Only you are so different

Chapter 26 Extra Story [-] If You Didn't Meet Like This
Lin Mei thought, she must have loved Su Xiuran at the earliest time.

From anyone's point of view, it was reasonable for her to agree to Su Xiuran's marriage proposal. After all, a handsome, elegant and personable man is already attractive enough, coupled with such a family background and status, it would be a ghost if he didn't agree.

Maybe even Su Xiuran didn't know, she didn't think about accepting his pursuit until one time... She remembered clearly that it was the third official date between Su Xiuran and her.

As usual, she was called by him to the CEO's office on the top floor. When she went upstairs, her feelings were ironic. Other couples would definitely not be like her when they fell in love. It was no different from going to see the boss.

Yes, even if it's an office romance, it has to be a romance, but Su Xiuran has the ability to make a romance as dull as a business meeting.

The first two times, she also came to his office on the top floor first. He had already changed his clothes for going out, and he was still holding an expensive and delicate gift that was prepared by his assistant.

Then she walked over and said lightly, "Hello, Mr. Su."

He nodded in agreement, handed her the gift, and then opened the door for her, and the two of them took the elevator outside the president's office directly to the exclusive parking garage and went downstairs to the date.

When he left the office building, his attitude would soften a bit, and he would no longer call her "Miss Lin", but would change it to "Little Eyebrow". How gentle.

She also called him "Xiu Ran" casually, with more indifference and perfunctory.

Then the two of them would go to a restaurant with a quiet environment and exquisite food to have dinner. Normally at this time, Lin Mei would not talk too much, while Su Xiuran was well-bred, and seemed to follow the etiquette of "Don't talk when eating", eating quietly.

Then they would go to a drama performance or a symphony concert, in short, they would go to all kinds of elegant occasions that would not damage Su Xiuran's identity.

So until the third date between them, Lin Mei was not tempted by him, it sounds unbelievable, but it is the truth.

Until that day, she saw a slightly different Su Xiuran - because when she first went to his office, Su Xiuran had said that she didn't need to knock on the door, so when she finished answering the call from Su Xiuran's assistant When he went upstairs to the door of the president's office, he raised his hand and pushed the door open.

Different from the previous two times, this time Su Xiuran did not sit neatly and neatly behind the large desk waiting for her.

With his back to the door, he stood in front of the large floor-to-ceiling glass. He didn't even wear a coat, and his white shirt outlined a slightly thin figure.

Hearing the noise from behind, he turned around as if he had been awakened, and looked at her with a slightly surprised look: "Xiaomei? I told Assistant Lin to let you go in half an hour..."

He blurted out to call her "Little Eyebrow", and after speaking half a sentence, he realized that he had lost his composure, and immediately smiled and stopped explaining.

But Lin Mei also understood, he told the assistant to let her come up in half an hour, but the assistant miscommunicated, causing her to come over immediately, and bumped into him who was not ready yet.

He didn't mean to blame the assistant or her, but turned around and went to the cloakroom to get his coat, and smiled and asked her to wait for him, and he would be fine soon.

He put on his coat from the cloakroom and came out. He looked at her with apologetic expression, and said softly, "I'm sorry, I forgot to prepare a present for you this time. I wanted to go out to choose at noon, but it was delayed."

Lin Mei was very surprised, and realized that the gifts she thought were prepared by the assistant two times before were probably prepared by him himself, so she asked, "You always choose the presents for me?"

If he really chose the gift by himself, but she didn't notice it after receiving it twice, and still asked him about it so imposingly, many people would feel a little angry that their hearts were betrayed when they heard this sentence.

But he didn't seem to care, just smiled and said: "Of course I'm the one to choose, how can I pretend to be someone else."

Lin Mei was dumbfounded, and recalled the two gifts, a watch with a simple style, although it was quite expensive, it looked like a business gift, and a jewelry brooch, the style was also simple and elegant and versatile.

The two items... are not necklaces and bracelets with special or ambiguous meanings, but are universal gifts that can be given to anyone.

That's why she took it for granted that it was prepared by his assistant... Thinking of this, she suddenly felt a little helpless. Someone carefully selected gifts for her girlfriend in love, but the effect of giving them was completely insincere. It can be regarded as a special ability.

However, the person in front of him looked at her with imperceptible expectations, as if hoping that she would tell him what he thought of those gifts.

She still remembered this, and raised her hand to show him the silver watch she was wearing on her wrist at the moment, and unconsciously added a little comfort in her tone: "I like it very much."

He raised his lips and smiled, maybe it was because she was knocked into a dazed state today, which made him relax a little bit, so she actually felt that there was a strange brilliance in those dark eyes that were always too cold on weekdays , Seeing that she was a little stunned for a while.

Then he held her hand very lightly and touched her fingers. He smiled at her and said, "Sorry, I can only have dinner with you tonight."

At first she didn't understand why he changed his usual arrangement, and then she noticed that his body temperature was unusually high.

Perhaps the attitude between the two of them got closer for some reason, she even had the guts to raise her hand to test the temperature of his forehead, and after noticing the unusually high temperature, she frowned in disapproval: "Are you Have a fever? Rest if you feel unwell."

He pursed his thin lips lightly, his face was a little pale, but he seemed to be in good spirits, and he even smiled again before he said, "It's okay, I'll accompany you."

Su Xiuran must have never expected that it was his words that made her dazed when he proposed, and then took the ring in his hand.

They still went to eat together that day, and he would cough lightly occasionally and couldn't eat much, but he still sat with her tenderly and thoughtfully throughout the whole process.

The eyes, which were always considered too indifferent in the past, were covered with a layer of water because of the heat. At first glance, they seemed to contain infinite affection.

Sitting beside him and looking at him, she had a thought in her heart uncertainly: Maybe Su Xiuran really likes her, maybe she can try with him?
At that time, she hadn't thought about it—an inappropriate person, starting in an inappropriate way, no matter how many traces of deja vu love there were in the middle, they would gradually become relatively silent after all.

How did they gradually change from a state of harmony after the newlyweds to a point where they meet every day, eat together, go back to the room to lie down and sleep, but they even have very few conversations?
Oh, and work... After the grand wedding, she became Mrs. Su. Naturally, it was difficult for her to continue working in the company, so she and her mother-in-law stayed at home full-time as a wife.

It has to be said that when they don't even have a child to divide her energy and physical strength, this kind of life doing nothing in the mansion is as boring as a walking dead.

Apart from fitness, yoga, skin care and hair care every day... I can't find any other meaningful things to do.

When she is really bored, she will miss the days when she worked as an advertising copywriter in Shenyue. Of course, there are many unpleasant experiences in those work experiences.

But at that time, she at least had a clear goal of promotion and salary increase, and she had a group of colleagues and friends who were not particularly intimate but could still sit down and have a cup of coffee and chat after busy work.

Those were not very beautiful, even a bit fluffy, but she later envied such people and life.

She was born in a middle-class family, and her life was not impoverished since she was a child, and she didn't have much desire for material things.She is also tired of the so-called "upper social circle" that Qu Yan wants to bring her into. Finally, in the boring and monotonous life day after day, she feels like a canary trapped in a gorgeous cage, and the meaning of existence is narrow. to terrible.

This kind of dissatisfaction and boredom with reality also affected her feelings towards Su Xiuran. Their communication became less and less every day. customary words.

Of course there is still sex, after being with Su Xiuran, Lin Mei knew that his body was attractive to her, and her own probably attracted him too.So even if the relationship is getting weaker, they can still maintain a relatively harmonious sex frequency between husband and wife, which has not changed until they are about to divorce.

The length of their marriage, Lin Mei later calculated, it was three years, such a bland marriage that would not be a pity to abandon it could last for three years, it has to be said that it is not a big miracle.

She has hesitated whether to end this suffocating and depressing life. After all, apart from the cold relationship, Su Xiuran has not committed any intolerable mistakes such as cheating, and her relationship with Qu Yan and Su Xiuyan is very good. not bad.

But in the end, when they finally didn't say a word to each other other than what was necessary for several days in a row, she still made up her mind...Maybe if they had feelings before, it would be more difficult to maintain a marriage as pale as white water than never.Still remembering the throbbing he once had, but never being able to get it back from him, is another kind of torture.

Lin Mei chose to say the phrase "I think we should get a divorce" to him one morning. She didn't mean whether we should consider divorce, but that she had thought it over and the final conclusion was: we should get a divorce.

She believed that a smart person like Su Xiuran would understand what she meant. Sure enough, he was only silent for a moment, then raised his head and smiled slightly, as always gentle but ruthless: "Okay."

She saw his fingers pressed lightly on the chest, and then moved away, wanting to ask him if he was uncomfortable, but she gave up after thinking about it.

Su Xiuran's health is not very good, but the ridiculous thing is that even her wife doesn't know how bad it is.

In the past three years, when he was too busy with work, he occasionally fell ill and had a fever. She tried her best to care for him at first, but he seemed to dislike being cared for by her.

She didn't know if it meant that she was worried about her, or that she didn't want to touch his privacy... In short, every time he contacted the doctor, even if he went to see a doctor, he tried to avoid her as much as possible.

Sometimes even when he was discussing something with the family doctor named Cheng Yu, he would silently silence when he saw her approaching.

She understands that for a large company like Shenyue, the physical condition of the person in power needs to be kept secret. What's more, even if it is not for the company's consideration, but only out of his own wishes, the patient's privacy is also protected by law, even the partner. No exception.

It's just that she still couldn't help feeling isolated, as if she couldn't integrate into his life even though she was his wife and lived with him every day.

In short, they have entered the divorce procedure, and she also moved out of the Su family's mansion that morning and moved into the small apartment that she had set up before the marriage.

She admits that she can't wait for the new life that is about to start, and she doesn't miss the feeling of being in Su's house. As for Su Xiuran, she sometimes thinks of him, but she can only think of the years-like expression on his face. With a light smile, He Zong had dark eyes that were a bit cold.

After she moved away, she began to return to Su's house one after another to organize her belongings. Of course, she chose the time when Su Xiuran was not at home, so as to avoid the embarrassment of meeting each other.

When she met Su Xiuyan and Qu Yan at home, she would also chat with them. After all, if the divorce is really over, there will be almost no chance of meeting them.

That day, she went back to the Su family's mansion to sort things out, and this time she took away the last few items. If there were no accidents, there should be no need for her to appear in this mansion again.

Thinking of this, she couldn't help feeling a little bit emotional, and it happened that Su Xiuyan was at home, so they sat down to drink tea and chat, and talked about many topics that they would talk about before, nothing more than hobbies and so on.

However, when they were chatting happily, they heard familiar footsteps coming from the door. After three years of marriage, Lin Mei could naturally hear Su Xiuran's unique footsteps: calm, neat, just like his people, Wherever you go, there seems to be a cold aftertaste.

Lin Mei hadn't seen him again since she filed for divorce, so she stood up unexpectedly at this moment.

Contrary to her expectation, before she opened her mouth, she saw him lightly pursing his thin lips, and then said coldly: "If Miss Lin is willing, she can marry into Su's family for a second time, I don't mind .”

This sentence doesn't sound like an obvious insulting word, but the implied meaning is so vicious. She is almost angry when she hears it. She asks herself that she and Su Xiuyan have never had any ambiguity. This kind of friendship-like uncle-sister-in-law relationship is actually It can also look so unbearable in his eyes.

She was furious, and she poured out her thoughts on him for the past few years: "You are so shameless! I thought you were at least an upright gentleman!" She said angrily, looking at him with eyes full of contempt And hate, "Su Xiuran, you are simply a freak! Even a robot is more human than you! The thing I regret the most is marrying you!"

She knew that she had spoken harsh words, but she did not say more intense words when she was angry, which was already the result of deliberately suppressing her anger.

After she finished speaking, she tensed her body and waited for his rebuttal. Su Xiuran is not a very good-tempered person, and she knew this after she entered the work of Shenyue.As she tensed her nerves and prepared to deal with the upcoming volcanic eruption, she couldn't help but think sadly, as expected, any divorced couple needs a hearty and bloody quarrel. I don't know if Su Xiuran has potential Violence factor, will he do anything to women.

But she didn't wait for everything she expected. She kept staring at Su Xiuran, in case he suddenly rushed over to attack her, but saw that after he took a step back, he backed up a little, and then raised his hands to support him. He lived on the colonnade beside him.

The incident was so sudden that neither she nor Su Xiuyan could react, they just stood there in a daze, watching the briefcase in his hand slipping to the ground, followed by his powerless body.It wasn't until he fell on the floor half leaning against the pillar that they ran over together in a panic.

Only then did she realize that his face was so pale that it seemed to be the case when he first walked in. She only heard the cold words from his thin lips, but did not notice the paleness of his lips To the extreme, now it is even more blue and purple.

His five fingers were clasped tightly on his chest, but he didn't let out any groans, as if enduring pain like this was normal for him.

In a panic, she looked at him and felt that she was about to be unable to breathe. She wondered if she was mad at him. If she had thought that his heart was not good, she would not have quarreled with him.

He was still somewhat conscious, and after sweeping past Su Xiuyan, his eyes stayed on her. She thought she would see anger and condemnation from it. After all, she was angry with him, but she was not. He looked at her descriptively.

Then he even slightly bent the corners of his bruised lips, and said softly, "Sorry."

The voice was so low that she thought it was just her illusion, but after he finished speaking, he leaned back and quietly closed his eyes.

She stretched out her arms to embrace his weak body, felt that his body temperature had already started to drop, and heard Su Xiuyan's voice ordering others to call an ambulance, and then she vaguely remembered the way he looked at her just now, Maybe it's nostalgia.

Knowing that you will lose but can't do anything, knowing that there may be no future after one glance, knowing that you have to let go but can't let go... Such a tossing but strong nostalgia and despair.

Unknowingly, Lin Mei, who was squatting on the ground and trying to hold his body to maintain a posture, had tears on her face.

Sitting on a chair outside the emergency room, waiting for good or bad news from inside, Lin Mei felt that everything that happened today was so absurd.

She wanted to end a marriage that should have ended a long time ago, but she fell into another unspeakable relationship so suddenly.

In the past three years, Su Xiuran treated her with respect as a guest, and he never lost his composure, so she took it for granted that this marriage was nothing to him.

But today he lost his composure, not as she imagined, but even more thrilling.

She was in a state of confusion, recalling over and over again the look in his eyes before he fell into a coma. It was not at all like the look a cold, arrogant and self-willed husband should have when dealing with his wife who is about to divorce him.

She couldn't convince herself that it was the illusion he gave her when he was weak, because he was obviously about to lose his mind, but he still insisted on saying "sorry" to her.

Even the curvature of the corners of his lips were faintly traces of tenderness.

She thought that for so many years, she had always thought that Su Xiuran didn't love her at all, so she could not love him without any scruples.No effort is made to repair the relationship between them.

Until this moment, until this moment when everything should have ended, she suddenly became uncertain, and suddenly began to feel... What if Su Xiuran loved her?
If he loved her so reservedly and calmly, even clumsily, then what had she missed all these years?
As long as she thought of this possibility, she actually felt... her heart was pierced by a knife.

Su Xiuran's operation lasted for a long time, and he was sent out of the emergency room until it was dark.

The one who operated on him was Cheng Yu, the family doctor of Su's family. Although he worked part-time as the family doctor of Su's family, he was actually a skilled surgeon. He was the one who examined Su Xiuran in the past few years.

Sweeping his gaze over Lin Mei and Su Xiuyan who were waiting outside the emergency room, he smiled slightly, with a bit of sarcasm on his handsome face that didn't match his age: "You two didn't even leave."

Su Xiuyan aside, Lin Mei didn't know why she just sat outside the emergency room for hours.

She could only force a dry smile and said, "How is Mr. Su?"

Now that she and Su Xiuran have signed a divorce agreement, there is nothing wrong with her calling him Mr. Su, but Cheng Yu gave her a cold look, and laughed "heh", meaning that he was not clear.

He ignored him directly, turned his head to Su Xiuyan and said, "I'm not in danger, I still need to be observed in the ICU, please tell your mother."

He almost watched Su Xiuran and Su Xiuyan grow up, and he spoke casually to them. Su Xiuyan nodded immediately and called Qu Yan who was not there.

As a quasi-"ex-wife", Lin Mei didn't seem to have much of a position to stay here, but she couldn't persuade herself to leave after hearing the phrase "there is no danger".

Under the pressure of Cheng Yu's continued sarcasm and cold reception, she said, "That is to say, the situation is not very good, right?"

Seeing her insistence, Cheng Yu turned to look at her, and then showed a cool smile: "Miss Lin, since you don't know the specific condition of your ex-husband, it was not intentional to stimulate him to get sick, and you should not be held legally responsible , even if the Su family wants to sue you, they won't win, so don't worry."

Lin Mei has always been a person who puts results first. Hearing what he said, she didn't entangle him with his attitude, but grasped the key words: "Doctor Cheng, I want to remind you that although Mr. Su and I have already signed Divorce agreement, but we have not formally gone through the divorce procedures, and are still in the stage of divorce agreement, which means that I am still his wife in a legal sense, so I have a certain right to know about his illness."

She said such a long paragraph in one breath, which really surprised Cheng Yu, looked at her sideways, and then said: "Since Miss Lin keeps saying that she is still Xiu Ran's wife, the phrase 'Mr. It's really easy to say."

Lin Mei bit the bullet and gave a dry laugh: "The love between husband and wife is not enough for outsiders."

At this point in her words, Cheng Yu was really speechless. He glanced at Su Xiuyan, who was standing beside him pretending to be a good person, and said, "Okay...Xiu Ran has a heart disease, which was cured by surgery before, but There have been signs of recurrence in the past two years, and the heart failure has also developed to stage B, and there is a tendency to develop to stage C.

"I persuaded him to undergo another operation half a year ago, but he has not made up his mind for some reason. The risk of the operation is not at the point of life and death, but I told him that there is a certain probability of failure, so it is best for him to notify in advance. You guys, ask for your opinion."

As he was speaking, seeing the astonished expressions of both Su Xiuyan and Lin Mei, he sighed: "It seems that you really don't know... I should have talked to you if I knew it."

He shook his head while talking, but his tone was accusing them: "So you should also think about why he can't trust you on such an important matter."

Hearing this, Lin Mei remembered that when he was talking to Su Xiuran before, he noticed her approaching and stopped the conversation on purpose, and was a little unconvinced: "Didn't Su Xiuran take the initiative to hide his physical condition and illness from me? ?"

In her cognition, Su Xiuran hid it from her. Apart from paying attention to her own privacy, she also had worries about Shenyue's operation and equity. After all, in his position, he was not very close to him if he was in his position. It is also a form of self-protection for his wife to conceal her medical history.

Cheng Yu heard the resentment in her tone, and there was a sarcasm on his lips again: "Yes, he took the initiative to hide it from you, and he also concealed that he had written a will long ago, and the will was written by Lin Lin. What you can get, miss, is much more than the current divorce...Why, do you regret it again after hearing this?"

Regarding the will, it is also a private matter. Cheng Yu consciously slipped his words, but he is a straightforward person. Looking at Lin Mei, he added: "Xiu Ran told me that he didn't have much time to accompany you, so let you He will feel sorry for worrying about his body." After speaking, he stopped staying, turned around and left.

Su Xiuyan glanced at Lin Mei who was stunned, and said, "I'll do as long as I'm here. If you're tired, you can go back and rest first."

The "go back" he said naturally meant that Lin Mei could go back to her apartment, and in the next few days, she could naturally stop caring about the affairs here.

When talking to Cheng Yu, she could insist that they have not officially divorced, but they have reached the point where they are only one divorce certificate away.Regardless of morality or obligation, Lin Mei didn't need to wait in the hospital for Su Xiuran to wake up.

However, Lin Mei shook her head resolutely. She couldn't say why, but she just felt that if she left like this now, she would definitely miss something very important.

How important are those things?She is not very clear yet, she only knows that perhaps it is more important than any moment she has ever experienced in this life.

The way Su Xiuyan saw her finally changed. In the past, when he talked to her, there was always a smile in his eyes, as if he liked this sister-in-law very much, not because of her identity, but because of her.But that kind of kindness always seems to hide some other meanings, with some unclear temptations.

Now his eyes suddenly became deeper, as if this was the first time he was seriously looking at her.

In the end he still smiled and said indifferently: "That's fine, if you're sleepy, I'll help you get coffee."

The intensive care unit cannot be entered. Even if you stay here, you can only see a figure on the hospital bed through the glass.

Su Xiu said to get coffee, the second young master, who pursues the ultimate enjoyment in everything, naturally does not like the coffee in the convenience vending machine, and of course the coffee shop on the street is not good, he asked someone to deliver freshly ground coffee from home.Served with coffee, there are exquisite snacks and midnight snacks.

Having lived together for nearly three years, Lin Mei was no stranger to this, but today she no longer had the leisure to chat with Su Xiuyan, instead she was so preoccupied that she couldn't speak.

Su Xiuyan is much calmer. Now sitting in the hospital, eating supper in a slightly shabby environment, he is still quite contented. Holding a coffee cup, he looks at the figure behind the glass not far away, Suddenly he smiled and said, "Lin Mei, I might suspect that I took the initiative to get close to you."

Su Xiuyan is such a person, he can say something that is not so upright: "I know that you and your brother are not on good terms, so I will be closer to you to make him feel sad , but can’t say anything.”

Lin Mei knew that Su Xiuyan and Su Xiuran did not get along, and it was no secret in Shenyue as a whole. The two brothers were the largest shareholder and the second largest shareholder respectively, but Su Xiuyan was never stingy in expressing His opposition to Su Xiuran, coupled with Qu Yan, who holds more than 10% of the shares, has always supported his youngest son, the struggle within the Su family has always been a good show.

In fact, after she married into the Su family, she was puzzled by the Su family's behavior of living in the same house even if they didn't agree with each other.

It's just that she didn't expect that Su Xiuyan could hate Su Xiuran so much that she deliberately got close to her, just to make Su Xiuran sad.

Su Xiuyan didn't look at her, and continued: "After getting acquainted with you, I have to admit that I still like your type of woman." Speaking of which, he specifically explained, "It's not the kind that treats the opposite sex. Good impression, you do have that kind of attraction to me... But although I don't want my brother to feel better, I haven't lost my morals to the point of pursuing his spouse. Just as a friend, you are indeed a person worthy of deep friendship."

Hearing his messy comments seemed to be positive, Lin Mei was not in a good mood, and just forced a smile: "Thank you."

Then she thought of the time she spent with Su Xiuran in the past, and she didn't know why she suddenly didn't dare to recall those details, so she could only deceive herself and say: "Listen to you, I thought your brother loved me deeply."

Su Xiuyan finally turned his head to look at her, and laughed "hehe": "Does he love you? Of course he loves you...otherwise why should I go to such great lengths?"

In just a few hours, Cheng Yu and Su Xiuyan seemed to be stating a fact to her: Su Xiuran loved her, and loved her deeply.

It seemed that everyone in the world knew how much he loved her, but she was the only one who didn't.

She didn't like this feeling, so she could only close her eyes. In the chaos, she finally remembered what happened half a year ago.

That should be what Cheng Yu said, I hope Su Xiuran will undergo the operation and let him seek the opinions of his family members.

Some small things that she didn't pay much attention to at the time suddenly surfaced because of various reminders, and she remembered that Su Xiuran might have indeed asked her opinion about whether to undergo surgery.It's just that he didn't explain that he might have to undergo surgery, but before going to bed one night, he told her that if he needed to rest for a while, it would take a long time, it would take about a month, and asked her if she had any suggestions.

From the day she met Su Xiuran, he was a workaholic who never took a vacation. Even their honeymoon was repeatedly compressed to only four or five days.

Hearing that he suddenly said that he would take a break for a month, she was shocked and strange at the time, so she was quite impressed.

She remembered that when she heard him say that, her first reaction was that he wanted to take a month off, and she came to ask her specifically, as if she hoped that she could accompany him.

And that was the eve when she wanted to file for a divorce with Su Xiuran. She wished she could reduce the time she spent with him, and when she thought of spending a whole month with him day and night, she felt a little resistant and impatient.

She thought her thoughts must be reflected in her tone and expression. Su Xiuran has always been a sensitive person in this regard, so he must have noticed it.

At that time, she pretended to be hesitant and said: "But I have already booked a few days with my mother to go to the spa together, and there are other activities in the future, I am afraid I don't have much time to accompany you."

After hearing what she said, he was unexpectedly silent for a while, and he was a little absent-minded. Just when she was wondering if he was angry, he raised his head and smiled at her and said, "Forget it, let's find time later." .”

After that, she did go to a foreign resort with Qu Yan for a spa treatment. She went there for more than ten days. He is divorced.

Not long after returning from the spa, she filed for divorce with him, and the rest of the time was a long and protracted divorce agreement, as well as remnants of warmth that were fading away.

Lin Mei didn't expect that when she recalled that not-so-long conversation, she would remember every scene so clearly.

She even remembered Su Xiuran's expression at that time, she didn't understand at that time, but now she suddenly understood why he was silent, why when he raised his head and smiled at her, there was a very, very faint but unconcealable sadness on his lips.

Now, sitting outside the intensive care unit, through the glass, he could only be seen lying motionless and speechless like a silhouette, and she suddenly had an urge.

She wanted to go back half a year, grab that self-righteous woman, and ask her why she was so stingy with him, without even asking why he suddenly wanted to rest, and why it took him a month.

She has never been so indifferent to everyone, and why is she so cruel to him... so cold that she never gave him a chance to choose and explain all the decisions.

Su Xiuran felt that he had probably come to an end.

He didn't think he was a good husband, at least from the fact that his wife didn't love him at all, it was because he wasn't good enough and didn't do enough, which brought them to this situation today.

Maybe it's because when it's the end, he always thinks about the beginning. Ever since Lin Mei proposed to divorce him, he thought of a lot of the past between them.

When they were in love, and even after they got married, they had a not too bad life.She'd smile at him softly, with sheer patience, and a little affection that wasn't obvious.

He thought that she might have liked him at that time, and it was not as exaggerated as deep love, but there were indeed some traces of love.

Then everything disappeared without knowing when, and when she faced him, she was always cold and impatient.

He knew that she was a very good person, even if it was his mother and younger brother who were not easy to get along with, he could sit down and talk with her, like a family.

So the reason why she treats her so indifferently must be that he didn't do well enough, that he didn't have much time to accompany her, didn't give her the care and sweetness she deserved, and because he married her, she couldn't have a normal career. .

He tried his best to make up for it, but he got less and less response, and it became more and more impossible for him and her to sit down and have a good talk, but could only say some superficial words.

She had moved away as soon as they had begun the divorce process, and he knew that perhaps it was because her patience with him had finally run out and she could no longer bear the private moments with him.

After that, he noticed that the traces of her in the room were decreasing day by day.

Because of the delayed operation, his health is not very good. Sometimes when he wakes up in the morning, he will lie weakly for a few minutes before he can get out of bed, and he will cough up blood intermittently.

He was glad that she had already moved out, otherwise with such obvious symptoms, he wondered if he could still do everything as usual in front of her as before.

He knew that she avoided him when she came to pick up things, and he calculated day by day how many times she might need to come.

So when he was in the living room of Su's house again and bumped into her sitting with Su Xiuyan drinking tea and the suitcase beside her, he knew that this should be the last time she came to this house .

From this time on, all traces of her past stay in the bedroom between him and her will be lost, items including smells, all details will be told to him, and from today onwards, he will be alone.

After all, he still couldn't resist the huge sense of emptiness that suddenly rushed into his heart, and said ungracious words, which caused more harm to her.

In the darkness, he couldn't help thinking that if he was so poor and failed to maintain the last courtesy, would she not even want to see his tombstone in the future.

Thinking of this, he realized... At this moment, he has no nostalgia for this world.

When Su Xiuran woke up again, it was two days later. Although he was still connected to many tubes and instruments, he was transferred to the general ward.

After he regained consciousness, the first thing he saw was the figure sitting quietly beside the hospital bed.

Lin Mei wore a white sweater, her long black hair was loosely tied on her shoulders, her face was without makeup, but her long and clear eyebrows were slightly frowned, as if she was worried about something.

She turned sideways and tried to face him, but because she was too tired, she lowered her head and dozed off, and didn't notice that he had woken up at the first time.

For a few minutes, Su Xiuran felt that the person in front of him was a phantom of his wishful thinking, but when the darkness in front of his vision gradually dissipated and his mind became clearer, he was finally sure that it was really her.

Awakened by his suppressed and hoarse cough, Lin Mei's body shook and she looked up to see that he had opened his eyes, and she held his hand on the hospital bed in surprise.

After two days of worrying and not daring to close her eyes, she was so happy that she didn't notice the words she blurted out, with an intimacy that she hadn't seen for a long time: "Xiu Ran, you woke up, is there anything wrong?" Comfortable?"

Su Xiuran was still trapped in the previous embarrassment, he was slightly stunned, then lowered his eyes, and said softly: "Miss Lin."

Lin Mei is in a state of bewilderment at the moment. She has been married to him for more than three years. She knows that Su Xiuran is born well. It is not an exaggeration to say that the appearance is stunning.

Now she looked at him who just woke up, and suddenly had a strange impulse.

She couldn't tell what that impulse was, but she acted instinctively according to its inducement, so before her thinking ability arrived, she had lowered her head and kissed lightly on his light-colored thin lips.

After the kiss, she remembered that in the three years of marriage, this was actually the first time she took the initiative to kiss him.

He was also shocked by her unexpected behavior, his dark eyes looked at him motionless, she saw his eyes were full of helplessness... There was also a shyness that was so faint that it was almost undetectable.

She also blushed suddenly, from falling in love to getting married, more than three years, until the divorce, she felt the fluster that belonged to a girl for the first time.

In order to cover up this gaffe, she forced a smile and said: "Doctor Cheng slipped his tongue. I know about the will. Now I think it's more cost-effective not to divorce."

After she finished speaking, she suddenly realized that Su Xiuran might not be able to understand the joke, not to mention that she was going to make a will without dying not long after he was out of danger!Immediately, he hurriedly explained: "No, I was joking...Really, you can amend the will right away so that I don't get a dime, I don't care!"

Su Xiuran watched her talk nonsense with indifferent eyes, and there was a slight arc on his lips unconsciously.

If it was Lin Mei from before, she might have mistaken him for displeasure or lack of interest, but now that she looked over, she suddenly understood his gaze.

In the depths of those frozen black eyes, what can't be hidden is the boundless pampering and pampering.

His voice was low, with a slight cough, but he tried to soften his tone to her: "What exactly do you want to say?"

Lin Mei looked at him like a demon, and it took a long time before he suddenly said: "Xiu Ran, can we start over?"

This time, she let go of her prejudice and arrogance, and asked him seriously if she could start over with caution, temptation, and even shy expectations.

She felt like she had waited for a lifetime, and felt that she had only waited for a moment, and then she heard his low and gentle voice: "As you wish."

At this moment, she thought of a lot, and the details in her mind that she thought had been forgotten now flooded towards her like a tide.

When they were on their first date, he asked her with a smile: "I want to buy you a cup of coffee, I don't know if I'm taking the liberty."

They formalized their relationship, and he asked her softly with some uncertainty: "Xiaomei, can we be considered lovers?"

When he proposed to her, he carefully set up a scene that is often used in TV dramas but already looks old-fashioned in reality, booked the entire restaurant, and sent a proposal ring with a float of roses, and then looked at it seriously. She: "Xiaomei, will you marry me?"

At this moment, she had to admit that even though she looked calm, she was so worldly and stubborn.Just because she didn't understand that he would fall in love with an ordinary woman like herself, she took it for granted that he just took what she wanted from her, and that he didn't give her sincerity.

Like those who are wary of buying, she makes love a thing that can be considered - talking about reality, but it is just pathetic sophistication.

In fact, where does love need any logic and reason?Just like now... She took advantage of everything and had enough reasons to walk away from him.

But she no longer wanted to weigh any gains or losses, she just wanted to stay by his side, no one could pull her away.

She held his hand, and even though he just woke up a little weak, she couldn't wait to tell him what she said, as if she missed this moment and never had such a chance in her life: "Xiu Ran, I hope you can revise your will , I seriously ask you for this. I don’t need you to give me anything, even if you want to compensate me now. What I want, I will fight for it myself. That is also a kind of fun, don’t deprive me of the fun " She paused, looked up into his eyes and said, "With you, all I want is you."

They kept talking in the ward, but they didn't notice a figure quietly walking by the door, and before they noticed it, they left quietly.

Su Xiuyan went outside, making sure that they would not be affected, so she called Qu Yan and informed her that Su Xiuran was awake, and if she wanted to show maternal love, she had better come to the hospital now.

Hanging up the phone and closing the line, he looked up at the bleak autumn outside the window, and breathed a sigh of relief, not without regret but also with a strange sense of relief: "I still helped you, my dear brother."

Lin Mei in the ward was still talking to Su Xiuran, she seemed to have a lot to say to him suddenly, as if she wanted to tell him all the things that should be said or should not be said that had been accumulated for three years at this moment .

Su Xiuran was a little tired, but he still tried his best to listen to her, until he felt that his throat was so thirsty that he could no longer make a sound, then he reluctantly raised his finger to the water glass on the table, indicating that she was very thirsty.

Lin Mei hurriedly went over and mixed warm water to moisten his throat, and carefully adjusted his sitting posture to make him more comfortable. Fortunately, his condition did not develop to the point where he could not lie flat. She carefully fed him water while Pressing his hand lightly on his chest, the lingering fear still persisted: "Xiu Ran, will it be hard?"

Su Xiuran didn't know if she might have misunderstood her intentions, and slightly curled his lips and said, "Yes, seeing the one I love step by step away from me, but there is no way to bring it back."

Seeing the expression on Lin Mei's face as if being stabbed suddenly by a needle, he hurriedly said, "I'm just kidding..."

Lin Mei forced a smile at him, pressed her forehead against his, and said softly after a while: "Xiu Ran, I'm sorry."

Su Xiuran sighed: "Xiaomei, you never have to say sorry to me... What's more, I didn't do a good job."

Lin Mei hugged him, put her head on his shoulder, smelled the familiar smell of hospital disinfectant on his neck, and found that she missed him so much, the temperature of his skin, and the feeling of his embrace.

Even though he had no strength, he raised his hand and hugged her. When his body was so close that even his breath was entangled, she heard him say with self-deprecation: "I must be dreaming now."

Lin Mei quietly wiped away a tear with his clothes, and then said softly: "You are afraid that you are dreaming, so how about I say it every morning from now on?"

After recuperating for a while and recovering his physical condition, Su Xiuran underwent the operation. The result of the operation was very successful. Although he was unable to engage in heavy work in a short period of time, he basically recovered.

Of course, Doctor Cheng's doctor's order said that it's best not to deal with the company's mess in the future.

So during the few months when he was hospitalized, Su Xiuyan, who had gradually taken over the management of the company, could only continue to work hard for the shareholders. I transferred 10% of my shares to him, so he was a little more psychologically balanced.

Another example is when chatting one day, Lin Mei didn't hold back and asked Su Xiuran why he fell in love with her.

Su Xiuran smiled for a while, then said to her: "Do you remember...About six years ago, you passed by Shenyue Building on a rainy night, helped a man pick up his briefcase, and then helped him to a shelter from the rain. Sitting under the eaves?"

Six years ago, it was so far away. At that time, Lin Mei was still in her junior year. The reason for passing by Shenyue Building must not have been for work. It was probably because she passed the square in front of Shenyue Building to go to the subway on the other side after a party with friends. stand up.

She thought about it carefully, and she still had a little impression. It seemed to be a typhoon day, and it rained heavily. The long skirt she was wearing was half wet.

When she walked through the parking lot in front of the Shenyue Building, she saw a man standing in the rain. His umbrella and briefcase fell to the ground. He seemed to be suddenly uncomfortable and unable to support himself. He held it up with his hands. Bend slightly at the knees.

The reason why I was so impressed by his posture was because most people were drenched like soaked rats, and it was very unattractive when they did this posture, but because of his height and shape, or because of his demeanor, he actually looked In addition to being a little embarrassed, there is also a decadent aesthetic feeling.

As a kind-hearted and noble college student, she was naturally... compassionate, and hurried over to ask for help, and helped him pick up his briefcase and umbrella, and helped him to rest under the eaves aside.

Seeing her expression, Su Xiuran knew that she had remembered, so he smiled and said: "I worked overtime too late that day, so I asked the driver to go back first, and I was going to drive home by myself, but I felt a little uncomfortable halfway."

When he said this, he smiled slightly: "Actually, a few steps further, it's my car. I also told you to help me sit in the car..."

Lin Mei finally remembered: "But you looked like you couldn't drive at that time, so I helped you to the side to rest. What if you have an accident while driving like that?"

Su Xiuran was quite helpless: "I can at least sit down in the car, have dry clothes to wear, and blow the warm air and air conditioner..."

Lin Mei thought about it, and it was true, but Su Xiuran, who was supported by her at that time, had no strength to speak, and was forced by her to treat him as a person with an unclear mind, and helped him to lean against the rain shield not far away.

Lin Mei cleared her throat, and became confident again: "I called the emergency call for you soon, and I stayed with you to see you being sent to the ambulance, and even left my name and contact information with the hospital, so I can't wait to see you. left."

Su Xiuran smiled slightly: "So I know your name."

Not only did he remember the girl who was kind enough to help him on a rainy night, but he also accidentally discovered that she had entered Shenyue as an intern two years later.

No one knew that he had a feeling of regaining what was lost at that time, and no one knew that when he was reminded by Qu Yan that he had reached the age when he had to get married, her figure naturally appeared in his mind.

That girl who didn't even know who he was, she devoted herself to helping him, called an ambulance for him with tyrannical gentleness, and left her name and contact information without fear of being blackmailed... In this indifferent era , There are really too few such people.

It's a pity that for Lin Mei, that terrible and chaotic night not only included the people she enthusiastically helped to lift up, but also a series of waiting for the ambulance for so long that she missed the last subway, and could only stand shivering on the street during the typhoon I tried to take a taxi, but I couldn’t get one at all, so I had to walk to a night bus station one kilometer away in the rain to take a bus, and waited for half an hour shivering in the cold wind, waiting for the first bus to come, and then backed down A train trip... It was already early morning when I returned home, my whole body was drenched, I was reprimanded by my parents, I sadly caught a cold and had a fever the next day, and I went to the hospital for three days on drips, etc. A series of unlucky chain reactions.

After hearing Lin Mei's sullen narration of her next tragic experience, even Su Xiuran laughed and said in admiration, "Looking at it this way, I do owe you a thank you."

Lin Mei looked up to the sky and sighed: "What's more, if I recognized you as the big boss of Shenyue at that time, why would I ask you to send a car to take me home? I am your savior. It must be the kind of treatment that saved the fox fairy, you want to repay your kindness to me!"

Although he sympathized with her suffering out of humanitarianism, Su Xiuran still reminded her realistically: "My life was not in danger that day, but my body was slightly unwell, so it is not considered a lifesaver."

What he didn't say was because she called an ambulance on her own initiative, and he had to call his family and his driver, secretary, etc. in the hospital to make them pay attention not to let the news that Chairman Shenyue was sent to the emergency room late at night released by the media.

Seeing Lin Mei's puffed up cheeks, he smiled and pinched her, coaxing her in a doting tone: "Well, I will repay the favor later, but I didn't do it well at the beginning, and I didn't remind you. "

Only then did Lin Mei feel happy again, she hugged his arm and went to ask him for a kiss.

Love can make people childish and disgusting, and Lin Mei, who has finally entered the belated honeymoon period, obviously does not intend to let go of this opportunity to indulge herself and stop being a mature and calm lady.

Later, when Su Xiuran recovered, Lin Mei, who had shown enough love to him, proposed what she planned to do.

It turned out that a former classmate of hers at school, after graduation, went to City B to do books for her dreams and hobbies. After a few years, she developed well. I remembered that her old classmate who was very good at writing Chinese in the same class back then happened to be at home now. , I suggested to Lin Mei that she try to write a novel. If she writes well, she can help her plan the publication.

Lin Mei was indeed interested in this aspect, and after holding it back for a while, she finally came up with an outline, and then showed it to Su Xiuran, the only reader beside her, to read it.

She thought that Su Xiuran, who deals with numbers every day, would not be interested in it, but he actually read it carefully and made some suggestions for revision. Even if Lin Mei was creating for the first time, she felt His advice was nothing short of professional.

She was stunned for a moment, looked at him and said, "Xiu Ran, don't you plan to write it yourself?"

Su Xiuran smiled and shook his head: "It is enough for a family to have one writer, there is no need for a second one."

Maybe it was shocked by Su Xiuran's creative ability, Lin Mei had a dream that night, in the dream, she became the planning editor of the book company, and Su Xiuran not only left Su's family, but also became a very successful writer.

They met in City B, helped the police solve the case together, and finally fell in love and were together.

The next morning, as soon as Lin Mei woke up, she pulled Su Xiuran and told about the dream.

Su Xiuran obviously thought what she said was ridiculous, especially in her dream, Du Lin, one of his right-hand assistants in Shenyue, turned out to be a mentally twisted criminal with a high IQ targeting him.

After he finished laughing, he asked Lin Mei: "Have I really become a best-selling author? Then what is the name of my famous work? Have you dreamed about it?"

Lin Mei took advantage of the memory of the dream, and quickly recalled it: ""A Woman Worthy of Me"...is it great?"

Su Xiuran couldn't help laughing out now: "It's really a name that the kitsch book market will like. I think it's really good. It can be the name of your new book."

Lin Mei watched with some gloom as a faint smile appeared in his black eyes, which looked extraordinarily charming, so she pounced on him and gave him a wolf kiss in the morning: "Hmph, don't think I don't know you You are laughing at me!"

(End of this chapter)