Sister and brother love outside marriage: ups and downs and entanglement

Chapter 90 I have to stand up

Ever since Lei Xi directly admitted everything, I couldn't hate Xu Anzhi anymore, and seeing her appearing here now, apart from being surprised, I felt distressed.Compared with her downfall, my luck seems to be better?
"Go in and have a seat?" Xu Anzhi pointed to a dilapidated front room next to it, with "Little Red Hair House" written on it.At the same time, there were several women who were similar to her sitting there, all with heavy make-up and their legs crossed.From this point of view, it belonged to the cheapest hair salon in a certain city, and most of the men who came in and out were fishermen at sea or old men.

I shook my head, my voice began to choke: "Why are you here?"

Xu Anzhi took a cigarette, and asked in an unfriendly tone: "I'm not here, so you tell me I should be there?"

"I mean how did you come to do this?"

"What do you think I can do now besides this?"

I can't understand what Xu Anzhi is thinking at this moment, but I know she must be very helpless, and at the same time, like me, she has suffered the pain of losing her child and lover.Even though her lover had been my husband, all that disappeared with his death. "I'm going to do something now, why don't we find a place to sit down later?"

"I still have to go to work, so I just want to ask you, don't you feel relieved when you see me like this?"

"without me."

"Fang Honghong, a regular customer is looking for you."

A 40-year-old woman in the back room shouted to the outside, Xu Anzhi immediately turned her head and agreed, "Come here."

It turned out that Xu Anzhi changed his name when he got here, but when he saw the old man standing next to the woman, and imagined that Xu Anzhi would be squeezed by him after entering, his heart ached again.I think her current state may have something to do with her resentment towards me. Regardless of whether she can come out or not, it is necessary for me to tell her about Leixi.Reaching out to stop her: "Don't go? Let's find a place to sit? I want to talk to you about something."

"If you don't go, will you get me the money?" Xu Anzhi glanced at me sideways: "I live here 24 hours a day, come whenever you want me."

I stood where I was, watching her move gracefully in front of that ugly old man: "Go in."

This scene shocked me very much. I followed her and the woman who called her just now looked me up and down: "Are you Honghong's friend? Do you also want to come to work? Here we are."

"After she comes out, don't let her go to work today. How much does she earn a night? I'll pay!" I took out my wallet from my bag, and there was only 300 in it. I took it all out and handed it to her: "This It's a deposit, is it enough? I'll go get it if it's not enough."

The woman smiled instantly when she saw the money, "Honghong is the most expensive here, it's only worth one hour, and I can only reserve one hour for you, you have to come back within one hour to make up for the whole night's expenses .”

"How many?"

"The price of Honghong is 800."

Without even thinking about it, I agreed: "Okay, I'll give you another 500 within an hour."

I almost trotted all the way to Yan Lu's house. I went to the bank to withdraw money and went back to the alley without saying a few words to her after I got the letter.I arrived early, Xu Anzhi was still inside with the bad old man and did not come out.The middle-aged woman enthusiastically arranged for me to sit down, poured water for me and made love with me: "Beauty, I didn't expect you to be so beautiful, so this is the good thing?"

It took me a long time to understand that the woman thought I was going to take Xu Anzhi away for something.But I really can't tolerate someone I once knew appearing in such a place, no matter what feud she had with me.What's more, her child Duoduo and my child Mao Mao are still half-brothers and sisters. If they are not even, they will have a better relationship in the future. If one day Duoduo knows that his mother is here, and Mao Mao knows that I saw her But don't persuade me, they will hate me.

After sitting in the hair house for a while, many men came to ask middle-aged women my price.I felt too embarrassed, so I went to the small hotel opposite and opened a room. After telling the woman the room number, I told her to let her come over after Xu Anzhi came out.

Most of the hotels are filled with people who come to open rooms temporarily. This is when the business is good, and you can hear voices from time to time when you walk in the corridor.I covered my ears, blushed and ran back to the room I opened.While waiting for Xu Anzhi's arrival, I opened the letter Ye Yiding left for me.

After more than two months, this letter finally arrived in my hands. Although I have tried my best to adjust myself in the past two months, when I saw Ye Yiding's familiar handwriting on the letter, I still couldn't help but feel sad. Discomfort and that kind of crazy feeling. .

"Forgive me for not applying to meet with you. Some inmates said that they should settle all their worries before they die, so that they can be a magnanimous ghost on Huangquan Road. So I can't see you again. I don't want to know all about your situation. I'm afraid to see you. After that, you can't close your eyes before dying."

"I imagined your life in Binhai, and I worried about you. You never lived alone, but now you have to face it. Only then did I know that my behavior was not helping you, but pushing you again. another abyss."

"But I still don't regret it, I know you will get through this difficult time, I know you will be strong. No matter how difficult it is, it can't match the humiliation and grievance you have suffered in these years. Only I can end it in this way, Only then can you be reborn from Nirvana."

"I left earlier than you. Even if I have a next life, you are already old. If there is, I hope that when I see you in the next life, you can hold hands happily with the person you love. No one will ever abandon you like this to me again." , don't let anyone bully you like him.

"I hope you don't miss me anymore, and I hope you keep all your memories on the day I abandoned you and left Binhai, so that you will always remember that I, Ye Yiding, was the one who was sorry for you, and that I let you go through such a difficult time. Inhuman days."

"Don't forgive me, hate me as always."

Yang Yang sprinkled four pages of letter paper, read it over and over again with tears, and could almost memorize every word clearly. The heart-piercing madness made me want to stand on the edge of the window sill and jump off.

There was a knock on the door, and I knew it was Xu Anzhi who had arrived. I put away the letter paper and put it back in my bag. I inadvertently left the sentence in the middle: "If you can be strong and live better, I promise I will bless you. Happier; if you give up at this point, even if you come after me, I still will not forgive you."

I thought silently in my heart: I have to stand up, I must stand up.Whether it's for Ye Yiding who died, or for my father who disappeared, or my mother who is now hiding in XZ, I must stand up and walk down bravely!
Opening the door, Xu Anzhi walked to the bed, lit a cigarette and stretched her legs: "Oh, I know you are rich, but you don't have to insult people like this, right? Now people say, I picked up a rich lesbian tonight." .”

"Wait for me." I turned around and went into the bathroom, rinsed my face with cold water, took a few deep breaths in front of myself in the mirror, and my mind had changed a little bit about the purpose of meeting Xu Anzhi just now.If Reich can force all the misunderstandings on us, why can't I clear them up?She loves children, and I love children too. Why can't we stand on the same front and think of ways to get the children back?

Wiping off his face, he went out and sat opposite Xu Anzhi, "Have you ever thought about Zhang Duoduo's feelings when you think about giving up on yourself like this?"

Seeing that I was talking about a child, Xu Anzhi immediately put away the meaning that was still on my face just now, and said vigilantly: "Ke An, are you still finished? At this point, do you still want to attack the child?"

"Hmph" I sneered, "What do you think I can gain by attacking your child? Don't forget, after Zhang Nan's death, I am no longer the daughter-in-law of the Zhang family. Just like you , and some identities are just the mother of the grandson of the Zhang family."

"I used to think that you were always bullied by being silent, but it turned out that you are a dog that doesn't bark and bites people better than anyone else."

Hearing her call me a dog, my tone of voice was not very pleasant: "If I said you were stupid, you wouldn't blame me, would you? We were both killed by other women, you know? From your premature birth to Duoduo Anorexia, from when you were kicked out of the house to when Zhang Nan was killed, do you think that if it was all me, I would be so vicious that I would abort myself? Why can’t I even take the child with him after his death?”

Xu Anzhi's eyes sparkled: "You mean, there are other women?"

"Of course, have you ever asked the doctor that just a bowl of barley porridge can cause premature labor? It's true that I cooked the porridge, but didn't I stay outside halfway? Have you ever thought that your breast pump And the baby bottle, how could I drop something just once I touched it? Am I that stupid?"

Xu Anzhi took a sharp breath and exhaled the smoke, and asked in disbelief, "Mama Liu?"

I nodded: "You came to our house the day before my miscarriage, and the next day I found the medicine bottle in Mama Liu's closet, do you know?"

"I can not believe it"

"Actually, I couldn't believe it at first, but let me ask, who is really vicious enough to kill his own child for the sake of a man? You thought I used my child to harm you, but I thought it was you who used my child to harm me!"

In order to convince Xu Anzhi, I took out the last text message sent by Ouyang Lanlan on my mobile phone: "Look, the person who killed Zhang Nan sent me a letter and was stopped by that person. If you don't want to believe it anymore, you You can ask the people in Yijiayuan, they should have seen the missing person notice of that woman looking for me, and she is still looking for me!"

Xu Anzhi threw the cigarette butt on the ground and stomped it hard a few times, "If you tell me this, you are not afraid that I, Liu Ma and that person are in the same group?"

"Don't be afraid. You are a mother, and you have no reason not to want your own child!"

(End of this chapter)