The Biography of Concubine Xi of Yongzheng

Chapter 592 Depression
After Yanhua woke up from Yinzhen's arms that day, thinking of everything before, she trembled with anger.When she saw him sleeping deeply because of exhaustion, the guilt and self-blame in her heart came like a tide.

From then on, she forced a smile on Yinzhen on the surface, in order not to make him worry about herself.It's just that from that day on, she liked to be bored in Jingren Palace and couldn't come out.

After Wei Chang'an interrogated Luluo, he sent someone to Jingren Palace to arrest a little palace maid, Lingxi was so angry that he cursed for several days.

She didn't know what happened to their master, but she seldom smiled. Every time the emperor sent someone to ask her to go to the Hall of Mental Cultivation, she would always find various excuses.But seeing Wei Changan arresting a young maid, she asked a few casual questions, and naturally found out that there was something wrong with the maid, not only that, but also the previous Luluo.That Luluo was promoted by her, can she not be angry?

The ninth year of Yongzheng was a sad year.

Regarding what happened that day, Yanhua and Shaoyao kept secret, every time Concubine Yu came to visit, she didn't mention anything about that day.

Yanhua has never been to bed since then, because she couldn't help shivering when she thought of that day.I don't know whether to be angry or annoyed, or afraid.The doctor said it was heart disease.Yinzhen also had nothing to do about it, she just felt that she suddenly became demonic, even if no one laughed at her, she always felt as if everyone knew about it, and she was always ashamed and angry.

Xiaoxiao was taken back to the palace and lived in elder brother's house.Because of the Queen's death, her temper became extremely violent. Whether it was a court lady or a eunuch, if she was dissatisfied even slightly, she would yell and scold.After Yanhua heard about this, she repeatedly announced that she would go to Jingren Palace to give lectures carefully, but when she smiled, she could not listen at all.

She has been spoiled by the queen since she was a child, and once this temperament is developed, it cannot be changed in a short period of time.

Empress Daxing was buried in the Qing Tai Mausoleum in the late twelfth lunar month of the ninth year of Yongzheng, with the posthumous title of filial piety.

During the Chinese New Year, because of the mourning period of honoring the empress, the entire Forbidden City was extremely quiet, and the glazed tiles were covered with snowflakes one after another, covered with layers of snow, as if to freeze the besieged city inside.

In the tenth year of Yongzheng, Xiaoxiao was 13 years old, and he was born like a child, and he always smiled heartlessly.It's just that after Empress Xiao Jing left, she seldom smiled. She would go to Jingren Palace to pay her respects every day, but she would quarrel with Yan Hua every now and then.

She couldn't stand Yanhua always talking about this rule and that rule to her, she was used to being loose, and she didn't want to be bound by it.But Yanhua couldn't help herself whether she liked it or not, she always patiently taught her over and over again.

In addition to Xiaoxiao, Yinzhen has four grown-up princesses, besides Qianxuan who was in the mansion, and three other adopted daughters, Jiahui is one of them.All four of them were married to Mongolia, including Horqin and Khalkha.Jiahui was considered the luckiest one, because of Shisan's sake, he was called back to Beijing by Yinzhen not long after he left.

So Yanhua saw that Xiaoxiao grew bigger and bigger, and the melancholy in her heart became deeper and deeper.Xiaoxiao is also a princess, how can she change the fate of her marriage?Now that the war in the Northwest is in turmoil, if Xiaoxiao is really married, how can she live well?What should I do if I marry a son-in-law like Sebuteng and blindly don't misunderstand her?
Every time she thinks about this, Yanhua feels that it's okay to let Xiaoxiao be a bit savage, at least she won't suffer too much.

In the tenth year of Yongzheng, in the early spring, Xiaoxiao wanted to take Yanhua to the imperial garden to enjoy the flowers.This is also an errand assigned to her by Yinzhen, to make her think of ways to make Yanhua happy, and pull her around whenever she has the chance.

Yanhua refused to go out, as if recalling the shame and indignation of that day, her mood suddenly sank down.

Yinzhen told her that the green radish that had been drugged in her tea had already been rectified on the spot, so she didn't have to worry anymore.That incident wasn't her fault in the first place, she didn't have to punish herself for that incident and make herself unhappy.She also knows this truth very well, but she can't always overcome the hurdle in her heart.

"Good man Erniang! Come and persuade Erniang, but she still refuses to go out. The peach blossoms in the imperial garden are so beautiful. Isn't it the peach blossoms that Erniang used to like the most? Always bored in this Jingren Palace, sooner or later It's going to be moldy!" Xiaoxiao hopped in front of her, ran to hold Concubine Yu who came to visit Yanhua, and pulled her into the main hall.She is called Concubine Yu the Good Man's Er Niang, because Concubine Yu has always been gentle with her, unlike her kissing Er Niang, who always treats her fiercely.

Yanhua raised her head and smiled at Concubine Yu, a little perfunctorily: "Sister is here."

"Good man Erniang, look, Erniang is upset again, always like this... Xiaoxiao really didn't make Erniang angry today, does Erniang not like me anymore?" She blushed when she said that Without the empress filial piety in her eyes, she always felt that something was missing in her life.Since returning to the palace, Yanhua has always been quite strict with her, which made her mistakenly think that she is not welcomed by her biological mother.

"Fool, what are you thinking?" Concubine Yu patted her face, frowning in distress.

This is the first time that Xiaoxiao has shown such a sentimental side in front of Yanhua, Yanhua is also very sad in her heart, she hurriedly took Xiaoxiao's hand and patted it lightly: "Silly boy, what are you thinking about? Yes... Erniang is thinking that you are getting old, maybe you will get married soon, if you don't learn the rules well, what will you do if you are angry with your husband's family in the future?"

Xiaoxiao immediately withdrew the tears in his eyes, wrinkled his nose and said: "The child is still young, does Erniang want to marry the child so soon? The child will be with Erniang for a few more years, so I will not marry you with a smile .”

"Stupid child, you are a princess, how can you say that you will not marry if you don't marry? Be good, since your mother doesn't want to go out, you can go to the imperial garden to pick some peach blossoms, put them in a vase, and you can smell the fragrance. Concubine Yu smiled and shook her head lightly.Obviously Xiaoxiao is even more unruly than the Wuzaku family, but she is very pleasing to the eyes when she looks at Xiaoxiao, and she doesn't like the Wuzaku family no matter what she thinks.

After sending Xiaoxiao away, Concubine Yu dragged Yanhua to the inner hall.She is going to do two things that defy the imperial decree, and she really can't see her good sister getting depressed like this.

Yinzhen doesn't allow people in the know to bring up the matter of Yanhua taking aphrodisiacs, this is the first imperial decree that Concubine Yu intends to disobey.

"My younger sister has been thinking... about drinking the wrong tea that day?" After that day, she didn't mention this matter to Yan Hua. She thought that after a long time, the shame and anger in Yan Hua's heart would fade away, but now Four months later, she still refused to leave Jingren Palace, which really worried her.

Yanhua glanced at her in surprise, and immediately turned her eyes away in shame: "Sister...I, I can't forget..."

That feeling was simply torture. Before returning to the palace that day, she was tortured for more than half an hour, and after returning to the palace, it took a long time.If that's the case, it's fine, now that she sees Su Peisheng and Wei Changan's peony body, she will be ashamed and indignant and dare not look at them.She actually made such a shameful voice in front of them.

"Are you going to force the emperor to drive out the few people we know about from the palace, or kill people to silence them?"

Yanhua's breath was suffocated, she quickly turned her eyes to Concubine Yu: "Sister, I... have no such intention."

"But you've been like this all along, aren't you just forcing the emperor to do this?" Concubine Yu's heart broke, and she decided to go all out.

"Sister..." Yanhua was anxious and ashamed, her eyes quickly turned red, "I was too...too disgraceful that day... If I were still Gege in Qiandi, I would lose face if I lost face But now I am Concubine Xi, if this kind of thing gets out, let the emperor be so selfish? Let Hongli and Xiaoxiao be so selfish? I made them feel ashamed..."

"Aren't you worrying unfoundedly? Who would spread this kind of thing? Do you know that the emperor has issued a secret decree for this? No matter who leaks half of us, we will be beheaded! Even if there is no such secret decree, Do you think a few of us will speak out?"

Yanhua's eyes widened in disbelief, she didn't know that Yinzhen had issued such a secret decree!
She shook her head sadly, and cried: "I know... I can't pass this test of myself. My sister also saw the scene of that day, and I just feel that I... myself... now every time I see Your Majesty, I feel ashamed, how could I be so careless, actually... actually ate that nasty thing... I... I have no face to face people..."

"That's not your fault, how do you know that there is something wrong with that cup of tea? You are confused, do you know that if you go on like this, it will make us all uncomfortable? Do you know how worried the emperor is? I have never seen the emperor Treating someone as well as treating you is so good to the core. You are so depressed, don’t you let the person who harmed you feel happy? You just torture yourself, why torture the emperor and us? Shaoyao can’t wait to die In short, so that you don't want to see her and think of the shame and anger of that day!"

"Ah!" Shao Yao seldom shows her face in front of Yanhua recently, so Yanhua naturally doesn't know that this is Yu Fei's nonsense.Shaoyao doesn't talk much, but is good at observing people, so Shaoyao is very thoughtful and thinks a lot. It is not surprising that she really has such thoughts.So Yanhua believed it immediately after hearing it.

Concubine Yu knows that Yanhua has always been considerate of those around her.Usually no one is willing to say these things, so when she is depressed, she is unwilling to think about these things by herself, but now Concubine Yu just wants to say all the words to shock her.There is a saying that is to put one's death on the ground and live later. Although Concubine Yu can't do that, she has decided to stimulate Yanhua and not allow her to think about it.

"You wouldn't be like this before. Why are you so selfish this time? Do you know that because you are unhappy all day long and don't care about the emperor, the emperor has become more and more irritable since the New Year? He was so ill before. For a long time, you are unwilling to comfort him. Do you know how uncomfortable he is? When I saw him in the Royal Garden yesterday, I saw him staring at a piece of paper in a daze. He sighed and said that you have not been well for a long time. I have written a small letter, and he is so worried that he can't sleep or eat well..."

These words are also her nonsense, although they are not true, I am afraid they are not far from the truth.At least it's a fact that Yanhua hasn't written a good letter in the past few months. Concubine Yu comes to see her almost every day, so she knows it clearly.

"I've already disobeyed the imperial decree by telling you this. After I've told you this, I'll go and apologize to the emperor. From now on, you don't have to look at my face anymore." Concubine Yu simply didn't do anything Incessantly, the words became more and more serious.

Yanhua finally cried aloud, the tears fell like a dam, "Sister... why did you force me, sister? Can't you just let me be selfish for once?"

(End of this chapter)