occupy your heart

Chapter 67
Is it a dream?Is it realistic?In the endless coldness, she was ups and downs.why sad?She couldn't remember why she was sad, she couldn't remember everything. ． ．?
Yeah?Is it true that she can't remember, or is it just that she doesn't want to remember?Yes, yes, she remembered, but she just didn't want to mention it, so let's just keep sleeping like this, maybe this is the only way for her to forget everything.But what is it, has been calling myself.

That voice seemed very sad, no, it was very gentle.She tirelessly called out her own name, "Tingting, Tingting." For some reason, there was soreness in her eyes, and she suddenly had an urge to cry.But she couldn't cry, couldn't open her eyes, and couldn't move her body, like someone trapped in a swamp, no matter how violently she struggled, it turned into a small swing.

What's going on, her body can't move anymore! !She was completely disobedient, and she couldn't even do such a small thing as opening her eyes.That voice, the person who made that voice, seemed to be the person she cherished the most. She didn't want him to be sad, and she didn't want him to worry about herself.That's all, no matter how big the scar is, she still wants to see that person, and won't let his tenderness go to waste like this, and won't let his expectation just like that go in vain.

Because he is the person she cherishes the most.

There seemed to be a lot of noise in my ear, it should be said that it was getting louder and louder, as if the distance between myself and that voice was getting closer.Can hear people breathing, inhale. ． ．Exhale. ． ．It's getting heavier and heavier, you can hear your own heartbeat, the pounding heartbeat is getting heavier and heavier, yes, heavy but real.It felt like I was back, back to that person.

Yan Tingting tried to move her fingers and found that she could control her actions, but she didn't want to open her eyes yet, let her listen to this, this world.

The first thing I heard was a 'pop', the sound of palms slapping her face, Yan Tingting felt pain just listening to it, how could she hit so hard?
"Xia Da! You are really a cold-blooded person! Isn't Yan Tingting your sister? Why do you treat her like this, and after such a thing happened, you still dare to come to the hospital to see her, you have something wrong with your mind, right? Get out! Get out!" She was familiar with this voice, wasn't it Yu Ling's voice.Is she talking to Shada?Shada, yes!It was Xia Da, why did he do that, what Yu Ling asked him, was what she wanted to ask.

No, didn't she already know the reason?What Qin Xi said was because of love.Because he likes Qin Xi, he thinks it doesn't matter what happens to a person like her.Yan Tingting suddenly found it funny, Qin Xi said that Xia Da did this because she loved her, and she did that because she liked herself.But why didn't I ask her opinion?She doesn't want Qin Xi's affection!

"Sorry, I don't know..." Xia Da tried to explain.

"Xia Da, please go out first." It was Shen Yi's voice, Yan Tingting greedily wanted to hear his voice clearly, wanted to hear more of his voice.But what she wants is not the current tone, which is so cold that people dare not approach.

"Shen Yi, trust me, I didn't do it on purpose."

"Xia Da! Stop talking, you go out first, otherwise, I can't help but want to beat you up, hurry up, before I change my mind." Shen Yi's voice sounded like he was biting his lip. It came out, as if not saying a word would take a lot of effort to suppress something.

Xia Da was silent, "I see, I'm sorry." From the sound of opening the door to closing it, Xia Da seemed to have left.At first, Yan Tingting thought she could be quiet for a while, but that guy Yu Ling started to think about it, "I didn't expect that guy Qin Xi to be such a person, to have such a hobby! Fortunately, I used to think that she was a Nice guy, damn it, if I catch you next time, I will beat her up..."

"Ling'er."

"kindness?"

"Can you go back first? I'll take care of Tingting."

"Why? I want to take care of Yan Tingting here." Yu Ling didn't want to leave, because she hadn't apologized to Yan Tingting yet. Although she understood Yan Tingting's mood when Qin Xi was dating Shen Yi, when Brother Yi lost his mind At that time, she still blamed Yan Tingting in her heart.She really thought that she would not go to the Red River Bar at that time, but she did, and she was not angry after seeing that scene.All of this told her that Yan Tingting loves Shen Yi, very much.So she wants to apologize to her!
"Because you're noisy." Shen Yi lightly brushed the hair on Yan Tingting's forehead, "Tingting needs to rest, but you are too noisy. So, you should go back first, if there is any change in Tingting's situation, I will inform you. You are just Tingting's friend, there is no need to guard her like me."

"...Yes, I see, Yan Tingting will be taken care of by you, I'll go first." Yu Ling left space for these two people in a sensible way.

Yan Tingting felt that her hand was being held, as if it was being rubbed against her face, feeling that brother Shen was worried about her, Yan Tingting felt that her whole heart was sweet.It's just that she doesn't want to open her eyes yet, because even if she does, she doesn't know what expression to use to face Shen Yi.

Are you smiling?Are you crying?Or do you use other expressions?She really didn't know, she was in a delicate mood now, as if she was very repulsed by someone approaching her, very repulsive.Just like now, she was obviously very happy when she was held by brother Shen, but her own hand couldn't help but draw back in imagination.

Is it possible that this is the sequelae left over from that incident, if that is really the case, what should I do?But the reality is, you have to wake up.

"Tingting, I know you're awake, open your eyes, there is no one else here now, just the two of us, you don't have to be afraid." Shen Yi's voice was very gentle, which made Yan Tingting feel like crying, very wronged a feeling of.After thinking for a while, she still opened her eyes, and what she saw was Shen Yi's haggard and worried face.

She stretched out her hand to touch his cheek, "Look at you, obviously the person lying on the hospital bed is me, but your complexion is uglier than mine..."

Shen Yi held her hand and suddenly paused, his eyes burst red in an instant, "...Tingting, you finally woke up, I'm so worried, really worried!" Shen Yi hugged her in excitement. Yan Tingting, Yan Tingting was frightened by this sudden movement, struggling desperately.It seemed, like at that time, "Don't! Don't! Let me go, please let me go!!!" She didn't want it, and she didn't want to experience the feeling at that time again even if she died!

Shen Yi hurriedly let go of his hand, stepped back a few steps and looked at Yan Tingting in shock.Yan Tingting also came to her senses, when she saw Shen Yi's unbelievable face, she realized what she had done, but, it was clearly the touch of her most beloved person, why would she think of that time.Yan Tingting was breathing quickly, and she didn't dare to look at Shen Yi anymore, "...Brother Shen, can you go out first? I want to be quiet." She believed that such a decision was right, and Brother Shen should also need It's time to be quiet.Everything is her fault, why should brother Shen suffer together with her?
Shen Yi walked out in a daze, sat on the chair outside the door, holding his head, not knowing what he was thinking.

Both of them were silent in their own thoughts.

According to the doctor's diagnosis, Yan Tingting has a disease, but that disease cannot be cured by medicine, because it is a disease of mental disorder.She doesn't want anyone to touch her, and as long as someone gets close to her, she will desperately resist. The doctor can only shake her head at such symptoms, and her heart disease needs heart medicine. If she can't let go, no matter what others do, it will be useless.

Although Yan Tingting also hated herself like this, there was nothing she could do.

It was Yan Tingting who was sick, but Shen Yi was getting more and more haggard day by day.Yan Tingting saw the pain in her eyes and felt pain in her heart, she also worked hard, but the final result was not too ideal, but at least, now she is not very resistant to Shen Yi's slight touch.

"What's the matter, Tingting, what are you thinking?" Shen Yi was holding porridge in his hand, which was what Yan Tingting had to drink every day.Yan Tingting evaded back indiscriminately, "I said, do I still have to drink porridge? I should be able to eat other things. I'm just not in good spirits, and it's not that my stomach is injured."

"Of course I know about this kind of thing, but now you need to be quiet more. I think that drinking porridge can make people calm down quickly."

"... Has any doctor verified what you said?"

"Well, well, it seems not yet."

"Then I'm going to eat meat now. You call it patient abuse! Don't sick people need supplements? I will become weaker and weaker if this continues, do you understand?" Yan Tingting finally knew that she had been drinking for the past few days. The reason for the porridge is just brother Shen's own opinion!There is no doctor to prove what he said, why can't she eat meat? !

Shen Yi was silent for a moment, stretched out his hand to touch Yan Tingting's face, "When, when you can accept me, I will give you meat."

"..." is definitely public revenge! ! ! "How do I know when I can accept you! In fact, I accept you deep down in my heart, really, but my body is no longer listening to me. I don't let anyone get close at all..."

"You are lying."

"Ah?" Yan Tingting raised her head and looked at Shen Yi with a strange expression, "What... what, brother Shen, what are you talking about? Lying? Why did I lie, I didn't..."

"You have." Shen Yi looked at Yan Tingting firmly, "Deep in your mind, you didn't accept me, right? You are still afraid of me, right? Although this symptom is not for me alone, it cannot be denied Yes, you are afraid of anyone's touch now. Even if you say, you accept me, your body says NO to me. How is this possible?! It's just that you are not ready to accept anyone, So I am willing to wait until the day you accept me. But at least, I hope you will not lie to me. You are so afraid of my approach, why pretend that nothing happened?"

Yan Tingting's pupils dilated, "Why? Why do you know?" Why do you know how she feels in her heart now, just like what Shen Yi said, in fact, every time he approaches, she is terrified.But he is her elder brother Shen, how could she bear to see him disappointed.But the more he endured, the deeper the fear in his heart became.On the surface, she is gradually recovering, but only she knows the real situation.

She is so scared.

(End of this chapter)