Give you a lifetime of love

Chapter 123 Are You Avoiding Me?
"Miss Shi, your heart already belongs to Xi Zhan, but you just can't find a way to sever ties with Gu Tingchen."

Song Yiran's voice reached my ears and said: "Your love belongs to Xi Zhan, so you can only refuse Gu Tingchen!"

I will definitely make it clear to Gu Tingchen.

I breathed out and said, "Xi Zhan doesn't love me."

"Miss Shi, you misunderstood!" Song Yiran held my palm tightly, smiled warmly and said: "No man will do what he does to a woman who doesn't care, you are just a fan of the authorities, and I am a bystander! Especially a man like Xi Zhan who seems to care nothing but stubbornly protects you, his love for you may be deeper than you imagined."

I asked hopefully: "Then why did he reject me? And he will make me forget about the two of us last night."

Song Yiran looked at me with clear eyes and asked, "Then have you ever thought that it's your own problem?"

I was surprised and asked, "What's wrong with me?"

"Xi Zhan is a typical domineering president. He has his pride and self-esteem in his heart, and you...you have an affair with Fu Xi, you have an affair with Gu Lanzhi, and you are Gu Tingchen's ex-wife, plus you said last night He also heard the conversation between you and Gu Tingchen..."

I asked expectantly, "Is he jealous?"

Song Yiran smiled softly, and guessed: "You said you succumbed to the warmth of reality, and you like Xi Zhan because he gave you that warmth, then have you ever thought that what Xi Zhan needs is your life, only What about this person? Have you ever thought that what he did was actually angry, helpless and disappointed?"

She thought for a while and said: "You may have hurt Xi Zhan inadvertently, but you still expect him to treat you with the same mood... Maybe he understands your hesitation and didn't agree to you."

Song Yiran's analysis is clear and logical, which makes me feel that what she said is true, but this is her guess after all.

But she was right, what Xi Zhan wants is this whole life, only this one person, because Yuan You said that the love he wants is unswerving until death, I suddenly understand the reason why he stays away from me...

Xi Zhan is angry with me.

Because I've been hesitating.

I am also angry with myself.

At this moment, Gu Tingchen sent me a message.

"Sorry for hurting you last night," he said.

This should be normal for him.

I messaged back and said, "It's okay, it's not your fault."

I can't blame him anymore.

Because my life was saved by him.

Xi Zhan also saved me in the heavy snow.

My originally peaceful life has been in conflict recently, and I have been hovering between life and death, but fortunately I was successfully rescued every time.

"Sheng'er, I miss you."

Gu Tingchen said, he misses me.

It seems to contain countless grievances.

I did not reply to this message immediately, but thanked Song Yiran gratefully, and then drove away from there.

After I returned to the apartment, I hesitated for a long time with my mobile phone in my hand before I sent a message to Gu Tingchen, "Sorry, I have my own heart."

Gu Tingchen is smart, he must understand what I mean.

And he didn't reply to my text messages.

For the next three days, I stayed at home, drinking Chinese medicine seriously, thinking about the things between me and Xi Zhan.

In fact, there are very few memories between us, and there were not a few days when I discovered my affection for him.

In the past few days, I have been very active, and I have spoken out loud.

Because I can no longer love someone and follow him for nine years like I was when I was young. What I want is genuine warmth.

But Xi Zhan rejected me.

Not even a reason was given to me.

Just when I was stuck at home and worried to death, there was a problem with Song Yiran, and the assistant called me to go to the hospital immediately.

It was a bit chilly at the end of September, I hurried there wearing very thin clothes, and saw Shi Cheng was there.

I asked in surprise, "Why are you here?"

Shi Cheng lost his mind and said: "Come to ask her to forgive me."

I asked curiously, "Did she forgive you?"

Shi Cheng shook his head and said, "She firmly refuses."

Fortunately, Song Yiran was only suffering from physical discomfort caused by anger, and there was nothing serious about it, but the doctor said that her continued pregnancy would pose a fatal threat to her body.

I worriedly asked the doctor, "What's the longest time?"

"At most half a month."

Hearing this, Shi Cheng was taken aback for a while, he didn't dare to enter the ward at all, when I entered, I saw Song Yiran staring out the window dully.

I reminded her, "Shi Cheng is at the door."

"Well, let him go."

I sat beside her and said, "He wants to be forgiven by you."

Song Yiran resolutely said: "Impossible."

Her expression was determined, as if there was no discussion.

But a few days ago she also told me that she loves Shicheng.

"Can you tell me why?"

"Miss Shi, it's true that I love him, but in life, not only love is enough, but also self-esteem, principles, bottom line and self-love. My self-esteem and principles tell me that I cannot forgive him."

She suddenly turned her eyes to me and said: "I can't forgive the past hurts like you succumb to the warmth of reality. Miss Shi, if I have been hurt like this and I can go back to the past, what do you think I have suffered? Isn't peace and pain a joke?"

I panicked and quickly said, "You're right."

Song Yiran is right, there is not only love in human life, but also the so-called self-esteem and bottom line in our hearts.

Shi Cheng trampled on her self-esteem, so she can no longer forgive him, and I once softened my heart towards Gu Tingchen.

I suddenly understood that Song Yiran is the one I love the most among us, and she is the only one who can see clearly from the beginning to the end.

I left the hospital with a sense of relief, knowing in my heart that I and Zeng had really become a thing of the past, and there was nothing I could do about Xi Zhan.

I can't impress him.

I can no longer confide my heart to him.

I suddenly remembered what he said in the villa some time ago, he wanted me to be worthy of the feelings in my heart.

Xi Zhan has always taught me how to stick to the end.

I took a deep breath, and when I was about to leave, I saw the man in the parking lot of the hospital who was smoking a cigarette with his head slightly lowered, startled, wondering why he was here, when Yuan You's voice came from behind, " Yun'er, why are you in the hospital?"

I turned around and shouted in surprise, "Third brother."

Looking at the bruise on Yuanyou's face, I worriedly asked: "Why are you injured?"

Yuan You twitched the corner of his mouth and said indifferently: "It's nothing, I just had a fight with someone in the hotel, and I happened to meet my second brother there to discuss business, so I asked him to send me to the hospital for bandaging."

Yuan You climbed my shoulders to go to Xi Zhan, and said in surprise: "Second brother has been very kind-hearted recently, and even agreed to take me to the hospital in person. I thought this kind of welfare is only available to you."

I am not a special person like Xi Zhan.

Yuan You called out Second Brother, and I bowed my head in a proper manner and called out Second Brother, Yuan You patted my shoulder in surprise and asked, "Why are all the family so restrained?"

I didn't speak, Xi Zhan hummed lightly, I pointed to the sports car beside Xi Zhan, and said urgently: "This is my car, I have to leave first, see you next time."

Yuan You organized the game and said: "It's almost noon, let's have a meal together, the three of us haven't had a meal together yet."

I quickly refused and said, "I have something to go to the company."

I took a taxi and got in the car calmly, and I heard Yuan You's doubtful voice say: "Yun'er is hiding from the second brother."

I:"……"

I wanted to say something perfunctory, but at this moment Xi Zhan spoke up suddenly, and asked in a cool voice: "Yun'er, are you avoiding me?"

I looked at Xi Zhan in astonishment.

What does he mean by this? !
He clearly rejected me but still said such misleading words, I retracted my gaze and pursed my lips and said, "I didn't."

I haven't seen him for a few days, I must miss him.

But between me and him...

It's hard to get any closer.

He excluded me from his world.

I promised him that day that I would not pester him again.

I can no longer take the initiative to lick my face.

"Yun'er, we don't have to be so unfamiliar with each other."

(End of this chapter)