Passing by your world

Chapter 4 First Love Passes Through Your World
Passing by your world
A person's memory is a city,

Time corrodes all buildings,
Desertify all tall buildings and roads.

if you don't move forward,

will be buried in sand.

So we burst into tears, step by step turning back,

But we can only go forward.

1
Listening to songs is like a private era record.In the old computer you discarded, the song that was repeated in the music library should have accompanied the coldest time.

In 2004, I took a bus from Beijing to Nanjing and rented a basement on Qingdao Road. I was so discouraged that I no longer wanted to work.Used laptop speakers are bad, all singers are cracking.I hold it and play cards every day for more than ten hours, regardless of morning and evening.But my skills are too poor and I have no rules at all. My only advantage is that I can type fast, and I even created my own tactics called nonsense flow.

As soon as the cards are dealt, I talk to the players in the chat box: "Red Flame Angel, long time no see, how is your uncle?" Gently, be careful in your life." "Hey, your name is Furry, how big is Furry?" "Hello Furry, can you help me, I play cards on my knees, please give me a pad, my knees are swollen Woolen cloth……"

As a result, many players couldn't bear it anymore, played cards randomly, and quit after cursing "I'll fuck you".In this way, I won the poker game by typing, earning a winning rate of 75%.Later, it gradually failed, and I thought of a new trick.

I tell stories in dialog boxes.

The system dealt the cards, and I typed: "Once upon a time there was a priest, and the most beautiful girl in the village he lived was named Xiaofang. Suddenly Xiaofang became pregnant, and she refused to say whose child it was. The villagers beat her violently and wanted to impregnate her." The pig cage. Xiaofang cried and said that the baby belonged to the priest. The violent villagers rushed into the church together, but the priest did not deny it and let them break his legs. After 20 years, a miracle happened.”

Then I started to play cards, the dialog box was in chaos, and the other three people were yelling: "I killed you, what a miracle happened! Whose child is it? Is the priest crazy! Your sister, I stopped playing, you Can you complete your speech?"

With hard work, my winning rate reached 80% again.

Nonsense stream became famous, and many people came to learn from him.I saw that the winning rate was below 50%, and the titles were all "barefoot", so I sneered and refused.

Just when I was proud, Mao Shiba, whom I rented together, suddenly emerged and became a self-taught talent.

This dog is too shameless, what he invented belongs to the branch of nonsense: cursing.For example, when everyone was playing cards well, Mao Shiba issued a line of words: "Great Mercy and Great Compassion Avalokitesvara Bodhisattva, the holy dew shines on the world, and bright eyes call for peace. If you want your parents to be healthy, please repeat it. It must be done." To, or go out and be hit by a car."

I can imagine his opponent's expression in front of the computer, playing a card and playing a life-threatening game, which should be unexpected.

At that time, forced forwarding was not yet popular, and the whole chess and card room was in a hurry when he made it like this, and everyone didn't care about calculations.Before finishing a round, he had already invited Taishang Laojun, Yahweh, Virgin Mary, Lucky Boy, Tang Minghuang, Golden Retriever Lion King Xie Xun, Hai's Daughter...

I lost.

Mao Shiba was quiet and silent in his life, and even on the phone, he basically only had three words: "Hi. Um. Bye." He became a master of nonsense, which made me dumbfounded.

2
My friendship with Mao Shiba has always been maintained. In 2009, we drove to Daocheng Yading together.He took his girlfriend, Lizhi, and drove to Chonggu Temple. The scenery was like a scroll, and the colors of the mountains and mountains rushed to his face.

I knew Mao Shiba's plan, he was trembling with nervousness.

He knelt in front of Lizhi and said, "Lizhi, can you marry me?"

Just one sentence, just after the comma, he choked up.

Li Zhi said: "No matter how much you propose, you don't say a few words. You really cherish your words like gold."

Mao Shiba sobbed and said, "Lichi, can you marry me?"

Lizhi said: "Okay."

Mao Shiba put a ring on Lizhi, and Lizhi secretly wiped away her tears.My other two friends and I pretended to be thousands of troops, cheering and rolling at the top of our lungs.

On Lizhi's birthday in 2010, Mao Shiba gave him a navigator as a gift.Everyone was shocked, this gift is too strange, does it have any meaning?
Mao Shiba said shyly that he had been tinkering for more than a month and replaced all the voice files of the navigator.I was so excited that I forced Lizhi to drive and test Mao Shiba's research results together.

This attempt, I completely recalled the glorious record of Mao Shiba dominating the nonsense stream in the basement years.

During the drive, the navigator kept talking nonsense, with a Nanjing accent: "It's over, there is a camera in front. I can't fix this one, I can't find the place you want to go. Brother, are you awake, the address is wrong. ?”

Suddenly waiting for a red light, Mao Shiba said solemnly in the navigator: "The handbrake is still on? What if you slip back? Don't honk the horn. What are you doing honk? If there is a ghost in front, I will fuck you right away." , you can't beat him, can't you wait honestly, oh, you didn't honk the horn, so I didn't say anything..."

Everyone was overjoyed, and Li Zhi laughed so hard that he held his forehead and said, "You usually don't say a word, why is the recording so long-winded?"

Mao Shiba said: "The last time I went to Daocheng, you thought the navigator was too old-fashioned and not user-friendly, so I modified it, so you won't feel bored when driving in the future."

Lizhi picked up the navigator and pressed it casually, and the navigator screamed: "You don't mean to turn me off, I didn't break the law, you turn it off, you turn it off, I will stop making a navigator later, and replace it with a diode to make a radio , you bite me..."

Everyone is amazed.

3
In 2011, Mao Shiba broke up with Lizhi.

Lizhi packed all the things Mao Shiba gave her in a box and sent them to my bar.

I said, "Mao Shiba hasn't come yet, he's on the way, are you waiting for him?"

Lizhi shook her head and said, "Don't wait, return it to him for me."

I said, "He has something he wants to tell you."

Li Zhi said: "It doesn't matter anymore, he has been talking very little."

I said, "Lichi, is that really the case?"

Li Zhi walked to the door without looking back, and said, "We are not suitable."

I said, "Take care."

Lizhi said, "Take care."

Mao Shiba didn't show up that day, and he didn't answer my calls.I went to the electronic city to find his counter, and the boss next to him told me that he hadn't come to do business for several days.

After a while, I met him by chance in a tavern. He drank a lot, his face was flushed, his eyes could not be opened, and he asked me, "Zhang Jiajia, have you ever been to Shacheng?"

I thought for a while: "Dunhuang?"

He shook his head and said, "No, a strange city with only sand in it."

I said, "You drank too much."

He fell asleep on the table.

That was the last glass of wine he drank in the city.

4
Just like that, the cardboard boxes of lychees were placed in my bar, and Mao Shiba never had the courage to come over to pick them up.

One day the store manager came home in my car and came out to play with a navigator. I looked familiar, and the store manager curled his lips and said, "I found it randomly."

As soon as she turned it on, the navigator issued Mao Shiba's voice: "I'm out of power, you still play."

The store manager was so frightened that he jumped like a dog, saying he saw a ghost, and ran away with his head in his arms.

I called Mao Shiba: "Hey, do you want something?"

Mao Shiba was silent for a while, and said, "No more, I will go back to my hometown Taizhou tomorrow."

I said, "What are you going back for?"

Mao Shiba said, "My family rented a shop for me in Xincheng Commercial Street, and I went back to sell mobile phones."

I suddenly felt a little sad. I didn’t know whether to comfort or encourage me. Just as I was about to hang up the phone, Mao Shiba said, “It’s good to sell a phone. If you meet a young and beautiful girl, you will have a marriage and a happy life.”

He smiled to himself, that soft smile, with indescribable exhaustion.

I said, "Come on."

Mao Shiba said, "Take care."

I said, "Take care."

5
In August 2012, I was in a bad mood. I drove west and drank a lot of wine in Chengdu. The next day I had a whim and planned to visit Daocheng.

Although there was only one person, I drove the navigator and listened to Mao Shiba's rambling along the way. For a while, "run so fast to die, and I can't help you push it in the ditch", and for a while, "turn left after 100 meters, his mother You slow down", it is not lonely.

I think Mao Shiba is really a genius. The red light of the battery alarm lights up, and the navigator yells frantically: "I'm out of power, I'm out of power, give me some power!"

I almost laughed, and quickly plugged in the power.

After crossing Zheduo Mountain, Paoma Mountain, Haizi Mountain, and Erlang Mountain, if you want to see the Milky Sea and the Five-colored Sea, you have to climb up by yourself.I felt very tired, so I hiked with a navigator and stopped at Chonggu Temple.Green grass, blue water, red leaves, white mountains, I watched this autumn fairy tale in a daze.

The navigator suddenly beeped.

The voice was no longer dialect, but the words were correct, it was Mao Shiba trying to speak Mandarin, the Mandarin we laughed at.

From the first sentence, my hand holding the navigator kept shaking.

Mao Shiba said:

"Lichi, have you been to Daocheng again? This is Chonggu Temple, the place where I proposed to you. When I arrive at this destination, I will tell you: Because it is the bluest sky, you are an angel. You have come to In my world, the four seasons are replaced by joy, anger, sorrow and joy, smiling is the day, and crying is the night."

"I like to be alone until you come into my heart. Then, I just want to be with you, I don't like to be alone."

"I want to share everything about you, I want to embrace everything about you, I want to be with you forever, I love you, I can't resist, I just love you."

"Lichi, I'm thinking, when you hear this, is it our first wedding anniversary, or are we traveling by car with our baby?"

"I stood under the sky that day, and I said to you together with myself today, Lizhi, I love you."

Listening to Mao Shiba's voice in the navigator, tears welled up in my eyes.

That day, on the hillside where the clouds were shining, the grass was infinitely soft, Mao Shiba knelt down in front of the girl and said, "I love you, Lychee."

Today, on the hillside where the shadows of the clouds are shimmering, the grass is infinitely soft, the shadow of Mao Shiba kneels in front of the shadow of the girl, saying: "I love you, Lychee."

No matter how beautiful this place is, for Mao Shiba and Lizhi, it has become a sand city.

A person's memory is like a city, and time corrodes all buildings, desertifying tall buildings and roads.If you don't move forward, you will be buried in the sand.

Shacheng is not in any place, it is just your memory.

Occasionally when you return to Shacheng in your dreams, those street lights and footprints gradually become clear in your vision, but you cannot touch them. Once your hands fall into it, the whole city will collapse rumblingly.Open up your smiling face, bury your blue sea and blue sky, and bury all the shadows between us.

If you don't move forward, you will be buried in the sand.So we burst into tears and looked back step by step, but we could only move forward.

Even if I walk forward, I just pass you by.

I pass by your world, but you just pass by each other's world.

Even if we are lonely and silent, we are still talking nonsense. After talking about everything, we will be old friends with Silence.

pig's love

I was so drunk, I remembered that I was holding instant noodles,

Standing on the balcony, watching the campus in the snow,
Zhu Tou is holding an umbrella, with the petite Cui Min nestled beside him,
They rely on each other, step by step through youth.

Four college roommates, the one who sleeps on my upper bunk is called Zhutou.

In the middle of summer, the weather is too hot to sleep at all.

The sink in the dormitory was wide and long, and the pig's head was so hot that it couldn't bear it, so he ran over and lay down in the sink wearing a pair of underpants.The cold water rushed over his body, and he fell asleep contentedly.

As a result, a classmate came to wash the clothes, and he was embarrassed to wake him up, so he did it secretly. When the washing water was poured, the pig's head was almost submerged along the pool.

After the pig woke up, he stared blankly in the mirror and said, "Hey, why am I so clean?"

Zhu Tou wants to buy a good electric fan, but he doesn't have enough money.He bought a stack of letter paper, wrote a novel, and submitted it to "The King of Stories", intending to get some royalties.

He excitedly showed me the manuscript, and after I read it, my liver and gallbladder were torn apart.The content of the story is that the male dormitory is too dirty, causing the rat to mutate and killing a dormitory person.

He asked me how I was doing, I was silent for a while, then nodded and said, "It's okay, let's give it a try."

The manuscript was returned.

Zhu Tou persevered in making revisions, changing the boys' dormitory to be too dirty, causing the rats to mutate and killing the counselor who came to check the sanitation.

The manuscript was returned again.Zhu Tou was furious this time, and stayed up all night, changing the whole night, doubling the length of the article.

This time the content is that the male dormitory is too dirty, causing the mouse to mutate and bite one of the students.After graduation, the student became the editor of "The King of Stories". Although he was obviously a virgin, he died of syphilis.

The manuscript was not rejected this time, and the editor sent him a letter back, saying in a very sincere tone, "Student, I will kill you."

Zhu Tou gave up his dream of making money and started playing games.He spent 30 yuan to buy a second-hand Xiaobawang from the flea market, and played "Three Kingdoms 2".

He played greedily from dawn to dusk, until the game card had a problem, and unexpectedly he played out six Guan Yu and eight Cao Cao.

One month before the holiday that year, everyone put together the whole body for no more than ten yuan.So I was hungry for three days, woke up and rushed to the bathroom to pour tap water, then lay back on the bed to maintain my strength, and tried to fall asleep as soon as possible.

On the fourth day, everyone was so hungry that they cried.

The squad leader mobilized in the girls' dormitory, packed a sack of snacks, and delivered them to us, hoping that we would live well.At that time, we looked at the sack, our hands trembled, and we took a twist and put it in our mouths, tears streaming down our face.

Relying on sacks for three days, he fell into hunger again.I still remember that in the middle of the night, Zhutou jumped out of bed, and the other three people stared at him in shock, asking, "Where are you going?" Zhutou said, "I don't care if I want to eat." I said, "You have money to eat." ?” Zhu Tou wiped his tears, walked firmly to the door, and shouted: “I don’t have any money, but I don’t care what I want to eat.” The three of us scolded mothers at once, with all kinds of vicious words, so that he hadn’t reached the door yet. She turned around and went back to bed, crying and said, "I'll be scolded for eating too, I won't eat."

Early in the morning the pig's head was gone.I was dizzy with hunger, and suddenly someone handed me a bowl of hot soup.I saw that it was a pig's head. He grinned and said, "We are so stupid. The soup in the cafeteria is free."

The whole dormitory burst into tears.

The pig's head murmured: "It would be great if there were charcoal-grilled oysters, add more garlic, and roast until they squeak and water."

Zhu Tou is in love. He likes a senior sister from another department, but he has no way to pursue it. He stays in the boiling water room every day, waiting for the senior sister to turn on the water.

He didn't dare to confess, the senior sister put the boiled water bottle by the wall, and as soon as he walked away, Zhu Tou stole her boiled water bottle back to the dormitory.In one month, Zhu Tou stole nineteen water bottles from her.

As roommates, we didn't understand much, but we were vaguely excited that we could sell water bottles.

One late night, Zhu Tou said, "Actually, I'm showing my love tactfully."

I was shocked and asked, "Why did you say that?"

Pig head said: "I plan to steal her 520 water bottles before graduation, so she will know the meaning of 520 (I love you)."

Everyone was silent, thinking to themselves: I'll fuck your uncle.

In the boys' dormitory at that time, after the lights were turned off, there were always people standing outside the door, shirtless and wearing a pair of underwear talking on the phone.They twisted their bodies, let out hehehe laughter, and whispered.

In the drawers of each desk, discarded IP phone cards accumulated day by day, finally surpassing the height of cigarette packs.

Zhu Tou was very angry, and then became impulsive, and decided to call his crush's senior sister, a girl from business school named Cui Min.

On the other end of the phone, Cui Min's roommate answered, saying that she had changed dormitories.

Zhu Tou lost his mind all night.

The next day, the bulletin board in front of the cafeteria was crowded with students.I passed by and found the pig's head in the crowd.Out of curiosity, I also squeezed in.

A warning was posted on the bulletin board: Cui Min, a certain grade from a certain department, stole a total of 2000 yuan from a classmate in the dormitory. He was criticized by a notice and handed over to the Public Security Bureau.

Everyone talked a lot, saying that it is true that people should not be judged by appearances, and beautiful women are also thieves.

I pulled the pig's head, and he clenched his fists, his eyes filled with tears.

Although I don't understand why he is crying, I always feel a little uncomfortable in my heart.The pig turned his head, stared at me and said, "Cui Min must have been wronged, do you believe it?"

That night, Zhutou went to the playground for a run for the first time.I stood aside and watched him run without hesitation.After one lap, two laps and three laps, he collapsed on the grass exhausted.

He lay down for a long time, struggled to get up, and rushed to the girls' dormitory. I couldn't catch up with him no matter how hard I tried.

Later, Zhu Tou skipped school during the day, held up the tutoring card, and went to the side of the road to find work.

Later, in people's strange eyes, Zhu Tou and his senior sister Cui Min went to study together at night.

In the cold winter, the sky is full of snow, Zhutou is holding an umbrella, and the little Cui Min is snuggled beside him.

A few years ago, I went back to my alma mater and walked into that dormitory building.Standing in the corridor, I always feel that when I push open 308, there will be four people sitting in groups in the door. There is a washbasin between them, soaking a few bags of instant noodles that everyone raised funds to buy, and everyone is chanting.

We stayed in the Internet cafe all night, sleeping and laughing wildly.We drank Erguotou in the cafeteria, our eyes were red, and we said, brother, you have to take care.We walked briskly, drank beer in the library, on the grass, by the water, borrowed each other's IP card to make long-distance calls, kept silent when the other party cried suddenly, and thought of an interesting topic to divert his attention.

I think of the figure of Zhu Tou running wildly on the playground. He was exhausted from running, and his young face was full of stars in the middle of the night, as if he could catch up with his beloved girl in this way.

We read the love letter we just wrote aloud, carefully choosing every word, and were more serious than every meeting after work, as if we could stand in the spring flowers and never fall.We have no secrets, we have no scruples, we are like brilliant poetry, free to grow without meditation, rhyming lines, silhouetted in memory, sun shining, edges dazzling.

Zhu Tou came to Nanjing to get married, and we met again.

There is no need to think about how much living expenses a meal will cost, chatting about the past, but no one talks about the current situation.Because we are still living in that poem, buried in the dirt for ten years, only we can see it.

We chatted about the hungry years in the dormitory and laughed together.

The pig's head patted the table to call out to the waiter, and then came a dozen charcoal-grilled oysters, added more garlic, and served them as soon as they squeaked and watered.

He happily raised his glass and said, "I'm getting married, let's have a toast."

Zhu Tou's wife is Cui Min.

Soon he drank too much, lay down on the wine table, and whispered: "Zhang Jiajia, Cui Min didn't steal that money."

I nodded.

He said: "At that time, no one believed her, only I believed her. So, she believed me too."

Suddenly, the corners of my eyes became wet, and I nodded harder.

He said: "At that time, I made some money as a tutor, and wanted to return the stolen money to the girl, and let her declare that Cui Min did not steal the money. But when I had enough money, the girl actually transferred."

He said: "Hearing this news, Cui Min burst into tears. Because, from now on, she will always be a girl who steals money from others."

I'm in a daze.

He raised his glass, smiled, and said: "Once it rains, the road is dirty and muddy, and everyone has to step on it. However, I have a life. I am willing to work hard and earn money to make the world's people happy." All the hardships and hardships, there is no way to hurt her from now on."

He said word by word: "That's what I thought at that time, and I will continue to do so in the future."

I was so drunk, I remembered that I was holding instant noodles, standing on the balcony, watching the snowy campus, the pig head holding an umbrella, and the little Cui Min nestled next to me, they relied on each other, and walked through their youth step by step.

I got drunk too many times in ten years, changed many people around me, changed many dishes on the table, and spilled a lot of wine in the glass.

That is the proudest of us, that is the most romantic of us, that is the most unscrupulous of us.

That is our radiant youth.

If possible, no matter where you are going, please let me pack the remaining charcoal-grilled oysters.

First love is a person's chaos

I'll promise much and deliver little,
We will go farther and farther face to face, shoulder to shoulder and quietly separated.

You will shed tears, each of which burns my skin.

You should stay home and finish your papers,
Instead of handing in a blank sheet of paper with me.

I'm sorry, I loved you.

1
At 12 midnight after working overtime, go to a familiar bar for a drink.Everyone petted each other. I was not interested in petting my colleague's pastoral dog, and the pastoral dog was not interested in petting me. The two of us drank a lot.

Tianyuan Dog said: "Did you know that Bagua Youlongzhang emphasizes on striking first and then controlling others?"

I said: "It is better to subdue temptation than to subdue temptation."

The pastoral dog turned his face on the spot: "It's a serious topic, can you be a little more serious?"

I thought to myself, is Bagua Youlongzhang very serious?
The pastoral dog said: "So, in love, you must first pursue others."

I said, "What are you chasing after? It's too embarrassing."

The pastoral dog said: "You must chase first, because if you chase first, at most you will lose face at first. If you catch up, it means that you have studied her hobbies and catered to her emotions. You have slowly penetrated her. Life. When you get tired of her, she can't leave you. Therefore, in the ending, the one who usually proposes to break up is the one who pursued first."

I was shocked: "It's too despicable, although I don't want to hear it, but you can say more."

The pastoral dog raises his glass: "Drink up."

Through the golden beer, I suddenly discovered that every woman has beauty.Perhaps this is the so-called wine color.

Preemptive strikes, then strikes others, and slowly, when she was worried about herself and entrusted her life to you, you have already preempted strikes and left first.

2
I was at the same table as the squad leader in grade six, she always took No.1 and I took No.2, so she was the team leader and I was the squadron leader.

The biggest difference between the captain and the squadron leader is that during the ceremony, she shouted: "Raining, you are our pride!" I stood next to her and saluted the Young Pioneers seriously. I couldn't hold my hand until she finished shouting. put it down.

One day, a fat head teacher came.She introduced herself on the top, and we talked about it below.

Class monitor: "You look really fat."

Me: "So fat, the stew must be delicious."

Monitor: "Are you hungry again after breakfast?"

Me: "So fat, I must get her."

The chubby head teacher announced a new rule that he must take a nap every day, and whoever doesn't obey the rules and poke his head, the head teacher will write his name down in the notebook.

From that day on, I was written in the notebook by the monitor every day.Alas, I really want to change my name to Maozheng, and let her write a few more strokes when memorizing my name.

The more she remembered my name, the more restless I became, thinking that one day, I would cut off her facial muscles with one knife, and then cut off her bra strap with one knife.

The only reason I knew she was wearing a bra in sixth grade was when she remembered my name again and I was so pissed that I reached out and grabbed her braid, she escaped, grabbed an elastic, and yelled, "Wow, what is this? Why are you tying yourself up?"

She ended up crying.

I ended up calling my parents.

My mother told me it was called a bra and boys couldn't just grab it.

I thought to myself: It’s not that culture should be grasped. Bras can be regarded as literary, why can’t we grasp them?

When I grew up, I grabbed a bra again, thinking sadly, I didn’t grasp the culture well when I was a child, and now I can only get an A cup when I grab a bra, but I can’t get a D cup.

3
Facing the final exam, I finally don't have to take a nap.The monitor brought an extra-curricular reading material, the drawing book of "The Little Prince".She lent it to everyone in the class, but I held back and didn't ask her to borrow it.

After the whole class finished reading, she published a blackboard newspaper at the back, and I sneaked over: "Lend it to me, okay?"

Monitor: "No."

Me: "Lend me to see, and I'll give you a bra."

The squad leader bit his lip and ignored me.

I became angry from embarrassment, and thought to myself, how could this offend you!
Before the final exam, the fat homeroom teacher would do the math for everyone, and all those whose names were recorded had to beat the back of their hands on the concrete floor.

I was called one by one, and I was ready to call from morning to night, but I was never called.

I thought to myself, did I really get this fat man?

After the final exam, primary school is over.

The squad leader gave me a package with two things in it.

One is the "Little Prince" drawing book.

One is the register.

I opened the register and found that in the densely packed records, every day, a name was painted into a blue block with a ballpoint pen.

Why did you send me this thing?I am baffled.

It wasn't until junior high school, when my IQ finally rose to [-], that I suddenly realized that under the blue square on each page of the book, it must be my name!

Before she handed in the notebook, she painted my name in blue blocks.

I rushed home, rummaged through the boxes, found the register, and found the phone number on the last page.

But when I called that phone number, the monitor had already moved.No one knows where the squad leader moved to.

So in my memory, the monitor will always be a beauty.

So when my first love happened and I noticed it, it was already in my freshman year.

4
Freshman participated in various clubs, was very busy, brushed up the sense of existence, and forgot many things.Dining in the cafeteria and nights in Internet cafes, the cost of living was spent quickly.The girl Jiang Wei came to me from out of town and gave me a piece of Green Arrow chewing gum.

Me: "What is this?"

Jiang Wei: "Chewing gum."

Me: "Are you full?"

Jiang Wei: "When you have nothing to eat, can you call me?"

Me: "I don't have money to eat, where can I get money to make phone calls?"

Jiang Wei: "Then you take this calling card."

Me: "Material life cannot be guaranteed, but spiritual civilization is fine."

Jiang Wei: "Then you take this bank card."

She was wearing a sky blue ski jacket, with short hair, her head bowed, and her eyes were hidden under her bangs.I vaguely remember that she came to our school to find a classmate, and when we met by chance, I first invited her to go for a walk in the park, and she said she would come to you next time.

Later, Jiang Wei and I talked on the phone for half a year.

I found an important message, when girls miss me, they cry on the phone.When my mother misses me, she hangs up the phone and cries.

Later, I discovered that a very good friend likes Jiang Wei.

So I asked Jiang Wei to borrow 500 yuan.

I put these fifteen 100-yuan bills under my pillow.

When you have no money to eat, don't touch it.

When you don't have money to go to an Internet cafe, don't touch it.

Five years later, a friend married her.

I sent a red envelope of 500 yuan.

The fifteen 100-yuan bills in the red envelope were all flattened by the pillow without any wrinkles.

I finally returned the fifteen 100-yuan bills, leaving behind a piece of green chewing gum wrapper.

This green chewing gum wrapper was also pressed flat by the pillow without any wrinkles.

5
I repeated my third year of high school and went to a high school in a small town.I didn't live in a boarding house. My father arranged me in a small two-story earthen house next to the teacher's building.I lived upstairs, and the retired principal lived downstairs.

There is always electricity, there is always water, and I never use a flashlight to read martial arts books all night.

The head teacher is a lonely and irritable old woman.I was often called to have a heart-to-heart talk with her because of her loneliness; because of her irascibility, I was scolded after the talk.

In grief and indignation, I simply broke the jar.I can't do morning exercises, I can't go to morning reading, and if I'm in a bad mood, I don't even go to class.

What is this called?
Courage.

6
Early one morning, someone knocked on the door.I opened the door, and a girl was carrying a plastic bag.

I thought to myself, what are you doing? Everyone hasn’t fully developed and can’t start a business.

Girl: "You didn't have breakfast, did you?"

I will not eat."

Girl: "Someone asked me to bring it to you."

Me: "Who are other people?"

Girl: "If others don't want to tell you, just forget it."

Me: "Don't want to tell me? So you don't need me to pay it back?"

Girl: "Why do you have to return what I gave you?"

Me: "The others are so nice."

The girl left, and while eating mochi and soy milk, I thought to myself, others are too poor, so I will give this for breakfast.

There is a school flower in my class, who seems to be someone else.She is smart and beautiful, the first in her grade, and has no shortcomings except her poor family.

My wish is to use the law to sanction the school belle classmates, or shoot them, or help me take the exam, choose one of the above.

The wish of the deskmate is to punish the doorman by law, so that he can sneak to the video hall to watch the film in the middle of the night, and call the boss to change the film halfway through!

A few years later, the same table was punished by law. He worked as a contractor in Chengde, evaded taxes and owed wages, and was sentenced to three years in prison.

In fact, I knew back then that this tablemate was not someone who would just wait for nothing. One day he invited me to play games in the city, and he even brought a fat girl with him.

In the middle of the night, he asked me to borrow the key, saying that he wanted to live with the fat girl.I was obsessed with playing Street Fighter, and exchanged my keys for more than a dozen copper coins with him.

Something went wrong early the next morning, and they went downstairs to be seen by the retired old principal.The sky was so dark that the old headmaster couldn't see their faces clearly, but the man and woman who came out of my room should logically be me.

The head teacher asked me to talk, with a serious face.

The dean came to talk to me with a serious expression on his face.

The topic involved words such as cohabitation, which caught me off guard and shocked my heart.

I'm desperately waiting for the headmaster to talk to me, and then I'm going to jail.I'm a rogue, an adult rogue.It is very likely that something like this will happen in the near future: a hooligan who has never touched a girl's little hand is crying out of breath in the prison.

However, the principal didn't look for me, and the teachers didn't mention the matter, and it disappeared suddenly, which made me very curious.

A source close to me said, "Want to know why?"

I think."

The psychic: "Ten copper coins."

I'm good."

The psychic: "You know the school girl, right?"

Me: "Nonsense."

The informed person: "She ran to the principal and said that she was the one who lived in your room that night."

I was shocked: "Doesn't this tarnish my reputation!"

The source: "Fuck off, the school girl who is the first in grade is our school's only hope to get into a key university. Which teacher would touch her? Once she says that, she won't hold you accountable, and the matter will be over."

The school flower student is smart and beautiful, and has a great heart.

7
But I didn't expect that the school belle student is no better than us people in the Jianghu, she is kind to repay her.

From then on, under the coercion of my schoolgirls, I took part in morning exercises and morning reading, and I couldn't skip class at all.If schoolgirls do this, there will definitely be disadvantages, but we have never thought about it, it is an overwhelming regret.

Classmate Xiaohua: "Zhang Jiajia, shall we apply for Nanpu University together?" I was shocked: "Nanpu University? You think I'm a school girl? A famous university, so the fuck is it human?"

"Crack." My left face was swollen.

Classmate Xiaohua: "Shall we apply for Nanpu University together?"

Me: "You give me 100 yuan and I will fill it in."

Schoolgirl: "Here's a piece for you."

Me: "One piece? Why are you so poor like Xiaobai?"

School flower classmate: "Who is Xiaobai?"

Me: "My domestic dog, I hung a one-dollar coin around its neck."

"Crack." My right cheek was swollen.

Both of them filled out Nampo University.

I passed the exam, but she didn't.

She obeyed her second choice and went to Tianjin.

8
Calling from the dormitory in Nanjing to the dormitory in Tianjin, cross-provincial long-distance, after a semester, there is a stack of calling cards in the drawer.

During the years when I was consuming phone cards, Jiang Wei appeared.

I rarely answer Jiang Wei's phone calls. Even if I am in the dormitory, my roommates will tell me that I am not there.

Because I have to wait for the call from Xiaohua, and if she calls the busy line, I have to explain for a long time.

But the school girl suddenly stopped calling me.

I have called numerous times and she is never there.

I waited a week.Is she dead?The thought of her death makes me so sad that I can't eat, I'm so kind.

I waited a month.Even if you die, you should be reincarnated, right?When I think of her reincarnation, I feel so lonely that I can't sleep, I'm so simple.

I waited for three months.I want to go to Tianjin.

At this time, Jiang Wei came to look for me from another place.

She gave me a stick of Green Arrow gum first.

Me: "What is this?"

Jiang Wei: "Chewing gum."

Me: "Are you full?"

Jiang Wei: "When you have nothing to eat, can you call me?"

Me: "I don't have money to eat, where can I get money to make phone calls?"

Jiang Wei: "Then you take this calling card."

Me: "Material life cannot be guaranteed, but spiritual civilization is fine."

Jiang Wei: "Then you take this bank card."

I thought to myself, Jiang Wei is richer than the school belle classmates.

So I asked her to borrow 500 yuan.

I put these fifteen 100-yuan bills under my pillow.

When you have no money to eat, don't touch it.

When you don't have money to go to an Internet cafe, don't touch it.

Finally, Jiang Wei ignored me.She likes a friend of mine, they're a good fit, they're just as rich.

I never went to Tianjin, and I had infinite panic in my heart.

9
At the end of the semester, a familiar voice.

Classmate Xiaohua: "Are you okay?"

Me: "You haven't called me for a long time."

Classmate Xiaohua: "I don't have money to buy phone cards."

Me: "You are too poor, I have money and I will share with you."

Classmate Xiaohua: "Don't split the money, Zhang Jiajia, let's break up."

Me: "...It's better to divide the money."

Classmate Xiaohua: "I'm serious, Zhang Jiajia, let's break up."

Me: "...I want to share the money."

Classmate Xiaohua: "Zhang Jiajia, remember to take care of yourself."

Me: "...you pay for your money."

Classmate Xiaohua: "Call Mom when you have time, she must miss you very much."

Me: "...you pay for your money."

School girl: "Zhang Jiajia, do you miss me?"

Me: "...you pay for your money."

Classmate Xiaohua: "Don't cry, remember that one day, I asked someone to bring you breakfast? I don't know if you have eaten yet."

Me: "...I ate it."

Classmate Xiaohua: "Zhang Jiajia, remember to eat breakfast. By the way, if you were asked to apply again, what university would you choose?"

I thought to myself, I don’t want to choose any place, I’ll find a village girl to farm and pour manure in the small two-story earthen building, the bridal chamber, and I won’t need to buy a phone card in my life.

"Zhang Jiajia, after we break up, don't call me again."

The phone just hung up.

When I hung up, I had forgotten to cry, but I seemed to hear her cry.

10
Five years later, I heard the news that Jiang Wei and my friend got married.I sent a red envelope of 500 yuan.The fifteen 100-yuan bills in the red envelope were all flattened by the pillow without any wrinkles.

I finally returned the fifteen 100-yuan bills, leaving behind a piece of green chewing gum wrapper.

This green chewing gum wrapper was also pressed flat by the pillow without any wrinkles.

In the past five years, I have been to Xiaohua's home three times, and her photo has always been placed on the left table in the living room.

Next to the photo is a notebook, a pot of flowers and some fruit.

A few sticks of incense were lit in front of the photo.I smoked cigarettes, she smoked incense, and even smoked several.

Seeing her so beautiful, but I am very sad.

I know this notebook says who she sent breakfast to, who she took the blame for, and how she tricked a fool into breaking up.

There are also medical records in the notes.

I think I should be grateful for it, otherwise I would have to consume the phone card.

I think I should hate it, otherwise I wouldn't be so sad.

Every time I will have a meal with her mother.

Every time I eat with her mother, we talk about many, many things, talking very happily, and laughing hard.

Every time I'm at her house, I don't shed a single tear, but when I go out, I can't help it anymore, squatting on the side of the road, crying for a long, long time.

If I am like this, I think, then her mother must wait for me to go out before crying.

11
For a long time, I continued to go without breakfast.When there is no breakfast, I think of a girl.

Girl: "Someone asked me to bring it to you."

Me: "Who are other people?"

Girl: "If others don't want to tell you, forget it."

Me: "Don't want to tell me? So you don't need me to pay it back?"

Girl: "Why do you have to return what I gave you?"

Me: "The others are so nice."

While eating mochi and soy milk, I thought to myself, others are too poor to give this for breakfast.

When delivering breakfast, the school girl was as poor as everyone else.

When taking the college entrance examination, the school girl was as poor as Xiaobai.

When I called, Xiaohua was as poor as me.

I heard a song on the radio called "The Love of My Life".

I didn't take a puff, but the ash fell all over my pants.

I didn't cry, but all the tears fell on my clothes.

Someone on the TV said, strange, that person looks like a dog.

What kind of dog, have you ever seen a dog eat mochi and drink soy milk?
There was a stack of calling cards in the drawer, and tears were pouring on the cards. I thought to myself: What dog, have you ever seen a dog use up so many calling cards?
"Zhang Jiajia, do you miss me?"

"... Divide the money and divide the money."

"Don't cry, remember one day, I asked someone to bring you breakfast? I don't know if you have eaten yet."

"……I ate."

"Zhang Jiajia, remember to eat breakfast. By the way, if you were asked to apply again, which university would you choose?"

I thought to myself, if I can, I will not choose any place. I will find a village girl to farm and pour manure in the small two-story earthen building and bridal chamber. I will never need to buy a phone card in my life.

I thought to myself, if possible, open a canteen in the place closest to Yunduo, and when the school girl comes back, I will ask her to be the proprietress.

reverse person

World,
There is always someone you just met,
The two are attracted to each other,
Inexplicably felt as a whole.

This is your reverse person.

In the world, there is always a person who just meets you, and the two are attracted to each other, inexplicably feel that they are a whole.

This is what Xu Chao, my roommate at Jianghu Warlock University, told me.As for why?Maybe it's a matter of probability, maybe it's a matter of God.

I said, "Isn't this love at first sight? Many people become husband and wife, and many people become gay friends."

Xu Chao said mysteriously, "No."

According to Xu Chao's introduction, his family's ancestors were masters of physiognomy in the Ming Dynasty, but there were no secret books preserved, only some scraps passed down from generation to generation.

He doesn't know astrological blood types, but he said that a person's life can basically be judged by his appearance and name.

For example, the appearance of a person will determine the attitude of the people around you when you were young.

People with thick eyebrows are fierce and few people get close to them; square faces are straight and easy to be trusted; people with big mouths think it is funny and cute, and often joke with you, so they are lively and unrestrained; people with narrow eyes think you are scheming and will not talk to you The conversation is too deep, so the outside is not the same.Your appearance determines the attitude of others towards you, the attitude of others towards you determines your character, and your character determines the way of life.

As for the name, it is usually given by your parents, which represents the expectations of your elders and the situation of your family at that time, with a huge amount of information.The family environment also has an impact on a person's character, and both are the same, character is destiny.

What kind of job you are looking for, what kind of person you marry, when your appearance and name are determined, they cannot be changed.

Is it still useful to have plastic surgery and name change after adulthood?
What do you say.

Xu Chao said that in the world, there is always someone who just meets you, and the two are attracted to each other, inexplicably feel that they are a whole.

This is your reverse person.

Why is it called a reverse person?

Your luck is a common whole.The sum of the two is one hundred, then you account for fifty, then he also accounts for fifty.If you have ninety, then he only has ten left.

Of course, if he takes one hundred, then you are almost dead.

The day you raise your salary, it means that there is another person in the world who may have just lost his wallet; when you suddenly recover from terminal illness, it means that there is another person in the world who may have just died in a high-speed accident.

If you exercise your body every day and make money and treasures, there will be a person in the world who will be physically weak and poor.And vice versa, so your whole life is competing with him for the quality of life.

This person has been tied to you since your birth, and you are forever on an invisible battlefield.

So, it's okay if you never meet.If they meet, it doesn't matter if they are of the same sex, at worst they will compete with each other.

Afraid of meeting, or the opposite sex.

Terrible to death, quickly eat supper and get a good night's sleep, don't ask for a pass, at least you can pass fifty.

boy under the river
I know I like you.

But I don't know where I am in the future.

Because I know that wherever

You will not take me there.

And memory brightens your smile,
It takes so much effort to become joyful.

What Zhang Ping imprinted in my mind was an oil painting-like figure, wearing a T-shirt with seven or eight holes, squatting under the setting sun, taking a deep breath of cigarette, exhaling it slowly, and said lightly: "I want to, too." Become a great person, but my mother told me to go home and farm."

This story has little to do with youth.

Youth is the jungle, the wilderness, the running in the sun, and the standing in the torrential rain.

The boy named Zhang Ping under the river surface was tangled in aquatic plants and surrounded by duckweed. He stuck his head out to breathe, his face was full of water, and he smiled incomparably contentedly.He lay flat in the water and looked up at the sky. The clouds flowed from early morning to night, casting shadows and washing his young body.

My dream at the time was to be a football player, and no matter how bad I was, I wanted to be a young and Dangerous boy in the countryside, but my mother dragged me to her school.

The head teacher assigned the person with the best academic performance to be at the same table with me, that is Zhang Ping.I was shocked by how quickly he could solve quadratic equations in two variables. He yearned for me to go straight to the billiard room after school to blackmail the lower grades, so they turned to each other. My test scores skyrocketed, and his hooliganism became stronger and stronger.

We love Dragon Ball.We love Hojo.We like the sea after Maoyan lost his memory.We love Maradona.We love Chen Baiqiang.We love "How Precious Tonight".We love Qiao Feng.We like that Yang Guo is getting more and more deserted day by day in his wanderings.We like Cheng Huaixiu who is far away from the fourth master.We like "Laughing at the Wind and Cloud", Ekin Cheng held Chen Songling's hand, and we burst into tears when he was crying.We love nights.We like our youth.

We don't know who we're going to like.

The graduating class would go to the school for self-study on weekends. In the afternoon, a few social gangsters came, smashed wine bottles in the corridor, and went to the door of the classroom with a playful smile to call the girl's name, saying that they should stop studying, and go skating in the town with them.

The Lin Qiao they were calling was an ordinary-looking girl, and I immediately lost interest in meddling.Zhang Ping frowned, and her thin body stood up, grabbing a pen in each hand, and walked to the door under the eyes of the whole class.

The punk whistled and said, "Get out of the way, bastard."

Zhang Ping also whistled, but unfortunately the sound broke, and he said coldly: "Are you crazy? (Are you crazy?)"

Then several people fought together, the gangster kicked him in the lower abdomen, slapped him in the face, he tried his best to throw out lumps of ink with the pen, and in a blink of an eye the gangster's face was black.

When I went up with a pencil sharpener in my hand, the little hooligans, sweat mixed with ink, were exasperated and beckoned to their companions to wash their faces.

Zhang Ping spat out bloody saliva, and said flatly: "Scholars kill people with their pens, that's what it is."

From that day on, Lin Qiao asked him to borrow something, ask a question, and invite him to go skating in the town.Zhang Ping agreed to everything else, except skating. He said that he would not do the same thing as hooligans.

Graduation from junior high school is approaching, and the students are about to part ways, and most of them have to go back to find a life.This is an obscure town in northern Jiangsu, and it is considered good to be able to continue studying in technical secondary school.The girls took the notebooks and asked their classmates to sign and write congratulations.Lin Qiao first asked everyone to sign, then changed to a clean and blank notebook, and carefully found Zhang Ping.

Zhang Ping puffed out her cigarette, and without looking at the girl, said flatly, "Are you crazy?"

Lin Qiao blushed, held up the notebook and insisted not to take it back.Zhang Ping flicked the cigarette butt, leaned close to the girl's ear, and whispered, "Actually, I'm gay."

With tears in her eyes, Lin Qiao silently put away her notebook and walked away.

About three or four days later, the last gangster ambushed Zhang Ping on his way home, knocked a brick off his bicycle, and beat him for five minutes.

I went back to my hometown once after graduating from university. I accidentally learned from another junior high school classmate that Lin Qiao was with those gangsters all day long after graduating from junior high school. She married one of the gangsters. She gave birth to a child at the age of 19 and divorced at the age of 21. And married another bastard.

Zhang Ping took the senior high school entrance examination with gauze tied on her head. At the end of the day, we sat together on the playground.The setting sun dyed his face golden, he held a cigarette in his mouth, and remained silent for a long time, saying that the family had too much farm work and did not want him to study.

I can't answer.

He said lightly: "I also want to be a great person, but my mother told me to go home and farm."

I patted him on the shoulder, and he said: "I must study and go to the city to see. Because I feel that fate is calling me, and I will have an extraordinary destiny."

He threw away the cigarette butt, and said: "After much deliberation, the most extraordinary destiny is to marry a prostitute as my wife. I have a hunch that this is my destiny."

After the high school entrance examination results came out, we were in different high schools.I forgot what he sold at home, but read on anyway.

From the end of the high school entrance examination, the second meeting was three years later.I am at Nantah University and he is at China Southern Airlines.

His college career reached heights beyond my reach.He dropped out of the sophomore year because he had a hunch that he should go to Peking University, so he re-entered the third year of high school.There was no news for one or two years, and suddenly a call came from my dormitory in the middle of the night. Coincidentally, during the SARS outbreak, I was ordered to go back to school and received a call.

He said: "If you didn't get into Peking University, you will fall short."

I asked, "How much is the difference?"

"It's not close," he said.

I asked, "How much difference is that?"

He said, "Not much, only about two hundred points."

I asked: "...then what school did you go to?"

He said: "A junior college in Lianyungang."

I asked, "Where are the strawberries?"

He was silent.

Strawberry is his girlfriend in China Southern Airlines.I was on the Pukou campus of Nantah University, and I had to travel across the city to get to his place, so I met twice during my freshman year.

He hooked up with a saleswoman in the commissary, a small, flushed girl nicknamed Strawberry.Strawberry is from Sichuan, three years older than us, and came to Nanjing to work as a salesperson in the school canteen because of his distant relatives.

Next to the canteen is the canteen. We drank in the canteen, and Zhang Ping went to the canteen every now and then to order melon seeds, peanuts and other small things.Strawberry was always smiling, and he pretended to pay the bill. Strawberry waved his hand, but he didn't bother to continue pretending, and just took it away.

Later, he directly took a piece of Hongtashan, and now Strawberry was in a hurry.

Zhang Ping hugged Strawberry, regardless of the eyes of the students next to her, and said sadly: "I don't have money to buy cigarettes, but I know you have a way."

I don't know what to do with Strawberry, I guess I can only pay for it myself.

The second time was at a night food stall in the middle of the city.I said strawberries are good, he took a breath and said lightly: "Are you crazy?"

I don't say anything.

He added: "I feel that this girl is a bit rustic, her education is not high, and her hometown is so far away. I have a feeling that there will be no common language in the future."

His BP machine rang at least thirty times from eleven o'clock to two o'clock in the middle of the night.He didn't even look at it afterwards, but the vibration sound of the BP machine was very harsh in the middle of the night, so he picked up a bottle of beer, poured it high, poured it on the BP machine, and poured a whole bottle. The BP got into the water and couldn't ring anymore.

He hiccupped and said, "I bought it for a month's living expenses. Fuck it."

The BP machine rang thirty times, and there was no sound.

The calls that make you impatient come from the weak side.

He drank until nearly four o'clock in the morning, and he couldn't walk until he drank.So I asked the boss to borrow the fixed phone in the store, helped him who was staggering, and struggled to dial the number of Strawberry's BP machine.

The paging station was connected, and he only sent one sentence: I drank too much on Huaqiao Road.

At five o'clock, the breathless strawberry appeared in front of us.She only knew the names of the roads, not which stores, so she had to look for them one by one.It took China Southern Airlines 10 minutes to arrive here, that is to say, she searched for 10 minutes and finally found us.

Zhang Ping lay prone on the table, about to slide off the stool at every turn.The girl took a few sips of water while supporting him.

I asked for a bottle of Xiao Er, thinking, I will drink another bottle.

Strawberry suddenly said calmly: "He is very good to me."

I said "oh".

Strawberry said: "The school canteen is usually handed over to the relatives of the school leaders. Our family has signed a lease contract, but the relationship is not strong enough, so a relative of the leader often comes to make trouble and wants to drive the boss away."

I drank half the bottle in one gulp.

Strawberry said: "A few bad students came and made trouble at the canteen, saying that there were bugs in the potato chips, and made me lose money. The boss's BP machine couldn't work, so they asked me for it. If I refused to give it, they robbed me of it." .”

Strawberry picked up the wine glass that Zhang Ping had knocked over, and said, "Zhang Ping rushed over and fought with them, and the little finger of her right hand was broken."

Strawberry laughed and said, "Later he often took my things, but he never took potato chips, saying that he would not do the same thing as a hooligan."

I said, "That's what he is."

Strawberry said: "Well, he also said that he had a premonition to marry a prostitute as his wife. I'm not a prostitute, I'm a working girl, and, besides, I didn't go to college."

Strawberry squatted down, squatting next to Zhang Ping who was sitting crookedly, her head lightly resting on his knee, a thin layer of sweat on her nose.Zhang Ping touched her hair unconsciously, she smiled forcefully, the corners of her mouth were full of happiness.

I drank the last half of the bottle.

Strawberry still squatted, pressed her head closer, and said softly: "The boss has decided to move."

I said, "What about you?"

Strawberry still smiled vigorously, tears streaming down her face, and said, "I don't know."

I know I like you.

But I don't know where I am in the future.

Because I know that no matter where, you will not take me there.

The little girl with a high school diploma squats next to the drunk guy, resting her head on the boy's knee.

The street lamp illuminated her smile, and it took so much effort to become so joyful, illuminating her wet face.

In my misty drunken eyes, this scene will never be forgotten.

This was the last time Zhang Ping and I met in college.He only made a few phone calls in the middle, saying that he would drop out of school and retake the exam, but he was admitted to a junior college in Lianyungang.I kept in touch with you on and off for less than three times, and when we met again, it was five years later.

Five years later, we met in a dilapidated small restaurant in Zhonghuamen.I asked him, "Where did you go after graduation? I haven't contacted you for a year."

He puffed out his cigarette and said flatly, "Smuggled and sent to jail."

I was shocked and asked, "What's wrong?"

He said: "After graduating, I worked as a prison guard with family trustees. During my internship, I helped prisoners smuggle, and then I was imprisoned. I was locked up for a year before I came out."

I remained silent, without asking for details, and said, "Then what are your plans for next?"

He was drunk again, and said: "I rented a garage near Zhonghuamen, and it's about to expire. I plan to take my wife back to my hometown to get married."

Strawberry's face suddenly appeared in my mind, and I couldn't help asking: "Who is your wife?"

He lit a cigarette and said lightly, "Do you still remember what I told you the day I graduated from junior high school?"

I shook my head.

"I had a premonition that I was going to marry a prostitute, and it happened," he said.

The night is deep again, and the whole world is dying of night.He drank a glass and said, "I fell in love with the woman who rented the garage next door. She works in the hair salon. Her skills are really good, but I love her people."

The drink made me dizzy, and I passed out before him for the first time.After waking up, I was in the house I rented, and there was a gift he gave me, ten pornographic films, on the desk.

Another year later, he called and said, "I'm divorced."

I can't answer.

He said: "After we went back to our hometown village, that bitch hooked up with many men in the village, and was caught by my mother several times. I couldn't bear it, so I divorced her. As a result, she opened a shampoo parlor next to my house." .damn it."

I asked inexplicably: "Can you still solve binary quadratic equations?"

He said, "Yes."

I said: "Then let's go back to the junior high school together next time and take a look at the newly built teaching building?"

He said, "Okay."

Three years later, I went back to my hometown for the New Year, and suddenly remembered this agreement, so I called his home.His mother said that he found a woman in the mobile phone business and went to Kunshan to open a storefront, but he didn't come back for the Chinese New Year.

I hung up the phone and went to junior high school alone.

I went to eat at the home of a teacher in junior high school that year. This teacher was originally a substitute teacher with no staff, but he finally became a regular teacher in the past two years.

When his wife came back from shopping, I immediately recognized her as Lin Qiao.

Lin Qiao said with a smile: "I heard it was you, so I bought meat, fish and shrimp. Let's have a good meal today."

After a few glasses of wine, the junior high school teacher was overwhelmed with alcohol and said, "Thanks to Lin Qiao for my transfer. Lin Qiao's ex-husband is the son of the town leader. He wants to divorce Lin Qiao, so Lin Qiao put forward a condition." , help me rectify."

I have no way to ask, what to ask?Ask Lin Qiao to divorce herself, why should she help you become a regular?

Lin Qiao hadn't been drinking all this time, so she drank a glass of Yanghe at this time, her cheeks flushed, and she said, "To tell you the truth, on the day of the senior high school entrance examination, I asked someone to beat up Zhang Ping, that bastard. Forget it, if you see him , just apologize for me."

I was also sleepy, looking at Lin Qiao, and suddenly remembered a picture, a little girl with a high school diploma was squatting next to a drunk boy, with her head resting on the boy's knee.The street lamp illuminated her vigorous smile and illuminated her wet face.

i know you like me.

But I don't know where I am in the future.

Because I know that no matter where, I can't take you there.

written on 32nd birthday
Sit down against a tree trunk,

The head is full of trees,

Memories slant through the gaps in the branches and leaves,

Missing all over the place.

Wake up and pat your trousers,

Go somewhere unknown.

I can't accept that my age starts with three characters, and I can't accept it for a full 730 days.Gradually found that the time unit of many things is getting longer and longer, often a few years.Some numbers in the address book have not been dialed for seven or eight years, but they will still be stored in the new mobile phone every time.There are no new songs downloaded from the computer, at least for four or five years, and finally they are completely replaced by online radio stations.

I always feel that I haven't done a lot of what I wanted to do, but in retrospect, my resume is already full of absurd things.

The number of people who can hold a long talk all night is decreasing day by day, and everyone has bad debts.I used to talk about what will happen in the future, but now I can only talk about what happened in the past.As for the future, probably no one wants to talk about what will happen.

The buddy who gave me all the Meng Tingwei cassettes he treasured after the college entrance examination. We only met again when my daughter was six years old. On KTV, I clicked "Come to Taipei to Watch the Rain in Winter", but when I was in Taipei, I didn't think of him at all.Even when passing by the city where he works, he just checked his phone and saw the number but did not call.Facts have proved that after meeting, there is indeed not much to say.Even if the old film can be shown in the mind once, there are still too many chapters and pages missing, no beginning and no end.

In fact, I have a lot to say, but the person on the other side is no longer the one who should say it.

This half year is probably the hardest half year for me.Passed out no less than a hundred times in bars and living rooms, and gained fifteen pounds with raw beer.

I said to myself, it doesn’t matter, so I haven’t talked to anyone once, and I even firmly believe that comfort is useless and meaningless. It’s better to listen to a buddy tell a joke.

Past experience has proved that the part that cannot be touched now will eventually be treated as a joke.

We come together because we all have a belly full of jokes.

This is actually good. I realize that I cannot change myself, and of course I cannot change others.All the stumbles and staggers stem from the inability to change.After spending so much energy and time, I found in the end that I didn't need to change.

One year in college, my birthday happened to be in my hometown, and I had to catch the bus the next morning. I got up late, and I didn't have time to eat the noodles cooked by my mother.Hurrying to go out with the bag on her back, my mother chased to the door and said that she should be careful.I didn't hear my father's voice, but I knew he was standing on the balcony watching my back.Hearing this crying voice, I hurried downstairs to wipe away my tears and decided not to say anything bad to them from now on.

I like to walk with my parents holding hands, no matter where they are.

As for the others, think about it day and night, and if you figure it out, you can rest as you like.Sitting down against the trunk, the head is full of tree light, and the gaps between the branches and leaves reveal memories obliquely, full of longing.Woke up and patted his trousers, and went to an unknown place.

I used to be in the supermarket, in front of the row of snacks, and answer the phone.What flavor of potato chips do you want?original.I can't find it.You face the shelves, counting from left to right, the second row and the third column are there.Sure enough, yes.

When I went today, there was no phone, and I found that the potato chips had been moved to the other side.

Whether it is life or a supermarket, the cards will be reshuffled and positions will be changed.

It's good to be able to find what you want, and it's good to be able to pay for it.

Written on my 32nd birthday.And wish yourself a happy birthday.

(End of this chapter)