amnesia princess

Chapter 100

Waiting is anxious.

Yu Xi didn't rest all this time, she just leaned on the soft couch and waited for Lan Ling's news, feeling uneasy in her heart.

What you bring back must be good news, and it must not be bad news.

She wants to bless him, bless him in good health, and live happily forever. Even if they can't be together in the future, she also hopes that he will always be healthy.

After she misunderstood him, she no longer had the face to ask for anything. The selfish one was always herself, and the selfless one was always him. After suffering so much, she deserved it, but what about him?
He, who loved her so much, was harmed by her to such an extent. This was an ending that no one could have imagined.

In the evening, there was no news from Lan Ling, and Yu Xi hadn't eaten for almost a day, because she was constantly worrying, and even eating became a chore.

A heart, beating up and down, can't be stable no matter what.

It wasn't until night that Lan Ling rushed to Yu Xi Pavilion in a hurry, and immediately said when she saw Yu Xi: "Yu Xi, Yu Xi... Let me tell you, I found out, Ye Yingxi is fine, but
No one knows about him now, because he locked himself in his room and didn't see anyone. He just asked someone to deliver food every day. "

Listening to Lan Ling's words, Yu Xi's brows became tighter and tighter, and her face was also very ugly. She looked like she was about to fall down at any time, so scared that Lan Ling didn't dare to continue speaking.

"Yu Xi, are you okay? You look so ugly, do you want to see a doctor?" Lan Ling touched Yu Xi's forehead and said with concern.

Yu Xi shook his head, looked at Lan Ling nervously and said, "Then what's going on now, have you found out, what happened to Ye he vomited blood last time?"

As long as she thought of him vomiting blood, her heart would be troubled for a while, what happened and why did she vomit blood?
Lan Ling shook her head, "It should be fine now, but he is in Yiwei Building now, and he ordered no one to enter, so we don't know his situation now.

Helpless, since Lan Ling couldn't find anything, it was useless for her to ask. After saying thank you to Lan Ling, Yu Xi went to bed early, but her head was still uncontrollable thinking about him.
Thinking about what happened to him, why he didn't see anyone, is it still sad...

Suddenly I realized that I was so wordy, there were so many topics to ask, but no one answered them.

She closed her eyes, but it was still him that came to mind, and she couldn't wave it away, and she didn't want to wave it away, so Yu Xi fell into a coma after a while.

The physical discomfort and tormented Yu Xi couldn't sleep well at all. She would wake up every day until midnight. She couldn't speak because of the headache.

The one outside the house was an older Momo, because he was afraid that those little girls would not be able to take good care of Yu Xi, so Lan Ling chose Momo himself.

Getting up and putting on a cloak, Yu Xi was about to go to sleep and drink, but when she got out of bed, she almost fell down.

Rubbing his forehead, Yu Xi shook his head to wake himself up a bit, and walked slowly to the table, and poured a glass of water under the faint light.

After drinking the warm water, my head felt a little better.

This was the first time she knew what it was like to have a cold, and she seemed to be dying. At this time, she really wanted Ye to be by her side, take care of her, comfort her,
She told jokes and put her to sleep.

But she can't expect those extravagantly. She didn't know whether it was right or wrong when she came to look for Ye this time, but there was a knot in her heart. If she didn't untie it, she would never feel at ease in this life.

Ever since she knew that she had wronged him, she blamed herself so much that she was about to die.

Looking at the windows, the tightly locked windows could not be opened, because Lan Ling was afraid that she would catch a cold, so she ordered all the windows to be nailed up.

She got used to walking to the window, even if she couldn't open it, she still liked to stand in this seat, the window, standing obliquely, remembering that there was once a person who would be in this seat, wrapping around her waist from behind.

The warmth of her fingertips touched her heart, the beauty of the past, why do I always have to think about it?Shouldn't people look forward? Why does she like to recall? Regardless of misunderstanding or not, she likes it

Standing by the window, recalling the scenes that made her feel very comfortable.

His smell is still there, but things are different, they are not what they used to be, if she can see him this time, she doesn't know how to speak.

The cruel heart and heartlessness from last time still remain in his mind, and he can't shake it off. She is so bad, she doesn't give him a leeway, but now she wants to come back to him, what should he think?

She was afraid of seeing the same unfeeling expression on his face, and even more afraid of seeing him and Murong Ran being together in love, even if it was just an ordinary friendship, she couldn't accept it.

That woman, killed her baby, killed her happiness, hate, so obvious, if given the chance, she, An Ye Youxi, must take revenge, no matter what, the person who harmed her will not be good

As a result, Ye will definitely not sit idly by.

Clenching her fists tightly, Yu Xi's eyes were full of pain, she stubbornly refused to let the tears fall, it was an insult, she was sorry for her baby, sorry for Ye's love, although Murong Ran felt sorry for all of this responsibility, but what about herself?
If it wasn't that she didn't believe in Ye, if it wasn't that she didn't believe in their love, then how could there be the current result?

Allowing the pain to erode her heart, Yu Xi didn't shed any tears, and went back to bed quietly by herself. Because of her illness, she soon fell asleep.

After staying in the general's mansion for several days, there was endless medicine every day, which was bitter and smelly, but Yu Xi drank it every time he picked it up without frowning. Those girls looked at her with special admiration for her , but only she knows how afraid she is to drink those bitter medicines, and the unpleasant smell of traditional Chinese medicine is not what she likes at all.

She has never been sick since she was a child. She used to know that there are cold medicines, but in this backward ancient times, there is nothing but herbal medicine, which is bitter and astringent. Every time she drinks it, she really wants to drink rock sugar water, but after drinking it The effect of rock sugar water was about to weaken, so she could only control it.

In fact, only she knows that she doesn't drink rock sugar water just because she wants to keep the bitterness in her heart and make herself bitter. This is also a kind of punishment for herself, self-torture.

I always think of my unfeeling towards him at the beginning, and her leaving must have hurt him deeply, because now she clearly remembers how sad he was at the moment of losing the baby. At first, she thought it was just him pretending, but How can one's pain be disguised?
It was she who was too naive and stupid to deny him blindly. Even if he loved her and guarded her all day and night, she didn't feel anything. She just felt that he was mitigating her sins.

How could she be so bad at that time?
I hate myself, I hate myself very much, but there is no room for redemption, the mistake has already been made, and any apology is useless, only to alleviate my sins, so I can say I am sorry.

She won't say sorry, because she doesn't need it for the one she loves!
I haven't seen the general's father for a long time. I heard that he is very busy now. Yu Xi doesn't know if he knows that she is back. She spends most of her time in bed these days.

At first, I always thought that a cold was nothing serious, and I always felt that a small cold would be cured soon, but now I know that a small cold can torture a person so uncomfortable.

Today is already the third day. After drinking the medicine, Yu Xi feels much better. These days, Lan Ling treats her like a treasure, and eats the palace meals every day. Her face has grown flesh and is rosy. many.

Early in the morning, the servant girl reported that the general returned to the mansion today, and Yu Xi got up early, washed herself up, and sat obediently in the yard, enjoying the sunshine.

The weather in early winter is so dry, she is afraid of the cold, she is dressed in lavender Huafu, and is covered with a white fur cloak, the warm fur is piled on her neck, which is very warm.

She just likes this feeling, the sun is shining on her face, and the light wind is blowing, making people forget all their troubles comfortably.

Lying on the step covered with a woolen blanket, I don't think about anything, I just enjoy the tranquility of this moment, which is very comfortable and comfortable.

It's just that this comfort didn't last long, when she was interrupted by footsteps, Yu Xi opened her eyes, and the glaring light made her close them again, uncovered the blanket covering her body, and Yu Xi sat up.

Slightly frowning and opening her eyes, she realized that the person standing in front of her was Liang Pei, and slowly getting up, Yu Xi said lightly, "I've seen Daddy!"

With such an unfamiliar tone, Liang Pei was stunned, but didn't say much. The weather-beaten face showed no expression at all. He just looked at Yu Xi for a while, and then said, "How is your body?"

Yu Xi nodded and said: "Yu Xi is fine, she's fine now!"

"That's good, take a good rest, don't think about anything else!" After speaking, Liang Pei walked out.

Looking at Liang Pei's back, Yu Xi couldn't understand what he said just now, don't think about anything else, what did he mean?Does he know what happened between her and the night?

For this father, she really can't guess his mind very well, she always has a sullen face, or forced her to marry at that time, it is different every time, it is really impossible to guess.

Not in the mood to continue basking in the sun, Yu Xi ordered the servant girl to move the collapsed house in, while he left Yu Xi Pavilion by himself.

Picking a place where no one was going, Yu Xi quietly came to the back door, yes, she wanted to go out for a walk, go out and have a look.

Walking alone in a familiar and unfamiliar place. A long time ago, she walked on this road. A long time ago, she was not An Ye Youxi. A long time ago, she was still good with him.

Walking here at this moment, it feels like a world away, with a heavy heart, but a little joy!
One step at a time, the old man selling stinky tofu is still on the street corner, and the aunt selling glutinous rice is still on the street, nothing has changed, their smiles are still the same, their shouts are still going on, life is still going on, I finally understand that this world If there is no one else, it will be the same.

Suddenly, they felt relieved. They must be very happy when they are busy every day. Just from the smile on their faces, it can be seen that they are very satisfied with their current life.

A little surprised, when did I become a physiognomist?
Sitting in front of the Xiaolongbaozi shop, ignoring the strange eyes of passers-by, she knew that she was dressed so luxuriously, but the effect of sitting in this small shop and eating must have attracted many people to look at her, plain Smile, it doesn't matter!

As long as you are happy, why care about what other people think?
After eating a basket of steamed buns, she remembered the familiar taste, when she said she wanted to eat delicious buns, it was Ye who came here to buy them in person.

She was still laughing at that time, a prince actually went to this kind of place to buy breakfast, and made others joke to ask for it, but he just smiled dotingly, saying that for her, he could do anything.

Tears, slipping down again, how could this be?Now she can only eat here alone, she feels so wronged, so wronged that she wants to cry.

Quietly wiped away tears, paid the money, Yu Xi got up and left, turned around, the seat just now was already taken.

Drifting aimlessly, not knowing where to go, just wanting to come out to get some air, when he looked up, he found that he had actually reached the Ye Wang Mansion.

Hiding in the corner, secretly watching that place, that door, he went out for the first time, she saw him off, hand, moved to the piece of jade at the waist, that cute little lion, she never took it off, she knew clearly I remember his solemn expression at that time, as if he was giving her his most precious thing, and his serious and focused eyes made her fascinated.

How is he?The distance between them is very close now, but she doesn't know how to knock on the door, how to meet him, without any news from him, she is really worried, wants to knock on the door very much, and then runs into Yiweilou, even if Just look at him.

But she didn't have the guts, how could she forget the ruthlessness last time?
She pushed him away with her own hands, what face would she use to meet him?We met, what do you say?Do you love, what qualifications do you have?
Such a distrustful love, she doesn't know why she is so bad, she can doubt him, doubt all the good things, say that feelings make people unable to be themselves, it turns out it's all true, she doesn't even know who she is .

After standing for a long time, the door of the Yewang Mansion was always closed. Yu Xi wanted to knock on the door, but he didn't step out.

The contradiction in her heart was abnormal, and she kept hesitating whether she should go in or not. There was the person she liked and wanted to see the most, but she hurt him the most, because she knew the pain, so she hesitated even more.

Suddenly, Yu Xi saw the door of the Yewang Mansion suddenly opened, and a sedan chair came out from inside. Yu Xi kept staring at the sedan chair, but unfortunately, she couldn't see anything.

Without thinking too much, Yu Xi directly followed the sedan chair and left.

Maybe the person in the sedan chair was Ye, maybe she could catch a glimpse of him, and followed the sedan chair full of excitement, the pain in her feet hadn't eased, but she couldn't care less.

The feeling of wanting to make sure that he is safe is getting deeper and deeper!

Although the speed of the sedan chair was not very fast, for a person whose feet had been blistered for several days, that speed was really far-fetched. Yu Xi's feet had not healed due to the many days of walking ahead. It doesn't matter if you walk a few steps, but if you walk in a hurry, it will hurt a lot.

But how can she care about these things now? That sedan chair carried her hope. If it was really him, she would be able to see him. Last time Lan Ling didn't find out about him, she was always worried, afraid What happened to him, because she knew that people who were hurt by feelings were helpless and weak.

Although Ye Yingxi was not that kind of person, she was still afraid.

Anxiously following the sedan chair, she didn't realize until now that she had never let go of him, and those so-called forgetting were simply deceiving herself.

I have been looking for an opportunity, a reason to love him, with a sarcastic smile hanging on the corner of my mouth, letting the cold wind pour into my clothes, so what?For the person she loves, she can give everything, because it is him, so she is willing.

Ye Yingxi, a person who is always worthy of her love!

After walking for two streets, the sedan chair finally stopped. Yu Xi raised her head and looked around, her head went numb with a bang.

This place... Isn't this place where she misunderstood Ye and Murong Ran's relationship last time?The people in the sedan chair...

Sure enough, following the line of sight, the person who got off the sedan chair was not the Ye Yingxi she had been thinking about day and night, but the Murong Ranqing whom Yu Xi hated the most in this life.

I saw Murong Ran get off the sedan chair step by step with twists and turns, and smiled at the few sedan chair bearers in various ways, turned around and entered the house, Yu Xi knew that the sedan chair belonged to Yewang's mansion.

Watching the sedan chair leave, Yu Xi glared fiercely at the closed door. Murong felt that one day, she would seek justice for her unborn baby.

Thinking of Yu Xi, she turned and left, walking towards the Yewang Mansion.

Those steps were unusually firm, as if he had made up his mind, every step was so steady and serious.

Yu Xi walked without hesitation. The moment she saw Murong Ranqing just now, she suddenly made up her mind that she must see Ye today and figure out everything, otherwise she would have trouble sleeping and eating again.

She has always been too cowardly, she doesn't know how to fight for anything, she only knows to ask others to pay, and now she has to fight for it once, if Ye still loves her, then they can go on well, continue to love, and be loved.

If Ye is tired, then she will not force it, everything depends on his will, if... If Murong Ranqing returns to his side, then she will definitely leave without hesitation.

Don't hesitate anymore, she has had enough of such days, it has been almost half a year, she has been living in the dark, she has been decadent for a long time, she wants to go back to that happy dark night Youxi, to find her lost smile, Speak your heart out loud.

Taking easy steps, Yu Xi walked slowly, since her feet hurt from walking fast, why couldn't she walk slower?As long as it can be reached.

It turned out that after I figured it out, it was so easy, I didn't have to suppress the dullness, I didn't have to pretend, I just had to wait for the last answer, and I was still a little uneasy.

I don't know how Ye will react when he sees her, and whether Ye will shut her out like she did to him last time. If so, she will be very sad.

But she is not afraid, even if Ye does not want to see her, she will not blame him, because she should bear all these.

It's just that she is most afraid of one thing, and that is seeing the still decadent Ye Yingxi!
Walked slowly to the Yewang Mansion, looking at the door plaque close at hand, how long has it been?It has been half a year since she left here, she thought she would never come back, but now she is still standing here, looking up at the door plaque.

The bewildered eyes, with infinite feelings, have a feeling called as if they have passed away!

It's been half a year, and in the past six months, she's not doing well, not at all. She lives in sadness every day, and bears the pain she gives herself every day.

Tears, as cheap as raindrops, fall every day, thinking about it now, I think those are so ridiculous!
Taking a deep breath, Yu Xi walked up the steps resolutely, each step carried her countless determinations, the struggle had long since dissipated, and now there was only firmness.

Hands, slowly raised, the cold double rings were clenched tightly in the hands, and they collided lightly, and the unique sound of metal gradually rang in the ears.

The door opened slowly, and the butler's surprised face came into view.

Gently raised the corners of her mouth, smiling gracefully, Yu Xi looked at the housekeeper quietly, and said lightly: "What's wrong? Are you surprised to see me?"

Hearing this, the butler immediately opened the door and said respectfully: "Princess, this old slave didn't expect that it was the concubine who came back. Concubine, come in quickly!"

The butler's attitude was enthusiastic and excited, Yu Xi smiled lightly and nodded, "Butler, take me to see the prince!"

Hearing Yu Xi's words, the steward said with some embarrassment: "Princess, this is not an old slave who is overstepping. The prince ordered that no one should disturb him, otherwise he will be expelled from the palace. This... this old slave dare not make decisions without authorization! "You must know that the prince has changed since he came back last time. He is even more decadent than before. Anyone who sees him is afraid.

After the princess disappeared, although he was unsmiling, he didn't treat people very well except for being cold. However, after the prince came back last time, not only did he get seriously ill, but he also didn't look good to anyone. The prince expelled from the palace, so now the palace is always in a state of tension.

"You just need to tell me where he is, don't worry about anything else, I promise the prince won't drive you away!" Yu Xi looked at the housekeeper calmly and said seriously.

Hearing this, the steward nodded quickly, because he felt that the prince became like that because of the disappearance of the princess. Now that the princess is back, the prince must be happy, so that these servants will not worry all day whether they will be driven away.

"My lord has locked himself in Yiweilou by himself now. It has been three days. He hasn't come out. Every day, people send a lot of wine in. No one can persuade him, even the emperor can't do anything about him. Wangfei, hurry up!" Go and persuade the prince, if this continues, his body will be exhausted!"

Listening to the butler's words along the way, Yu Xi was already worried. He drank every day, was he going to die of drunkenness?He vomited blood last time, so how could his body be able to bear it?

Thinking of Yu Xi's pace, he couldn't help speeding up a lot.

For the first time, I wonder why the palace is so big and why Yiwei building is so far away. Because of the pain in her feet, Yu Xi dare not walk too fast, and the butler has been following behind.

"Princess, your feet?"

Yu Xi turned her head, looked at her feet and said, "It's nothing, I just twisted it a bit!"

The housekeeper gave a compliment, and said to walk slowly, before Yu Xi raised his footsteps and continued to move forward.

It's early winter, but the garden of Yewang Mansion is still full of flowers. The flowers that don't belong to this season bloom extraordinarily brilliantly. Yu Xi knows that those flowers are specially found by Ye. They grow in a season that doesn't belong to them, but they can still survive. .

Her heart suddenly ached, but she did not forget that it was because she said she liked to enjoy flowers in winter, so Ye worked tirelessly to find so many flowers.

He firmly remembered her every word and every action, and then carefully did many things for her.

Across the garden is her Yiwei Building.

Looking at the tall building, her thoughts once again drifted to the past, her home, and she finally came back.

At this moment, she realized that the home she thought of was always here, whether it was Murong Ding's mansion or the magnificent Haolan Palace, she did not regard them as her home.

Living outside, she always feels that that is not her final place of belonging. It turns out that she has always had a home in her heart.

"Housekeeper, you go first, I will go in by myself, and I will bear all the consequences myself!" No matter what, she has to face it, and now no one can help her, only she can rely on herself.

The housekeeper glanced at Yiweilou worriedly, but left without saying anything.

Taking a deep breath again, clenched his hands tightly, closed his eyes, opened them, Yu Xi raised his feet, and stepped into the door of Yiwei Building.

Nothing has changed, any furnishings are the same as she left, even the unfinished embroidery on the embroidery frame is the same as when she left.

Mandarin ducks playing in the water, that was the pillow she wanted for herself and Yexiu, but it was only half finished, because of a misunderstanding, it was delayed for half a year. clean.

Every night, I have to clean it carefully all the time, otherwise how could there be no dust here?
It's hard to imagine how he misses and endures the suffering alone when she is not around. It must be the same as hers, and it may even be more painful.

She really wanted to scold and beat herself up, but it was so abominable to hurt a person who loves her the most and also the person she loves the most.

Walk in gently, Ye, must be inside that door, right?

So nervous, finally here again, to see him again.

The faint fragrance lingered on the tip of the nose, looking at the closed door, with the wind chimes she made hanging on it, nothing changed, and she still maintained the appearance of leaving.

Unspeakable touch, unspeakable excitement...

She wanted to push the door open with her slender hand, but she seemed to be caught by something, and she just didn't have the strength to push it.

How to do?My heart is still very nervous and contradictory, there is only a door between them now.

She could even feel his breathing, his heartbeat.

I put my ears close to the door and listened to the voices inside, but there was nothing.

Is he sleeping, why is there nothing?
Stretching out her hand slowly, Yu Xi told herself in her heart, don't be nervous, but if they meet again, they have missed it for so long, so they must not hesitate anymore!
"Squeak—" The door was finally opened, but Yu Xixun was coughed by the oncoming burst of alcohol.

Not long after coughing, Yu Xi quickly covered her mouth, for fear of waking up the people inside, because she guessed that Ye Yingxi must be resting now.

But as soon as he entered, Yu Xi was stunned, there was no one in the dark room at all.

"Ye, Ye..." After calling for a long time, Yu Xi didn't hear any response, and became anxious in her heart.

Opening the curtains, the sun shines in, and the darkness is suddenly driven away by the light. The alcohol-smelling bedroom makes Yu Xi feel a little nauseous. Her illness was not cured at first, but now she smells it even more uncomfortable.

Looking at the wine bottles on the table and on the ground, Yu Xi was extremely sad.

These must be drunk at night, right?

There are so many bottles, you can step on one in two steps, I can't believe how much wine I drank alone hiding here for three days and nights.

Heartache, heartache, spread to every cell in the body.

This used to be their happy place, but now he is asked to suffer alone here alone.

The last time I let him go cruelly, it must have hurt him very deeply!
While thinking, Yu Xi picked up the wine bottles on the ground, every bottle was full of not a single drop, she was going crazy, how could Ye drink so much?This will kill you.

After tidying up the mess in the house, Yu Xi put the wine bottle beside him, and at a glance, there were a hundred jars of wine.

Rubbing his sore forehead, Yu Xi looked at his bed, it was still very clean, but the quilt on it was a little messy, he must have been drunk for the past three days and slept drunk, but now he is in bed Where is it?
Walking out of the room, the soaring alcohol smell finally dissipated, and hurried to the bedside to smell the fresh air outside, and finally felt much better, but the cough still couldn't stop.

Yu Xi coughed for a long time before she stopped, sitting in front of the dressing table, looking at herself in the mirror with a flushed face, she coughed so hard just now that she almost coughed out her lungs.

After resting for a while, Yu Xi stood up. Since there was no night in Yiwei Building, where did he go?

Yu Xi searched all of Yiweilou, even the latrine, but there was no sign of Ye Yingxi, and he couldn't help but feel a lot lost in his heart. He made up his mind to find him, but he disappeared unexpectedly, where did he go? None of the housekeepers knew.

After searching back and forth several times, Yu Xi finally confirmed that Ye Yingxi was not in Yiweilou.

Helpless, she had no choice but to find the butler and ask him to send someone back to the General's Mansion with a message to tell Lan Ling that she was fine now.

Returning to Yiwei Tower again, sitting in the empty room, almost all the smell of alcohol in the room was dissipated, and the windows were opened very wide, just to drive away the smell of alcohol.

After burning several bags of spices, Yu Xi sat in front of the desk, looking at an unfinished painting on it.

The corner of her mouth couldn't help but curl up again. This person has no facial features, but she knew that it must be herself.

Night, he must be painting himself.

After looking at it for a long time, Yu Xi put down the painting and went outside. She wanted to wait for him. Since the housekeeper said that he was in Yiweilou, he would definitely come back. As long as he waited, he would definitely be able to see him.

Sitting in a chair, waiting for his return.

The night is still so beautiful and full of dreams.

Although a little cold, but the heart is warm.

Because she has a heart, a waiting heart.

Waiting all the time, but there is no movement, candlelight, flickering...

Unable to resist the onslaught of drowsiness, Yu Xi slowly closed her eyes, not hearing the sound of footsteps coming outside the house, getting closer...

(End of this chapter)