Golden Diamond Female President: Husband, I love you

Chapter 417 Heart Knot (Part [-])

"Because of the age gap, my vision is very different from Si Chenghan's. I would feel that compared to Xiaolan, I am not suitable for him at all."

Xia Yunzheng talked about his thoughts over the years word by word.

These are the questions that have been haunting her since the beginning, when her thoughts about Si Chenghan got out of shape.

Therefore, although she Xia Yunzheng is a very strong and rational woman, those are all manifested in the world other than love, only the love side, she has low self-esteem.

"Since you think so, why didn't you resist to the end, but still accepted such a marriage?"

This issue is what Jin Moyang has been paying attention to.

He glanced at Si Chenghan and felt that this question was Xia Yunzheng's real knot, so he simply threw the note back to Si Chenghan, there was no need to ask other questions.

Si Chenghan knew that Xia Yunzheng had something on his mind, but he didn't know that it was such a serious inferiority complex.

He always thought that loving her was the most important thing, and he didn't expect to put such a heavy burden on her.

Xia Yunzheng slightly hooked her lower lip, smiled, and said: "I used to think that I was forced to get married, but actually thinking about it, I might not have hoped for such a thing to happen in my heart, although I always feel that Si Chenghan may not love me, but I still like being with him very much."

Hearing such words, Si Chenghan was finally happy, but he was also worried when he was happy.She has such a knot in her heart, I'm afraid it will not be easy to solve this problem.

Jin Moyang sighed in his heart, and said: "Since you and him love each other deeply, why bother to doubt it? Xia Yunzheng, even if you are a few years older than Young Master Si, you are more than enough to match him .On the contrary, for Young Master Si, being with you is his luck."

Si Chenghan recognized the words "this is his luck", but he always felt that Jin Moyang's starting point was not this, Jin Moyang seemed to be belittling him?

Sure enough, Jin Moyang's words were not finished: "For a boy in his early twenties, there are still many unstable things in his personality. If he is with his peers or a woman younger than himself, It's not conducive to the improvement of his personality. To put it bluntly, it's because Young Master Si was lucky enough to meet a woman as good as you, which played a guiding role in his growth path. "

This is the reason why a good man can be cultivated, and a good wife can cultivate a good man.

"..." You are the goddamn luck!
If it wasn't for hypnosis, Si Chenghan would definitely scold him.He was lucky to meet her, but it took a lot of hard work to win her, right?

Xia Yunzheng was silent.

Jin Moyang asked again: "Xia Yunzheng, do you have other things that have been on your mind?"

"One thing." Xia Yunzheng thought for a while and said.

"What's the matter?" Jin Moyang asked.

Xia Yunzheng sighed slowly, and said, "About that unfavorable child."

Si Chenghan understood that Xia Yunzheng couldn't let go of this matter. Although she didn't show any signs of it afterwards, he knew about it.

"It's a pity for that child." Jin Moyang asked introductoryly, wanting to find an entry point.

A painful expression began to appear on Xia Yunzheng's face, and said: "Actually, sometimes when I think about it, I have a little bit of hatred. I hate myself for being powerless against those wicked people. As a mother, I can't even keep my own child."

"That's not your fault." Jin Moyang was also worried when he saw her like this.

Si Chenghan took the notepad, scribbled another line, and handed it to Jin Moyang: Don't ask, she is in such pain.

Seeing Xia Yunzheng's real reaction, his heart was sharpened like a sharp stone, and he was so painful that he couldn't breathe.

Jin Moyang ignored him, just glanced at him lightly, as if to say: "Do you still want to be treated?"

Si Chenghan fell silent.

Xia Yunzheng looked like she wanted to cry, and said, "It's my fault, but I've always had a lump in my heart, and I can't get rid of it."

"What kind of lump?" Jin Moyang felt that this had already asked a very important thing.

Xia Yunzheng's facial expression was blank for a while, and then he said: "I know that Si Chenghan used his manpower to fight against the wolf. This kind of action can save more people. What he did is a good thing. But, never Knowing from Zuo Ansi that he chose to give up saving me, my heart still hurts."

What she said made Si Chenghan's heart ache.

When he made that decision, he followed Xia Yunzheng's rational mind. At that time, he was determined to save her with his own life, so he was cruel.He has always felt guilty, but she has never shown any displeasure in this regard.

Therefore, he never thought that she would have such a deeply hidden knot in her heart.

Xia Yunzheng continued slowly: "I am his wife, and we should advance and retreat together, so I think his choice is right. If he didn't lose that child later, maybe this matter will be over. But... ..."

Tears flowed from Xia Yunzheng's tightly closed eyes, and she choked her throat, unable to speak the following words.

Si Chenghan also watched in extreme pain, clenching his fists tightly.

"But what?" Jin Moyang remained professional and calm.

Xia Yunzheng choked for a while, and said: "But, we lost a child we were looking forward to so much. Afterwards, I often wondered if Si Chenghan had chosen to save me first, could this have been avoided? ?”

So, she didn't blame him for not saving her, but she kept blaming him for not saving the child!

Si Chenghan felt as if a big hole had been torn open in his heart, the pain made him speechless, and his eyes were red.

Thinking back when she stepped into the gate of hell with one foot, he was in pain!
Jin Moyang glanced at him silently, and said to the woman on the bed who kept crying: "There are no ifs in this world. I heard that Young Master Si also used his own life to save you."

When he said "you", he meant to count the unborn child as a person, which answered Xia Yunzheng's thoughts.

"Yes, so I didn't blame him, but I couldn't control the sadness in my heart." What Xia Yunzheng said at this time was what she kept in her heart.If these words were not in the process of hypnosis, she would not have said them to anyone.

When Zuo Ansi provoked her so much back then, she said angrily that she didn't care.

But, she actually minds very much!
Because what is lost can never be found again.

Jin Moyang began to professionally appease this knot, Si Chenghan couldn't stand it anymore, he stood up and went to the bathroom.

Looking at the sad face in the mirror, Si Chenghan felt that his chest was so heavy that it was about to explode, and there was nowhere to vent this pain.

(End of this chapter)