Tibetan Mastiff Notes

Chapter 50
Uncle Xianba told me: "Dahei was like this when he was a child. The mastiff should grow according to its nature since it was young. When it grows up, it will naturally be calm. The mastiff should do what it should do when it is young. Artificially interfering too much will not It is conducive to its growth, let it run and fall by itself, the more it suffers, the more lessons it receives, and it will naturally be smart and sophisticated when it grows up."

I nodded. In fact, from this point of view, people and animals are the same. If it is said that great things can be achieved without wind and rain, unless the person is very lucky, it is either the protection of the ancestors or the credit of the parents.

At night, I stayed at Uncle Xianba’s house. Although the princess was very excited during the day, she suddenly became silent at night. It may be the first day she left her mother and came to a strange environment again.When I fell asleep in the middle of the night, I was awakened by a slight noise. I lit the oil lamp in the house, and saw the princess standing pitifully in front of my bed, with two front paws grabbing the head of my bed, and she wanted to stick out her tongue to lick it. I couldn't reach it, so I reached out and patted its head, and said, "Hey, go sleep in your own den."

The wind outside the house was howling, and the woods were blown by the wind. The princess grabbed the edge of the bed with her front paws, rubbed her hind legs, and jumped onto the bed. She insisted on squeezing the bed with me, but I pushed it away, and it was wronged. He hummed and chirped, and leaned over again in a whimpering manner.

I had no choice but to let it go, I blew out the lights, but I couldn't sleep, listening to the wind outside the house, thinking that I would leave the prairie soon, leave this simple land and these simple and honest people, as well as Dahei and Gesang And those dear people who have rescued me in times of difficulty, helped me, and taught me a lot.

I thought about these people and things, just like the night before I left the army, and I lost sleep again. I wanted to find a reason for myself not to leave, but when I thought about this, I felt as if there was a pair of eyes in the dark. Staring at me, those were big black eyes, she was laughing at me, and wanted to be lazy, to escape from reality, and to find a reason for wasting her time.

Hearing the princess fell asleep deeply, breathing evenly, I thought: at this moment, Dahei should be half-opening his eyes, guarding the door of his house, while vigilant about the movement outside the house, thinking about My four sons and daughters may also be thinking of me.

I don’t know if Dahei will occasionally think of me or forget me after I left the prairie for many years.I thought about it, and found a reason to comfort myself. I thought: Even if Dahei forgets me, it’s not really forgotten, but there are people and things more important than me in her heart. That is to protect her owner, sheep and prairie.Sometimes, I hate myself for being such a sentimental person, thinking about how to say goodbye to everyone, how to say goodbye to the big black, I think over and over again, using various ways and organized words in my mind, When it was dawn, he hadn't fallen asleep yet.

The growing little mastiff sleeps a lot every day. When the princess woke up early in the morning, seeing me with my eyes open, she immediately threw herself on me, washed my face with its saliva, and then jumped out of bed , I went to find Uncle Xianba for food.

After breakfast, I finally hugged the princess and was about to leave. Uncle Xianba stopped me, handed me something, and said, "This is what Dajie told me to hand over to you, and I have to accept it no matter what. He Say you like mountaineering too, but you don’t have a mountaineering watch of your own, so I’ll give you this one, and when he comes back from Hong Kong and goes to Beijing, he’ll bring you a better one.”

This is the Suunto Advisor model mountaineering watch. I wore it when I climbed Tianzi Peak last time. It is very practical and reliable.When Dajie wanted to give it to me last time, I didn't accept it, but this time he insisted that his father forward it to me. I was moved by the simplicity of the people around me, so I took it and put it carefully in my pocket.I said a little sorry: "I was going to bring Dajie's mountaineering suit back with me. Anyway, I'm leaving soon and I can't wear it anymore. It's a pity that I met a wolf in the snow valley last time and was torn to pieces." One thing, when Dajie goes to Beijing, I will treat him well!"

"What is a set of clothes? Dajie has several sets of mountaineering suits! Some of them are almost moldy in the box." Uncle Xianba said with a smile, and packed the food for me on the road.Seeing that I was about to leave, the princess rushed forward and hugged my legs tightly with her little paws, refusing to let go.

I stroked the princess's little head for the last time, gently opened its little paws, and set off.In order to take care of the princess, I didn't let Uncle Xianba see me off. I walked for a while, and when I turned around and waved again, I saw the princess was so wronged that she wanted to cry, looking pitifully at my back as I left.I was cruel, turned my head, and strode forward without looking back at her again. My heart hurts very much. It hurt like this when I left the army. It was for my dearest comrade-in-arms, but now , but I feel heartache for an animal, what's wrong with me?
The day of parting always comes the fastest. The last time I helped all the herdsmen in the village repair the sheepfolds, Dahei followed me silently as a supervisor. When I was tired and sat down to rest, she would come over and endure Sit down with me.

As dusk approached, a figure in a camouflage suit and a black mastiff covered in wounds sat together, and the colorful clouds fell, covering my shoulders and Dahei's body.I wish I had a camera at that time, which could capture the most inseparable beauty of the sunset at that moment and keep it forever. Unfortunately, many years later, I can only recall the scene at that time with the memory in my mind. .

When I was leaving, the whole village came to see me off. Although there were not many families, I was moved to tears.Dahei stood at the head of the farewell team, the crown prince and the prince crowded beside their mother, Grid did not come, maybe Uncle Zhaximu also knew that I liked Grid very much, and he was afraid that I would take it away?
Gesang wanted to cry, but he hugged me and said he wanted to go to Beijing with me, I patted his head and said, "Okay, when you grow up and can serve as a soldier, come to Beijing to find me. "

Gesang cried. He took out the last bullet from that earthen shotgun, handed it to me and said, "Brother, I don't have anything, so I can only give you this. I won't have a chance to shoot again in the future." , This is my last bullet, keep it as a souvenir.”

I struggled not to cry, and held the bullet tightly in my hand.Dear Bullet, when I was in the army, I used you to perform tasks; on the prairie, I used you to kill ferocious wolves; at the last moment of parting, you became the simplicity of me and little Gesang Emotional testimony!I took off the military watch on my wrist and gave it to Gesang. After so many years in the army, only that military watch is the most valuable thing on me.

When I was leaving, people in the village gave me a lot of food. I am grateful for the pure friendship of these people on the prairie, which cannot be exchanged with more money.

The one who sent me the farthest was Dahei. She followed me and walked slowly, very calmly. Her injuries on her body were healed, but the injuries on her front legs had not fully recovered. A little limp, he followed me slowly, still so silent, half-closed a pair of small eyes.

Dahei sent me far away, she couldn’t say goodbye to me, she could only express it in this wordless way, when I touched her head, she licked my palm, this is the most common way we use The way of communication, she licked slowly, as if to imprint the smell of my palm forever.

I stopped, and I will send you off for thousands of miles, and there will be a farewell!
I began to hate Heizi, he was the one who asked me to come to this place. After suffering the pain of parting the troops once, I have to endure this distressing feeling again.I hugged Dahei's neck and gently rubbed the hair on her neck with my cheek. Dahei sighed deeply, raised her head, and gently rubbed my face with her wide mouth, like Kissed goodbye, then turned decisively and pointed my ass in my face one last time.

Whenever Dahei despises me, she will do this, but this is the last time, I think: I may never have the opportunity to enjoy this kind of "treatment" from Dahei again.Before I regretted it, I was cruel, turned around, and turned my back to Dahei, Dahei was also sighing, she was silent for a long time, we just stood there with our backs facing each other, I couldn't bear to leave , Dahei is also reluctant to part with me.

Dahei raised her head for the last time, looked at the sun in the sky, it was getting late, it was time to leave, she didn’t look back at me, and walked back slowly, she walked very slowly, as if she couldn’t bear it Just out of my sight, I cried to her: "Dahei!"

Dahei didn't look back at me again, and used her decisiveness to suppress the sadness in her heart, completely interrupting my thoughts of regretting.Watching Dahei's figure slowly fade out of my sight broke my heart.I also know that as a man, perhaps he shouldn't be so affectionate, but there is no way, this is the friendship formed after Dahei and I have gone through life and death together, this friendship is no worse than the brotherhood on the battlefield, maybe Just because Dahei is a mastiff, it seems that this friendship is extremely precious.

On the train back to Beijing, I was like when I just got off the army. The train wheels slammed outside the window, and the car was full of loud laughter. I couldn’t laugh, and my mind was blank. I was afraid that I would leave In the prairie, the figure of Dahei will disappear from my mind. I try hard to remember all her appearances.

This was the first time I went home after being in the military for the first time in years I never went home once as a protest against my mother forcing me to do things I didn't like.But now I only have regrets in my heart. In fact, it is not easy for my mother!
I haven't seen each other for several years, but my parents greeted me warmly, as if I were an outsider.I don’t talk, my elder sister is not at home on a business trip, my younger sister is reading a military magazine, she quietly told me, “Brother, I also want to be a soldier in the future, do you think there are women in the army?” I said, “Yes, But you have to see the opportunity, besides, does mom agree?" The younger sister said: "If she doesn't agree, I will learn from you. Didn't you overturn the dinner table in a fit of anger? Mom later said that at that time, she could I was so scared, I thought you were out of your mind! Later, I didn’t dare to force you anymore..." The little girl was still talking about some things about her mother back then, and the mother was already calling for dinner in the living room, and said while eating: "Xiao Bing You are not young anymore, in two days, mom will take you on a blind date..."

My mind was clouded, and I couldn't hear a word of what my mother said later, and I felt like flies were screaming in my head.At night, I quietly packed my luggage in the house, and my little sister was half leaning against the door looking at me, and asked, "Going again? Where are you going?" I gestured for her to keep silent, and whispered, "Go to a very remote place." A place where Mom can’t find you.” The little girl asked again: “How long will you be there? I’ll miss you if it’s too long.”

My little sister is the only one in the whole family who can talk to me. Although she is not a boy, she has the same temper as me.I have loved her the most since I was a child. She has a very strict mouth and can always keep secrets for me. I whispered: "I am going to Hoh Xil. People like me can only live comfortably there. I want to go to Hoh Xil. To get back my lost values ​​and beliefs."

"Are you a hunter? Or a counter-hunter? I heard that there are many poachers and thieves there." The little girl said.I smiled, pinched her little face, and said, "Do you think your brother looks like a thief?" The little girl shook her head and said, "It's not like now, wait two years, when you are unshaven and hairy. , just like."

Going to Hoh Xil is a wish I made on the prairie. I want to be like Dahei, to contribute to this beautiful nature, to save those dying species, and to protect this beautiful prairie. Let future generations not curse us for not seeing those lovely animals and verdant prairies.Although one person's power is limited, I think that as long as I start from myself, a very small effort will bring about unexpected changes.

When I was leaving, it was the same as when I was a soldier. Before dawn, I slipped out of the house. Only my younger sister came to see me off and said, "Brother, you can go. I will be a soldier before I retire. I'm done, and I'll go to your place too."

When I parted from my little sister, it was still dark, and I walked alone to the station with my luggage on my back.Although the shadow is lonely, my heart is not alone. At least in my life, I have many comrades-in-arms and friends such as Dustpan and Heizi, as well as Dahei, and the only little sister in my family who supports me.

(End of this chapter)