forcing ex-wife home

Chapter 40

Liu Juan was left alone facing the empty room, tears falling like rain.At the beginning, I chose Zhou Haoming to live, and now life is still going on, but my heart hurts so much that I don't want to live anymore.The window is wide open, if I fall from there and die, Zhou Haoming, will you be sad?

I used to think that if I sold my heart to life, my heart would no longer hurt, but now it often hurts, and the pain makes life worse than death.

Liu Juan, why did you fall in love with this person?Don't be too greedy, you said you needed money, now you have the life you want, why aren't you satisfied?
Once you only liked money, and everything that was vain and impetuous. For those things, you married Zhou Haoming.You once asked Zhou Haoming for 20 yuan by getting divorced, and you asked him for 30 yuan by remarrying. Now, you actually want this man to love you?Why?
Liu Juan let the tears flow on her face, she persuaded herself over and over again.Dimly into dreamland.

Liu Juan had that dream again, surrounded by a gray area, from a lively and warm house, she suddenly fell here, this is the wilderness, surrounded by cold fog, after the fog It was unfathomable darkness, and suddenly, cold laughter came from all directions.

Such a dream did not come when Huang Lizhen was ill, nor did it come after Liu Shoushan left, but after Liu Juan got married, it often came uninvited.Liu Juan often wakes up with a sneer, and it is the same today.

When she woke up, she found that Zhou Haoming had already gone home. He was sitting in the living room outside his bedroom watching TV. It seemed that he had been back for a while.Liu Juan sat up from the bed and went to the toilet.When she returned to the bed, Liu Juan's slippers deliberately made a "kicking, kicking, kicking" sound on the floor.Liu Juan knew that Zhou Haoming would hear this voice, and would know that she had woken up. If he walked in from the living room, if he grew an arm from behind to protect her waist, then she would feel better.

However, Zhou Haoming didn't take it seriously at all, he didn't look into the room, and continued to watch TV, probably the TV show was funny, he suddenly burst out laughing "haha".Liu Juan lay on the bed, disheartened, and tears flowed quietly again.Liu Juan hugged her shoulders tightly with her arms, and immersed herself in her cold dream.

The next day, which coincided with the beginning of the month, was the day when Zhou Haoming had to pay the money.Waking up early in the morning, Zhou Haoming took out a stack of money, put it on the table, and said, "Here is your pocket money, and I will give you an extra 1000 yuan. If it is not enough, ask me to get it." Liu Juan sat by the side, watching He glanced at him without saying a word, and he went downstairs and left.

This sentence was probably added because of what happened last night.It was 1000 yuan more, Liu Juan thought to herself: Zhou Haoming used 1000 yuan to comfort me, how generous.This is my value in Zhou Haoming's eyes.She couldn't help laughing stupidly, and said to herself: "I'm always so valuable. In order to let me marry Zhou Haoming, Huang Qinxian paid nearly 30 before and after, plus the previous 20, the total is 50. And now that Zhou Haoming gave me another 1000 yuan today, I'm really worth it." He kept smiling foolishly, not only laughing out loud, but also in tears, laughing until his heart ached.

Liu Juan didn't understand why she didn't love money in her heart, but let the Zhou family pay so much money because of herself, and she didn't have a chance to enjoy the money.Why?
Liu Juan didn't understand that she only loved her mother and younger brother out of family affection, but she needed money to love them.Why?
Liu Juan still doesn't understand that she doesn't just need Zhou Haoming's money, but why does Zhou Haoming only give her money?Why doesn't he understand his own heart?

(End of this chapter)