The palace concubine is charming and chaotic: the country is still the same

Chapter 245

"It's been 20 years, and I can't even tell what I'm obsessed with in the end? Fame, fortune, love, those things don't seem to be important to me now. I have already made up my mind to live here forever. , but why did you come? You don't know, you came and ruined a dream of mine for so many years. I remember you once said to Sujin that you would rather live in a dream, but he wanted to destroy your dream with his own hands. Meng, now I can finally experience the feeling you mentioned." His tired smile showed his exhaustion even more.

"Why did I come and ruin your dream? I just want to see you again."

"Because you don't love me, you will come to see me so freely, speak high-sounding words, and spend the rest of your life to make up for what you owe me. I have been waiting for you for 20 years, but I can't get you Isn’t it ridiculous?” He paused for a moment, then continued: “Actually, even before I saw you, I still believed that you had some affection for me in your heart, but now my dream is finally Broken."

She opened her mouth, wanting to say something, but found that she had nothing to say now, Mu Piaoyu seemed to have said what was on her mind, these years even she herself didn't understand what her feelings for Mu Piaoyu were, maybe There is love, but more guilt.

At that moment, she seemed to recall the man who was running in the snow on horseback. He threw the tiger amulet into her palm, and he said: Half his life was only for you.

For her, he gave up the country that was at his fingertips, and endured it for 20 years. In the end, he didn't even have the chance to disarm and return to the field. Instead, he ended up being chased and killed by the emperor.

Mu Piaoyu sighed softly, stepped past her, and was about to leave.

Xia Lanyue couldn't help grabbing his arm, fearing that if he left, he would really leave.

"I really want to let go of everything and want to be with you. You have done so much for me, I beg you to give me another chance this time. We still have a long, long time in the future..." Her hand clenched Grabbing him tightly, the words are so true: "A lonely boat, a sunset, a river of warm water, and the world."

He felt the temperature of her fingertips, and the trembling hand, and he closed his eyes deeply.

The memory at that time recalled the first time we met under the bodhi tree that year, and my uncle promised to betroth her to him...

The country of Yan was broken, and his uncle died under his sword. The city was full of blood, and mourning was everywhere...

"I have paid off my uncle's kindness with these 20 years of waiting... Li Mei, you don't owe me, and you never owe me anything." He slowly opened his eyes, concealing the deep sadness in his eyes, and turned sideways to face her. Looking into her eyes: "This time, please give me the last respect."

His eyes are so clear, he has no desires, his voice is as calm as water, and he looks at her so deeply.

This time, it would be the last time he saw her in his life, so he wanted to engrave her last face in his heart.

"If you stick to one thought, you will be trapped in one thought; if you let go of one thought, you will be at ease in your heart. Don't come again from now on, and I won't see you either." After he finished speaking, he shook her hand away vigorously, clinging to the broom and never turning back. leave.

A gust of wind blew off the dead leaves on the maple tree, falling one by one.

Xia Lanyue's tears slipped down quietly, and she could no longer bear to look at his receding back. She turned around and looked at the green hills beyond the mountain. The peak was surrounded by light smoke, outlining an ethereal and hard-to-disguise outline. enchanting.

All of a sudden, she felt that the past 20 years were like a dream. Ever since Su Chen left, her heart had already gone with Su Chen, as if she had been living for God's blessing and the belief in her heart all these years.

It was she who ignored all that Mu Piaoyu had done for her over the years. In her eyes, she had always believed that Mu Piaoyu was a chess piece to preserve the country of Wei. She had to use a disguise to stabilize him, so that she could preserve her heart. That promise remains the same.

But she just ignored the true feelings in her heart. In the past 20 years, she has forgotten how to treat others sincerely. She is so selfish.

She wanted to keep the country still not only using Mu Piaoyu, but she never really cared about Tianyou. She just kept instilling in him that he wanted him to be a good emperor, and wanted him to fulfill Suchen's last wish, so that Tianyou became like this. Cold-blooded and ruthless, even for her biological mother.

She was so wrong, what did she do in the past 20 years, and she didn't realize everything until this moment.

But what if the country is still the same now, she has lost too much.

She looked at the devastated eyes, tears streaming down her face.

The wind on the top of the mountain was fast and fierce, blowing away her hair and messing up her clothes, but she didn't seem to notice it, but suddenly she seemed to be back to her youth.

Under the bodhi tree, she met Mu Piaoyu and Suchen for the first time, she smiled and said: "It's fate, we will see each other again."

The country was destroyed and the family was destroyed, and the snow was falling heavily. Su Jin stretched out her hand to her, and asked with a smile: "Will you go with me?"
Before his death, Su Chen said to her: In this world of long mountains and rivers, you have to go on by yourself after all.

Just now, Mu Piaoyu told her: If you cling to one thought, you will be trapped in one thought; if you let go of one thought, you will be at ease in your heart.

……

Thinking of all these past events, she suddenly laughed with tears in her eyes.

The country is still the same, the emperor's industry is picturesque, but Zhu Yan has changed.

Let go of one thought and feel at ease.

(End of this chapter)