Give you a lifetime of love

Chapter 884 I Amazed You When We First Met
What's the one thing I don't regret the most?
What answer does Xi Zhan want?
I thought about it for a long time and couldn't figure it out. Seeing me silent for a long time, Xi Zhan said again: "I can ask freely, don't be too entangled."

"There is only one answer in my mind."

That was the answer in my heart, I don't know if this is what Xi Zhan wanted to hear, I explained: "The thing I don't regret the most is giving birth to Yun'er and Run'er for you with my own life, although not completely It's for you, and I also want to be a mother, but I think, if you can't let you be that father in this life, you must regret it, and I don't want you to regret it in this life."

Xi Zhan stopped the car suddenly.

I asked him, "Why did it stop?"

"Yun'er, do you want to hear what is the thing I regret the most?"

He asked me what I regret the least.

He then asked me what he regretted the most.

I subconsciously asked, "Is this it?"

"Sorry, I wasn't by your side. That time should be your hardest time, but I'm far away in Espoo."

This should be me saying sorry.

Because it wasn't Xi Zhan who was wrong.

It was I who ruined him and forced him to go to Europe.

And has been hunted down by the major forces.

He had to leave me.

So it was never his fault.

but me.

Thinking carefully about the years I have known Xi Zhan, this transparent man has never really done anything wrong, he is an extremely rational man, he knows the standard of right and wrong, if it is wrong, he will never do that, and He has calculated everything in the future, even what I will do, even what Zhao Jin and the others will do, he knows very clearly, and it is precisely because he is too clear that he will not make mistakes.

"It's always been my fault."

Xi Zhan is smart, he understands what I mean, he started the car again, and said in a gentle voice: "As long as it doesn't touch my principles and bottom line, no matter what you do, it's not wrong."

Xi Zhan's principles and bottom line...

That is, I do not betray him.

respect him.

love him.

That's it.

His request to me is very simple.

"You pamper me so much."

Xi Zhan smiled and said nothing, I hung my head and played with my mobile phone, chatting with him from time to time, and soon arrived at that street.

The weather outside was cold, so I shivered when I got out of the car. Fortunately, Xi Zhan stopped the car and didn't see it, otherwise he would have to talk about me again.

I stood in front of the car and waited. Xi Zhan quickly parked the car. When he got out of the car, I took his arm and walked into the crowd.

Shopping is indispensable for shopping, but I was afraid that Xi Zhan would take the burden and just bought some snacks. I was hungry before noon, so I took Xi Zhan to find a western restaurant.

As soon as I sat down, I saw a passerby buying cotton candy outside, so I asked Xi Zhan to wait here to leave the restaurant.

I went out and asked in English, "How much is it?"

He replied, "$8."

Off-site cotton candy is really expensive.

Although I don't need to buy many things at home, and I haven't often shopped on the street, I still know the domestic market price. Although I complained about the price in my heart, I actually didn't argue with him. After all, shopping is a matter of One is willing to fight and the other is willing to suffer. If I think it is expensive, I will not buy it.

I took the money out of my wallet and gave it to him.

He asked me, "What flavor do you want?"

"Pink this one."

He handed me an oversized pink one and said: "The little girl is beautiful, I'll give you a big one, it's sweet to eat."

I gratefully said: "Thank you."

I went back to the restaurant with the cotton candy, and saw a person unexpectedly sitting opposite Xi Zhan, and I seemed to have seen that woman before.

Indeed, I seem to have seen it.

But I can't remember it for a while.

I didn't go directly, but sat in the seat behind Xi Zhan, and I heard the woman's sad voice say to Xi Zhan: "Although you are married, after so many years..."

She paused and asked, "How have you been all these years?"

Xi Zhan responded lightly, "Yes."

"I still remember that when you were in school, you especially liked to sleep on your stomach. It was like this every day, as if you didn't get enough sleep, and you seemed to be very tired. What were you doing at that time?"

I remember her.

The woman I met at Xi Zhan's alma mater.

I forgot her name.

Xi Zhan said that she had a crush on herself.

It's just that Xi Zhan kept pretending not to know.

Xi Zhan said perfunctorily, "Forgot."

Hearing this, the woman was startled, her expression was a little sad, and she continued to say to Xi Zhan: "I have been thinking about a question for so many years. If I had been braver back then...you know what I mean, I am thinking about my share. Whether my mood will be responded to by that young man, I just hope to think this way, I was too cowardly back then, I liked it but I was afraid to approach it."

This woman looks ordinary, but has a good temperament.

She was Xi Zhan's female classmate when she was young.

Xi Zhan didn't speak after hearing this, but the woman's expression became silent, "Is there no hope at all?"

"Well, no."

Xi Zhan's answer was too cold and heartless, the woman's expression suddenly changed, and her complexion was extremely embarrassed, as if her secret love and hope that she had persisted for many years collapsed in an instant.

"Sorry to bother you again."

Xi Zhan was silent, and replied in a cool voice: "The one who should give you this answer is the young Xi Zhan, and you didn't express your feelings clearly back then. After many years, you shouldn't ask me that there is no answer. I am the adult Xi Zhan, and I have long since lost my youthful disposition, let alone now that I have a wife and children, how can I give you the answer?"

Xi Zhan's answer was perfect.

It means that if she wants the answer, she will go to ten years ago.

Instead of looking for the current Xi Zhan.

Such an answer actually gave her leeway.

She preserved the pure heart of her secret love.

"I understand, I'm sorry to trouble you again now."

The woman stood up, stopped when she passed me, looked at me, and finally said, "Your wife is probably the happiest woman in the world, and she is also... very beautiful."

Xi Zhan answered her in a shallow voice: "Well, she's so beautiful, I thought she was amazing when I first met."

Xi Zhan has never praised me like this in my face.

"Xi Zhan, congratulations on getting your wish."

After she finished speaking, she hung her head and left.

After she left, I patted Xi Zhan on the shoulder, and he turned his head to look at me, "When were you here?"

"Just now, I heard your chat."

Xi Zhan explained: "She is a simple person, and what she wants is simple people and things. I just said those words because I didn't want her to feel that my persistence for so many years was a joke."

"You don't have to explain, I understand."

Xi Zhan is kind.

It's just that his kindness is under his cruelty.

Few people can perceive it.

Xi Zhan bent his lips and seemed very happy.

I squinted my eyes and asked him, "Did I surprise you when we first met?"

(End of this chapter)