Give you a lifetime of love

Chapter 198
I had a dream. In the dream, there were my two children. They could not walk yet, and they crawled around unconsciously on the ground.

And on the sofa sits the man I love.

A happy family of four.

"Miss Shi, wake up..."

Someone is calling me.

I slowly opened my eyes and saw the anxious face of the doctor. I let out a heavy breath and asked anxiously, "Where's my child?"

The doctor didn't speak, and the nurse on the side comforted me: "It's stitching, you can see them when you go out later."

When I heard that I could see the children later, I felt instantly at ease, and I grinned and wanted to see them impatiently.

After the doctor finished the stitches, he pushed me to the advanced ward. Song Yiran rushed over and held my palm with moist eyes.

There were tears in her eyes, and it seemed that they were about to pour out in the next moment. I shook her palm back and asked with a smile, "Is the child beautiful?"

"Beautiful, the most beautiful child I have ever seen."

I happily asked, "Two daughters or two sons?"

With tears in her eyes, she replied, "Two twins, a boy and a girl."

"Miss Song, you don't look very happy." I closed my tired eyes and said happily: "I'm so tired, the doctor said I can't move for the time being, and the child can't leave the sterile room because he is not full-term." room, I’ll go see them when I wake up.”

I fell into a coma again, dreaming in a daze. In the dream, there were no two children, only the indifferent man remained.

He was only a few meters away from me. I remembered that I went to Finland twice to find him and I was so bruised that I dared not approach him again.

The man in the dream called me, "Yun'er."

I shook my head, still not daring to approach.

I'm afraid, I'm afraid of him.

I never had the courage to approach him again.

"Yuner, where's the child?"

He looked cold and asked me where the child was.

I opened my eyes abruptly, Song Yiran saw that I was awake and squeezed my palm tightly, I was panting heavily and didn't slow down for a while.

Song Yiran asked sadly: "Did you dream about something?"

I hesitated for a long time and asked, "Where's the child?"

Song Yiran hesitated and said, "I'm sleeping."

I let out a sigh of relief and said, "I want to see them."

Song Yiran called me with tears, "Miss Shi."

I asked her patiently, "Why?"

"Two kids are sleeping in the morgue."

I got up abruptly and wanted to get out of bed, Song Yiran hurriedly ordered Jing Ye to stop me, and I screamed, "Let me go!"

Jing Ye was unmoved, I cursed: "Get out!"

Maybe it was because my aura was too fierce, Jing Ye let go of me, I hurriedly got up and ran outside to ask the nurse where the morgue was.

Under the guidance of the nurse, I went to the morgue.

Entering this cold space, my heart suddenly calmed down. I smiled and asked the nurse, "Are they still sleeping?"

"them……"

The nurse paused and pointed to me where they were.

I went over and saw two little people with pale faces. They were so small, only about three or four catties. I hugged them in my arms and coaxed them softly, "Hey, mom is here."

Be good, mom is here with you.

They didn't respond to me, not even crying.

I hugged them and sat on the ground with a smile and asked: "What name do you think should be chosen? I suddenly don't want you to take your father's surname. How about taking my surname? It seems that my mother is also from the Xi family."

Their bodies were cold, and I suddenly burst into tears: "Actually, you left your mother, right? Is it because I'm not good enough?"

No matter how much I deny it from the bottom of my heart, I can't go against the facts.

The truth is that I am separated from my two children.

I tightened my arms and cried until I couldn't make a sound. Song Yiran came in slowly and squatted beside me, comforting me with a gentle voice: "Miss Shi, don't be sad, they are asleep. Can you go back to the ward to rest first? Your wound It's all split open, blood is everywhere."

I ignored Song Yiran, and fell into my own sadness and couldn't extricate myself. I worked hard and carefully raised them for ten months, and even broke with Xi Zhan, but in the end I couldn't keep them.

I murmured: "What should I do in the future?"

How should we face our future life?

I have no hope of surviving.

Song Yiran said bitterly: "Miss Shi still has a long future, and the two children are by your side, everything will be fine."

I cried so hard that I hugged the child tightly with both arms and refused to let go. Finally, I passed out and were carried back to the ward by them.

It was three days after I woke up.

Jing Ye said that the two children had already been buried.

Jing Ye also said that Tan Wen was buried in Xi's ancestral grave.

I stared at him in a daze and asked, "Have I ever given birth to a child?"

Hearing this, he changed his words: "Never."

Yes, never.

I have never had a child.

I closed my eyes and said, "Go back to Tongcheng."

Jing Yi went down to make arrangements, and I got up and stood by the window looking at the scenery outside the window, the beautiful sunset was shining down from the sky.

The sunset is infinitely good, just near dusk.

Infinity is good, but it's almost dusk.

I smirked and said goodbye silently in my heart.

Goodbye my babies.

My mother is so sad that it hurts to death when she thinks of you, so she can only suppress herself and stop thinking about you.

Jing Ye is reliable in her work and can leave soon.

I quietly returned to Tongcheng without saying hello to Song Yiran.

I was afraid of seeing Jiu'er when I said hello.

When I see Jiu'er, I think of my two children.

And two children were born in August, Leo.

No name and no last name.

……

After returning to Tongcheng, I stayed in the apartment. Two months later, when the wound healed, I quickly found a tattoo artist to tattoo a purple lisianthus flower on the scar left by the caesarean section.

The petals bloom one after another, small and delicate, burying the traces that have been left behind.

I have been staying at home for the past two months when my child passed away. My parents, Yu Luoluo, Gu Lanzhi, etc., when they sent me messages asking about my child, I replied one by one that I couldn’t keep it.

I didn't keep it, but I still have my soul.

I sat by the floor-to-ceiling windows, smoking a cigarette, staring at the rain outside the window, in a daze, and soon received a call from Tan Yang.

I hesitated and never answered.

Then she texted me, "Drinking?"

She poured a glass and even invited me to drink.

and many more!

She even invited me to drink?

I replied, "Are you back home?"

"Well, Xi Zhan's power in Europe is stable and has returned to its previous state. Now we are starting to rectify the power in the country."

After eight months, he is back.

It seems to be faster than expected.

But so what?
Instead of replying to Tan Yang's message, I sent a text message to Yu Luoluo.

I remember she said a few days ago that she was on a business trip in Tongcheng.

Soon she replied to me, "Sister Shi Sheng, are you looking for me?"

I asked her blankly, "Are you drinking?"

My heart was so depressed that drinking could be considered excretion.

"Well, where am I coming to find you?"

(End of this chapter)