serious.She just wanted to eat watermelon, but after Hongli brought it over, she didn't want to eat it anymore.Seeing that Yanhua was painting all the time, she also asked the nanny for a brush, ink, paper and inkstone, and started to scribble quietly beside her.

She is now five years old, much rounder than when she entered the mansion last year, her small appearance is even more lovely, her eyebrows and eyes are very similar to Thirteen, her mouth and oval face are very similar to Xiao Qi, she looks like a little beauty.

After hearing Geng's words, Yanhua stopped writing: "Smile, let's go play with my two elder brothers for a while, and the two mother-in-laws want to talk about sons."

"Okay." Jiahui nodded obediently, stepped forward to hold Yanhua's hand, smiled and raised her face at Yanhua before running out.She didn't know why this was so, but her brother Hongli said that Xiaoxiao was the nickname given to her by Er Niang, so she had to smile at Er Niang from time to time to be worthy of this nickname, so she followed suit up.

Geng Shi was stunned for a while because of this nickname, and when he saw Yan Hua's gaze, he twitched the corner of his mouth and said with a smile: "My sister still can't let go."

Yan Hua knew what she meant, she just twitched the corners of her mouth with a fake smile: "I just occasionally called her that in private, but you heard it today. If my smile is still there, it is not now It’s time to walk, and I’m sure I’ll be chasing after them laughing and laughing.”

"Sister, think about it. I always think like this. I'm going to get sick sooner or later." Geng stepped forward and looked down, but saw that Yanhua had drawn many portraits of children, some with eyebrows and eyes resembling Yinzhen, and some with eyebrows and eyes. There are portraits of Yanhua and Yanhua, but all of them are girls.It turned out that Yanhua was imagining the appearance of smiling, and drew it casually based on her own imagination to comfort her.

With some helplessness, Geng took the pen from Yan Hua's hand, and slowly put it on the pen stand.

Afterwards, Yanhua watched in a daze as she rolled up the paintings and put them aside.After a while, Yanhua sighed softly, went to sit down on the couch next to her: "Sister... can understand my pain, I won't forget it for a while, so let me think about it."

Gunn's first child was miscarried before it was born, and she only learned that the child was gone after experiencing the pain of childbirth.Which kind of experience was more hurtful, she couldn't say.

"But... I kept it a secret for so long for your own good. You shouldn't put all this resentment on me. It's not easy for him." Complicated emotions flashed in Geng's eyes, Sound persuasion.Although she understands why Yanhua has been slow to reconcile with Yinzhen, but for the sake of Hongzhou, she has to be selfish to persuade her to reconcile.

"I...hey, sister, I don't know if I'm blaming him or myself...he lied to me for eight months, sister, you know how I got here for those eight months, so why don't you just say no? Can you not complain? Sister, do you know that he has asked the person from Jinglianju to replace me to study ink. If you are so ruthless, what's the use of me still thinking about it like that? It's not worth it..."

Geng Shi had no choice but to wipe Yanhua's sweat with a handkerchief: "What are you talking about? I believe that the master will not treat you so ruthlessly. If you are willing to go back to study ink, the master will definitely not let you Side Fujin..."

"Why doesn't my sister understand what I mean? If I don't wait by the side, he can immediately find another person to replace me. This proves that I am superfluous and dispensable in his heart. In this case , why should I post it again to make me feel uncomfortable?" Yanhua turned her face away irritably, her slender eyebrows were slightly frowned with unresolved worries.

This year is the 57th year of Kangxi, and she entered the mansion in the 43rd year of Kangxi. Now she is twenty-seven years old, and she can be described as a fake old woman.Nian Jingyi is three years younger than her no matter what, and she is as tender as a flower.

This is not what makes her sad. Before she fully recovered from Yinzhen's deceit, he asked others to take over the job of studying ink, which really made her heartbroken.She understood that Yinzhen lied to her for so long because she was afraid that she would be sad, but it was understandable, she still couldn't help but complain about him.For so long, she has been thinking a lot about him, and she has suffered enough grievances, so after accumulating for a long time, this emotion will always explode.

But she couldn't calm down for a while, especially in the first two months when she just learned that Xiaoxiao was dead, he always forced her body regardless of her feelings, and tortured her physically and mentally exhausted, so she The resentment in my heart became heavier.

He thought that would allow her to conceive another child, didn't he?He thought that if she was pregnant with another one, she would forget about Xiaoxiao, didn't he?He thought he thought!Everything is his self-righteousness!Why did he think that other children could replace Xiaoxiao?
She can't do it.It is impossible to forget that Xiaoxiao who has never met, and it is impossible to completely hate him.

Rather than hating him, it would be more accurate to say she hated herself.

She felt that Yinzhen was lying to her early in the morning, but she didn't dare to ask at all, she just let him lie to herself all the time.She blamed him for being cruel, but it was actually because she herself was too cowardly.

In addition, her body has always been healthy and healthy. Hongli was fat and white when she was born, so Xiaoxiao should be in good shape.But I heard from Lingxi and the others that Xiaoxiao got sick from birth, and her crying was very weak.Thinking about it left and right, Yanhua felt that something was wrong, there must be something wrong, she must have been tricked when she was pregnant.Blame her, blame her for not realizing it earlier, that's why she was persecuted by the traitor.

That's why she asked Lingxi to pay more attention to Jinxiuxuan and Jinglianju. The only people in the mansion who can make trouble now are the people in these two courtyards...

"Sister, as long as you want to open up a little bit, you can still be as gluey as before with me in the future. You have been in the mansion for more than ten years, and you have quarreled with me, but when did you not let me? I care about you, and I wouldn't treat you for so long. You... really shouldn't... Hey, even for Hongli's future, you shouldn't be so angry with my father." Geng saw Yanhua's face Reluctantly, he sighed helplessly again.

Yanhua's eyes moved, she glanced outside, and after glancing at the children playing, she calmly looked away: "Hongli is my fourth elder brother, and I won't treat you badly just because I'm not favored." Treat this son. The same is true for Hong Zhou. Not to mention Hui'er, the master brought her back because of his brotherhood to the thirteenth master."

"What are you talking about, are you really going to be angry with Grandpa for the rest of your life?" Geng frowned deeply after hearing her words, his face was full of uneasiness.This cicada can see everything clearly!

"He hasn't been here since he got angry at me on the fifth day of last month. Maybe he has forgotten this place long ago. Even if I want to be angry with my grandfather for a while, I have to cooperate with him, otherwise it's just me singing a sad scene here. That's all."

After hearing her sour tone, Geng knew that things had turned around, and he hurriedly warned: "What are you talking about? I'm used to being cold in front of people. He pulled his face down so many times to coax you, but you didn't appreciate it. If I were him, there would be nothing I could do. As long as you give in to him right now, he will be very happy."

Yan Hua's face darkened, and dryly pulled the corner of her mouth: "Sister, what are you talking about? Why should I give in to him? Most of him are people who give in to him, and I'm a lot less. I..."

"Gege, Jinxiuxuan is here." Before Yanhua finished speaking, Shaoyao came in and announced.

"Who's here?" Yan Hua frowned, and exchanged a glance with Geng Shi.

(End of this chapter)