Half-life immortal

Chapter 66 My Heart Is Not Here

She walked over and knelt down in front of the dead beggar woman.She could see more clearly at a close distance. The beggar woman who was beaten to death could not rest in peace until she died. Her eyes were wide open, and her eyes were full of unwillingness and hatred.

She stretched out her hand to close the woman's eyes, but she forgot that she couldn't touch anything, the woman still opened her eyes angrily, and those eyes were bloodshot.

"Alas..." She could only sigh, and said quietly, "So, is this my fear? It's really sad that I didn't live in the right place, and was spurned after death, and there was no one to collect the body."

"I probably really thought that I would die like this before, a meaningless and worthless death. When I was alive, I was poor and sick. Even though my requirements were very low, others still wouldn't let you do so. Just two coppers won't get you, and then you're left with a dead end. Well, the irony is, you don't even get to choose how you die."

But her eyes changed quickly, and she said: "But these are in the past, and even these fears are past fears. My fate has changed. I will no longer be reduced to begging on the street, and I will no longer be begged. Bullying by villains, I will not work hard for two copper coins. I am not the same as I used to be."

A slight arc was drawn at the corner of her mouth, and she said to the woman who was dying with regret: "I will not be you, I will not let my life be confined to this small place. I will become a fairy, the most powerful person in the world Not only can I protect myself, but I can also protect everyone who cares about me and loves me, I want to fill my world with rainbows, and you... just disappear, and take away all my fears."

After she figured it out, she felt that the vision suddenly opened up, and the phantoms that could never happen to her gradually disappeared, the streets, houses, and the eyes that could not be closed until the beggar woman died, all disappeared.

She sat quietly in the dark, stroking her chest with her hands, and could feel the beating of the heart in her chest.This is the power of life, she is alive!

To live is to live better!From the day when she was alone on the road when she was very young, she decided that since no one treats her well, she must treat herself well, and make her life happier, more comfortable, and more face-saving!
The real obsession is actually this.

Suddenly the surrounding scenery changed again, and she frowned, wondering if it's not over yet?

This time she came to a place like a paradise, a family, a few thatched huts, green grass, birds and flowers, chicken sheds and bird nests next to the thatched huts, surrounded by fences, and laughter came from the small courtyard.

What a peaceful place...

She wondered how she could see such a beautiful illusion. Could it be that the Magic Heart Grass has also changed its nature?Or is it about to stage a big reversal?

Soon she saw two children running past her, a boy and a girl, chasing and playing with each other, very unhappy.

The two children didn't seem to see her, so she knew that she was a transparent person here again, and sighed helplessly: It seems that the fear of the future in her heart is not over yet, and she doesn't know what it is this time.

She followed the two children into one of the huts, and saw the parents of the two children in the hut, and then there was an image of a loving mother and son, and the family was happy.

She frowned, not knowing what it meant again this time.This kind of happy family scene is really not suitable for her, what do you want her to watch?
The middle-aged man who was the father entered the back hall and pushed out an old woman in a wooden wheelchair.The old woman's face was wrinkled and she was so old that she could hardly move, but her eyes were still soft and loving when she looked at her children and grandchildren.

Xue Qinglan was dumbfounded again, pointing at the old woman in the wheelchair and screaming: "You—you can't be me, right?"

The appearance of a person when he is young is very different from when he is old. There is almost no similarity between this octogenarian woman and Xue Qinglan, but Xue Qinglan knows that this old woman who is dying is her I!
The old woman lovingly caressed the heads of her grandchildren, and her son and daughter-in-law, Cheng Huan, lived in a place like a paradise. They were just... I don't know how to put it, they should be the happiest people in the world.

She just wanted to be nice to herself and make herself the happiest person, but is this the happiness she wants?Take care of your husband and children like an ordinary person, enjoy the family happiness, and then die of old age in a wheelchair?

"vomit……"

Xue Qinglan finally couldn't help but began to retch, but unfortunately she has no body now, even if she wanted to vomit, she couldn't vomit, so she could only retch beside her.

Well, it’s true that the best life should look like this, but why did she feel disgusted when she saw it, and the more she thought about it, the more disgusting she became, it’s a good thing that she didn’t spit it out directly.

fear?Is this fear?Is it purely for disgusting people to play?
She angrily said to the roof: "What the hell are you doing? Boring or not? I, Xue Qinglan, have been on the fairy road for more than two hundred days! I said that if I don't become a fairy, I will never give up. How could I have been there? Ordinary life? If I die in bed like a boring old lady, I might as well be burned by Feng Yutian!"

When she arrived at Taiqing Mountain for the first time, she secretly swore to herself: If she can successfully enter the gate, she will never regret it, even if she dies on the road of cultivating immortals, she will be happy with it!

She has been doing nothing all her life, and being treated like an ordinary woman as a tool to carry on the family line, hearing others call her "mother" and "grandmother", she really can't bear it, just thinking about it.If there is such a day, she would rather die.

So this kind of life in a paradise is not the future she wants, absolutely not!

She said a series of words towards the roof, and then she was free to let out a sigh of relief, and comforted herself: "Calm down, don't be impulsive, you must stay rational."

She walked towards the old woman in the wheelchair, regardless of the people in the room passing through her illusory body, and said to the old woman: "If you were me, then you should know me. I am really afraid of death, I do like comfort, but that doesn’t mean I’m happy with the ordinary. I also like adventure and a life without restraint and laws. If my life is bound by the so-called common sense and the so-called human relations in this small hut In the middle, then for me, it is indeed an unacceptable fear."

"If you were me, it would definitely not be what you want to be reduced to such a state, right? The sky outside is so high, the land outside is so big, how can a small thatched cottage imprison your soul? It doesn't matter what the world thinks of you , I never care about those, I only care about what I think. This kind of life makes me sick, because my heart is not here, but on the edge of the higher and farther six realms!"

Her eyes lit up, probably because she was moved by herself, and she continued: "At that time in the corridor of the Taiqing Hall, I saw a magnificent mural, and then I knew that this world is not only the human world, but also the god world, Demon world, ghost world, demon world, fairy world, there may be other unknown mysterious places. Now I am in the legendary shady ruins, I want to go out, I want to take a good look at this world, so I can't be imprisoned anywhere , nothing can imprison me, not even the so-called 'family happiness'."

After speaking, she suddenly became enlightened, and at the same time she was very glad that this was just a dream. She secretly decided in her heart that she must not let this nightmare come true. If she really lived her life like an ordinary woman, then her life would be real. It doesn't make sense anymore.

This "tragedy" cannot be allowed to happen...

As soon as her thoughts cleared up, the illusion around her finally began to collapse.Such an illusion couldn't trap her heart, so naturally there was no need to continue.

However, what drove her crazy was that the magic heart grass was really endless. After the Xanadu disappeared, she still didn't return to the real world, but went to a mountain again.

She couldn't help looking around, and found that this place was another place she didn't know. Surrounded by mountains, surrounded by clouds and mist, the purple air rose from the east, and the winter snow melted. It was a magnificent scene.

"But where exactly is this place? Where is 'I'?" She couldn't help muttering, and compared it with the surrounding peaks in her heart, she found that the place she was in should be the main peak of the mountains, with steep cliffs , almost a thousand-foot cliff, if you fall from here, you won't even find a complete bone.

"Wow - what a dangerous place!" Realizing this, she couldn't help turning pale, and whispered to herself, "How did I get up so high? This is why the legendary monkeys and birds can't climb up." A place where sparrows can’t fly? What are you doing in a place like this?”

The place where the illusion appears is meaningful. Xue Qinglan tried to guess what she would see in a while from the scenery she could see now, but she had no clue after looking for a long time.

When the sun was about to rise, a small black spot appeared from the far east.

"Huh?" Xue Qinglan stared, the black dot became more and more clear, it turned out to be a fairy flying with a sword!

The fairy came by the sun, and the rising sun behind her was so golden that Xue Qinglan couldn't see her face clearly.But since only one person appeared in this illusion, it must be her in the future!
It seems that in the future, she should be successful in cultivation, at least able to fly with a sword!Looking at her fluttering clothes from a distance, her speed is like the wind, she really looks like a fairy.

She immediately became happy and said with a smile, "This future is good, I like it!"

But the matter was not over yet, the woman Yujian flew to this mountain and stopped, sitting cross-legged on the highest point of the mountain, with her long sword on her knees, meditating quietly.

The place where she landed happened to be not far from Xue Qinglan, Xue Qinglan could clearly see her appearance, and it really didn't look much different from her current appearance, it should be the future version of her that Magic Heart Grass showed her.

Before she had time to observe carefully, the sky suddenly turned overcast, and large clouds gathered on the top of the mountain.

Looking at the growing cloud above her head, she was dumbfounded again, and said in a low voice, "This—couldn't this be a catastrophe? The legendary lightning strike?"

Xue Qinglan's knowledge is limited, she has never seen what the real Heavenly Tribulation looks like, and Fairy Ling Yi didn't tell her because she was afraid that she would be so far ahead.However, after many days of practice, the most basic understanding is still there. An indispensable part of the Heavenly Tribulation is the Thunder Tribulation, and the biggest feature of the Thunder Tribulation is that there are large clouds of thunder clouds gathered above the head.

The thundercloud grew bigger and bigger, and soon covered hundreds of miles around. From a distance, the entire small mountain range was shrouded in thunder calamity.

Her scalp tingled for a while, and she said, "Isn't it? Is it so exaggerated?"

It seems that her future self has not yet become a fairy, and is preparing to cross the catastrophe.And this mountain where birds and beasts are extinct is the place she chose to cross the catastrophe.Crossing the Tribulation is something that every successful immortal cultivator will encounter. It is also the most difficult hurdle on the road to immortality, and it is also the minimum standard for becoming an immortal.As an immortal cultivator, Xue Qinglan naturally had to imagine her appearance during the tribulation, so she saw this scene.

Not long after, the thunderclouds were brewing enough, and the first sky thunder struck down with a bang!
(End of this chapter)