Colorful

Chapter 182 Love is in one place (3)
Hearing the sound of shifting outside, Ji Cheng reckoned that Shen Che should be in the top courtyard so late, so he took a deep breath, straightened his clothes in front of the mirror, walked to the door of the secret passage, and couldn't help but come back to talk to him again. Looking at the mirror, I brushed my hair on the sideburns, and then wondered if my lip color was too light, and I still need to put on some lip balm to look good under the light.

Ji Cheng uncovered the lip balm made of rose juice that she seldom used once, picked a little with a hairpin to the fingertips, and spread it evenly on her lips.

But after taking a look in the mirror, Ji Cheng disliked being too gorgeous, and put on a face instead, fearing that he would be ridiculed by Shen Che.Somewhat discouraged, Ji Cheng wiped off the lip balm he had just put on with a handkerchief, leaving only a little bit of red on his lips, so he gave up.

It's just that the color of his lips is satisfied, Ji Cheng saw the sunburn on the tip of his nose again, and felt a little annoyed, so he picked out a little bit of Yuqian'er's newly made hosta pollen and rubbed it on the tip of his nose, but it still covered it up. Can't help that sunburn.

Ji Cheng sat dejectedly in front of the makeup mirror, covering his face with his hands.

In fact, what's the point of worrying about a few sunburns?Now even if she is a celestial being, it is estimated that Shen Che would not look at her more.As long as Ji Cheng thought of Shen Che's face that was colder than ice, he couldn't help but retreat.

You can live in self-deception if you don't meet, but you will only be embarrassed if you go.

But I couldn't help chasing his shadow in my heart, even if I saw a piece of clothes, my eyeballs didn't want to move.When was Ji Cheng so timid?Even she herself didn't despise her behavior, but it was so difficult to lift that leg like a bag of iron sand was hanging on it.

Ji Cheng walked slowly to the door, and kept telling himself in his heart that she had to ask about Shen Zheng's matter clearly. She didn't know it herself, but Shen Che definitely knew it.Because when Shen Zheng saw how shocked she was, Shen Che's expression was very calm.

But what would he say to himself?

Would he accuse her of indiscretion as others did?How would she explain it to him?With the matter of Ling Ziyun before, Shen Che would definitely not believe her.

What if he didn't believe her?Bring shame on yourself?This is secondary.What if they tear up their faces and completely fall out?
Ji Cheng stopped in his tracks, unable to go any further.The more I think about it, the more I look forward and backward, for fear of saying too much and making mistakes.

Ji Cheng leaned his back against the wall, forcing himself not to think about what was there and what was not, anyway, stretching out his head was a stab, and retracting his head was also a stab.Wouldn't it be better to clarify some things in person?It also saves her from guessing.It doesn't matter whether she is divorced or divorced, the worst plan is to go to the family temple to clean up.

But thinking about it is so straightforward, but when it really needs to be done, it is so difficult.

Ji Cheng turned around and hurried back.If she really had the courage, she would not have chosen to exile herself when she was on the grassland.She knew that it was the wisest decision to find Shen Che at that time, explain it in front of him, and then let him decide whether to kill him or not, but she still escaped, far away, and would rather be so silent He died without a sound, and he didn't want to see him completely disappointed in her.

Ji Cheng couldn't get out of her own siege, she knew she shouldn't do this, but she just couldn't muster up the courage.Because she knew that if she were Shen Che, she would never truly forgive herself.

Comparing heart to heart, Ji Cheng was once in Shen Che's position.

Back then, when Yunniang said she would give her to Zhu Jijun in order to keep the Ji family and her brothers, wasn't what she did the same as today's Ji Cheng?

Although Ji Cheng is still filial to her mother and attached to her from the heart, and she also understands Yunniang's choice very well, but she is the one who was abandoned, which makes Ji Cheng unable to maintain the greatest rationality.She clearly knew that many things had changed since then, and she had resentment in her heart, so she greatly reduced her care and attention to her mother, which is why Xiang Shi took advantage of it.

And as for her brother Ziyun?When she needed help the most, although he tried his best to protect her, he finally succumbed to his mother's hunger strike.This is also the reason why Ji Cheng turned around without mercy and went to the capital to seek marriage, and it is also the reason why Ji Cheng finally succumbed to Shen Che's forced marriage.If there was no resentment in his heart, and the feelings were as pure as when he was young, Shen Che would never have any chance.

The kind of injury that was abandoned may heal, but the scars are permanent, and everything will never go back to the way it was before.

Ji Cheng thought so, wouldn't Shen Che think so?She even thought that as long as she confides everything to him and tells him that Ling Ziyun is no longer in her heart but only him, Shen Che might forgive her generously, but so what?He will always hold a grudge against her.

Ji Cheng, who has always been able to make do with everything, Ji Cheng who has no demands on the choice of husband, and Ji Cheng who can even do with Qi Zheng, has committed stubbornness in this matter. She would rather not have this kind of Shen Che. Understanding and forgiving, just hopelessly stupid.

And the most frustrating thing in the world is knowing that you are stupid, but you still can't help but continue to commit it.

Ji Cheng sat in front of her dowry again, she didn't look at herself in the mirror, she knew how much she hated that face and what that face did without looking at her.

But some things cannot be avoided, Ji Cheng guessed that even if the old lady didn't ask her tomorrow, her second aunt would have to ask her, and there are still rumors outside.

Of course, Ji Cheng can also go to Shen Zheng to ask for clarification, but if he is seen by others, it will be another problem.

And deep in Ji Cheng's heart, she thought she knew that she had to ask Shen Che why.Whether he knew the truth or not, she didn't want him to misunderstand this matter, after all, it was his brother.

Ji Cheng rushed to the secret passageway in the top courtyard in one breath, she was afraid that if she walked slowly, she would think too much and lose her courage.

Ji Cheng lightly knocked on the brass ring on the secret door, but no one answered.She listened attentively, but there was no movement. She opened the door and walked into the room covered with bush mats, but Shen Che did not come back.

Ji Cheng couldn't tell whether she was disappointed or relieved, she walked to the small table where she was reading the account book, where there were already several abridged books written by her, and this was the only thing she could do silently for Shen Che now.

In that stack of abridgements, a piece of Ji Cheng's hair was pressed under the top volume.Ji Cheng sat down next to the little table, the hair was still in place, that is to say, Shen Che had never looked at it.

Ji Cheng gently caressed the stack of booklets, tears appeared in her eyes, she raised her head and poured back the tears.What right does she have to cry?All of this is her own choice, and she knows the consequences she should bear.

Familiar footsteps sounded outside the courtyard, and a trace of panic flashed across Ji Cheng's face, he didn't know how to face Shen Che, for a moment Ji Cheng even wanted to rush into the secret passage.

However, although Shen Che's steps were light, he was not slow at all. He had already appeared by the door at this moment, and he had already seen Ji Cheng.

Ji Cheng stood up, bowed his head and stepped aside, Shen Che passed by her, smelling of alcohol, Ji Cheng's nose moved slightly.

"What's the matter?" Shen Che's tone was very light, it didn't look like he was talking to his wife, let alone a wife who had betrayed him, so light that Ji Cheng seemed like a stranger.

Ji Cheng's heart had sunk to the bottom of the sea, she had expected it a long time ago, what is more terrible than hatred is indifference, that is, not caring anymore.

Ji Cheng looked up at Shen Che, but couldn't find any emotional fluctuations on his face, she turned her eyes away and couldn't face Shen Che again, she cleared her throat and said, "Third brother, what is he doing tonight, why is he here?" look at me like that?"

Shen Che asked back: "You don't know?"

Ji Cheng shook his head.

"You don't even know how I know?" Shen Che said.

Ji Cheng looked at Shen Che again, and remained silent.

"Is there anything else?" Shen Che asked.

Ji Cheng shook his head.

"It's okay, I'm going to rest." Shen Che said.

There was already burning shame on Ji Cheng's face, she had expected that she would be humiliated, but she thought she would be ridiculed by Shen Che, but in the end he just chased her away with an attitude of chasing flies.

Ji Cheng moved his lips, wanting to say something more, but he didn't have the face to stay any longer.Anyway, everything was in vain, she was silent for a moment, and finally turned around and walked back through the door of the secret passage.

Then Ji Cheng clearly heard the "click" sound of the iron bolt latching the door on the other side of the door.

The blood in Ji Cheng's whole body rushed to his face at this moment, wishing he could just die like this.Shame was mixed with anger, and it was not clear who the anger was directed at, but most of it was directed at herself.

Knowing that this is the result, he can finally give up now.

The blood rushed to his face, so his heart felt extremely cold, and he couldn't even see clearly. Ji Cheng couldn't breathe well, and his heart felt cramped.She couldn't lift her legs, so she could only quickly lean against the wall, take a few quick breaths, and wait for her eyes to feel the light again.

At the peak of her shame and anger, Ji Cheng once raised her hands to push the door, wanted to scream at the door, but in the end her hands just lightly rested on the cold door, and then slowly Shrunk to the ground, leaning feebly against the door.

She didn't want to cry, but the tears couldn't be stopped.Ji Cheng knew that Shen Che's ears were sharp, so she bit her lip tightly without making a sound.

Ji Cheng needs to recover a little strength, and only when she regains strength can she continue to move forward.

In fact, Ji Cheng underestimated her own tenacity, she thought she would never be able to stand up again, but when no one loves anyone, when everything depends on herself in the future, she quickly stood up Get up and wipe the tears off your face.

tomorrow?She'll get over it tomorrow.

(End of this chapter)