Ji Liangchuan, I have loved you for so many years

Chapter 65 Protecting a Person's Heart (2)
"By the way, since I'm a newcomer, I have to work overtime every night, so I don't have to wait for dinner after I come back."

"Huh? Do you have to work overtime every night? Why is your boss like this?"

"No way, you don't need to leave the door open for me at night, just sleep by yourself."

I could only nod my head, feeling desolate in my heart.

After that, he stopped talking, lowered his head and ate quietly. For some reason, we were suddenly alienated tonight.

After the meal, I took him to the supermarket downstairs to do some shopping.When I walked into the supermarket, I just wanted to push a cart, but I gave up, turned around, took a basket and walked in.He followed closely behind me.

"There's no more shampoo, and it's time to buy soap."

"Aren't you going to buy snacks?" He lowered his head and asked.

"No, just buy some necessities."

He suddenly fell silent, not saying a word.

I compared the two shampoos for a long time, and the memories of the past suddenly flooded into my mind at this moment.That time, I was also holding his hand and wandering around in the supermarket. I picked up the most expensive snacks and threw them all into the car. He didn't say a word, just smiled with low eyebrows.But now I don’t dare to go shopping like that anymore. Like the red beans in the past, I compare two things for a long time, and even compare the numbers after the decimal point.I gave a wry smile, chose a cheap shampoo and threw it into the basket, when I turned around, I saw Ji Liangchuan's melancholy eyes, like a dark vortex engulfing all the warmth.

My heart was pulled hard, I stretched out my hand to hold his cold fingertips and said, "Liangchuan, you want me to be your wife, not your girlfriend, since I am your wife, we have to share weal and woe, Can your self-esteem be put down in front of me?"

He looked at me and said nothing, and I looked at him with a smile: "Husband and wife should share wealth, right? Did you forget the pastor's speech when we got married?"

He suddenly hugged me tightly, and it became difficult for me to breathe in an instant. I could only feel his hot body temperature. He put his lips on my neck and murmured: "I'm sorry for you..."

The days flew by like the speed of light. Ever since Ji Liangchuan found a job, he left early and returned late every day.When I woke up in the morning, he had already gone out, and every night I waited for him until one o'clock in the middle of the night before I heard the rustling sound of the door opening from the quiet house.

Several times I watched TV in the living room and waited for him, and fell asleep while waiting. Every time, he picked me up, put me in the bedroom, and covered me with the quilt.In the blur, his face was sad. When I wanted to open my mouth and call out his name softly, I suddenly felt powerless, as if my strength was pulled away instantly, so I closed my eyes heavily.However, every time I wake up in the morning, I can't see him anymore. I can only greedily inhale the faint body fragrance left by him next to me, pretending that he hasn't left yet.

He started smoking frequently, and even though he once promised me so flatly that he would quit, he still didn't keep it.When early winter comes, he likes to open the whole window wide, and the cold wind howls past, which can freeze the air in the room in an instant, so he takes out the cigarette case and lays down on the edge of the bed to smoke one by one, as if As if he was tireless, the moonlight hit his slightly curled eyelashes, and there was a thick shadow under his eyes.

I went over to close the window, warmed his cold face with my hands and said, "Liangchuan, don't smoke all the time, it's bad for your health."

"I'm sorry, I can't quit." His voice was a little hoarse, and he looked at me with helpless eyes.

When I hugged him and tried to impart strength to him, I realized that he was so thin, only hard bones remained in his whole body.With my back to him, I silently shed two lines of tears: "Liangchuan, is it hard work?"

"It's okay, don't worry."

"You're skinny again..."

"I am fine."

It's like this every time, the clouds are calm and the wind is light, more precisely, it is a kind of indifference.A wall seemed to be erected suddenly between us. I tried desperately to get into his inner world, but he refused me again and again.

After a few more months of such estrangement, we had very few opportunities to see each other every day, but since he went to work, he insisted on sending me a text message every day. The content was very simple, and it was all trivial things in life. It is these small cares that can still warm my heart in the cold winter season.

"Mengmeng, don't forget to bring the key when you go out in the morning."

"Mengmeng, check if the milk in the fridge is expired or not."

"Mengmeng, it's raining today, don't forget to bring an umbrella."

"Mengmeng, don't take the bus to save money, take a taxi, don't forget to leave your things in the car."

"..."

I can't bear to delete any text messages like this.Every night when I was waiting for him, I would turn out and read carefully one by one, without missing a single word, over and over again, and every time I read it, my heart warmed up.When I was alone at home, I hugged Dumb who was on the bed, and talked to myself happily.

"Dumb, Dad works very hard, we have to wait for him at home."

"Dumb, Dad has lost weight, and Mom will make delicious food for Dad to replenish his body."

"Dumb, dad comes home late every day, mom misses him so much..."

"..."

Every time I was talking, my tears would flow down involuntarily, dripping on Dumb's furry head. However, in the silent night, I could only choose to cry alone with Dumb in my arms.

This day, he finally didn't have to work overtime, and I also took time to drag him to the street to go shopping.When we passed by a video store, Anna Li's sexy and enchanting figure appeared in the window. It was my favorite singer. A huge poster was pasted on the glass, and people who came and went stopped to watch.

It turns out that the album that Anna Li has been working hard on this year is about to be released. It is said that this album has invited many internationally renowned dancers, makeup artists, and stylists. The standard is not the same as the previous albums.I froze there for a long time, Ji Liangchuan gently squeezed my palm and said: "There is a pre-sale now, do you want to go in and register, and buy it when it's released?"

I glanced at the price tag at the bottom of the corner, and after careful calculation, it would be better to buy some practical things.I immediately turned my head and smiled at him: "I don't like Annalie a long time ago, let's go."

He looked at me with complicated eyes, but I pulled him forward bluntly, twisting his brute force and my willfulness. It's time to grow up and mature.

In this deep winter season, I suddenly remembered the days of college. At that time, I was still young, and I had a lot of youth waiting for me to squander and waste.I followed Hongdou to find a part-time job. I was unruly and self-willed, and I hated everything. Twenty yuan for a day's work was a shame to me.Also, when Du Xiaohang and I went to apply for a job, I couldn't stand even the HR manager eyelid me.I think the most important thing for a woman is to have self-respect and self-love, but now I really understand why they didn't admit me at that time, because I didn't see through society and life. I climbed to a higher level.

Looking at Ji Liangchuan who was getting thinner and thinner, I was finally forced by life to give up my self-esteem.

When I stepped into Midnight Flower again, those harsh noises gradually dissipated in my ears, and turned into a very ordinary sound.I found Lily who was fixing her makeup in the background, and said straight to the point: "Lily, I accept Boss Wang's request."

Wearing a goose feather coat, she sat on a chair painted in gold velvet and looked at me. She was taken aback for a moment and said, "Are you really desperate?"

I bowed my head and smiled wryly, speechless.

"Okay, I'll talk to Boss Wang. Don't worry, I'll cover you. If a man wants to plot against you, call me."

"Hehe, I didn't expect you to have a good heart."

She spread her hands indifferently: "They are all women, with different lifestyles, but the pursuit is the same."

I watched her stop talking, but I felt bitter in my heart.

The next day, I went to work in Han Jiali's cake shop during the day, and officially started a kabuki's life at night.I didn't tell anyone about this, it's the only bit of self-esteem I have left, even Hongdou, who is closest to me, doesn't know.

In the background, I used dark purple eyeshadow to draw on my eyelids stroke by stroke. The soft tip of the brush was like a knife. Every stroke hurt like a tattoo, but I couldn’t forget the pain. You can only choose to remember.

"Shen Meng." Boss Wang smiled innocently and walked in with a round belly.

"Boss Wang." I called him politely.

He sat down beside me, looked at me, and said with a smile: "Oh, I didn't expect you to come. In this way, in the future, you will have a flower name like Lily, and your name will be Jasmine from now on, how about it?"

"Whatever." I said lightly.Just when I wanted to get up, Boss Wang's restless hands began to slide down my calves to my thighs, groping my skin inch by inch.

At this time, I don't know what else to do except laugh.

I endured the cold, and in the winter, I stepped onto the gorgeous stage wearing a silver suspender skirt.A waiter wearing a white shirt and tie next to me came up to the stage and picked up the microphone, and introduced me to the dignitaries below: "Everyone, tonight, Midnight Flower will introduce another singer to you. This is Miss Jasmine. Everyone please join us!"

There was a burst of cheers from below, and the trance lights reflected on the shiny faces of the men, which made me feel disgusted immediately, but I still smiled, took the microphone, and started singing.

All the faces in the audience began to become abstract, and the blurred lights hit my eyelashes, making me feel dizzy.Those loud cheers in the middle of the night turned into a bleak silence in my ears, and I was just a lonely singer.

After a song, the men in the audience shouted my stage name even more enthusiastically. The holy and open jasmine turned into a charming and wonderful flower, blooming in the middle of the night.

"The boss at table 3 is looking for you, go quickly." After stepping off the stage, Lily whispered in my ear.I panicked and stared at her immediately, but she seemed to understand, grabbed my arm and said as she walked, "Don't be nervous, I'll go with you."

As soon as I was dragged to table 3 by Lily, the big bosses started to smile wickedly, and looked at me with straight eyes: "Hey! Jasmine and Lily are here, come, come, have a drink with us .”

"Boss Chen, long time no see." Lily smiled, and Yingge whispered.

"Miss Jasmine, you are not as sweet-mouthed as Miss Lily, you must drink a fine wine!"

A few other men at the table also started booing, and the man surnamed Chen had already filled a large glass of wine and handed it to me.When I was in a dilemma, Lily snatched the wine glass away: "Boss Chen, Jasmine can't drink, I'll do it for her as a respect."

After finishing speaking, he raised his neck and drank the wine in one gulp. The men all stood up and clapped their hands: "Miss Lily, hold your drink well, let's come again!"

One night, fortunately, Lily blocked a few glasses of wine for me, otherwise I would have been so drunk that I passed out.In the confusion, Boss Chen reached out and touched my cheek.I jumped up immediately as if being pricked by a needle, looked at him in horror and anger, just about to curse, when Lily grabbed me with a pair of powerful jade hands, and whispered to me: "Don't cause trouble."

I sat back slowly and looked at him warily. "Hey, what are you afraid of? Come, here is my tip for you." Boss Chen took out a wad of money from his pocket and handed it to me. The money was pressed heavily in my palm, It was uncomfortable as if it was holding my breath, but after hesitating for a long time, I still smiled bitterly and put the money away.

It turns out that this is life.

I looked at my watch, it was nearly twelve o'clock, and every time Ji Liangchuan arrived home, it would be one or two o'clock. I tried my best to calm my restless heart, and stayed with the guests until the end of the show.After midnight flowers came out, Boss Chen grabbed my neck and said, "Jasmine, do you want to go home with me? I have more tips for you, hehe!"

As soon as I threw him away, just as I was about to slap him, Lily rushed over and grabbed me.Fortunately, Boss Chen was half drunk and couldn't see my angry face clearly, and was still smiling obscenely over there.

"Boss Chen, Jasmine is not feeling well today."

"Oh? Hey! You are not afraid that I will sue your Boss Ji! What kind of hospitality!"

Suddenly there was a loud "buzz" in my head, my body softened instantly, my eyes were pale, Boss Ji... who is it?Ji Dong or Ji Liangchuan?
"Well, I'll go with you." Lily twitched the corners of her mouth and said calmly.

"Okay, hello Lily, hehe!" Boss Chen stopped a taxi beside the horse with Lily in his arms.Before leaving, Lily turned her head and looked at me, as if she smiled wryly. I understand that smile is a mockery of life.

Walking alone in the cold and desolate night, the cold winter wind blowing anger straight into the collar, I rubbed my arms, took a taxi and hurried home.

When I got home, the living room hadn't turned on the lights, and after I went all over the place to make sure that Ji Liangchuan hadn't come back, I sat in the living room as if I was relieved from a heavy burden, and my whole body relaxed.As soon as I calmed down, I suddenly panicked again, rushed into the bathroom to wash off the heavy makeup on my face, took a shower and changed into my pajamas, sat in the living room and waited for Ji Liangchuan to come home.

After sitting for a while, I heard the sound of the door opening outside, and I immediately got up and walked over.Seeing his sleepy and tired look, I immediately took the briefcase in his hand.When he touched his cold fingertips, the soreness in his heart surged up uncontrollably, and tears fell on the back of his hands in big drops.I warmed his face with my hands, and cried, "Liangchuan, let's quit this job, okay? You've worked so hard."

He touched my head with his cold palm, and the top of my head became icy instantly: "Silly girl, I still want to marry you as my wife."

Feeling warm in my heart, I threw myself into his arms and cried even louder: "I am your wife! I am!"

"Well, wife."

(End of this chapter)