Ji Liangchuan, I have loved you for so many years

Chapter 70
A month later, my father called from abroad and said that he was going back to China in a few days.My mood has completely recovered, and the days with Du Xiaohang are relaxed and happy.A woman's love doesn't need ups and downs, ups and downs, just plain and smooth.

When I arrived at the airport, the scene in front of me caused huge ripples in my peaceful heart, and tears welled up in my eyes.I saw my father holding my mother tightly in his arms, and both of their faces were covered with tears.I walked over stiffly step by step, tears kept streaming.For so many years, I thought that the family and warmth I lost would never come back, but the emotion at this moment made it hard for me to breathe.I grinned and cried hoarsely like a child.Mom and Dad came over and touched my head, the three of them didn't talk anymore, only tears flowed silently, flowing to the sweetest corner of my heart.

As soon as my father returned to China, he bought the mortgaged villa that we used to live together, and the family of three had dinner in that villa.I cried and laughed, laughed and cried, tears fell into the rice bowl.My mother's kind smile was right in front of my eyes. She touched my head, her eyes were filled with tears, and finally she just called me "silly girl".

In the evening, I decided to go back to the house where I lived with Ji Liangchuan.Mom and Dad already know everything between us, and I can only smile wryly and tell them it's okay.When my mother sent me out, the sky was full of stars shining on us.I was a little inexplicably nervous and didn't dare to look up at her.

"Mengmeng...for so many years, you have suffered so much, mom is sorry for you and your dad."

I shook my head slightly: "Mom...do you know that you are stupid, just like the original me, I also chose to divorce Ji Liangchuan for his future, but later I realized that we were all wrong."

"Xinghai is an enterprise established by your father, and it has a special meaning to me. I really don't want to see Xinghai fall. I once thought that as long as Xinghai can improve, I will immediately return to your side. "

"Mom, do you understand? The reason why Dad values ​​Xinghai more than anything else is because he loves you. He always thinks that you are with him because of Xinghai. If Xinghai is gone, he will lose you. Now that you're gone, what meaning does Xinghai have to him?"

Mom didn't speak, but looked at me sadly, and said to me after a long time: "Why would Mom choose to be with your dad because of Xinghai? Your dad is so stupid..."

I was also silent, and walked over silently, throwing myself into my mother's arms like when I was a child, with warm palms on my back.Everything came back to square one, it was as if my life had suddenly gone backwards by years.

I once thought that it would be good if this whole thing ended here, although we were scattered, but in the end, our family was reunited.Ji Liangchuan and Ji Dong also reconciled, and their family was reunited.Du Xiaohang has been chasing me for so many years, and finally he can be with me, everyone is happy.Before long, we may get married and start our own family.However, when I let go of everything in the past, when I gradually tried to forget the person I loved deeply, I realized that I was pregnant.

I started throwing up non-stop, couldn't eat anything, and was constantly exhausted.When Du Xiaohang came, I tried my best to restrain the urge to vomit, and smiled as hard as I could. As soon as he left, I rushed into the bathroom and vomited non-stop, as if my stomach had been emptied.I fell down on the cold floor alone and started crying. I dared not tell anyone, no matter if it was my father, my mother, Du Xiaohang or Ji Liangchuan. I could only bear the sudden pain silently.

Suddenly, I panicked, my whole body was cold, and the feeling of helplessness made me unbearable. I dialed Hongdou's phone and said to her quietly: "... Hongdou, I seem to be pregnant, tell me what should I do?" what to do."

Hongdou was silent on the phone for a long time, her voice trembling slightly: "I'll accompany you to the hospital for an examination tomorrow, don't panic, maybe it's not."

"Yeah." I nodded on the phone, and suddenly I felt strength in my heart. Fortunately, Hongdou was always by my side.

The next morning, Hongdou came to my house early in the morning and went with me to a nearby hospital for an examination.When I first arrived at the entrance of the hospital, I saw Ji Liangchuan and Xue Kai.I looked at him, he looked at me, just silent at the door of the hospital, finally no one spoke, each walked in opposite directions.When we passed each other, the smell of perfume on his body seemed to wake up our past suddenly. From acquaintance to love to separation, we suddenly felt that this was a long and arduous journey, but the destination was not happiness. harbor.

When walking over, Xue Kai seemed to have something to say, but he hesitated, and finally left the hospital with Ji Liangchuan.

When I was sitting on the bench waiting, I suddenly realized why I saw him here. Is he sick?Or did he accompany Xue Kai to check his body?
More than a month ago, the image of him moaning in pain in the dark came into my mind again, and my heart suddenly panicked. What happened to him?
"Shen Meng." A doctor came out and called my name, which woke me up.Hongdou walked in with me and did an inspection.Finally, the doctor took the medical records and said to me: "Congratulations, it's been more than two months."

My heart sank, I didn't know what it meant.If we are destined, why are there so many obstacles?If we are not destined, why is it that we are tightly bound at this time?
When Hongdou accompanied me out of the hospital, he said to me hesitantly, "Shen Meng, this child... let's hit him."

I suddenly dilated my pupils and looked at her. She was startled by me and shrank back.It was only after seeing her panic that I regained my composure. I didn't know that hearing someone say that would make me so indignant, but I can't blame Hongdou, she was only doing it for my own good.

"I'll think about it." I said calmly.

"Shen Meng, please be more rational! If you keep this child, how will you face Du Xiaohang in the future? Do you know that you will hurt him by doing so!"

"I know...I know everything...but I can't help it, I really can't. Hongdou, please, don't force me."

Hongdou didn't speak, she turned around and seemed to wipe away the tears from her eyes, then she turned around and smiled at me: "I'll take you home."

For the next month or so, I lived in such a panic.Hongdou urged me to abort the child over and over again, but every time I stepped into the door of the hospital, I ran home crying again.I repeated it several times. In the end, I really had no strength. I could only collapse at home alone, wake up, fall asleep, vomit, eat, vomit, and live a life that would be worse than death.

When I was in the bathroom, throwing up nothing left, Du Xiaohang came to the house.I hastily wiped the corners of my mouth and walked over to open the door for him.As soon as the door opened, he came over and hugged me in circles, I immediately panicked: "Put me down!"

"What's wrong?" He looked at my gradually pale face curiously.

I immediately softened my tone and said, "No, it's nothing, just startled me."

"Hehe, I asked you to go out to play recently, why are you always busy? What are you busy with?"

"It's nothing, just looking for a job." I explained in a panic.

"What job are you looking for? Don't tell you, I have enough ability to support you now."

"Okay, I see, what are you doing here?"

"I miss you. I learned a dish today. Let me make it for you."

"Okay." I smiled lightly.After watching Du Xiaohang get into the kitchen, I rushed into the bathroom, locked the door tightly, and tried my best to suppress my voice and vomit.

A violent knock on the door sounded from behind, and I was suddenly frightened into a cold sweat.

"Shen Meng? What's wrong with you?"

"No, it's okay, the yogurt I drank has expired."

"Are you okay? Open the door and let me go in and have a look."

I immediately took out the toilet paper to dry my mouth, and opened the door: "I'm really fine, you go and cook."

He gave me a suspicious look before leaving.

After a few mouthfuls of dinner, I couldn't take it anymore, but seeing Du Xiaohang's expectant eyes, I forced myself to eat a lot.After dinner, I couldn't bear it anymore, and ran to the bathroom to vomit again. After vomiting for a long time, I didn't hear anything from Du Xiaohang.I immediately panicked like a guilty conscience.When the door was opened, Du Xiaohang stood at the door, looking at me with an extremely cold gaze, holding back the anger that was about to erupt in his pupils.

He raised his right hand and looked at me motionless, trembling all over.When I saw the medical record in his hand, I knew I couldn't avoid it, and this moment would come sooner or later.

"I still give you two ways now. The first way is to beat the child, and I can pretend that nothing happened. The second way, if you want to keep the child..." He paused and then said, " Shen Meng, this is my bottom line, don't provoke me again and again."

"Little belly, I'm sorry for you."

He suddenly threw down the medical record, turned his hand around my neck tightly, and spit out every single word from between his teeth in a resentful voice: "Do you know that I wanted to strangle me to death several times? You! Do you know how ungrateful you are!"

I closed my eyes, feeling the coldness of a line of tears sliding down my cheeks, and it was fine if I was strangled to death by him, everything would be over, the pain, entanglement, confusion, everything would be over.

He suddenly let me go, still staring at me angrily: "I tell you, don't think that he will change his mind after you give birth to his child. His father will not let you be with him, nor will he He will give up his position as general manager because of you again, don't think about it!"

I could not speak, not a word.

"I'll ask you one last time, do you want to kill this child?"

The heart-piercing feeling really spread throughout my body, but at this moment, I didn't have the strength to say no, let alone say yes.

Du Xiaohang stared at his red eyes and suddenly laughed.

"Okay, Shen Meng, don't regret it." He turned around, slammed the door and left.It seemed as if I was the only one left in the world, sitting on the cold floor alone, watching the shadows of the trees shaken by the moonlight on the ground, and fell into a deep sleep.The dream is full of him, his smile, his words, I have never forgotten.In a pale world, there was an immature voice calling me softly. I ran forward frantically, looking for the source of the voice, and stretched out my hands to grab something, but found that what I grabbed was a piece of bleak The air, but the voice came again, this time, I heard it clearly, such a young and innocent voice, he shouted: "Mom, Mom." I suddenly cried, touching the transparent light source, quietly Ask him: "Who are you?" After a burst of laughter like silver bells, he said: "I am Dumb!" I smiled, stretched out my hands, trying to hug the beam of light tightly: "Dai, mother is here , Mom won’t leave you, won’t abandon you.” “Really?” “Really, Mom loves you.” There was another burst of “giggle” laughter, how much I like that voice, how I wish I could Watching him grow up little by little, and then he watched us grow old little by little, because that is my flesh and blood with him, the most intimate bond between me and him.

When I woke up, I realized that there was still a smile on the corner of my mouth, but my face was wet.

In the end, I finally made up my mind that I couldn't kill this child. Although I knew that this weak life might ruin my life, I couldn't do anything about it, because it was me and his child.

I told Hongdou about this decision, but she was silent on the other end of the phone, and that silence made me feel terrified.After a long time, she asked me: "Shen Meng, I think you have changed a lot. When I first met you, you were completely self-confident."

"..."

"Although I don't want you to give birth to this child, I am really happy to see that you are now a woman who is willing to endure hardships and give up everything for the one you love. Do you still remember that you married Ji Liangchuan? What did you say before?"

"Remember, I thought I wouldn't fall in love with anyone, I thought I would always be a woman who only enjoyed happiness, and I never even wanted children."

"But you are completely different now."

"I don't know when, I changed, and I don't know myself anymore."

"Shen Meng, no matter what, I still want to give you a final warning. Unless Xinghai can become brilliant again and let Director Ji promise you to be together, otherwise you really can't have this child. Not only for your future, but also for your future. Think about your children."

"Hongdou, I think even if Director Ji agrees, we will not be together anymore. His father ruined my family. He gave up our promise for his status and property. I cannot tolerate these things."

"Do you have to bear everything by yourself? Even for the child, don't you really want to be with him?"

"No, I want dignity." After saying this, I hung up the phone, maybe because I was afraid of hearing what Hongdou said, even if it was just one sentence, I would surrender, and I would desperately go to Ji Liangchuan and tell him He, I have his child, I want to be with him for the rest of my life and watch our child grow up, but these are impossible, because he chose to abandon all of them.

Since then, Du Xiaohang no longer came to see me.Whether it was Ji Liangchuan or Du Xiaohang, the three of us became strangers in an instant, and we stopped communicating with each other ever since.

A month later, my stomach was still aching slightly, and the occasional vomiting made me suddenly lose weight.Alone in the room where Ji Liangchuan and I used to live, living our own lives.When Hongdou doesn't come to see me, I can only support myself with my weak body.In the past, I was a strong woman, and I could face any setbacks and injuries. However, since I was pregnant with a child, my heart seems to have become fragile.

Facing the lonely life every day, I began to cry, crying desperately, those tears spread on my chest, as if lotus flowers would bloom in an instant, pure white and transparent, but embellished with a bleak light.

In the middle of the night, I was always tossing and turning, I took out my phone and read the text messages that Ji Liangchuan had sent me over and over again. Every text message was not sweet, but those thoughtful reminders made my tears warm again. Hot cheeks.I endured the pain in my chest and wanted to delete those text messages one by one, but when the cursor stopped at "delete", my fingers always froze inexplicably until my finger bones started to ache. I still didn't have the courage, no strength.It turns out that it takes so much courage to forget someone and love someone.

Walking aimlessly in the shopping mall alone, when I passed by those baby products, I actually walked over with a smile, gently stroking those small feeding bottles and small clothes with my fingertips, imagining that there are One day my baby will also be crawling around next to me in these cute clothes like a little princess or a little prince.

"Oh, how did you know it was a girl!"

"I'm a father, of course I feel it!"

A sweet couple next to each other cuddled in front of me, with happy smiles on their faces.

"Come on, what if it's a boy?"

"That's good, let him be a policeman in the future, just like me, how majestic."

"Tch, where's the girl?"

"Hey, girls are just like you, being a virtuous wife is enough."

"You can talk!"

"Ha ha."

"..."

Listening and listening, the tears have already surged into one piece.I hooked the corners of my mouth and walked slowly through the baby products area.Leaning against the cold wall and falling to the ground, I was so cold that I cried.

"Baby... Mom is sorry for you. Mom is too self-willed to give birth to you... But dad doesn't want us anymore, mom doesn't want to go to dad, we have to learn to survive on our own..."

(End of this chapter)