Apocalyptic life from scratch

Chapter 317 Desire to Be Trusted

With these elites here, the awakened ones finally have some confidence. No matter what, even if the battle is fierce now, the elites on our side have not yet made a move. When they make a move, the battle may be completely one-sided.

Everyone sighed and could only comfort themselves like this.It's just that many people thought, why didn't these people take action just now?With their abilities, if they had just participated in the battle, maybe those few people would not have to die...

Everyone was puzzled, but they couldn't say much about it. Everything today was based on obeying Black Wing's orders, and they were not qualified to point out how a master like him should do.

But this time, everyone soon turned their attention to Xue Feifei in the center of the venue. This woman was still sitting there leisurely. Things like indifference.

For Kong Zhe and Su Meiqin, the awakened ones naturally dare not say anything, but for Xue Feifei, an ordinary person, it is different.

To be honest, as an awakened person, he has more or less a sense of superiority over ordinary people, and there are many people who feel that they are superior to others.After this period of life in the last days, the identity gap between awakened people and civilians has been inadvertently engraved in everyone's heart.

But at this time, when the awakened ones are exhausted, there is an ordinary person sitting there so peacefully, without fighting, and even moving, just playing with those small objects, beautiful It is called 'research', and it can be protected openly. Such a thing is really unbearable for these arrogant awakened ones.

"...what kind of research, isn't it just relying on the relationship to go through the back door..."

"...Isn't it just to be next to a stronger man? What's there to be proud of..."

"...That is, instead of doing some bullshit research, it's better to contribute to the team. Even if you can't fight, at least you can have some tea and water..."

……

The gossip began to intensify, and the whispers around her were like sharp thorns, deeply piercing Xue Feifei's heart, making her extremely uncomfortable.

She shook her head, trying to ignore the gossip around her.It's just that she soon discovered that in the past, she had been able to immerse herself in the special effects of her research as she wanted, but now she couldn't play a role. Her ears always unconsciously distinguish the voices of the crowd, and her brain always Unconsciously to understand the meaning of those words.

Sentences of sarcasm and insults in a low voice reached her like thunder.

The pressure began to gradually spread in her heart...

At this time, what should she do?Ask Kong Zhe for help?Let him order those people to shut up?No, no, Kong Zhe has already helped her too much and given her such a good condition, she can't bother Kong Zhe anymore, besides, how can this kind of gossip be stopped by a forced order?Language is like a sharp blade, since ancient times, writing can kill people. If it is forcibly suppressed, I am afraid it will only suffer a greater backlash.

She wants to explain to others, and even has the urge to stand up and shout, telling everyone that what she is doing is very important research, very important, and once it is done, it will benefit everyone.But who would believe her?
Before she showed real results, everyone would think that she was just paddling, just trying to find an excuse to get through this beast tide.

In this case, there is only one way - to complete the research in hand.

Yes, it's as simple as that, just like she keeps reminding herself, every once in a while, she has to remind herself like this, don't think about anything else, just finish what you have in hand, and relieve yourself when the time comes Well, let's see what others can say.

Yes, it's that simple...

But...is it really that simple...

Xue Feifei suddenly realized that she was actually worried about whether she could complete this research!

In the past, she has never been in such a situation. She is the kind of person who is very confident in herself, and this confidence is still revealed in her bones.

From childhood to adulthood, whether it is a thesis, project, new project or new research, as long as she takes over what she has to do, she has never doubted that she will complete it.

Maybe Xue Feifei has many shortcomings. She is a house girl, can't cook, doesn't like to move, doesn't like to communicate with others, and can't even express her emotions accurately to her own sister... But she also has her own Proud, she knows her own talents, and she firmly believes that no matter how many shortcomings she has, no one can do better than her in her own field.

Yes, God is always fair. The more flaws she has in other aspects, the more talented she is in her own job.

She has always thought so. In this world, there is no problem that can stump her.As long as she wants to, she will be able to do it.

So, until yesterday, Xue Feifei thought so, unwaveringly.It's just that since last night, the new idea that appeared in her mind has changed this firmness.

It was an unprecedented thought, a bridge connecting science and magic. Once the research was successful, it would be like two industrial revolutions, and it would definitely change the world pattern.

In the past, if she made such a discovery, she would definitely plunge into it happily, immerse herself in it without sleeping or eating, until she finally made it, the sense of fulfillment and satisfaction made her linger on.Many of her amazing inventions have been created through this process.

However, the current research made her hesitate for the first time.Not for anything else, just because the content of this research is too big, or too fresh, she has never been exposed to similar things before, that is to say, there is no knowledge that can be used as a reference for her, and she wants to open it completely. It is the door to a strange world.

Humans always have some kind of inexplicable fear of the unknown, and Xue Feifei is no exception. Although she is already one of the few human beings with the strongest ability to accept new things, as long as she is a human being, she can The fear is still unavoidable.

Last night, after hesitating for a long time, she resolutely devoted herself to this research.But she didn't realize that quietly, a seed called 'not confident' had been planted in her heart.

And this morning, when she asked Kong Zhe to ask for two living monsters, Kong Zhe's usual trust made the seed take root and germinate.

Xue Feifei hesitated. For the first time in history, she began to doubt whether she could complete the research in hand.

If not, wouldn't it be a disappointment to Kong Zhe's trust?Also, she will be looked down upon by many awakened people around her, and will laugh at her as just a lazy person.

These imaginary pictures kept turning in her mind, Xue Feifei lowered her head, tightly holding the pen in her hand.

She crossed out the calculation formula on the paper over and over again, but she still couldn't concentrate, the surrounding sounds kept coming to her like maggots in tarsus.

She tried various methods to calm herself down, but it was useless. On the road of research, she had been going smoothly before, so facing the situation at this time, she realized that she had no experience in mental adjustment at all. No.

As if falling into the boundless sea, no matter how hard she struggled, it would be of no avail. Xue Feifei felt that her consciousness was becoming more and more lax, and tears had flowed down not only when.It fell on the glasses, and dripped along the lenses onto the paper in front of me.

The surrounding voices were still coming in. At this moment, Xue Feifei even hated her ears a little bit. Why was she so sensitive at this time, as if she wanted to hear all the sarcasm around her...

Her body was trembling uncontrollably, Xue Feifei could only lower her head, not daring to let anyone notice her strange appearance, even if she just wanted to disappear into this world, it didn't matter.

Her mind was completely unable to concentrate, and even the things in front of her eyes began to blur, and her doubts about herself continued to expand.Facing this sudden situation, Xue Feifei, who had always been calm, could only cry like a little girl.

help me……

Who can help me……

"what are you doing?"

Just when Xue Feifei was about to despair, she suddenly felt a heavy head, as if a big warm hand was covering her head.

Xue Feifei raised her head subconsciously, only to find that Kong Zhe was leaning on the table in front of her, staring directly at her.

"It's rare to still shed tears... Such a person is not the Xue Feifei I know..."

Xue Feifei stared at him blankly, he obviously didn't speak, but she could hear his voice.

"Don't worry, I believe in you, even if you don't believe in yourself, I believe in you..."

Kong Zhe showed a smile to Xue Feifei: "If there is only one person in this world who can complete this research, it is only you!"

Xue Feifei was still the same, staring at him blankly as if fixed by a sculpture.

What's going on?He obviously didn't speak, but he clearly heard his voice, as if it was exploding in his ears, it was extremely clear.

At this moment, in Xue Feifei's eyes, everything around her seemed to disappear, the whole world turned into pure white, and in the center of the world, only him, Kong Zhe, and this table remained.

Xue Feifei was silent, her lips trembled a little, and there seemed to be something hot in her eyes.

Are you crying again?
However, it doesn't matter anymore. At this moment, Xue Feifei suddenly felt enlightened.In the past, she never cared about other people's opinions, so as long as she was confident in herself, she would be fearless, but now, she finally had her own hesitation, and her lack of self-confidence became the key to destroying her. She needs someone to recognize her.And Kong Zhe appeared at this time, and gave her the greatest degree of trust.

(End of this chapter)